Early afternoon, November 6th
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"You know, fucking finally."
"You spend the better part of the last three days blowing my phone to absolute Hell, and when I call you back----"
"Oh, fucking please. Don't even start. Don't you even start, Angel blood. You're turtling and you know it, and I know it, so if I wanted to ignore you for a little while while I got to fucking enjoy myself for once? Boo hoo."
Water running, the chug of pipes.
?What exactly is it that you want from me now??
?Now? Well hell, right now, I want to know how you are. You sound like you woke up on the wrong side of Raziel?s ass, like usual, so I figure you?re fine.?
?Do not lie to me.?
?That?s not a lie, Cris. I don?t bug you because I know how you are, and I know what you?re doing right now.?
?Then it stands to reason it?s become egregiously obvious that for you to call and text me as often as you have, I have something you need. What is it??
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?I talked to Shae about what?s going on. Leo, Glenn, Leena, you----all of it. I don?t----I mean, Glenn. When you talked to him, what?d he even tell you about all this??
?He prefaced the entire discussion with a ruse surrounding your safety.?
Snort.
?I didn?t exactly think it was amusing.?
?You wouldn?t. You care, Nephilim, be still my black little heart.?
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Chug of water ceases, drips.
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?He spoke of seraph blades and how they may be an asset to what it is we?re all to do.?
?Well, they?re really the only thing I could think of off the top of my head that?d cut a demon down and keep him down. Problem is, most of us don?t have the right blood to use them. That?s part of it. Shae fielded the suggestion that we might be able to create something like them so we?re not stuck just using only them. So maybe the rest of us can get inducted into your little angel club, too.?
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?You?ve still not answered my question. What is it that you need, Salome.?
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Exhale, ?Shae. Talk to Shae. It?s her idea, she?ll be able to fill you in on it better. We were thinking something like-----like another weapon that can store some of the energy you?ve got, maybe we can use it. I don?t know.?
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?She said you haven?t been returning any of her calls or texts either.?
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?Lemme guess. You haven?t been out at all. You just-----sit there, sit there at a window, or whatever. You?ve got a pile of cigarettes, you?ve got a bottle of something because fuck tea. Right??
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?Cris, you can?t do this???
Sigh, ?Then what is it, pray tell, that I am supposed to be doing? Fucking it out, as you are, pretending that all that?s transpired throughout the last year was merely some sort of fabrication, a farce, like it did not legitimately kill me in the process. Twice, Salome----?
?Oh, bullshit, you only died the once. Seems to be a pretty common deal here, too.?
Exhale.
?Look, I know what you mean. I get it----?
?You say that a lot. Do you even realize it? You headline everything, anything that will result in your two cent opinion by insisting that you understand what you?re talking about. As though you know, firsthand, what it is to perish. What it is to awaken to the reality that your soul has been ripped totally free of your body and confined------?
?That?s fucking bullshit too, Cris, and you know it. The way you are, how you feel right now? Doesn?t have shit to do with Hell, it doesn?t have shit to do with your souuuul or your confinement. No, this about her. This is about Bianca.?
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?You?re going to let her do it all over again, aren?t you? She?s the reason you got killed, she?s the reason you went to Hell, she?s the reason------- Hell, she-----heh, Cris, she fucking busted you when she died and do you know how fucking frustrating it was to just sit there and watch you just-----destroy everything? Destroy everybody because you thought you failed her? And what?d you learn here, she did it to her fucking self.?
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?Don?t let her do this, Cris, you can?t keep letting her have all this power over you. It?s fucking with you, it?s going to ruin everything you?ve been trying to build back up----?
?You deserve each other.?
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?Excuse me??
?The both of you, dispensing your advice like a vending machine, so eerily similar, though Glenn?s opinions of the situation were not as verbose as yours are, or tend to be. A blessing, by the Angel, as there seems to be no plug big enough to stuff into your mouth.?
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?Look, Cris, I don?t know what he said-----?
?I told you as much already, or did you merely choose to disregard the voicemail I left? The only way that he would have any basis for his assessment would be if you deemed it necessary to link hands with him and waltz down this memory lane discussing a plethora of subjects that are none of his fucking business.?
?You know, just in case it?s escaped your notice, Mr. High and Fucking Mighty, you were a gigantic part of my life. You still fucking are, and I care about you. I have always cared about you, and if that means that I talk about you, and I talk about our life together, and fuck, I just talk, you?re going to goddamned deal with it, because I?m older than you Cris. I got here first, and you don?t have that right.
?I don?t give a shit what he told you. And if it?s even in your head that you think I set any of that up, you?re a fucking idiot.?
?I think that you?re toeing a dangerous line. And I am certain that all of the fornication has done wonders for his disposition-----?
?Fuck, I wonder why??
?--------but that does not change the fact that this is the same man with whom I had a rather strange conversation regarding a woman that he was still emotionally invested in-----?
?Cris----?
?He asked what I would do, were I in his position. Back from the dead, to find that the life that I?d known, the woman I?d cared for, has all changed and moved on, respectively.?
?You know, for somebody that?s all about not wanting their business spread around, you?ve got a butter knife pretty deep in his shit.?
?You know as well as I that once you love someone, there is no evicting them from your mind. They resurface, even when you do not want them to, and especially when you are looking into the eyes of someone else.?
?YOU SONOVABITCH!!!?
Glass shatters, the bathroom door slams shut as if by a strong wind.
?How dare you. This has nothing to fucking do with me, this has nothing to fucking do with Glenn. This is you. This is all goddamned you. And you?re pissed that she hurt you, and you?re pissed that she broke your heart, and you?re pissed that you died. You?re pissed she helped, you?re pissed that she?d do it again, you?re pissed. You?re pissed and you?re being a motherfucking wuss, and you?re fucking lashing out because that?s all you fucking know how to do. You can?t justify killing us, you can?t justify killing yourself, so you?ll just set fire to fucking everything and watch it all burn up, and that won?t fucking fix anything, goddamnit, that?ll just make it worse.
?But how dare you talk about him like he?s just fucking using me, and how dare you talk about me like I?m some goddamned idiot that?ll just fucking let that happen. News flash, Angel blood, Glenn isn?t you, he?s better than you, and that pisses you off too because maybe you got fucking used to the fact that the way I felt about you wouldn?t let me really cut you out of my life, but I did it once, Cris, and I?ll gladly do it again.
?And I don?t fucking get how you?re so flippant about this? Like, fuck, don?t give a shit about me, I don?t care. I can take care of myself, but don?t you love Leena? Doesn?t the idea of putting down the fucker that?s been on her ass this whole time sound like a good idea, and yet here you are, sticking your thumb into what you think is a wound I still carry. I gave up on you loving me a long time ago, Cris, and fine, just about every other guy I?ve been with wanted somebody else too, or they wanted somebody else more, but that?s on you, that?s your guilt over all of it, that isn?t Glenn.
?Oh, and by the way. It?s real fucking nice that you?re dragging up Madison?s shit and using it to fill your verbal machine gun. Great friendship tactics there.
?You?re a fucking asshole.?
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