Topic: For What It's Worth.

Whitest Light

Date: 2016-08-11 01:16 EST
Boo's Journal

A journal to document and archive her experiences with the world she'd been hidden from, her encounters with creatures and people she meets along the way. Chances are, if she's met you... you're likely a page in her journal.

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A reference to what Boo's Journal looks like, credit unknown. Found on Google Images.

Whitest Light

Date: 2016-08-12 07:33 EST
"To my sweetest, ivory angel,

First and foremost, I love you. I will miss you, but your stories will make all of this worth it. I can't wait to see the world through your eyes. The world is a beautiful place, I know you'll fit in perfectly. Please, be careful.

With all the love in the realms,
Mama

P.S. If you get lost or need help, call upon Aether. She will be the Light that guides you when you're surrounded by darkness. "

Whitest Light

Date: 2016-08-12 07:36 EST
June 8th, 2016

I made it, Mama. I made it to Earth.

The journey was kind of scary, and I didn't know if I was going to go through with it. I'm glad I did.

Styx makes me uncomfortable. Does she always feel like hatred? I think she needs a friend. It must be lonely being the ferryman.

She said something that's been swirling through my head. It makes me kind of dizzy how much I think about it.

"To find the answers one seeks, they must show courage and strength. Lest they be lost to fear."

She seems very wise. And very sad. I wish her the best.

The portal was confusing. I thought I was going to get lost in there, tumbling and falling forever. But I didn't, I came out like a tumble weed and rolled around in the grass...

The grass, Mama! The grass! I love it so much, I could cry.

It's soft, yet prickly. Like when you pet Cerberus' fur the wrong way and it's really coarse, but you pet it the other way and it's really soft and silky. It smelled like Heaven. At least what I'd imagine Heaven smells like. I think it would smell like grass. Do you think so, Mama?

But you should know, just in case you want to try it... it doesn't taste very good. It's bitter and leaves a strange taste on your tongue when you're done chewing it.

I loved it. I loved it so much, I slept on it. It was the perfect bed.

When I woke up, it was warm. Really warm. Not like when you walk past those bursting steam crevices at home.

The sun hurts my eyes. They sting and get really itchy and I have to squint to be able to see. But I like it. The sun hurts my skin too. It tingles, and kind of burns a little bit. But it's so warm and happy. I played in it so much today. Cerberus seems to like it too, same with the grass. He rolled around in it for what felt like centuries. I couldn't blame him, though. I did the same thing.

There's so many things I want to tell you about. So many things I've experienced in the few hours I've been awake.

Like how the wind blows through my hair and tickles my scalp. The way it sways the branches and leaves of the trees. (I ate a leaf. It was crunchy and not very good. I like the way it smells though. And feels. I could feel every vein in it, and I traced it for many seconds.) I like the way the breeze carries different scents. It's ever changing. One minute it'll smell like the grass, then the flowers, then it just smells... clean. I don't know how to describe it when it doesn't smell like anything specifically, but it has a very... clean... smell. I'll find words to describe it to you later.

I found a pond. At least that's what I think it is. It's a small body of water, too small to be a lake. And it wasn't flowing, so it's definitely not a river. I don't know if I like rivers any more... But the water was cool, the way it moved between my toes. It felt clean, and fresh, and I ran into it. I love the way it makes me feel weightless. My favorite thing so far is laying on my back in the water, like a raft. Just floating, and weightless. It lessens the burn the sun makes me feel, and makes it easier to sit in the sun longer. I can't wait until the day that I can keep my eyes open when I float.

Have you ever seen the veins in your eyelids when the sun shines through them? It's so much different than the darkness when we go to sleep. It's bright, and red. I could see the lines, and there were spots... It was amazing.

I have to go, Mama. Spot's getting restless. I think he's hungry. He doesn't want to leave me alone but I think he wants to go find food. I'll write to you more later.

P.s. I saw a butterfly today. It was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.

P.P.S. I love you, Mama. I wish you were here to see and taste and feel these things with me. I miss you.

