There were times that Robert had to go out and get things for the museum. Today it was cleaning supplies. He'd meant to get it the previous evening after picking up groceries and bumping into Helena. It didn't bother him, though. He enjoyed the occasional excuse to leave the museum because he was so often there. Living where you worked tended to do that. That was how he ended up at the grocery store in the aisle with cleaning supplies, reading their ingredients list and considering their merits versus their cost.
Robert looked slightly different these days. It had to do with the heat persuading him not to wear the tweed coat and the advantages he had found in slicking his hair back so that it seemed less like an unkempt curtain for his face.
Jo had ran to the grocery store on an errand to pick up some tortillas, salsa and cheese for the quesadillas that he had developed a taste for. Mexican food wasn't something that he and Graham had very often and Jo wondered if Graham had ever had a quesadilla. And as he wandered through the store, he lost track of time and his surroundings, daydreaming about licking salsa and melted cheese off of Graham's chin and chest, he came back to reality as he bumped into another shopper.
"Oh, sorry, sorry," he laughed at himself as he reached out to steady the man he'd ran into. "I should have watched where I was..." his hand fell away as reality slapped him in the face. The hair was different and that grubby tweed jacket was gone. But those eyes and that face was one he'd never forget. One he'd never understand. They had a working agreement, that is until the arrangement was torn asunder by zombie canines and a busted up Volvo.
"It's all right," he responded and it was at the second sentence that they had a simultaneous realization followed by what he felt was an immeasurable awkwardness. Robert's eyes held Jo's, but it was unclear if his gaze was fogged by shame or unease. Instead, he cleared his throat and nodded, "It's good to see you." And then, lacking anything else to say he continued to what was the guts of the issue, "I'm sorry for how things happened between us." Not that they had, just how they had.
Jo considered simply walking away from the awkwardness, from the inevitable small talk and half hearted smiles. He couldn't maintain the eye contact, he didn't want to. Just being in the vicinity of the man that had been the orchestrator of the worst night of his life, that had brought pain and terror into the hearts of the people that he loved. Just don't say anything. Walk away. He's not going to say... fuck! He's talking. I bet it's good to see me. I bet that you'll have a job for me if I ever need to sell any more artifacts.
Jo shook his head, it was unbelievable that the man actually looked like he was going to say something else. An apology? Jo's eyes narrowed, trying to discern the sincerity of that apology. What the fuck am I supposed to say to that? Yeah, it's cool. Terrorize me and my fiance, anytime! Scare Bessie into an early grave! It's all good!
"Yeah, me too," he decided that the least amount said would be best. It was in his face and eyes that he wanted to say so much more. His pursed lips, hand to his hip and the grip he had on the jar of salsa was almost enough to burst it.
"I've learned a lot since being in Rhy'Din." The bleach cleaner shifted into the bag that he was carrying, eye contact broken on his end of the conversation. It was a short reprieve, though, followed shortly after with his gaze resuming where it had been. It was not yet an apology, but his voice was starting to walk down that path, "On Earth, it's different. Demons don't get help from anyone, not readily."
There is a stillness, a quiet, that follows. The only thing that kept it from being a dead silence was the buzzing sound that came from the overhead lighting. Robert cleared his throat and continued, "I know now that I could have asked. That I should have."
The words didn't sound warm, but had a matter-of-fact hit in them, "I'm sorry. For how it happened."
The muscles in Jo's jaw rippled slowly as he grit his teeth and bit his tongue. He could feel his blood pressure rising the more he stood there, but his feet were rooted to the ground beneath him. It wasn't a spell that anyone had placed upon him, there were just so many things that were unsaid, that needed to be said. But he held it back, kept it tightly behind his lips that were pressed into a thin, white line.
He watched as Robert rose through his apology, explaining the reason why things had happened, how he was sorry for what had happened, how it happened. It was then that Jo turned those angry blue eyes upon Robert. Things were much different in Rhy'din, it was true. And coming from a place where things like demons and witches were considered horrible, terrible people who had been maimed, murdered and enslaved for just being who they were? It gave Jo pause. On almost the same level as the demons and witches had been mistreated, so had his own people. Homosexuals had been treasured in one society and treated as sub-humans in most.
"It's a hard place to get to know, harder to trust anyone," he said quietly. The grip on the salsa loosened and he had to transfer it to his other hand when the one holding it began cramping. "I've learned a lot since I've been in Rhy'din, too."
And then there was the Graham angle. Robert had found, and dispatched, Michael's killer. Jo considered this last and slowly nodded his head. "I think you should come over for dinner."
It was true, though. On Earth the Nephilim and Demons were in a bloody war. In Rhy'Din he could have a drink at the bar no but five feet away from one of them. He didn't know if Jo would understand that, but there was a catch in the air which then showed give. He did. Somewhere in all of it, there was understanding. He had not ached for Jo to forgive him, not like he had wanted Cris to. Jo and Graham were collateral damage, an accident. There was so much more intent and bile that had been focused on Cris.
