Ishmerai prepared himself for one of the more difficult conversations he would have with his much beloved lady. The knight sat across from her, eating a late breakfast after a grueling morning workout. He watched her shovel some colored concoction into her mouth, which she insisted was a breakfast food called Leprechaun Trinkets, that stung his nose when he smelled it, burned his tongue with the first taste. Jewell?s motions were automatic, spoon to mouth and back, while she stared at nothing. Clearing his throat to catch her attention, he passed a small white card across the table to her.
?Hm?? She focused her eyes first on him and then on the card. ?What?s this?? she asked, picking it up and twirling it with her left hand. ?You got business cards made for yourself?? she teased him and laughed, ?Finally time to find a better paying job maybe??
He gave her a wry smile. ?It is not for me. It is for you.?
?You had business cards made for me?? Confused, she turned the card to look at it as Ishmerai?s answer of ?no? filtered through her brain. ?Who?s Dr. Bronner?? She looked up to find his eyes, finding him watching her steadily.
?She is someone I think you need to see.?
?Uhuh.? She set the card down and worked on finishing her cereal, speaking rudely between mouthfuls. ?What kind of doctor is she??
?She deals with what they call mental health.?
The spoon froze halfway to her mouth, dripping milk on the table, before Jewell slowly set it back in her bowl. ?Explain.? Her voice was cool, almost cold. Suddenly, a high-ranked lady of Faerie was sitting across from him, not a darling of RhyDin.
Ishmerai was not put off by her demeanor. Lady Jewell Ta-Neer, even in the fiercest of moods, was an angel compared to the first lady Ishmerai had served. ?You are not well, Mira. You put on a good show of it for your friends and acquaintances, but even you are not good enough to fool everyone.? She scowled a touch at this overly-honest appraisal of her abilities. ?Even with your training and assisting Isuelt to keep you occupied, even with the duels to keep you busy and focused, you are not happy.?
?What do you expect, Ishmerai?? Going on the defense, her tone became sharp. ?My children are locked away, my magic is locked away...?
He interrupted her before a rant (or a complete meltdown) could develop, ?I expect you to continue on. Adapt. Live. Your children have been missing from your life for a very long time now. You functioned well enough back home despite that. And as for your magic,? he softened his tone, ?Mira, it has been well over a year. You must let go of it for now.? Jewell huffed. ?I cannot continue to watch you go through the motions of living as you are. You came to RhyDin in search of something, and even though we are here, you continue to look. Let this woman help you.?
She stared at him stubbornly before taking the card in her hand again, spinning it around a little. Her whole being resisted the notion of anyone trying to help her, but she couldn?t push Ishmerai away. She wouldn?t. He may not have said it or even come close to implying it, but Jewell knew she was pushing the patience and limits of her knight. At some point, he would give up on her because she had long ago given up on herself, and then what would she do? There was no way she could function on her own. She would certainly drown in her self-destructive spiral without him. ?I will give it a try,? she conceded.
?That is all I am asking of you.?
Jewell eyed him seriously, speaking quietly, ?You ask a lot of me, Merai.?
?Only because I believe you will not let me down.?
?Hm?? She focused her eyes first on him and then on the card. ?What?s this?? she asked, picking it up and twirling it with her left hand. ?You got business cards made for yourself?? she teased him and laughed, ?Finally time to find a better paying job maybe??
He gave her a wry smile. ?It is not for me. It is for you.?
?You had business cards made for me?? Confused, she turned the card to look at it as Ishmerai?s answer of ?no? filtered through her brain. ?Who?s Dr. Bronner?? She looked up to find his eyes, finding him watching her steadily.
?She is someone I think you need to see.?
?Uhuh.? She set the card down and worked on finishing her cereal, speaking rudely between mouthfuls. ?What kind of doctor is she??
?She deals with what they call mental health.?
The spoon froze halfway to her mouth, dripping milk on the table, before Jewell slowly set it back in her bowl. ?Explain.? Her voice was cool, almost cold. Suddenly, a high-ranked lady of Faerie was sitting across from him, not a darling of RhyDin.
Ishmerai was not put off by her demeanor. Lady Jewell Ta-Neer, even in the fiercest of moods, was an angel compared to the first lady Ishmerai had served. ?You are not well, Mira. You put on a good show of it for your friends and acquaintances, but even you are not good enough to fool everyone.? She scowled a touch at this overly-honest appraisal of her abilities. ?Even with your training and assisting Isuelt to keep you occupied, even with the duels to keep you busy and focused, you are not happy.?
?What do you expect, Ishmerai?? Going on the defense, her tone became sharp. ?My children are locked away, my magic is locked away...?
He interrupted her before a rant (or a complete meltdown) could develop, ?I expect you to continue on. Adapt. Live. Your children have been missing from your life for a very long time now. You functioned well enough back home despite that. And as for your magic,? he softened his tone, ?Mira, it has been well over a year. You must let go of it for now.? Jewell huffed. ?I cannot continue to watch you go through the motions of living as you are. You came to RhyDin in search of something, and even though we are here, you continue to look. Let this woman help you.?
She stared at him stubbornly before taking the card in her hand again, spinning it around a little. Her whole being resisted the notion of anyone trying to help her, but she couldn?t push Ishmerai away. She wouldn?t. He may not have said it or even come close to implying it, but Jewell knew she was pushing the patience and limits of her knight. At some point, he would give up on her because she had long ago given up on herself, and then what would she do? There was no way she could function on her own. She would certainly drown in her self-destructive spiral without him. ?I will give it a try,? she conceded.
?That is all I am asking of you.?
Jewell eyed him seriously, speaking quietly, ?You ask a lot of me, Merai.?
?Only because I believe you will not let me down.?