Topic: Sol Death

Bashara

Date: 2010-07-07 20:07 EST
The Egyptian's sleep was fitful and restless. The Midnight Tear's had perhaps clouded her judgement and darkened her spirit to a point of careless oblivion and violent indifference. The state of the Egyptian's altering of mood was present by the state of disarray of her room, the perfume bottles resting smashed into glistening pieces of glass upon the vanity, the jagged cuts in the fabric of the curtains. The token trinket of black silk, crimson ribbons, raven feathers, and gold cat's eye thrown across the room and left abandoned.

There were many things she had been called in her time, Harem Harlot Queen, Goldmine, Sphinx, Enigma, Sol, Fiery One. So many names cluttered her thoughts and mind, tainting her memories. The bottle of Tears rolled away from the bed where the Egyptian rested sprawled over the covers. It was a strange thing that the glass did not shatter as the bottle had fallen from her fingertips, but merely rolled away in its own abandonment to clink in a sound like sadness and utmost anguish of loss against the token trinket.

It all seemed mirages and desert illusions the presence of the Guardian in her room. The haunting scent of the mountain lion clinging to the air near suffocating her senses... and the blue... oh the blue would stifle her.

Such a permanent thing the blue would be in her life ever present in the eyes of those the Egyptian would be drawn to. Surely there were others that had drawn her that carried not those stains and strands of blue to overcome Ba'shara but it was a frequent thing. A known thing that the Sun would ever be drawn to the sky. Taken to the blue.

Ba'shara did not recall the moment she took up one of the dream scarabs from the vanity, nor did she remember choosing the stones. Everything seemed so faint and distant, everything seemed so wrought in magic and deceit she no longer could separate the illusion from the reality.

Succumbing to the dreams she gave in, submitted in a way she never had before, until those dreams claimed her in such a way that a mere dream became unconsciousness.

A flash of images. A glimpse of those she was leaving behind. The Hypnotist and the Rain Dancer. Tavarius and the Gun Slinger. The Rex and the Raven. The Guardian and the Hunter. The Roman and the Savage Lord. The Northern Born and the Enigma. The Ember Princess and the Sun Prince. The Wolf and the Nameless.

The dreams seemed to brush and carry them all away, so far away from her. For a moment she felt the tearing pain of infinite loss and melancholy but her steps continued on along that dark road gilded in gold.

The greater the distance between the more distant the memory and presence of them became in the Egyptian's mind. There were no doors where she entered but the dream became a room, and within the room rested a scale and the great book. She stared quietly up upon the presence of the one that guarded and directed it all as he picked up the feather of white, as pure as innocence in his hand as his lips never would move but the words filled her head, her mind, her soul awaiting her answer to that eternal question.

If your ka was weighed on the scale against a feather, how would the scales be moved? Would they move at all? Where is your balance now, little goddess? Where will your ka go when the Sol dies?

Bashara

Date: 2010-07-11 12:29 EST
When you gave yourself over to death, everything changes. Standing before the Book of the Dead she offered out her soul in a silent offering. She knew well that she was to be judged. He wore a smile as he looked to her before extending his hands.

You have been hiding again, little goddess... isn't it time you dropped this mirage?

Unspoken words that touched her mind as she rose her head, molten golds smoldering as she licked at her suddenly dry lips. The heat of the desert clinging to her flesh to mix with the rose water sweet of her perfume.

"You speak of me as if I belonged amongst you."

Were you not drawn to one that was worshipped? The woman that brought you to this life... to where you are now...she knew well what she did.

"I cannot protest or disagree in that. However, I cannot live any longer in my aunt's delusions."

His laughter brushed her senses like a lover's caress even as his fingers moved over the pages of the Book of the Dead.

Looking at him for a moment she saw a flash of blue, a hint of red. The Hypnotist.

A shake of head and it was the same man before her. Known and unknown. A God.

Delusions... Hallucinations... is this what you think you are brought to? Little goddess there is much to learn.

There was no pain when her soul was drawn to be weighed against the scales. Weighed against a feather.

Silent Ba'shara would watch even as that soul parting was sensed by her unconscious form, her physical body losing its life the longer she remained in this world. Did it matter now? She wasn't so certain.