In Rhy'Din it seemed almost anything was possible.
Robert looked slightly different these days. It had to do with the heat persuading him not to wear the tweed coat and the advantages he had found in slicking his hair back so that it seemed less like an unkempt curtain for his face.
Jo had ran to the grocery store on an errand to pick up some tortillas, salsa and cheese for the quesadillas that he had developed a taste for. Mexican food wasn't something that he and Graham had very often and Jo wondered if Graham had ever had a quesadilla. And as he wandered through the store, he lost track of time and his surroundings, daydreaming about licking salsa and melted cheese off of Graham's chin and chest, he came back to reality as he bumped into another shopper.
"Oh, sorry, sorry," he laughed at himself as he reached out to steady the man he'd ran into. "I should have watched where I was..." his hand fell away as reality slapped him in the face. The hair was different and that grubby tweed jacket was gone. But those eyes and that face was one he'd never forget. One he'd never understand. They had a working agreement, that is until the arrangement was torn asunder by zombie canines and a busted up Volvo.
"It's all right," he responded and it was at the second sentence that they had a simultaneous realization followed by what he felt was an immeasurable awkwardness. Robert's eyes held Jo's, but it was unclear if his gaze was fogged by shame or unease. Instead, he cleared his throat and nodded, "It's good to see you." And then, lacking anything else to say he continued to what was the guts of the issue, "I'm sorry for how things happened between us." Not that they had, just how they had.
Jo considered simply walking away from the awkwardness, from the inevitable small talk and half hearted smiles. He couldn't maintain the eye contact, he didn't want to. Just being in the vicinity of the man that had been the orchestrator of the worst night of his life, that had brought pain and terror into the hearts of the people that he loved. Just don't say anything. Walk away. He's not going to say... fuck! He's talking. I bet it's good to see me. I bet that you'll have a job for me if I ever need to sell any more artifacts.
Jo shook his head, it was unbelievable that the man actually looked like he was going to say something else. An apology? Jo's eyes narrowed, trying to discern the sincerity of that apology. What the fuck am I supposed to say to that? Yeah, it's cool. Terrorize me and my fiance, anytime! Scare Bessie into an early grave! It's all good!
"Yeah, me too," he decided that the least amount said would be best. It was in his face and eyes that he wanted to say so much more. His pursed lips, hand to his hip and the grip he had on the jar of salsa was almost enough to burst it.
"I've learned a lot since being in Rhy'Din." The bleach cleaner shifted into the bag that he was carrying, eye contact broken on his end of the conversation. It was a short reprieve, though, followed shortly after with his gaze resuming where it had been. It was not yet an apology, but his voice was starting to walk down that path, "On Earth, it's different. Demons don't get help from anyone, not readily."
There is a stillness, a quiet, that follows. The only thing that kept it from being a dead silence was the buzzing sound that came from the overhead lighting. Robert cleared his throat and continued, "I know now that I could have asked. That I should have."
The words didn't sound warm, but had a matter-of-fact hit in them, "I'm sorry. For how it happened."
The muscles in Jo's jaw rippled slowly as he grit his teeth and bit his tongue. He could feel his blood pressure rising the more he stood there, but his feet were rooted to the ground beneath him. It wasn't a spell that anyone had placed upon him, there were just so many things that were unsaid, that needed to be said. But he held it back, kept it tightly behind his lips that were pressed into a thin, white line.
He watched as Robert rose through his apology, explaining the reason why things had happened, how he was sorry for what had happened, how it happened. It was then that Jo turned those angry blue eyes upon Robert. Things were much different in Rhy'din, it was true. And coming from a place where things like demons and witches were considered horrible, terrible people who had been maimed, murdered and enslaved for just being who they were? It gave Jo pause. On almost the same level as the demons and witches had been mistreated, so had his own people. Homosexuals had been treasured in one society and treated as sub-humans in most.
"It's a hard place to get to know, harder to trust anyone," he said quietly. The grip on the salsa loosened and he had to transfer it to his other hand when the one holding it began cramping. "I've learned a lot since I've been in Rhy'din, too."
And then there was the Graham angle. Robert had found, and dispatched, Michael's killer. Jo considered this last and slowly nodded his head. "I think you should come over for dinner."
It was true, though. On Earth the Nephilim and Demons were in a bloody war. In Rhy'Din he could have a drink at the bar no but five feet away from one of them. He didn't know if Jo would understand that, but there was a catch in the air which then showed give. He did. Somewhere in all of it, there was understanding. He had not ached for Jo to forgive him, not like he had wanted Cris to. Jo and Graham were collateral damage, an accident. There was so much more intent and bile that had been focused on Cris.
In Rhy'Din it seemed almost anything was possible.