Save me -
I'm trapped in a vile world,
Where the endings are the same as every other
We're only here to die
Save me -
I'm losing my only dream,
I can use some guiding light, some place to go
If you hear me let me know
--Avenged Sevenfold; Save Me
This summer night, she dreamed. Lately, all of her dreams had been similar: A guarded walk down a cool stone corridor. Doors opening on their own before her. Arms ushering her into a large chamber where voices whispered all around. Ropes tied tightly around her wrists. A hand on her head, hot and then icy. A deep pain in her chest. Then screaming. It never seemed to stop.
This night was different. Before the executioner could lay his hands upon her, she found that the ropes that bound her were loose, and with a burst of strength, she pulled herself free. Out of the darkness that surrounded her, hands grabbed at her, but she was too quick. As slippery as ice, she escaped their grasp and ran. She ran from the icy hand and the screams it would tear from her throat. She ran through the stone doors, down the cold corridor, before coming to another door. She did not know where this one lead, but she flung it open on her own and was quickly blinded by a profusion of sunlight. She moved forward blindly, desperate to escape. As her vision adjusted, she found herself outside in a field of wildflowers, like the ones that grew on the east bank of the river.
The door disappeared behind her so she stopped running, feeling a calm come over her; it was a foreign feeling. The urgency of just moments ago?the fear and the adrenaline it pushed through her system?was replaced by a deep-felt peace. Red. Purple. Blue. Yellow. She waded through the flowers, reaching out and touching some, recalling the names she knew them by: baby blue eyes, celandine, phlox, corn flower, foxglove, switchwort, poppy, rose angel, snapdragon. They were beautiful and their scent filled the air, intoxicating her. She wandered slowly, enjoying the relief Mother Nature had provided. When she reached the other side of the field, she found a dense, dark wood blocking her path.
A little girl waited for her there on the edge of the flowers. Her heart swelled at the very sight of the girl, her girl. Amanda. She was young, perhaps seven, with bouncing blue-black curls and a smile that warmed the chill that had previously seeped into her very core.
As soon as she got close to Amanda, the child turned and fled down a forest pathway, her laughter floating behind her. ?You can?t catch me!? her daughter shouted joyously.
?Oh yes I can!? She replied, laughing as she took off after the girl. She was close behind her for just a few moments, but Amanda quickly dashed out of sight. She did not feel any concern though as her child?s laughter and taunts continually floated back to her.
As they moved deeper and deeper into the woods, she found she could not catch up to the little girl somehow. Slowly, the childish laughter sounded further and further ahead. ?Amanda, wait up for me,? she called.
She moved faster, eventually running, but her child had disappeared. Sweat formed along her brow as she pushed herself forward; she couldn?t leave her little girl alone in this dense forest. She had to reach her before someone else did. She would not lose her again, but even with her exertion and urgency, Amanda remained out of sight Quite abruptly, the forest path ended in a clearing. A large house stood in the middle, cut out of a circle in the trees. If she hadn?t been breathless from her run, the sight of the house certainly would have taken it away.
It was the original Ravenlock Villa.
There were things she didn?t allow herself to think about when awake, things there was no good in dwelling upon. They were lost to the past, and it just hurt too much: her parents, her brother?s betrayal, the events that drove her to RhyDin, her last night in RhyDin when everything had turned to ashes around her, parting with Stephen. This house was one such thing.
?Amanda?? she called out, moving slowly towards the house as she saw the front door was ajar. Why did Amanda bring her here, and where had she gone? She pushed open the door, poking just her head inside. ?Amanda? Hello?? she was loathe to enter; who knew what ghosts she might encounter. But she could hear a hum of voices from somewhere within, and she just had to find Amanda. She couldn?t lose her again. Besides, this had been her house once upon a time too, she reasoned. She stepped inside, moving first into the living room. It was empty, except for the statue of David and a stray wombat, but the voices were louder now. They distracted her so much; she couldn?t concentrate.
She couldn?t remember why she was there, who she had been searching for. The voices filled her head. She stood in the middle of that empty living room, listening to them. If she listened closely, she could hear them more distinctly. Brian and Alex shouting at each other playfully. Katt trying to quiet them down. Cher?s laughter egging them on. Her family! They were here. She must have been looking for them; a sudden need to be amongst them once more, to see them, rose within her.
?Hello? Where are you?? She called, moving around the first floor, now seeking these voices from the past. Kitchen, library, dining room. ?Where are you?? She quickly became desperate, need pressing upon her. She absolutely had to find them. She raced up the stairs, trying all the doors. Every single one locked. She banged on them, hearing the voices at each door as if they were right on the other side.
?Please, let me in!? She needed to see them, not just to hear their voices. The hallway went on forever, and she was determined to try each door until she found them. She had to. She felt that her very being depended on it. As she persistently tried each door, she was already forgetting exactly who or what she was searching for, but she knew it was just on the other side.