Whitest Light

Date: 2016-08-14 15:52 EST
June 20th, 2016

Something happened that I can't get out of my head. It's just.... It's made me think really hard that something's wrong with me.

I didn't have Spot with me. I told him to go off hunting because his stomach was making some crazy noises. I was wandering.. probably where I shouldn't have been, I'm not going to lie to you, Mama.

I kept going, and going, and going. And I found a house. There were two boys running around outside playing. The only boy I've ever met besides daddy is Kratos and Kai, so I wanted to meet them.

I walked over there, and they were really nice and sweet. I asked them if I could play with them, and they let me! I was so happy and thought I'd made friends. We played something called 'tag' and 'hide and seek'. I had so much fun with them, and they asked me a lot of questions like why I was so pale and why my hair was white like an old ladies but I looked so young.

I told them about being an albino. They asked me what it was like and I told them how it hurt if I stayed in the sun for too long, or how light makes my eyes sting when it's too bring for me. They said I looked weird but it was okay because weird didn't always mean bad, it just meant different. And different was a good thing. One of them was really smart like that.

Their Mama came out to see who was playing with her sons... and she was okay with it. She asked me a lot of questions too, but different ones like where you were and why I was alone. She told me to stay for dinner, so I did.

I think 'lasagna' (I had to ask the lady how to spell it) is one of my favorite foods now. It's super cheesy and warm and gooey, and it filled up my belly and made me sleepy.

She asked me where I was staying at night, and I told her that I sleep outside with my puppy. She told me that's no place for a girl like me to be sleeping. That I should be sleeping somewhere with privacy, and in a bed and in a room. That I shouldn't be sleeping outside alone where something bad could happen to me.

I tried to ask her what she meant by that, and she got really uncomfortable and felt.... nervous to talk about this. And she didn't understand why I didn't know about what could happen to a girl when she was out in the world alone. I tried to explain to her that Spot would protect me from anyone trying to hurt me but I don't think she believed me.

That's not the point though. What happened that I can't seem to get out of my head is... I heard her talking to her husband when he came home from 'work'... whatever 'work' is.

She said she thinks there's something wrong with me. That I think and speak strangely, that I look even stranger. She says I claim to have a dog she hasn't seen.. but I can't show her Spot! Something in my head told me not to show her. She.... she called me 'special'. But the way she said it... I don't think she meant it like you'd think. She made it sound bad. How can someone make 'special' sound like a bad thing?

I don't understand it. But... I don't think these people are my friends, Mama. I think it'll just be best if I go...

It's okay, though. Spot's waiting for me. And I have more of the world to explore! I don't need to spend my time with people that make 'special' sound like a bad thing.


I miss you.

Whitest Light

Date: 2016-08-20 13:30 EST
July 1st, 2016

We finally got lost. We went days and days and days. I thought we were just going to walk forever. The only indication of how many days it'd been was the moons I counted since the last time I wrote in this here journal. I counted exactly 9 and I knew it was time.

I called on Aether. At the moment where dawn broke the darkness of night, and turned it into morning. That hazy moment before the sun rose. Which, by the way, is possibly my favorite sight in the world. Every sunrise and sunset is different. The clouds are never the same, never in the same place, and the colors, Mama.... The colors. They're so pretty it brings tears to my eyes... Or maybe that's just the stinging of the light breaking through. I'm still waiting for my eyes to adjust from home to this bright world.

It took her a while, but she finally showed. It was when the day was growing it's warmest, so it must've been around noon. But she came to my call, apologized nearly a thousand times for taking so long. She hugged me and she smelled... odd.. Not bad.. But odd. She wasn't what I expected, really. She was so pretty, and nice and sweet to me. We sat and talked for I don't know how long. I had a lot of questions to ask her. She answered all the ones she could.

I told her I was lost. I didn't know where to go next. She asked me where I wanted to go. And I didn't really know what to tell her. I told her I wanted to find a new, exciting place to explore. That I wanted to find Ren's husband, to check on him and see if he was okay. Maybe find out about what happened to her... I know this is the first time I mentioned that. I wanted to tell you my real reason of going... But I didn't think you'd let me go if you knew I was seeking out him. I know how you felt about him... And I'm sorry if this upsets you. But I need to know, Mama.

