Night Angels (cont'd)
Fin got off early from Charlie's tonight in order to head over to Eva's clinic to meet Lirssa. She'd been gracious enough to arrange for one of her foster kids to come over and meet him at the clinic to speak to the two lasses he and Cris pulled out of the alley the other night. It had only been two days but Eva was kind enough to keep the wee one there for protection and see if they could fatten her up a bit before releasing her back into the wilds. So he'd made arrangements to keep the doors open and there he waited on a chair in the hallway just outside the lass's room.
Lirssa held Oona's hand all the way from High Spires. At the best guess, the girl looked to be seven. It was evening, so she did not wear the shade protecting hat. Her hair was white as cotton and done in two braids tied with blue bows that matched the pale blue of her eyes. Mittens and a coat kept the cold at bay, but when they approached the room, Lirssa helped Oona remove her winter wear. The girl's skin was pale, not from cold, but naturally. Lirssa gave Fin a smile in greeting before she made introductions. "Mr Mackenzie. This is Oona. Oona, this is Mr Mackenzie."
Hearing two sets of footsteps, Fin stood and waited for the pair to come around the corner, not really knowing what to expect. But there was Lirssa and a beautiful wee lass with very pale eyes looking up at him. The Scot couldn't help the warm smile that sprang to life, crinkling the corners of his eyes as he dropped to one knee to be more on Oona's level. "Oona, tha' be a verra pretty name. It be a pleasure to meet ye. Ye may call me Fin, if ye like."
Oona's smile was sweet if timid. She did not even look to Lirssa before she nodded. "Yes, sir, Fin." And then she remembered. "A pleasure." Poor youngster's blush was more pronounced due to her albinism. Her mittenless hand reached to touch Lirssa's arm for reassurance as she leaned just a little to try and see past the open door. It was obvious the little girl knew what she was here for.
Lirssa touched Oona's shoulder a moment, but she smiled to Fin and asked softly. "How is she?" Meaning the girl in the room.
Glancing up, his smile dimmed and the Scot rose to his feet, pitching a shoulder against the wall. "Alive. Awake. She has no' said much but gave me her name, Diana. I think the older lass has counseled silence but I can see it be against her nature." Diana was one of those that might tell you her life story in between breaths if you gave her a smile but was trying her best to follow the guidance of her protector. A glance down to Oona and he winked at her. "But I be certain they will speak to ye, lass. I wish ye much luck." Fin was going to wait out here and let Oona work her magic.
Oona bobbed her head several times. Her look up to Lirssa was curious and questioning. Lirssa gave a little tug at one braid. "Just open the door for her. Remember what we talked about when we first met?" Oona grinned drawing out a little resin cast rose. "Spring." Lirssa gave a wink. "That might not be her door, but it was yours. Share it." And with that Oona nodded and stepped to the room and gave a knock to the door. Politeness, respect for space, what the children of the street so rarely had. Oona stood at the door just smiling and holding the flower, and said to Diana. "May I come in?"
Little Diana was sitting up in bed, unconcerned about the IV needle taped to the back of her wrist. Being small and malnourished, they found it too difficult to tap a vein at the crook of her arm and opted for thinner skin, instead. She had dark circles under her eyes but there was a light in them that wouldn't be diminished (or hadn't been, yet). She gave a shy smile and a wave to Oona before looking to the older girl that stood at the side of her bed. That one was wary but nodded to allow Oona entry. Fin watched from the side of the doorway, breathing a sigh of relief when Oona walked further into the room. Shot a faint smile to Lirssa. "Thank ye, verra much, for bringin' her here. I hope it will do some sort o' good," keeping his voice low and quiet so as not to disturb the conversation between the girls on the other side of the doorway.
Lirssa watched Oona move in the room and to the bed, and with that magical way about her, just open up about everything she saw and how grand it was.
