Topic: Visiting Dr. O

Cassandra

Date: 2006-12-29 23:49 EST
"Thank you for seeing me on such short notice, Dr. Rex." She moved into the office slowly behind the short, slightly balding man with large framed glasses, and stood in the doorway, foot tapping a bit nervously as blue-greys roved over the office, pausing on the desk and the nameplate. "Dr. Oedipus Rex." She cracked a bit of a smile. Someone's parents had had a sense of humor.

"It's not a problem Miss de Vernon. Would you like to take a seat?" As he settled down in his chair, Cassie took a seat on the couch, hands holding in her lap for the moment, still shuffling her feet around on the floor absently, taking several moments to get comfortable.

"Sure. I guess I just, what, start talking?"

"Start anywhere you feel comfortable."

"Okay."

She took a deep breath and remained silent for several moments, sifting through her thoughts and trying to arrange them in some sort of order. "I guess it kind of starts with my birth. Well, before that even. See, my father left my mother pregnant and alone. So right off I was already guaranteed some problems. My mother moved back in with her family. Being her brother and his wife and their son. Now, one thing you must know about my mother's side of the family is that they are nobility, and they are rich, and they know it. So I imagine that when my mother came back to them, unmarried and very pregnant, they were a bit dismayed. And then my mother died from an infection five days after my birth. And that left me with them, and I imagine they were further dismayed.

My uncle treated me well enough, he was always kind. My aunt, well.. I suppose she did the best she could for the type of person she is. Home was never fun. My aunt seemed to think of my as a thorn in her side, though I tried so very hard to please her. Nothing I did was ever good enough though. And then, there were the other things. The things that got me marked as more than human. Or, less, if you were talking to the people there. My hair was absolutely the first indicator. No one has purple hair. Not naturally. Whatever my mother had lain with was not normal. When I got upset, sometimes things fell over that had no one near them. Or sometimes things exploded. Strange happenings that did nothing to endear me to my aunt or the rest of society. The vicar was convinced that I was the devil's get and generally scared the hell out of anyone who would listen to him long enough when he got onto the subject of me. My cousins were certainly afraid of me, when they weren't tormenting me.

One of the few people who treated me with any sort of kindness was my uncle. He wasn't unkind, but he didn't see what went on beneath his nose. There were even moments of affection. Also, there was one other relative, a great-aunt, who took a liking to me. But I saw her perhaps three times in my life. She didn't care for my aunt or my cousins. There had been one other person who'd been kind to me. An old groom in the stables who'd known my mother and liked her. When I was young, four or five, he began teaching me to use knives. Odd hobby for a horse groom perhaps, but that and horses was all he had to teach me. He'd also known my mother used knives. Since he'd been the one to teach her as well.

My aunt and uncle couldn't control the rest of the people around. Things got out. When I was ten, I learned why the adults gave my aunt and uncle looks of pity when I was the topic of discussion, and why they gave me looks of contempt. Why their children left me out at best and tormented me and physically abused me at worst. The maids were gossiping, not an unusual occurrence, and I was the topic. They kept using the word "bastard" and I looked it up. 1. A person born of unmarried parents; an illegitimate child. 2. something irregular, inferior, spurious, or unusual. I never forgot the definition from the dictionary. There were other definitions as well, in other dictionaries. None of them flattering to me.

I sometimes tried to practice with the... Special abilities I have. Usually it just ended up with me collapsing, exhausted. I had not, and still really haven't, managed to draw back to me the energy that I, I don't know, throw, to do whatever it is I do. I also discovered, quite by accident, that I can, I don't know, teleport? I really have no idea how to describe the things I can do. One day, I think I was around eight, I was running from some kids and I managed to hide around the corner, but they were going to come upon me, it was only a matter of moments. I had my eyes squinched shut and I just wanted so badly to be in the attic, my favorite hiding place. And I opened them, and there I was. This, I never told anyone about, and I managed to never do it with witnesses. It's how I got here, actually. The best I can put it is that I walk the planes. I worked very hard to make sure these things did not happen in public, or at least, as little as possible. I'm also blessed with more strength and speed and better senses than most humans, but I worked hard to pretend I wasn't. Were it not for my hair, which everyone in the town knew about, I might have managed to pass. I still would have been scorned as a bastard, but things might not have been so bad. But I guess it's something I'll never know.