She told me she didn't know where to find him. That she would try.. But she told me she knew where Kai was! And it was a start. Kai's tied to Mira, Mira's Daemien's sister... I thought I had a lead! So she's going to take me to see Kai. We're going to leave tomorrow morning, she said she's going to have to pull a few strings to get into this place called.... Oh, poo. I don't remember what it's called already. I'll ask her in the morning.. She got a call from one of her people and had to go, but promised to be back in three days time.

So Spot and I are going to explore as much of this area as possible, I'm going to make sure every flower is smelled, and tasted, and listened to. I'm going to try to say hello to all the trees. I think there's a spring close by, I should probably bathe.. Yeah.. I should probably do that.

I just hope Kai will help me find him... I know he doesn't like him either..

Whitest Light

Date: 2016-08-22 18:34 EST
July 3rd, 2016

She came back for me, just as she promised. When the sky broke free of the blue haze, when the mornings are the coldest before the sun rose, she showed up. I had been napping on Spot, and it was her soft voice that called to me that woke me up. She was so soft and gentle, whispering to me and brushing my hair out of my face. It kind of reminded me of how you used to wake me up sometimes. I was so happy, I still had sleep in my eyes but I managed to look up at her and almost got sad when I saw it wasn't you.

But then that happiness came back when I remembered why she was there. To take me to Kai. I couldn't get up faster when that memory came back to me! She giggled at my reaction, but it was a different kind of giggle. Not like those people that laughed at me when I said something weird or asked simple questions to things I didn't understand but everyone else seemed to. She just seemed purely happy at my reaction... Pure.. I think that's the best way to describe Aether. If I could think of a manifestation of purity... it would be that beautiful soul, Mama.

She told me to close my eyes because the light she lets out to travel can be blinding to someone like me. I closed them, covered my eyes, she convinced Spot to close his eyes too. And then we were gone before the sun even rose over the horizon. She can move fast. I mean, really fast. It almost made me dizzy and sick, and it was nothing like the portal of the Underworld. But by the time I felt like I was going to throw up all over the nice lady, we were there. She whispered something in my ear, and I could feel her hands holding me still.

She told me to open my eyes. I did. And then I was staring a strange place. It looked like those pictures of old-timey places. Cobblestone roads, old structures. It was nothing like Midgard from what I could tell, but similar in some ways too. There were so many people around. And even though I had a giant hound with me, and we just sort of... showed up? There were a lot less looks than I expected. I thought people would freak out, and I voiced it. Aether told me that the people here were used to the strange and unusual. Then gave me one smile that spoke a million words... like she understood. Seeing her smile, I understood.

I could be normal here.

Whitest Light

Date: 2016-08-22 19:17 EST
July 7th, 2016

It's taken me a few days to even write in my journal, Mama. There's been so many things to explore! I've been spending time with Aether, mostly. But on the 4th, she took me to Kai. He was surprised... and kind of freaked out about me being topside. Even more about being in Rhy'Din. But he hugged me and told me he missed me, and asked all the relevant questions. The how have you been? How's your Mama? How's your Daddy? How's things at home? I answered them like a robot, because I knew he was going to ask 'em.

Aether explained to him about the situation, and he... was less than happy about me trying to find Daemien. He told me there was no rush, that Dae wasn't going anywhere. I wasn't so sure. But I listened to him. He told me Rhy'Din was going to be celebrating the Fourth of July... I had no idea what that meant. He told me it was a celebration usually on Midgard, specifically in America to show their independance. Why they had it in Rhy'Din... I don't know. But he said that there would be a lot of festivities, and something called fireworks. I told him I wanted to go, and he took me!

