-Entry 1 *sparkle Sparkle*
Grey Daze - Drag
Torture me
Make me feel like I am real
Torture me
Drag me under you
Time lifts me up and down
Time makes me
SHUT UP
Life is much to short to be intoxicated
Life is much to short to be a drag
Please treat me
Like I am a fallen angel
Surpass me
Tell me
LIES
(You can tell me...lies)
Drag
Drag
Drag
Dear Spankin new Diary:
Mmm, I love the smell of brand new paper. Hi, how are you, new diary? I'm dandy, thanks for asking. Yep, a new diary for a new part of my life. Thriving motherhood. I've never been happier with someone in my long life. So thank you, Damien. Thank you for shedding light to everything. Thank you for showing how great I have it, without you - without love. No, I have love. It's perfect and pure; it's my daughter. That's something you could never give me, Damien. For the first time in a long time, I thank you. I may even forgive you now. I may even stop hating you. I may even stop thinking about you at all. But I'll tell you one thing, you better thank Claira for being the reason of all this.
I saw my lil Tina Monster the other night. She's getting so big. Oh, she has the wildest red curls that reminds me of Claira's hair. She showed me a few of the attack moves that she learned at magic school. All I gotta say is... Run for the hills! This kid blew up a chair with a lightening bolt from her fingertips! Egag!
So last night I hung out at the inn. Oh my gaw, big news here. We think Rhy is pregnant.. Oh my... god! I'm going to be an aunt!.... Again! Yay! Well, they said that it was just two nights ago... But damnit! She better be! Then they went into details and I started to freak out. Rhy is going to look soooo cute with a lil preggo tummy! I can't wait! Daniel is going to be a big brother. Awwww.
I spent most of the night with Casper, my lil man. He's about four or five. The poor thing is scared of just about anything besides me. He's even scared to come near me when there's a lot of people around me. He makes me want to have a little boy. He's so cute. He was all blushy around Ree. I asked if he wanted to talk to her and he said yea, but he mostly talked into my shoulder most of the night. He even talked to Lain a little. Lain thinks I'm growing kids, heh. Sometimes I think that's the only thing I'm good at doing... being a mother. I think that's the best thing I could only be good at. Casper has the whitest skin... even Claira has darker skin than he does. That's the only thing unnatural about that purely human child. I wonder if I could adopt him.
I don't want to tell Claira about Rhy might being pregnant. She'd go crazy and start poofing in baby stuff nine months early. Rhy and I agreed tht we should work on our potty mouthes. Maybe I should set us up classes. Hm. But I don't really slip around Claira. I say damn, but I don't really see that as a dirty word. Then again, if I ever heard Claira say that I'd prolly pop her one. Hm, ya give and ya take.
Oooo, and I talked Ryo into moving into the CZK house. Yay, no more boredom for Claira and I! Yea, Claira and I get bored. Ly has been gone lately, and Rhy is always with Dean... seeing as they are MARRIED. The other girls come and go... while Claira and I stay.... every night. I don't remember the last time I stayed away from the CZK house while I was in RhyDin. But now we'll have Ryo, our favorite gay man. Yea, I know we're not supposed to have guys at the house staying, but Ryo isn't really a guy. He's Ryo! My BGF! So one day soon I'm helping him move in.
But I guess that's it for now. Hm, I'm happy with my new found happiness. I'm totally and completely over Damien, and I don't even hate him anymore. Funny what spending time with a six year old can do for you. Well, not saying that it Damien messes with me or my friends that I wouldn't kill him on the spot. No, that's not it at all. Frankly, I wouldn't even think twice about slitting his throat. It's just that I have no feelings at all towards him. The part of my heart that he did hold is now a empty void. It feels good to be free.
I feel totally at ease. Not a worry in the world could drag me down. Traaaa-la-la-la-laaaa!
Kisses,
Jade Eli Ravenlock Rogue<3
Grey Daze - Drag
Torture me
Make me feel like I am real
Torture me
Drag me under you
Time lifts me up and down
Time makes me
SHUT UP
Life is much to short to be intoxicated
Life is much to short to be a drag
Please treat me
Like I am a fallen angel
Surpass me
Tell me
LIES
(You can tell me...lies)
Drag
Drag
Drag
Dear Spankin new Diary:
Mmm, I love the smell of brand new paper. Hi, how are you, new diary? I'm dandy, thanks for asking. Yep, a new diary for a new part of my life. Thriving motherhood. I've never been happier with someone in my long life. So thank you, Damien. Thank you for shedding light to everything. Thank you for showing how great I have it, without you - without love. No, I have love. It's perfect and pure; it's my daughter. That's something you could never give me, Damien. For the first time in a long time, I thank you. I may even forgive you now. I may even stop hating you. I may even stop thinking about you at all. But I'll tell you one thing, you better thank Claira for being the reason of all this.
I saw my lil Tina Monster the other night. She's getting so big. Oh, she has the wildest red curls that reminds me of Claira's hair. She showed me a few of the attack moves that she learned at magic school. All I gotta say is... Run for the hills! This kid blew up a chair with a lightening bolt from her fingertips! Egag!
So last night I hung out at the inn. Oh my gaw, big news here. We think Rhy is pregnant.. Oh my... god! I'm going to be an aunt!.... Again! Yay! Well, they said that it was just two nights ago... But damnit! She better be! Then they went into details and I started to freak out. Rhy is going to look soooo cute with a lil preggo tummy! I can't wait! Daniel is going to be a big brother. Awwww.
I spent most of the night with Casper, my lil man. He's about four or five. The poor thing is scared of just about anything besides me. He's even scared to come near me when there's a lot of people around me. He makes me want to have a little boy. He's so cute. He was all blushy around Ree. I asked if he wanted to talk to her and he said yea, but he mostly talked into my shoulder most of the night. He even talked to Lain a little. Lain thinks I'm growing kids, heh. Sometimes I think that's the only thing I'm good at doing... being a mother. I think that's the best thing I could only be good at. Casper has the whitest skin... even Claira has darker skin than he does. That's the only thing unnatural about that purely human child. I wonder if I could adopt him.
I don't want to tell Claira about Rhy might being pregnant. She'd go crazy and start poofing in baby stuff nine months early. Rhy and I agreed tht we should work on our potty mouthes. Maybe I should set us up classes. Hm. But I don't really slip around Claira. I say damn, but I don't really see that as a dirty word. Then again, if I ever heard Claira say that I'd prolly pop her one. Hm, ya give and ya take.
Oooo, and I talked Ryo into moving into the CZK house. Yay, no more boredom for Claira and I! Yea, Claira and I get bored. Ly has been gone lately, and Rhy is always with Dean... seeing as they are MARRIED. The other girls come and go... while Claira and I stay.... every night. I don't remember the last time I stayed away from the CZK house while I was in RhyDin. But now we'll have Ryo, our favorite gay man. Yea, I know we're not supposed to have guys at the house staying, but Ryo isn't really a guy. He's Ryo! My BGF! So one day soon I'm helping him move in.
But I guess that's it for now. Hm, I'm happy with my new found happiness. I'm totally and completely over Damien, and I don't even hate him anymore. Funny what spending time with a six year old can do for you. Well, not saying that it Damien messes with me or my friends that I wouldn't kill him on the spot. No, that's not it at all. Frankly, I wouldn't even think twice about slitting his throat. It's just that I have no feelings at all towards him. The part of my heart that he did hold is now a empty void. It feels good to be free.
I feel totally at ease. Not a worry in the world could drag me down. Traaaa-la-la-la-laaaa!
Kisses,
Jade Eli Ravenlock Rogue<3