Topic: Memories of a vampire

Rhaine

Date: 2006-05-10 12:18 EST
Rhaine finished the spar, deflecting a blow of wickedly curved saber. SaelBain, a bronze-colored baatezu, grinned, and stepped back.
"Well done, my little Bishop."
"At least dueling helps me to set my thoughts in order, Sael. This mission in G'fenvass would have caused some grey hairs if it could"

The devil laughed and ruffled Rhaine's hair. "I would advise to put down your memories, Rhaine. At least will get your mind in order"

The next evening vampiress forced herself to sit down to work.

"My name is Rhaine DaVerrie Rustovich..."

Rhaine

Date: 2006-05-10 14:03 EST
"... I was born as a human, however turned out to be one of "mutants" of human race. Mutants could use entire potential of human mind and body, were magically gifted - but we had to serve our race as army. Much fuss over this started in the Age of Blood, when humans of Awyrran, my homeworld, had to push back the Sidhe and their allies. The mutants were called heroes, the mutant city of Ythvern was founded, and in general they have become an important part of human society. However with time the mediocrities decided that we were too much for them to handle.

My father tried to ignore the fact of mutation. Just the way he hated mom's small gift of magic, he hated me, calling me a "rotten blood offspring" - a usual hatred of mediocrity. I escaped from home when I turned 15. Finding my way to Ythvern, city of "mutants", I joined my true kin.

There I found how foolish I was to believe that the legends were still true. The eternal fight for more resurrections, struggle for power and authority - this has become most important for those I could have considered my idols. We were naught but pawns for another race of Awyrran, race that provided us with resurrection - the Phaeglithe. Endless conflicts of my kin with normals also could result in nothing good...

My teacher of swordplay was Sierth Shadowlord, one of the Legends of my people. He was the one who recommended eventually to continue along the path of magic, and directed me to his old friend, death mage Lehroulinn. He was the one who told me about Renegades and their alternative path.. "

Rhaine

Date: 2006-05-10 14:34 EST
"... Those who had courage, intellect and hunger for freedom, have become Renegades, declining the service of manipulative Phaeglithe and potential resurrection. Instead of this, they prefered transforming themselves, altering their metabolism to increase chances of survival. My shalafi (I use the elven word, as it's the one closest to describing the relationship that developed over the years) and Sierth were among the first designers. There were three transformations developed initially - Vampire (author- Lehroulinn), Shade (author-Sierth), Lich (team of authors). These were called "Llyrthian transformations" - after deity of Death, Llyrth. I know the sweetness of being Kissed by vampire. I know the chilling touch of a Shade. I have experienced this, and will never regret it.

Later on, in the Far Citadel, our stronghold, gathered a talented team of researchers and mages, and I started learning magic of Life and participating in design of transforms that were later on called "Aiarrean" (after Aiare, our goddess of Life). For a while I went off seeking ingredients for enchanting twin blades that have become my weapons. Little did I know that I would meet Aldar on one of my trips.

He was one of Ythvern warriors, belonging to treasure hunter guild. Treasure hunters were respected for their collection of artifacts, but despised by outwardly religious and idealistic Knights of Myrdd (Knights of Light). Aldar and I were trying to hunt down a rare monstrocity, both for extremely pragmatic reasons. Since that hunt we never parted for long. He was a life mage, and he joined the research team later on. He was the first one to become QuasiDragon - one of Aiarrean transforms.

Meanwhile the relations between Ythvern and Far Citadels have escalated to a civil war. We needed more and more weapons, and most powerful artifacts to win it. And where would one get these? In the Treasure Hunter guildhall, of course.

The last Aiarrean transform was called Chameleon, and it was extremely dynamic. It was my arrogance that pushed me to test it on myself. The same day as we planned to test the transform, Aldar and his group went on a raid. The fight against Treasure Hunters was first major battle of Civil war, and the one that killed Aldar.

