A worried man with a worried mind
No one in front of me and nothing behind
There's a woman on my lap and she's drinking champagne
Got white skin, got assassin's eyes
I'm looking up into the sapphire tinted skies
I'm well dressed, waiting on the last train
-Bob Dylan, Things Have Changed.
October 17th, 2016
The days strung themselves out in a line of gray, unpainted aluminum. In hinges and door locks, in polished chrome casings. The line was automated: skeletal black steel fingers with bifold knuckles gripping metal sheeting that passed in eight-second intervals. Three point five seconds to spend on inspection. Two to flag any imperfections with yellow, perforated tape. One to click the button on the counter. One point five to push the rest of the unwanted thoughts away: sleep-saturated skin in the morning, coffee strong enough to start a nose bleed. The tic in his jaw that wouldn?t subside. An overwhelming sense that he was missing something.
Sometimes he thought, in that last eighth of a second before the metal clacked forward again, that it was his goddamn mind.
He wore blue coveralls with the name George stitched in white on a purple background. Above, a glorified shower cap mushroomed out over a bald head. The body supporting it was stocky and six inches shorter than Ketch?s. The difference in height had required some adjustment of balance and was one of those carryovers Ketch still found oddly fascinating. George was too top heavy for economy of motion. He was a lumberer and a trudger, and was not what Ketch thought most would consider an attractive man. Not that any of that mattered.
Five feet to his left was Marna cracking her gum as she made check marks on her clipboard. By her build, he suspected some orc in her bloodline, but distant. Just enough to make the eye double back over her figure. She smiled at him. George smiled back. She did have a nice smile. George had always thought that.
When he'd caught up with George in the tavern on Leeds just where August said he?d be, Ketch meant only to pull the surface from him?just enough to get by for three days, get the piece of paper August wanted, and get paid. But they?d sat there for five hours as the tavern filled and emptied again, splitting screen time between duels and Milt Pappa?s 1972 no-hitter at Wrigley. They drank Silvermarks as Ketch worked his way through a pack of cigarettes. George didn?t smoke, so Ketch kept the tray to his right.
Eventually, they struck up the kind of temporary camaraderie that came from drinking in close proximity. George knew a surprising amount about the Cubs for a man who?d been born and raised in RhyDin.
?They thought his wife was taken and sacrificed for a satanic ritual. The Ripper or some such name.? George swallowed another gulp of beer and inspected the label like it?d tell him something new.
Ripper Crew. Ketch nodded but didn't correct him. He knew the story about the pitcher?s wife but couldn't remember how he did. The macabre anticlimax of her car turning up five years later in a pond nearby, her body still behind the wheel.
?I?ve thought about it some,? George said, rapping the bottom of his bottle idly atop the counter until condensation dribbled onto it. ?If it was some kind of comfort that she drowned, instead. I don?t suppose it would matter much after five years.?
Ketch watched a pitch sail unswerving into the catcher?s glove, the jolt that ran through the catcher?s body, the gesture of the umpire?s hand. ?It does. If you think it doesn?t, you don?t know shit.?
****
By midnight he thought he could?ve been wrong about that, too. Beer and whiskey lodged deep in his system, bathing nerve endings in a cool neon glow that pulsed in the tips of his fingers. Everything inside him felt like it?d sunk below the level of his head. When he stood up, the world shifted politely on its axis to make room for his sway. He hadn?t been this good and drunk in awhile.
George?s skin was rougher than it looked. Gripping the man?s hand, Ketch shook it, palm to palm, thumb firmly curled. Some were trickier than others and put up a little resistance before giving in to the pull. Ketch figured it was some sixth sense mechanism of defense, though no one ever seemed aware of it when it was going on. But George barrelled right into him, his physical blueprint fluorescing and unfolding like a cactus flower in time-lapse. The familiar rush swarmed along Ketch?s forearms, and then it kept right on buzzing upwards without coaxing, which was unusual.
Ketch staggered backward after a three count as the landmarks of George?s life lit up within him like sparks flying from a bonfire. Unremarkable memories, many of them. The monotony had a lulling effect that he liked, though. A string of gray, aluminum days became gray aluminum months and gray aluminum years, and Ketch knew he?d sleep that night like he hadn?t in months.