When I was sixteen, I found a box in the attic. I'd been up there to escape my cousins, a place I hid out regularly. The box I found was way in the back. It had 'Stephanie' written on it. Inside I discovered many of her things, but the journals were perhaps the most important. They revealed my origins, my father, to me. They also let me get to know my mother in a strange way. Also inside were a silver cross on a chain, and another silver chain, with a silver sapphire and diamond ring. The last of the important items were eight knives. Six made specially for throwing. It all belonged to my mother."

She stopped there, and glanced at a clock, eyes widening at how much time passed. "Oh goodness, I really didn't mean to stay this long, Dr. Rex. I have quite a few errands to run. But uhm. I'll be back, I think. Thank you"

With that, she stood, and hurried towards the door.

Cassandra

Date: 2007-01-03 21:57 EST
"I'm quite sorry about how I rushed out last time, I just hadn't realized how much time had passed, and I had quite a bit to do before the new year came rolling through."

"Really, I quite understand. Sometimes things like that come up." The good Dr. Rex didn't really care that she'd rushed out like she'd had the devil at her heels last time. The young lady standing in front of him, taller than him actually, had written him a hefty check just a few minutes before. "Would you like to sit down and continue?" He gestured towards the couch as he himself took a seat in his chair, a small notebook and pen in hand for notemaking.

She nodded and sat down upon the couch, shuffled around a little bit, and then settled down and jumped right in. "I had top grades in school, but I rarely participated in class and certainly did not join activities that kept me there longer than necessary. The other students were cruel, first in the way that children are, then in their own right as we grew older. I had no friends, no one was brave enough to stand up to any of the others. I was very lonely, and that made me vulnerable.

I was seventeen when James Wright, one of the most popular, desired boys in not just the class, but the school. And for reasons unbeknownst to me at the time, he suddenly began paying attention to me. I generally kept to myself, and at first, I ignored his advances. But I guess I was so lonely, so hungry for affection and acceptance, that I was willing to believe any lie. It was only a matter of weeks until I fell into his bed. A lamb to the slaughter, I was. It was my first time, and he wasn't particularly kind during or after the act. Oh, he wasn't abusive, and it wasn't rape, but I was left confused and more than a little hurt, wondering what in the hell had just happened. That wasn't really the worst part, though.

The next day at school, during lunch period, he pulled me up from my seat, very tender and nice-like. The proceeded to tell the entire school that the only reason he'd dated me was to take me to bed, and I'd been utterly lacking. Obviously the message was not as.. Impersonal as I've relayed it. School had been torture before that, but it became a personal hell that day, and remained so after. There were two others, after him. And again, I lied to myself and told myself I believed them because I was so desperate for a kind word or gesture. The day I graduated was the day I left. School. Family. England. Home. Or at least, the place in which I lived, for it certainly wasn't a home to me."

She paused and fidgeted for a few moments, trying to gather herself back up and figure out where to take her story next. She didn't notice his occasional scribbling in his notebook. He was actually quite good at listening, or at least, good enough for her purposes. He didn't ask a lot of annoying and invasive questions, though she was sure that would come later, after she finished with her story.

"I wandered quite a bit, not entirely sure where it was that I was headed. I somehow found my way to Rhy'Din. It was in Rhy'Din where I first discovered that not everyone thought I was strange. In fact, I seemed quite normal compared to some.. Beings.. And no one knew the circumstances of my birth, so that wasn't ever an issue either. I met people here and there, most were kind. I had a few violent encounters but got through those well enough. For the most part people just didn't care one way or another. Which was a relief for me.

It was also in Rhy'Din that I discovered love. I happened to wander into a fairly empty tavern, and there were two men there. Jon and Adam. And for the first time I was truly accepted, and loved. I also learned that sex could be a good thing, and that I could enjoy it as well. It was wonderful, really. We had a grand time laughing and playing. I'd never really known how to laugh and just enjoy and play before. They taught me a lot. They also taught me to fight. Really fight. I know, it wasn't really a conventional relationship, but it worked for us. There was a closeness that I don't think I've ever really achieved since that I had with them. It was actually the best time of my life.. And I've never loved anyone else the way I loved, and really I guess I still do, though they are my past and I've accepted that, Jon and Adam. We lived together for nearly a year, but they had families elsewhere, and some trouble arose, and they had to leave. And I couldn't go. Thus started my wanderings again.." She stopped there, frowning thoughtfully and twisting her hands a bit.

