She loved to lie in bed besides him, nothing in between them; there was just skin. It didn?t matter what bed they were in?her bed, his bed, a sketchy bed at the Inn?as long as it was just the two of them. She would pillow her head against him as fingers traced invisible patterns on his skin. Sometimes it was words, in Common and Elvish, other times pictures or simply shapes. She loved to lie there and think, her whole world at peace for a precious short time and her mind blessedly at ease. Sometimes it was nice to not think at all and just enjoy being with him, silent. She loved to talk with him, too. Anything and everything could be the subject.
Despite his presence, she felt far from at ease tonight. He had mentioned secrets, the secrets she kept locked away. She?d been so quick to assert that they weren?t secrets, just tidbits they didn?t know about one another, things they could learn in time. There was always something learn, right? That?s how relationships worked.
If she could keep them locked away forever, she would. It was acknowledging that truth, that she wanted to keep secrets, that made her uneasy. Guilt gnawed away at her peace until she couldn?t stay still at his side. Secrets, secrets, secrets. They lurked in the room, much more subtle than the pink elephant but more destructive than that behemoth could ever be.
She was trying to do things right this time, with Skyler. She didn?t want to keep herself locked away, playing that fa?ade to everyone including him. A person could snap under the pressure of such an act. Jewell didn?t think she could afford to snap again so soon.
She shifted to her side some so she could look at him better, turning her little face?screwed up with worry and hesitance?to him. ?Sky-my-Sky, what if we took turns?took turns telling each other secrets so they wouldn?t be secrets anymore?? Her voice sounded timid and small even to her as she resurrected the topic seemingly out of nowhere.
Despite his presence, she felt far from at ease tonight. He had mentioned secrets, the secrets she kept locked away. She?d been so quick to assert that they weren?t secrets, just tidbits they didn?t know about one another, things they could learn in time. There was always something learn, right? That?s how relationships worked.
If she could keep them locked away forever, she would. It was acknowledging that truth, that she wanted to keep secrets, that made her uneasy. Guilt gnawed away at her peace until she couldn?t stay still at his side. Secrets, secrets, secrets. They lurked in the room, much more subtle than the pink elephant but more destructive than that behemoth could ever be.
She was trying to do things right this time, with Skyler. She didn?t want to keep herself locked away, playing that fa?ade to everyone including him. A person could snap under the pressure of such an act. Jewell didn?t think she could afford to snap again so soon.
She shifted to her side some so she could look at him better, turning her little face?screwed up with worry and hesitance?to him. ?Sky-my-Sky, what if we took turns?took turns telling each other secrets so they wouldn?t be secrets anymore?? Her voice sounded timid and small even to her as she resurrected the topic seemingly out of nowhere.