Sometimes it felt like she were backstage watching life play out around her. All the colours, faces and conversations as rain droplets down a window, and she behind the pane, watching them all run into one another. Synchronicity was a funny mistress to court, and she recognised that she was dancing with it, closely, from her unusual vantage point, as a living dead girl, an animated miracle of necromancy. Was she just a vessel that somehow behaved like the rest of them, knew when to smile and laugh by some uncanny synapse that relegated her whole being into Normal Behaviour? So much had played out perfectly, despite the difficulties of Artsblood and her threats of tragedy, that Madi had begun to wonder if she was paying more attention than she thought - did the mystery of her new skin have some sonar, some synthesis with the inner workings of existence?
So many questions!
Mostly, they and cousins of such questions lay aside, like dying dogs. She hardly tended to them but let them waste as she went about her unlife as best she could, without thinking too much on the uncertainties, even though they were everywhere. However, what it all had conspired to help her recognise, was how vastly important it would be to walk through the shuttering, flickery silent screen of this surreal personal era (as fledgling), where all was blacker than black and whiter than white, and reach beyond the pale, the set... She did try.
Walking Orlan around the yard, testing his reflexes with the gentle aid of a crop, she waited for Janey-girl's arrival. Lunch promised. The sun was bright and shining, it was a beautiful day and one perfect for basking in. There were no patches of sun but giant quilts of it that swanned over the fields and spread out for golden miles - out there a picnic blanket awaited them. With a gaze at that giant star and its position, as one might check a waxing candle, she saw the time to be just on Noon. It had touched its apex.
A glance to the fenceline where she expected Jane to be coming from, and she dismounted, walking the horse over to the others where he was locked in paddock.
Friendship with a mortal was the last frontier, the final bridge between herself and a sense of humanity. She didn't have many friends, for all the folk who claimed to know her. They didn't, not now. Some in time would, perhaps again, but she was not the Older one. Those she did feel in kindred with, now, the ones who sought to understand and love, they were blessings. Treasured and not lost on a girl like Madi. Whoever Madi, the Younger, was.
So many questions!
Mostly, they and cousins of such questions lay aside, like dying dogs. She hardly tended to them but let them waste as she went about her unlife as best she could, without thinking too much on the uncertainties, even though they were everywhere. However, what it all had conspired to help her recognise, was how vastly important it would be to walk through the shuttering, flickery silent screen of this surreal personal era (as fledgling), where all was blacker than black and whiter than white, and reach beyond the pale, the set... She did try.
Walking Orlan around the yard, testing his reflexes with the gentle aid of a crop, she waited for Janey-girl's arrival. Lunch promised. The sun was bright and shining, it was a beautiful day and one perfect for basking in. There were no patches of sun but giant quilts of it that swanned over the fields and spread out for golden miles - out there a picnic blanket awaited them. With a gaze at that giant star and its position, as one might check a waxing candle, she saw the time to be just on Noon. It had touched its apex.
A glance to the fenceline where she expected Jane to be coming from, and she dismounted, walking the horse over to the others where he was locked in paddock.
Friendship with a mortal was the last frontier, the final bridge between herself and a sense of humanity. She didn't have many friends, for all the folk who claimed to know her. They didn't, not now. Some in time would, perhaps again, but she was not the Older one. Those she did feel in kindred with, now, the ones who sought to understand and love, they were blessings. Treasured and not lost on a girl like Madi. Whoever Madi, the Younger, was.