"Well Miss de Vernon, I think you've covered quite a bit in this half hour you booked for today. Perhaps it'd be good if you stopped here for now." He wasn't a shrink for nothing, after all. He noticed the expression on her face, and decided that it would be good for the young lady to stop there for the day.

"Yes, I think you're right. Thank you Doctor."

Cassandra

Date: 2007-02-17 18:35 EST
(Note: I'm writing this with a cold and my head is all stuffy right now, so I may come back in later and make some edits.)

?It?s been quite awhile since your last visit, Miss de Vernon. I hope that it isn?t due to any unpleasant events going on in your life.?

?I?ve been a bit busy, Dr. Rex. I?ve actually gone into business with a uhm, friend.? He didn?t miss the hesitation before she gave her business partner a title.

?Would you like to tell me a little about this friend??

?Uhm. Sure, I guess.. His name is ah, Jack.? Changing the name just in case the doctor had heard of him. Although he could simply look up her business and find out Alain?s name. Now that she thought about it, she probably ought to have used a different name for herself. Oh well, too late now. ?I met him not long after I arrived here. Ah.. We got into a sexual relationship fairly quickly. It started off very light, fun, and not exclusive. He had other lovers, at first. And I didn?t mind either. Eventually though, he was just with me. The more time we spent together, the more I grew to like him as a friend and partner, and not just for the sex. It felt like it was sort of becoming a real relationship, not just hit and run sex. But uhm, he ended up sleeping with someone I?d thought to be a good friend. So I ended it. A few months later though, we ended up back in bed together. But by then, I?d already had other lovers, and no longer entertained any thoughts of a relationship. Before we drifted back into each other?s beds, there were a few other encounters. The one that really comes to mind is when he was shot. I was there, and I must admit, I was.. Very concerned.. About him. There was someone there with healing skills, so he survived well enough. He did manage to kill the man who shot him. He asked me to take care of the clean up, and I did. No questions asked. That was a bit before we ended up back in bed.. Anyway. It was still kind of shaky and awkward between us. I know that I at least, was very careful about the things I said even after we started sleeping together again. More so than ever before. One night I was in the Inn, and he came down the stairs, and I could see something was wrong, so I asked him, and he told me. And he asked me to help. Offered everything he had. So of course, I couldn?t say no.. Not seeing him the way he was.. And so I helped. I even killed. I think.. That sort of changed things. I?m not saying we?re any more together. We?re not. I mean, I?ve still got other lovers, and he does too.. But Al-Jack.. Jack and I are closer I think, than we were. Although.. I do get jealous when I see him with other women. I hate it, that I feel that way, because I know I shouldn?t and I don?t have any right to, but I do anyway. I?m not entirely sure what to do about that, or how to make it stop.. Anyway. We?re in a private investigation business now. He invited me to work with him. So now we?re business partners. And I guess we?re friends. Good friends, I suppose. But just friends.? She stopped, finished with her description of Alain/Jack.

?Why don?t you go ahead and tell me about some of the other people in your life now.?

?Okay. Ah..? She chewed on her lower lip while trying to decide where to start.. ?I suppose I could start with my father. There?s really not that much to tell about him. He tried to kill me not long after I arrived. But apparently he was possessed. Or something. I don?t give him much thought, really. He wasn?t a part of my life at all for the first twenty years, and it doesn?t appear that he?ll be anymore a part of it than he was.

Then there?s Sean, my cousin.? Continuing with the name changing. ?I grew up with him. He came to Rhy?Din to, well, actually I?m not sure why he came here. I think it was to torment me, at first. But then he found that this place was so very different from his home, and he met a woman and that seems to have sealed it, despite their problems. I do hope that things work out for him. I don?t wish him any ill will anymore. I realize that we were kids, and he was easily swayed by the opinions of his mother and society.

Speaking of the woman he met, Erica is becoming a pretty good friend, I think. I?m not really good at being friends and doing that whole talking about stuff thing, but I think I?m getting a little better at it. At least, I can get drunk with her and then I can sit and listen and that?s okay for me. I?m not really sure about actually talking about some things with anyone. I?ve just always kept things to myself, so it?s strange when other people want to talk.