There were so many people there, I was nervous at first. I could feel each one of them, and all the different kinds of people there. I had only seen humans on Midgard, and animals. There were people of all different shapes, sizes, colors, races. There were so many different kinds of people that it made my head spin. We told Spot to go play in the Glen, and he didn't seem to object to that. He gave Kai a weird look and Kai just nodded at him. I think they were having their own conversation, and I don't know what they were saying. But all the people seemed to make Spot uneasy, he kept giving me those puppy dog eyes as he was leaving. I wanted him to play with us, but he's... too... big... And he might've squished someone. Kai kept telling me he'd be okay, that the loud noises might unsettle him.

Kai had me try a bunch of different foods, he gave me something called 'glow sticks'. I love them!! They're so bright and colorful. They didn't smell like anything but plastic... I tried to taste it but Kai took it out of my mouth and told me not to chew on it, because I shouldn't swallow the stuff on the inside. Something about my poo glowing for weeks, and my insides. That didn't sound so bad, but he was adament on me not eating it.

We played with something called 'Sparklers'. That took some work... I wanted to feel it but Kai said it might hurt, and he stopped me from smelling and tasting it. But he let me look at all of them. He even showed me how to wave it through the air to write words on the wind, and it was one of the most beautiful things I'd ever seen! I was sad when we ran out of them, and he left me for a minute and came back with a huge box... I still have a bunch of them left.

When it came time for the Fireworks, we found a field away from where they were having them. He said I looked tired, and I guess that was true. It had been a long day, and all the people were feeling different things and I could feel them. It was exhausting but incredible. We laid in the field, and I used him as a pillow. We stared up at the sky and that's when it all started. I don't even know how to describe it. It's not something I can tell you about the smell, the taste, the feel... But the sight, Mama, the sight! They were like explosions in the sky, and at first the loud noises scared me but Kai told me that it wouldn't hurt me. That it was just a show and they would fizzle out before they reached the ground. We watched the whole thing and I couldn't look away. I think Fireworks are my favorite thing now.

When we were done, we kept laying there. I wanted to tell him what I wasn't supposed to tell him, I wanted to tell him who his daddy is. I wanted to tell him that he was my big brother, but... I remember what you said. And I kept my mouth shut about it. Maybe it's better this way, I don't know. It wouldn't change how I feel about him, even if I just call him Kai.. or KaiKai... He's still my big brother to me. And that's what counts, right?

P.S. He's got more of those tattoo things now... they're interesting and I like to trace them with my fingers. He showed me the ones he had under his shirt, and it was like a giant puzzle of trying to find each and every one in the mess. I think he's got a little too many, it's hard to see him. But it's a part of Kai, he's always been weird to the family. Like me. And I love him for it.

P.P.S. Aether got me a camera today. I'll try to get a picture of Kai so you can see him, too. And I'll try to show you what I see.

Whitest Light

Date: 2016-09-03 09:03 EST
July 10th, 2016

I've been spending most of my time with Kai lately. Except when he's working. He's something called a... bouncer? I don't know what that is, I tried to get him to explain it to me. He said that when people get too riled up, he throws them out of the place he works. I just picture him jumping around and hopping like a bunny though, I like that image better than him throwing people.

I tried to tell him I wanted to see that place that he works, but he wouldn't let me go. Told me it was a place I wouldn't like, that I shouldn't hang out there. But he wouldn't tell me why.

When he's not working, though. We go out on his boat a lot. I guess he lives on it, because it's got a place for a bed and some things in there like a fridge. I asked him why he didn't have a house like other people, and he said he liked being out on the ocean more. I can't blame him, I like being on the ocean too. It smells good and the rocking of his boat made me fall asleep a couple times.

When we're not out fishing on the boat (he fishes, I just play with the fish he catches. I licked one... it didn't taste very good. But their scales feel gross and awesome at the same time. It was all slippery and slimy, but I could feel them when it moved) we go to the Glen to hang out with one of his friends.

His name is Vic and he's HUGE, Mama. He said he's six feet six inches tall. He's got a pretty face, and long hair that I like to play with. He's so nice, and lets me braid his hair and put it in pigtails. Kai said he's something called a 'dork' but if that's what Vic is, dorks are the best people. I asked him if he was a human, and he said he was a Nephilim. I don't know what that is, but he said his mama is the Horseman, War. I read stories about her (I thought it was a man, though) but he said that she was a warrior.

