Rayvinn,
No, that?s not right. In truth I don?t know what to call you. Were you ?jira I would call you my darling, but you?re not so I can?t. Had you graced me with your titles then I would certainly begin with that. It would feel strange to do so though, my heart is close to yours and titles no matter how fitting or proper just wouldn?t do justice to that closeness. I will call you Raye, as so many others do. It is the name I learned first, before all that Olivia stuff. I almost miss those times because it would mean that you hadn?t needed us?needed me and I wasn?t there.
Raye, you asked me to write you, everyday, I will do my best to comply. You said it could be about whatever was in my head, no matter how strange. In truth I don?t know what is strange from what is not some days. Where shall I start then? Let?s start with the outback?what the hell was that? I should never have been able to get that close to you, but I did. If I could have I would have hidden you away inside me, and stood before any who would strike at you. This is not who you are though. To do that would perhaps be a sin on my part. I was prepared to accept any reactions from you?any except the one that you gave. This just shows how little I know. Why does my heart ache when your eyes fill? You don?t need to answer that, it isn?t important.
You had me promise sobriety, a week only but I can?t seem to stop the craving. I say it is meant to cull the dreams, but if that is the case why is it that I am so often under its spell. Do I have a problem? I see the way friends look at me?I hate the pity as much as anything else! Dammit Raye, why did you ask me for this? Why did I agree? I can?t be who I used to be knowing that just below the surface lingers someone that I would have despised a few short weeks ago. Maybe you?re right and I shouldn?t have done that to him. Someone had to?in my heart I know that I was the only one who could have at the time. I should be least in your thoughts, I am happy to take that role or any so long as you think on me eventually. You know what I have done and yet hold me no grudge. I love you Raye, you will never have to defend an action with me. I will stand with you always no matter the odds?The rain has started I should put this away now.
Kruger
The letter was left in Andrea?s mail slot; it was one place he knew she would be eventually. There was evidence of the rain he spoke of. A dried droplet or three smudged the ink in the final paragraph. Strange how the only rain reported was over him as he wrote.
No, that?s not right. In truth I don?t know what to call you. Were you ?jira I would call you my darling, but you?re not so I can?t. Had you graced me with your titles then I would certainly begin with that. It would feel strange to do so though, my heart is close to yours and titles no matter how fitting or proper just wouldn?t do justice to that closeness. I will call you Raye, as so many others do. It is the name I learned first, before all that Olivia stuff. I almost miss those times because it would mean that you hadn?t needed us?needed me and I wasn?t there.
Raye, you asked me to write you, everyday, I will do my best to comply. You said it could be about whatever was in my head, no matter how strange. In truth I don?t know what is strange from what is not some days. Where shall I start then? Let?s start with the outback?what the hell was that? I should never have been able to get that close to you, but I did. If I could have I would have hidden you away inside me, and stood before any who would strike at you. This is not who you are though. To do that would perhaps be a sin on my part. I was prepared to accept any reactions from you?any except the one that you gave. This just shows how little I know. Why does my heart ache when your eyes fill? You don?t need to answer that, it isn?t important.
You had me promise sobriety, a week only but I can?t seem to stop the craving. I say it is meant to cull the dreams, but if that is the case why is it that I am so often under its spell. Do I have a problem? I see the way friends look at me?I hate the pity as much as anything else! Dammit Raye, why did you ask me for this? Why did I agree? I can?t be who I used to be knowing that just below the surface lingers someone that I would have despised a few short weeks ago. Maybe you?re right and I shouldn?t have done that to him. Someone had to?in my heart I know that I was the only one who could have at the time. I should be least in your thoughts, I am happy to take that role or any so long as you think on me eventually. You know what I have done and yet hold me no grudge. I love you Raye, you will never have to defend an action with me. I will stand with you always no matter the odds?The rain has started I should put this away now.
Kruger
The letter was left in Andrea?s mail slot; it was one place he knew she would be eventually. There was evidence of the rain he spoke of. A dried droplet or three smudged the ink in the final paragraph. Strange how the only rain reported was over him as he wrote.