I'm trapped in a vile world,
Where the endings are the same as every other
We're only here to die
Save me -
I'm losing my only dream,
I can use some guiding light, some place to go
If you hear me let me know
--Avenged Sevenfold; Save Me
This summer night, she dreamed. Lately, all of her dreams had been similar: A guarded walk down a cool stone corridor. Doors opening on their own before her. Arms ushering her into a large chamber where voices whispered all around. Ropes tied tightly around her wrists. A hand on her head, hot and then icy. A deep pain in her chest. Then screaming. It never seemed to stop.
This night was different. Before the executioner could lay his hands upon her, she found that the ropes that bound her were loose, and with a burst of strength, she pulled herself free. Out of the darkness that surrounded her, hands grabbed at her, but she was too quick. As slippery as ice, she escaped their grasp and ran. She ran from the icy hand and the screams it would tear from her throat. She ran through the stone doors, down the cold corridor, before coming to another door. She did not know where this one lead, but she flung it open on her own and was quickly blinded by a profusion of sunlight. She moved forward blindly, desperate to escape. As her vision adjusted, she found herself outside in a field of wildflowers, like the ones that grew on the east bank of the river.
The door disappeared behind her so she stopped running, feeling a calm come over her; it was a foreign feeling. The urgency of just moments ago?the fear and the adrenaline it pushed through her system?was replaced by a deep-felt peace. Red. Purple. Blue. Yellow. She waded through the flowers, reaching out and touching some, recalling the names she knew them by: baby blue eyes, celandine, phlox, corn flower, foxglove, switchwort, poppy, rose angel, snapdragon. They were beautiful and their scent filled the air, intoxicating her. She wandered slowly, enjoying the relief Mother Nature had provided. When she reached the other side of the field, she found a dense, dark wood blocking her path.
A little girl waited for her there on the edge of the flowers. Her heart swelled at the very sight of the girl, her girl. Amanda. She was young, perhaps seven, with bouncing blue-black curls and a smile that warmed the chill that had previously seeped into her very core.
As soon as she got close to Amanda, the child turned and fled down a forest pathway, her laughter floating behind her. ?You can?t catch me!? her daughter shouted joyously.
?Oh yes I can!? She replied, laughing as she took off after the girl. She was close behind her for just a few moments, but Amanda quickly dashed out of sight. She did not feel any concern though as her child?s laughter and taunts continually floated back to her.
As they moved deeper and deeper into the woods, she found she could not catch up to the little girl somehow. Slowly, the childish laughter sounded further and further ahead. ?Amanda, wait up for me,? she called.
She moved faster, eventually running, but her child had disappeared. Sweat formed along her brow as she pushed herself forward; she couldn?t leave her little girl alone in this dense forest. She had to reach her before someone else did. She would not lose her again, but even with her exertion and urgency, Amanda remained out of sight Quite abruptly, the forest path ended in a clearing. A large house stood in the middle, cut out of a circle in the trees. If she hadn?t been breathless from her run, the sight of the house certainly would have taken it away.
It was the original Ravenlock Villa.
There were things she didn?t allow herself to think about when awake, things there was no good in dwelling upon. They were lost to the past, and it just hurt too much: her parents, her brother?s betrayal, the events that drove her to RhyDin, her last night in RhyDin when everything had turned to ashes around her, parting with Stephen. This house was one such thing.
?Amanda?? she called out, moving slowly towards the house as she saw the front door was ajar. Why did Amanda bring her here, and where had she gone? She pushed open the door, poking just her head inside. ?Amanda? Hello?? she was loathe to enter; who knew what ghosts she might encounter. But she could hear a hum of voices from somewhere within, and she just had to find Amanda. She couldn?t lose her again. Besides, this had been her house once upon a time too, she reasoned. She stepped inside, moving first into the living room. It was empty, except for the statue of David and a stray wombat, but the voices were louder now. They distracted her so much; she couldn?t concentrate.
She couldn?t remember why she was there, who she had been searching for. The voices filled her head. She stood in the middle of that empty living room, listening to them. If she listened closely, she could hear them more distinctly. Brian and Alex shouting at each other playfully. Katt trying to quiet them down. Cher?s laughter egging them on. Her family! They were here. She must have been looking for them; a sudden need to be amongst them once more, to see them, rose within her.
?Hello? Where are you?? She called, moving around the first floor, now seeking these voices from the past. Kitchen, library, dining room. ?Where are you?? She quickly became desperate, need pressing upon her. She absolutely had to find them. She raced up the stairs, trying all the doors. Every single one locked. She banged on them, hearing the voices at each door as if they were right on the other side.
?Please, let me in!? She needed to see them, not just to hear their voices. The hallway went on forever, and she was determined to try each door until she found them. She had to. She felt that her very being depended on it. As she persistently tried each door, she was already forgetting exactly who or what she was searching for, but she knew it was just on the other side.