Well, it might be better to just give you a picture of him so you can see for yourself. He said he'll let me get a picture of him when he's a bear sometime, so I can show you that too!

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In the second one, we stopped by this little shop that had a bunch of weird things in it. Vic found a little violin and tried to play it. He's... not very good at playing violin but he tried really hard! Oh, and he keeps hitting his head on doorways... When I asked if he was okay, he told me it happens all the time. I can't imagine being so tall to hit my head off stuff. Other than tables when I try to climb under them...

Kai made a joke and said that's why he's 'stupid'. Vic pouted... I got mad at Kai... and had Spot sit on him.

Kai had to go to work and Vic said that I could hang out with him. We spent all afternoon roaming through the Glen and he didn't once tell me that I was weird for talking to the trees and flowers. Instead, he sat down with me and tried to talk to them too. When I got tired of walking, he let me ride on his back. I got really tired and fell asleep on him.

I like Vic a lot. He's so nice, and he doesn't make me feel weird. I hope I get to hang out with him again, and when I told him that, he promised we could hang out whenever I wanted to. I think I made another friend, Mama!

Love always,
Ivory Angel.

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Whitest Light

Date: 2016-09-03 09:16 EST
July 11th, 2016

Oh yeah, I almost forgot. I promised I'd show you a picture of Kai.

I managed to get some pictures of him today.

The first one he didn't know I was taking a picture of him, and the second one I told him to look at the camera instead of being a butt.

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Oh! And he took me for my first ride in a car. I still like riding on Spot better... but I have to admit that sticking my head out of the window and feeling the wind on my face and through my hair was a phenomenal experience.

... It's not very fun when you swallow a bug though.

Kai laughed at me, I had Spot sit on his car.

And.... he smooshed it.

Oops...



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Whitest Light

Date: 2016-09-03 09:33 EST
July 18th, 2016

The more time I spent with Kai, Mama... the hardest it gets not to tell him who his daddy is.

Over these past few weeks, we've gotten closer than ever. When he's not working, we spend time together. He told me it's better than sleeping to pass time since he doesn't actually need to do it. And that there's only so many fish in the sea to catch. The way he said it made me think he meant something else, but I don't know what that means.

He's taken me to see as much as possible. To all the little shops, we've played on the beach. We've ran through the Glen. He keeps trying to convince me to take money so I can stay somewhere that's not outside, but he knows I won't take it. I won't leave Spot outside to sleep alone, he gets lonely and whines. I don't like hearing him whine...

I managed to convince him that I would sleep in the Glen close by, but he still seemed grumpy about it. It's okay, though. He makes a weird face when he's grumpy. It looks silly.

I.... asked him about his Mama. He told me that he hadn't talked to her in centuries. I can't imagine not talking to you for so long, and told him that. He said his mama isn't as nice as you are. That she doesn't seem to like him all that much. But he told him that it was okay because he had people like his friends and me and you and Daddy that he sees as his family now. I wanted to tell him that he was my brother so bad, Mama. You have no idea. I wanted to spill my soul out to him and tell him that it didn't matter if Artemis didn't like him, that he was my brother and I loved him. I still told him that I loved him, and it made him smile. That kinda goofy smile that's contagious like he does. But... a part of me feels guilty that he doesn't know the truth.

But I keep hearing what you told me, that something bad happened that would make him sad. So I didn't tell him.

Are we ever going to, Mama?

Whitest Light

Date: 2016-09-03 09:46 EST
July 23rd, 2016

Both Vic and Kai had something they had to do today, so I hung out with Aether. She's one of my favorite people, really. She's so happy and silly. We did cartwheels all through the town, and danced around the fountain. We played a bunch of games and she told me stories about when Vic was a baby and she used to be his Nanny. He was apparently always silly and loving.

She's one of those people that you can't help but love her when you meet her. Her smile and laugh is one of my favorite sounds. You can actually feel it and it feels warm.

