Today was the hardest day of Erin's year. It was the year anniversary of her second miscarriage: the one where she found out she was infertile. It was today that she thought of her dreams as dead, her life meaningless. But today was different, she wasn't immobile as she thought; wasn't stuck in her bed. No, Erin was packing a lunch. Sandwiches, a bottle of wine, some potato chips were all placed in the basket.
Once she was done she looked in the mirror. The maroon corduroy skirt, dark blue sweater and black scarf all seeming in order. She had on those ankle cut tights, feet in the maryjanes that seemed everpresent. She fixed her hair. The clip Lydia had given her, silver with a little green jewel was holding hair over the bald spot there. She had black fuzzy earmuffs and black cutoff smoker's gloves. Once her appearance was in order, she grabbed the basket and headed for the door.
Her walk down the streets went faster than she thought. Erin had often entertained the idea of getting a bicycle, and now that was seeming a better idea. She would like to make a habit of what she was doing. Not being able to go the entire day without Bastian surprised her. When lunch came around and she felt that pang that meant she missed him, at first she thought she was crazy. Then it dawned on her that this was what new love was supposed to feel like. That early, giddy, silly thing that overtook you. She had read about it, seen it in the movies, just never had it.
She reached the docks in record time. Once there, a few well placed bat of lashes or slipping of silver and she found where he worked. She stood there for a long moment, basket in hand, watching the men lifting, hoisting and moving. She found him with her eyes.. watching him for awhile. It was nice to see him work like that. It was a known fact that physical labor was attractive, but also it showed that he could adapt. That he was here and could stay here. She was happy for that, fears of his leaving in frustration melted away.
After the watching, she sauntered up to the nearest sailor. A wink and an offer of a sandwich(of course she packed an extra!) and he was off to find Bastian. To tell him that once he was on lunch he should come find her, sitting and reading on a cargo case not far from there. He left and she went on, settling on the case, she drew out her most recent book(The Communist Manifesto, if you must know) and waited.
Once she was done she looked in the mirror. The maroon corduroy skirt, dark blue sweater and black scarf all seeming in order. She had on those ankle cut tights, feet in the maryjanes that seemed everpresent. She fixed her hair. The clip Lydia had given her, silver with a little green jewel was holding hair over the bald spot there. She had black fuzzy earmuffs and black cutoff smoker's gloves. Once her appearance was in order, she grabbed the basket and headed for the door.
Her walk down the streets went faster than she thought. Erin had often entertained the idea of getting a bicycle, and now that was seeming a better idea. She would like to make a habit of what she was doing. Not being able to go the entire day without Bastian surprised her. When lunch came around and she felt that pang that meant she missed him, at first she thought she was crazy. Then it dawned on her that this was what new love was supposed to feel like. That early, giddy, silly thing that overtook you. She had read about it, seen it in the movies, just never had it.
She reached the docks in record time. Once there, a few well placed bat of lashes or slipping of silver and she found where he worked. She stood there for a long moment, basket in hand, watching the men lifting, hoisting and moving. She found him with her eyes.. watching him for awhile. It was nice to see him work like that. It was a known fact that physical labor was attractive, but also it showed that he could adapt. That he was here and could stay here. She was happy for that, fears of his leaving in frustration melted away.
After the watching, she sauntered up to the nearest sailor. A wink and an offer of a sandwich(of course she packed an extra!) and he was off to find Bastian. To tell him that once he was on lunch he should come find her, sitting and reading on a cargo case not far from there. He left and she went on, settling on the case, she drew out her most recent book(The Communist Manifesto, if you must know) and waited.