Jenny was married to my father, and they have a whole host of kids. My siblings, I suppose, though it?s kind of weird to think of them as such, since I grew up thinking of myself as an only child for so long. She?s have a rough time of it right now. The man she was in love with is dead. She?s always been very kind to me though, and I appreciate it because it can?t be easy to have proof of your husband?s indiscretions walking about in front of you. I made her and the kiddies dinner recently, and I had fun, even if the food wasn?t exactly perfect. Not enough fun to make me want my own kids, but enough that I think I?d like to spend some more time getting to know my family. Because that?s what they are.

George is still quite the enigma to me. We?re not really steady lovers or anything. More like friends who occasionally take a side stop into the bedroom. Probably he?s not particularly good for my health. But I enjoy my time spent with him, for the most part. Though I think he and his flat mate are more than just friends. Although he doesn?t seem to have a problem paying me his usual flattery, and in front of her as well. They did help me up to bed one night, after I drank too much wine. I don?t really remember getting to the room, actually. I just assume it was them who helped, since it was his room that I woke up in. Though no one else was there? Anyway. He?s fun in a more dangerous way, I suppose.

There?s also Michael. I really like him. He?s really great. We?re lovers, but we?re definitely just friends. I don?t really know how to sum up the relationship, except that he makes me laugh, and feel almost like a kid. Not again, since I never really felt like a kid even when I was one. We played tag all through the area, and Go Fish, and poker, and it?s just been some of the best times lately. I don?t feel the same about him as I do about Jack, not as far as feelings go. I don?t feel at all jealous when I see him with other women. But I do love spending time with him. So, again, I don?t know how to explain it.? Cassie was so involved in thinking and summing up her various friendships that she didn?t notice the increasingly speculative look in the good doctor?s eyes as he listened to her.

?So, Miss de Vernon, I think I?m coming to understand your problem.?

?Really? Because if I could just figure some things out in my life, that would be great. Not that it?s awful, or anything, but it?s just kind of confusing and I?d like to try and eliminate some of the confusion."

Cassandra

Date: 2007-02-19 01:08 EST
?I do indeed, Miss de Vernon. I believe you have what is often referred to as ?hysteria? and I also believe that I can cure your problem! It?s really quite a simple procedure, actually.? Then the doctor leaned forward, dropping a hand upon her knee. ?First you must undress, and then my dear, all you need to do is lay back and picture your favorite celebrity on the beach. I?ll take care of the rest of the procedure.?

A rather confused look crossed Cassie?s features at the ?diagnosis? offered by the doctor. Hysteria? Hadn?t that been disproved as a mental illness in the 1900?s? And Cassie didn?t even consider herself mentally ill. She had just been looking for someone to talk to, to tell her that she wasn?t crazy and that everyone had problems. Or something along those lines, anyway. Then. Then he touched her leg. Blue-greys dropped to look at that slightly pudgy hand that was resting caressingly atop her knee. Coughcough! Undress? And picture her favorite celebrity on the beach?? This was getting more and more bizarre! And Cassie was DEFINITELY not liking the direction it was headed! ?Ah. You know what.. I think I?ll just.. Go on an head to work. Because, it?s getting a bit late, and I have to go. Now.? It was actually very surreal, and if Cassie hadn?t felt like she?d just been dropped down the rabbit hole, she would have smacked him into the next week.

That hand tightened on her knee, leaving annoying and nearing painful. ?Now, Miss de Vernon, how do you ever expect to get better if you do not have the time for me to perform the necessary cure?? Then the offending slid further up her leg, fingers tightening on her inner thigh.

?Hey! I came here for help! Not for some old windbag pervert to feel me up and then try and get into my pants!? She?d been willing to let it go, but he had to try again! Fingers balled into a fist, which was drawn back an instant before it was thrown forward, straight for his left eye. The glass of his spectacles shattered, cutting into her hand and around his face, though the doctor was quite lucky he?d closed his eye, else he might have lost it due to a shard of glass. That hand immediately released her leg, and she stood indignantly, gathering her coat and hurrying for the door. ?Bloody perverted prick! You better be sending me a check refunding the amount that I paid you already! I?ll be expecting it by Friday! Sent to the address I gave you!? Then she slammed out, huffing and red-faced in her anger. He was lucky that all she?d done was punch him once! She made it all the way out of the building and down the street before she ducked into a small caf? and sat down to pick the glass out of her hand and to stop the flow of blood that was trickling from the cuts. Therapy indeed! She would be needing therapy just because of that!