She eats a lot, like Vic does. So she took me to the stands around the Marketplace. We tried a bunch of things. Tacos, hotdogs, candy. We ate so much I thought I was going to be sick, but it all tasted so good! Aether seemed to be able to eat forever. She said that there's nothing in her, that she's like a big balloon of air waiting to be filled with all the foods. But then she laughed, so I think she was kidding. I poked her and she didn't feel like a balloon anyways...

Spot LOVES her. He wouldn't leave her alone, even the serious one seemed to want her to pet him. But I understand. Whenever I'm around her, I wanna curl up in her lap and hug her. Everything about her is warm.

She let me take a picture of her for you, too. I told her I wanted to show you her smile.

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I have to go to bed, Mama. Aether's telling me it's bedtime. I love you.

Whitest Light

Date: 2016-09-03 10:13 EST
July 29th, 2016

I met someone new today through Aether. His name is Craig. He made a joke about his name being Craig Christ... I didn't get it until he explained it to me. He's a demon, one of the Pride demons. I'm not all that familiar with 'Christianity' but from what he told me, Hell somehow sounds worse than home.

Through Aether, he managed to get out though. He belongs to her, one of her followers. He called it 'finding enlightenment' and him and Aether giggled, after they told me what was funny, I laughed too.

It took me a little while to understand him, but when I did? We had such a great day! They took me swimming, Spot chased him around and he squeals more like a girl than I do! I think Spot just wanted to play but Craig though he was going to get eaten. Me and Aether rolled around in the grass giggling about it.

We made a campfire and roasted marshmellows. We had something called 'smores' and it was possibly one of the best things I've ever eaten. Craig burned his mouth on a marshmellow and Aether healed it for him. But then he kept doing it. They had a weird look on their face, like they were dazed. Their eyes were all bloodshot, and I don't know why. But they just kept giggling.

Then he started singing campfire songs and we had a blast. He knew so many! He asked me what my favorite songs were, and I told him I really liked Rush. He sang all my favorite ones! We all fell asleep around the campfire. Craig woke up with marshmellows stuck to his forehead because he fell asleep in the bag.

I think I may have made another friend. Maybe.

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Whitest Light

Date: 2016-09-03 10:19 EST
August 5th, 2016

I keep trying to get Kai to tell me about Daemien but he seems reluctant. I feel like he's hiding something from me about him, but whenever I ask him about it... he changes the subject or tells me it's nothing to worry about. I know he doesn't like him, it's not hard to see. He doesn't trust him, doesn't want me around him. That much he told me.

But I need to know what happened to Sister. No one wants to tell me what happened, and it's starting to get on my nerves. I don't know why it's such a big secret. She's my sister, I have a right to know. I know you and Daddy didn't want to talk about Renzea... but Mama, it's making me go kinda crazy about it.

The longer I go not knowing, the harder it is to distract myself from it. Vic can't do it anymore, or Aether, not even Craig and his silly songs. I can't stop thinking about it, I need to know. But every time someone says something about it... they make Daemien out to be the worst thing.

But I know he's not as bad as everyone keeps saying. Mama, I know there has to be more to it. I saw the way he looked at her, I felt how much he loved her. I can't and I won't believe he had a hand in it. Everyone wants me to believe that it's his fault. But I don't think that's true.

I'm still sorry for not telling you why I wanted to come here so bad, Mama.

But I have to know, I can't stay in the dark anymore...

The light is too warm.

Whitest Light

Date: 2016-09-03 10:27 EST
August 10th, 2016

Aether came to me today, she asked me to promise that I won't tell anyone where I got the information from.

She's been trying to help me find the light all this time. Finding information, what happened. But there are still pieces missing. Pieces that she thinks I should ask from the source, the one who was there. She thinks it'll be better to get it from Daemien himself.

So here's what happened:

Daemien got into a fight with Erebus. He'd killed Bahamut and drank his blood. Apparently drinking the blood from the dragon, taking all of it made him stronger than ever before. He managed to get a hit on Erebus, but from what Aether understood is that Erebus left before Daemien could get another hit in. Lenore... some girl who's the daughter of Erebus and half dead only saw a little bit, though Daemien killed her daddy. She went after Daemien. Renzea was with her. A were-bear named Lulu, who's the daughter of Momos was there to help Lenore. She swatted down Renzea while Lenore was taking her revenge on Daemien.