When she turned to Fin, she nodded and then tilted her head a bit to draw him a few steps away from the door. Her voice was easily quiet, but pitched so he could hear. "And how are you?" The question held many layers to it, his welfare, his state in regards to the girls, his worries about what was to come.
Fin was drawn away easily since there were still questions he'd like to ask, as well. Diana was too happy to open her mouth and talk about the place she 'lived' with Ollie (the older girl) and Laric and some other kids, about the angel who sometimes brought them food (not knowing that 'angel' was Fin). The Scot didn't hear any of that, instead focusing on the woman a few feet away. A soft sigh escaped him, arms crossing his chest as he relaxed back against the wall once more.
"Fearful. An' hopeful, at the same time, if tha' be possible," giving a faint, crooked smile that only touched one side of his mouth. Concern darkened his blue eyes. "I want to protect them but I canno' be there every moment. I have respected their choice to stay out there but...'haps I will be able to convince them to find a safer place to live." Not that he had any idea of where to start for a long term plan such as that but it was better than the alternative. "If I had no' been there, if I had come a different night..." Jaw flexed, not wanting to think about any other scenarios in which he wasn't able to save them.
"You cannot think of those times. It will rip you apart. If that happens, you give up, and then you will be no good to anyone any night." A light touch of a smile, but a bitter sorrow in her eyes. "You cannot be everywhere at once. You are not a god, and even whatever gods there may be do not care enough to stop it." She let out a slow breath. "As to another place. Some more of a home, but that would come with restrictions that the older girl may not be willing to accept. There are others less confining, too." She looked him over, examining his expression, trying to read beyond his words. "Why these girls?"
"I will ne'er give up," he murmured, jaw flexing once more before relaxing into the conversation. He knew the truth of her words but that was still a cold comfort to his guilt and his sense of foreboding, should the girls go right back to their same life, the same scenes set up to happen over and over. The question of God's existence drew a grunt but nothing more - too large a subject to touch on in the moment, where it had little relevance. "Aye, I think tha' some o' them have tried it before or an orphanage but found themselves back out there again." The last question had brows rising in surprise a moment before giving her a curious glance. "Wha' d'ye mean?"
At the word orphanage her look hardened, but she did not speak of the ache that trapped her lungs. She took a breath slow and deep to get past that and asked. "Why did you stop for these girls? Were they the first of the shadow children you had seen? Or just the first ones that seemed to need you?" It could be a dozen reasons, she knew, or perhaps no reason at all, and still she asked the question. "Why do you do it?"
Her reaction was noticed, even in the poor lighting of the clinic hallway after hours, but he wasn't sure which specific word set it off and...they didn't know each other well, not yet. Not enough for him to ask what was bothering her so he let it slide and would watch out for it again. "Shadow children? Why d'ye call them tha'?" it being the first time he'd heard that term used. They were street rats, gutter trash, homeless urchins...the list of terms he'd heard went on and on but 'shadow children' was not among them. Also, he was buying time while trying to decide how much to tell her about himself.
Lips pressed together in a tight line for a moment, glancing down at the floor between them while a frown formed but not because she asked, just... "They are no' the first I ha' seen, no' by any stretch o' the imagination. I think...I do no' know tha' they need me, I think I need them, more." It was coming out as riddles though it made perfect sense in his head, honest. Finally, his gaze rose to meet hers once more. "I do it...because I have to. Because I canno' walk away, knowin' wha' could happen to them if no one tries to help. I do no' know if I be doin' anythin' to help who they will be or the choices they will make in the future but I know tha' I canno' do nothin'."
She took some time parsing out his words. He spoke, well, if she were honest with herself, he spoke almost as she did. Words came out in segments with entire histories behind them. Histories that were not shared easily. "I call them the shadow children because for all the money thrown about in the name of these children, they are still kept to the shadows. They sleep in warm alleyways and in the muck of barns and stalls, longing and fearing to be seen." It was in his stance, the way he looked at the floor and then finally looked up at her. It was in the tunnels of meaning behind his words. That he needed them more. "You know what I mean, don't you." She dared the statement instead of asking it of him.