No one in front of me and nothing behind
There's a woman on my lap and she's drinking champagne
Got white skin, got assassin's eyes
I'm looking up into the sapphire tinted skies
I'm well dressed, waiting on the last train
-Bob Dylan, Things Have Changed.
October 17th, 2016
The days strung themselves out in a line of gray, unpainted aluminum. In hinges and door locks, in polished chrome casings. The line was automated: skeletal black steel fingers with bifold knuckles gripping metal sheeting that passed in eight-second intervals. Three point five seconds to spend on inspection. Two to flag any imperfections with yellow, perforated tape. One to click the button on the counter. One point five to push the rest of the unwanted thoughts away: sleep-saturated skin in the morning, coffee strong enough to start a nose bleed. The tic in his jaw that wouldn?t subside. An overwhelming sense that he was missing something.
Sometimes he thought, in that last eighth of a second before the metal clacked forward again, that it was his goddamn mind.
He wore blue coveralls with the name George stitched in white on a purple background. Above, a glorified shower cap mushroomed out over a bald head. The body supporting it was stocky and six inches shorter than Ketch?s. The difference in height had required some adjustment of balance and was one of those carryovers Ketch still found oddly fascinating. George was too top heavy for economy of motion. He was a lumberer and a trudger, and was not what Ketch thought most would consider an attractive man. Not that any of that mattered.
Five feet to his left was Marna cracking her gum as she made check marks on her clipboard. By her build, he suspected some orc in her bloodline, but distant. Just enough to make the eye double back over her figure. She smiled at him. George smiled back. She did have a nice smile. George had always thought that.
When he'd caught up with George in the tavern on Leeds just where August said he?d be, Ketch meant only to pull the surface from him?just enough to get by for three days, get the piece of paper August wanted, and get paid. But they?d sat there for five hours as the tavern filled and emptied again, splitting screen time between duels and Milt Pappa?s 1972 no-hitter at Wrigley. They drank Silvermarks as Ketch worked his way through a pack of cigarettes. George didn?t smoke, so Ketch kept the tray to his right.
Eventually, they struck up the kind of temporary camaraderie that came from drinking in close proximity. George knew a surprising amount about the Cubs for a man who?d been born and raised in RhyDin.
?They thought his wife was taken and sacrificed for a satanic ritual. The Ripper or some such name.? George swallowed another gulp of beer and inspected the label like it?d tell him something new.
Ripper Crew. Ketch nodded but didn't correct him. He knew the story about the pitcher?s wife but couldn't remember how he did. The macabre anticlimax of her car turning up five years later in a pond nearby, her body still behind the wheel.
?I?ve thought about it some,? George said, rapping the bottom of his bottle idly atop the counter until condensation dribbled onto it. ?If it was some kind of comfort that she drowned, instead. I don?t suppose it would matter much after five years.?
Ketch watched a pitch sail unswerving into the catcher?s glove, the jolt that ran through the catcher?s body, the gesture of the umpire?s hand. ?It does. If you think it doesn?t, you don?t know shit.?
****
By midnight he thought he could?ve been wrong about that, too. Beer and whiskey lodged deep in his system, bathing nerve endings in a cool neon glow that pulsed in the tips of his fingers. Everything inside him felt like it?d sunk below the level of his head. When he stood up, the world shifted politely on its axis to make room for his sway. He hadn?t been this good and drunk in awhile.
George?s skin was rougher than it looked. Gripping the man?s hand, Ketch shook it, palm to palm, thumb firmly curled. Some were trickier than others and put up a little resistance before giving in to the pull. Ketch figured it was some sixth sense mechanism of defense, though no one ever seemed aware of it when it was going on. But George barrelled right into him, his physical blueprint fluorescing and unfolding like a cactus flower in time-lapse. The familiar rush swarmed along Ketch?s forearms, and then it kept right on buzzing upwards without coaxing, which was unusual.
Ketch staggered backward after a three count as the landmarks of George?s life lit up within him like sparks flying from a bonfire. Unremarkable memories, many of them. The monotony had a lulling effect that he liked, though. A string of gray, aluminum days became gray aluminum months and gray aluminum years, and Ketch knew he?d sleep that night like he hadn?t in months.