But no one knows what happened. None of that story makes sense. I don't know who half of those people are. I don't know who Lulu is... or Lenore... I'm so confused, Mama.

I need to hear what happened from Daemien. I need to know from him. I don't think I could get the facts from this Lulu person or Lenore without getting angry and trying to hurt them. Aether said that it's not a good idea, either.

Mama, she told me where Daemien is. She gave me an address. Wrote it on a piece of paper.

He's here, Mama. In this city named Rhy'Din. In some district called West End. I'm going to find him, and I'm going to get answers.

Finally.

....I don't think I should tell Kai about it. I feel like he's going to try to stop me...

Whitest Light

Date: 2016-09-03 10:45 EST
August 13th, 2016

Get ready, Mama. This is going to be a long one.

It took me a few days to find him. He was so close all this time, but I had to make sure Kai and Vic wasn't around. I had to figure out a way to get away from them both so I could go looking for Daemien. I told Kai and Vic that I wanted to adventure alone. Vic was okay with it, but Kai seemed suspicious and didn't want me to go out. He's been watching me since I kept asking about Daemien. When Kai didn't like the idea, Vic changed his mind and thought I was in trouble. It took me a while, but I finally convinced them to let me go off on my own. I told them that I'd made it out of the Underworld by myself, I could venture on my own, too. That I needed some time alone, that I felt overwhelmed with everything. Kai seemed to lighten up then, because he knows how I can feel things. Even better when Kai got a call in saying that they needed him at work, I couldn't help but think it was some Divine Aether intervention helping me out. Maybe it was a coincidence, maybe it wasn't. But it was so convenient.

On my own, I found his house. It took some courage and a helpful nudge from Spot, but I knocked on the door. He opened it. It had been so long since I'd seen him, that we just sorta stared at each other for a minute. It was a little bit awkward. I can't ever remember a time that I wasn't so nervous to see someone, Mama. But I was nearly trembling when it came to talking to Renzea's husband.

I.... okay, so I didn't really get any questions answered. I wanted to, the moment he opened that door, I wanted to spill all my thoughts onto him like a cup of water. I wanted to throw question after question at him, but I couldn't. He.... Mama, he felt so angry. And not like someone had just irritated him, and he was good at hiding it on the outside. But his energy was angry, hateful. At nothing? At everything? I don't know. It felt like he was angry with the whole world.

I know he was trying to hide what I brought up by coming to his front door. The hurt, the sadness... He was trying to hide it so hard, but I could feel it. I could see it in his eyes.... So I couldn't. I swallowed the questions. I will get the answers, I will. But... now's not the right time. I think he's hurting as much as we are, and I don't want to spring those things on him just yet...


On a happier note! I met a friend through him today! Her name is Martyr, and she's super sweet and nice. She's almost as nice and warm as Aether. I didn't think anyone could be until I met her today. She was at his house when I showed up, on his couch. I thought for a moment that he'd taken another woman, but I... don't think that's the case. She wasn't one of his vampires, but he helped her somehow? I think? She brought up something about him helping her, but he kept denying it. I think he's trying to make himself look worse than what he is. He wants to be the bad guy, and I... don't understand why.

But Martyr said she had a hydra... A HYDRA, MAMA! It was one of her friends, like Spot's my friend. I've read books on them, but thanks to her, I met one today! Daemien had to stay back because of someone named Diana.. I don't know who that is, but he said he couldn't leave home until someone else named Eva came back from hunting. I think she's one of his vampires, maybe Diana is too. I don't know. But either way, he had to stay behind while Martyr took me to see her friend.

And the Hydra... was one of the most beautiful creatures I've ever seen. There were so many heads!

Blegh. My hand is cramping. I think I need to give my hand a rest. I'll write more in the morning. Tell you more about Martyr and the Hydra.

...and the weird stuff that happened.