He didn't know much about orphanages or charities that espoused the virtues of lifting these children off the streets in the name of bettering a neighborhood. All he knew was the harsh realities of their lives, what it was like to live them. Gauging her expression, the set of her mouth and the penetrating look in her eyes, he knew what she was asking and answered with a nod. "Aye, I do. I...ha' been one o' them before." Pause, chewing the inside of his cheek. "Before I came here."
A simple nod. Her fingers curled around each other, and she looked back to the doorway where three girls spoke and the soft sound of Oona's laughter tickled the air. When she looked back to him, she did not offer him sympathy or some weak patronizing platitude. "I don't know what it was like where you came from. I imagine here is a little different." It was a way to open the conversations to questions if he had any. He was a smart man. The fact he had his history and was where he was alive gave her at least that much information. There was no reason to assume anything else about him.
"Tha' place...it no' be where I am from. I was...taken there." His own fault but the end result was the same. "It was a different world, aye some different rules but...I do no' think it be so verra different." Rules of the streets were rules of the streets no matter where you went - the strong survived and the weak perished. "Ye grew up here, in this world? Is tha' why ye know it so verra well?" giving her a slightly searching gaze. He didn't want to appear too nosy or come off as prying but he was just as curious about her involvement in all the foster homes as she was about his background. "Why d'ye do it?" lobbing the same question back at her.
Sometimes it hurt to have an imagination as wild as hers. With the words, 'taken', she imagined him removed from everything he once knew. It hurt to think of it, and her eyes closed a moment, brows pinched briefly as that picture formed. She buried it deep down, and took a slow breath. She answered him openly. Her gaze met his, letting him see truth there. "Yes. I was born here as best I know, and my first memories are in this city." Her fingers finally released and relaxed. Resting back against the wall, she still looked to him. "I do it because I know what it was like for those without my luck. I do not want them to live a life wondering what they had done, why no one cared, what would make someone love them if only..." It was a wretched smile, but she had to smile to fight away tears born of stress and frustration.
Unfortunately, in this instance, her imagination was not so wild. In fact, it was quite on point though the place he was taken from wasn't everything he'd known, it wasn't his home. No, he'd taken that step himself and still cursed it, to this day. The slow breath - it made him chuff a breath, lifted one corner of his mouth because he did the same thing to get through a particularly stressful moment. The Scot wasn't aware, however, it was on his behalf. The blatant implication was more of a statement, speaking to her background and he was able to fill in many blanks on his own. The wretched smile tugged at his heart and he reached out to light hook his fingers around hers, squeezing gently. "I know it, lass," he murmured, knowing the emotion behind that sham of a smile, knowing it intimately. "Sometimes it feels as if we are doin' nothin' a'tall, it be so small. But think how large it be to Oona an' the other lasses in there wit' her. They will no' be claimed."
The gentle squeeze of his hand was returned. The smile took on a touch of truth, and then the words gave it more strength. She nodded, "Yes. To her, to them, and to the adults eyes that are opened because of them." She chewed on the corner of her mouth, a thoughtful habit. "I once heard that someone said 'Not all of us can do great things. But we can do small things with great love.'" She shrugged. "I do not know if it is great love, but I will not stop doing the small things I can." Realizing her hand was still around his, she gave another warm squeeze. "And I will help you do the same, if you will allow it."
Fin didn't think much of adults in this world - those that were there either turned a blind eye or they were the ones manipulating and abusing the children but the rest of her statement earned a nod of agreement. "I like tha'. Small things done wit' great love," smiling to himself as he tried to commit it to memory. "This may or may no' help them, but I be grateful for everythin' ye be doin'." The Scot hesitated before pressing forward with his usual impulsiveness. "An' I want to be helpin' ye, if I can, wit' the warehouse. The one ye be lookin' for. If there be slavery here...please, allow me to help," the plea ringing in his tone.