Now as I think of those days, it's a blurred mix of pain and grief. The transformation almost killed me, leaving me crippled and distorted. Aldar was gone. My Renegade friends showered me with pity, which could only hurt more. I found refuge in work, in perfecting Chameleon. Nothing else could distract me. The only one who did not pity me was shalafi... "

Rhaine

Date: 2006-05-10 15:46 EST
".. The civil war was the last drop. Lehroulinn and Sierth managed to open a random portal. Those who had nothing to hold them in Awyrran, left, seeking ... Who knows what we sought. Adventure? Distraction? Destruction? Awyrran was left behind, with its wars, mediocrities, hatred and pain. The only luxury I allowed myself before leaving, was finding my father.

When I was still in the Far Citadel, I have heard about series of public executions of magic users, and learned that my father was among those fanatics that burned alive those who had the gift, my mother among them. When the cleansing flame devoured him alive, together with old family manor, I felt refreshed. Vengeance is never completely cold... it's often the only thing that keeps you alive and thus does have certain energy in it. It has revived me. Hatred was the best fuel I could find.

Some people would say that hating your family is almost a crime. But hell, why? What is wrong with hating the man that calls you "rotten blood offspring"? Who has always burned your books when he found them? Who has tortured your mother and pushed her into the fire? Why has the mere fact that he had to take part in conceiving you, stop your hand? I hated him. And I had the power to make him pay for everything he has done to me and to my mother...."

Rhaine

Date: 2006-05-10 16:54 EST
"... When I arrived in Clandestine, I was alone. Random portals are too random, those I knew were scattered over entire universe. Even my shalafi...

Fight for survival was the best distraction from brooding grim thoughts. The pain of losing Aldar lessened with time, and I was starting to seek a new goal in life. Clandestine, a nexus world, torn apart by endless bickering among thirteen religious clans, was plain fun. I had no attachments, I was FREE. And free to choose the side to stick to. Free from my past hatred. Free from the war.

Yet not free from myself. The absolute freedom was also absolute emptiness. I had nothing to live for. Due to my distorted transform, I was incarnated into a felpur - a large sentient humanoid feline. The bodies of these felines were perfect. I admired the evolution that created them. But when I tried to seek companionship among other felpurs, they turned out to be hardly tolerable - careless beings living for today. I tried to find at least one living being that wasn't repulsive for idealistic renegade I was... But only disappointment followed my footsteps.

I chose to try to join a religious clan. Lacking faith, I tried to find at least a reason to live! But those "good" were as repulsive as the Order of Myrdd. I tried to understand their reasoning and their views, but it was hopeless. Hypocrisy upon hypocrisy, lies upon lies... I was sick and tired. The evil clans were just as disgusting - in their own way. I had no faith to follow blindly. I had high standards. I couldn't make my own principles stop clawing on my mind.

Lost in disappointment, I left to kill at least a few hours in the Edge City Public library. Idly turning the pages, I smelled ... dust. Someone opened the old books storage! I poked my nose in. There was no one there, even the Vori librarian left. I stepped in.

A book that drew my attention was called "Races of Clandestine: the genesis". Curiosity of a life mage is something only another life mage can imagine. I took the book, found a place to drop, and opened it.

Felpurs were the race created by Asmodeus. God of religion I thought extinct, as no warriors of Asmodeus took part in madness of bloodthirsty manhunts.

This was something to investigate..."

Rhaine

Date: 2006-05-12 16:32 EST
She looked up, sensing a presence behind her back. Saelbain was reading from behind her shoulder. This was slightly annoying, but there was little she could do in this case...

"Curious. I never got to see this part of your life, " the Baatesu grinned. "You have never mentioned it"

"Normally I do not waste time on sentimental junk, Sael. And besides... past is dead."

The baatezu dropped into a deep soft armchair. Chitinous exoskeleton reflected soft light of fireplace. "So, what happened when you were enshrined? I heard you were one of the best in Knight sect, especially when you and Vitus were teamed up."

"Oh... yea. Vit and I were quite formidable a team, until we mixed blood and pissed off Arioch..."