Whitest Light

Date: 2016-09-03 11:02 EST
August 14th, 2016

Okay, I'm awake. I've had breakfast. I'm ready to tell you the story now.

On our way there, Martyr and I talked. I think I mentioned Ren when I shouldn't have. She felt like she got sad when I mentioned he had a late wife. So... I don't think he's talked about sister with this lady. But she's only known him for a week... So I guess I'm not too surprised by that. They have a deal. He doesn't kill people when he hunts, and he can feed from her. I don't know why he made the deal, but after seeing what she can do... She can heal herself. And I'm not talking about just healing, she heals super fast. She showed me, cut herself with a piece of glass and in seconds it was gone. It was amazing and incredible. He must want her blood for something, maybe it's that.

We talked about a whole bunch of things. She... told me that what makes us different makes us beautiful. I like that about her. She has a really bad stutter, but I like the way she talks. She told me that you're not supposed to point out things about people that they may be self-conscious about. That it could hurt their feelings. I said she had a big butt... Even though she does.. But she said some people might not take so kindly to the words. I'm just glad I didn't hurt her feelings. She's too nice... I don't want to do that.

But I'm not the only one that made a friend today... Spot did too. You know how Spot has three different personalities? That his heads aren't all the same? It's the same for her Hydra. Each head has a different name, and acts differently. I'll try to remember what each one of them are like... Let's see...

Ella is sweet, Nahla is curious, Sawyer's mistrusting of everyone, Sophie's playful, Yihana's mischevious and Nes is protective. There's six heads. Ella is my favorite, really. She let me pet her. Her scales were smooth and wet, and kind of like a fish's but better and less gross. I could've pet her all day. Honestly... I don't know how else to describe how she feels other than amazing. Nes is Martyr's favorite and has the most control over the body.

And well.... the Hydra and Spot seemed to get along. Honestly... I don't really understand what happened. I thought they were just wrestling... Martyr said something about playing checkers but... Spot doesn't know how to play checkers and he doesn't have thumbs! How can he play checkers? She said it's what she calls wrestling, but... that's a weird way to say it. Checkers and wrestling are totally different!

Then Dae showed up and started talking about porn. I asked him what that was and he said... what'd he say? "Dying goats and unrealistic scenarios"? Porn doesn't sound very appealing... I don't know why that exists. People topside are weird....

I feel like they were just trying to get me to leave Spot and Hydra alone, but they talked about ice cream and well... I really wanted to try it. So that's what we did... We also played tag on the way, one of Dae's favorite games I remember him saying a long time ago.

That's pretty much it... But now Spot's restless. I think he misses Hydra again. He keeps looking in the direction of the ocean and whining. I think Spot might have a... girlfriend? It's weird thinking about that..

Whitest Light

Date: 2016-09-03 11:04 EST
August 20th, 2016

I went to this place in Rhy'Din today. It's called the Red Dragon... but I didn't see any dragons. I wished I had. Instead, I met a girl. She was pale like me, had me questioning if she was an albino too. Her eyes weren't purple, they were a pretty pink. She said her name was Reiko, and she was one of the nicer people I've met with exception to Martyr. I think she understood about being albino, she was one of the few that didn't look at me funny.

She was a sweet lady, but... she's sick with anemia. She said it was sickle-cell and that her spleen might get hurt if she doesn't take care of it. I hope she takes care of it. I feel like Rhy'Din would be a little bit less nice without her. A little less brighter.

I didn't talk to her all that long, she was off to go rest before long. I liked her though, and I hope to see her again. She was one of those people that made me feel less.... estranged in this strange place.

She had a friend, at least I think he was her friend. A minotaur. He was nothing like what I read in the books. I didn't quite catch his name... but he wore a shirt with hibiscus flowers on it. A bright colored shirt. And sandals. He was giant! Not nearly as big as Spot... but he was still at least twice my height. He seemed friendly, but I could feel Spot approaching, so I didn't get the chance to ask him questions. Which is probably a good thing because he seemed to be busy talking to a lady. I didn't want to intrude with even more intrusive questions. With any luck.. I'll get to see him again and maybe ask him more of his kind.