Her breath caught. The threats the last man had made. 'He'll be coming for you now.' "Fin, I..." she wanted to tell him no, but how could she ask to be part of his work and then deny him? "I want you to, but," she looked over his face, searching for what, she did not know. The plea and the intensity of his request tore at her, making decision impossible. "It is not fair to draw you into it." And then the answer came to her. "What if they lost both of us?" They. The shadow children.
There was a snort and a lopsided smirk but the mirth didn't reach his eyes. "Ah, lass. Tha' be verra kind o' ye to think o' m'safety but in dealin' wit' this sort o' people, ye need all the help ye can get. I ha'...I was a slave for a verra long time, I can help ye find information, know wha' to look for. If I did no' think tha' I could truly help ye, I would no' offer. If ye fell an' I was no' there to help..." Well, he wouldn't be able to live with those what-ifs. "This be m'own decision an' whether ye say aye or nay, I will be lookin' for tha' place on m'own. There is another tha' can help to shelter these children should all else be lost. D'ye know Ben, tha' lives wit' Jack an' Lirenel?"
The name was only vaguely familiar, but it was a large city. Still, it was his words that brought up a little laugh. "You rogue, why did you ask then if you're going to go huntin' for it anyway?" His audacity mixed with his determination had her chuckling at the mad avenging angels they made, and she aimed a kiss to his cheek. "Very well, you bull headed fool. We'll help each other, but that means you and I have to train together some." That part would brook no refusal. "I called Cris that time because he knows what I can do, and I know some of what he can do."
Rogue. It had been some time since he was called by that epithet, a wolfish smile forming for it. "I though' ye would prefer workin' wit' me than runnin' across each other as a surprise. Makes for easier plannin'." Plus, he respected what she was doing and wasn't going to bull his way in - a politely phrased request for permission usually worked greater words. Flies with honey and all that. "Train together?" he asked with raised brows. Now that part was news to him. "Wha' sort o' trainin'? Eh...wha' can ye do?"
"The sort where we learn how to work together, balance each other?s weaknesses with our strengths." A cheeky grin, "Duck and get out of the others way at the right time." The cheekiness faded, past memories playing over moments that went south. "Build trust." She cleared her throat and looked to the doorway, listening to the chatter. A wistful smile, then she looked over his face again. "There are many things I can do, just I am sure there are many things you can do."
Those were things he could understand, being raised as a warrior for his clan. Long hours on the practice fields flitted through his memories and he smiled warmly for the memories though they were unbidden. "Aye, I can agree to tha'. I ha' been fightin' more lately, time to pick up a weapon again." It felt good to be using it in defense of another and he actually looked forward to this training. The older lass, Ollie, appeared in the doorway to nod at the both of them - a signal that Diana was getting sleepy again and needed rest. Fin twisted around to give a nod and push away from the wall, releasing Lirssa's fingers (not even realizing they were still hooked together). "I be certain we will find out wha' the other can do soon enough," said with a low chuckle following. "Tell me when ye need me an' I will be there." Peeking through the doorway, he smiled and winked to Diana - she responded with a bright smile. Such a sunny lass, she was.
Oona came back out, the flower left behind. "Good night, Fin." The little girl said with a wave and then hopped over to claim Lirssa's hand. "Oh, your hand is warm." The girl smiled and leaned against Lirssa. "Piggy back?" She said hopefully. "Yeah, okay." Lirssa hooked an arm with the girl and swung her up on her back.
Turning to Fin she gave a nod. "I will send a message. We'll work it out." The smile was warm watching him interact with the girls. "Be good-ish, Fin."
A wide grin formed to see Lirssa swing the wee lass up on her back like that. "Aye, I will look out for yer message. An' thank ye again, yerself an' wee Oona." The pale lass got one more wink before the pair made for the door. "Have a good eve," he called out behind them. "Be safe." Then he went in to briefly confer with the two lasses before leaving, himself.
((Much thanks to Lirssa's player for taking a chance on an unkown kid))