You are unbalanced...So close and yet the balance you hold within has not been accepted, Bastet, take what is yours to be

"I do not understand what it is to take what is mine to be."

His smile deepened then as he shoved her soul back within her body, both physical and metaphysical.

You will little goddess, you will. It's time you let the world know Her.

Bashara

Date: 2010-07-13 21:32 EST
A long dark path. A shadow walk. The road of her mind seemed endless.

Ba'shara knew that she was not alone, sensed that the shadows lived and breathed. Moved and twisted. Came alive as she moved within them.

Those shadows were haunted as one such shadow stepped forth to block her path.

A graceful creature of smooth lines and sleek darkness. Night dark until the beast opened its eyes to reveal the liquid gold of burning suns. Dual shine as the black lioness licked at her mouth before snarling out a challenge.

The tail of the lioness would thrash even as she moved forward toward the Egyptian.

Accept me

"But... I don't know you... you were nothing but a curse."

Another step forward as the beast rose on hind haunches, great paws of shadow smooth dark pressing upon the Egyptian's shoulders. Digging in and drawing blood.

Take me

"I cannot... this is not what I want. I do not wish... to lose control..."

The full force of weight of the beast was pressed upon her and she stumbled before collapsing in a sprawl upon the ground as the lioness loomed above her.

Know me...

Ba'shara went to struggle, moved to scream but she was not the one in control at this moment.

The parting of warm mouth left her struggling against the beast as the energy and spirit of the black lioness was poured through her. Choking her and gagging her as she struggled to resist the change.

The scream that would come from her lungs in the dreamscape was a scream of the lioness in the snarling growling roar.

A Queen again would rise.

Muscles and bone snapped and altered. Gave way and separated in painful contortions to leave space for stronger muscles, sleeker curves and velvety fur.

Be of me... and I will be of you

The black lioness of Egypt... the one once in whispers called in the worship of cats as Bastet roamed on her great paws. Silent and deadly as she sought in the dream dunes that which had been lost... that which she sought to reclaim.

Bashara

Date: 2010-07-19 13:34 EST
He is bound to you... the one you see now. He is bound as you are to me... as we are bound together. Meant to be as one. Do you not remember how it was with the archer, when we walked together as one as beast with the humanity of a woman within our mind, our heart, our soul? Then we were one but you have grown distant... denying that which is a part of you. Denying me... and now you deny him.

The voice was a warm caress, rumbling soft in its growl as the lioness spoke within her mind. In the dream scape Ba'shara awoke as her mind flickered with the painted emotions of the beast within her mind. Of course she remembered the time with the archer, when she had been trapped within the flesh of the beast... and yet before... she was content... to be so. The Egyptian frowned as she contemplated this, what had taken the acceptance from her spirit? Why was it different now to the point that she near denied that part of herself that always was beast. Ba'shara was starting to understand that the lioness was not just a part of her... she was the lioness just as much as Clyaton was the Rex.

Long before we walked this earth, our fates were intertwined with that of the mountain lion, your Rex. Your Clayton. The Rex now is mine, Clayton is yours... but they both should be ours. It should be both of us accepting them both as one entity. Not separated... this duality should not exist... you should be with me... and we should be together. As One. As we were destined to be... just as You and I were destined to be as One with the man and the mountain lion. It is written so.

In the dreams she sat up and brushed her fingers through the black river of her hair as she stared out at the dream landscape before her even as she conversed with the beast within her mind.

"But what of the Guardian, what of the Raven?...and the rest?"

They will ever be tied to you... to us...but the fates that intertwine them all to you is separate from the bond woven between you and the Rex. Still there is the bond, it is undeniable the bond you carry with the Raven... but this is not the time, perhaps another life we shall walk together as one... but this is not our path for this time. The path this time... is with the Rex.

"It is difficult though... to be accepting of a life such as the one I saw with him... when... my life has never been that of a family... I have known nothing more then... what we have experienced."

Then perhaps it is time you look upon the future that you saw with the Rex, the dreams you both shared. Perhaps it is time for you to consider it for yourself in order for your soul to find true joy again... the same that we shared with the Archer

The Archer. It had been so long since he had gone away. The years were nothing more then grains of sand as she considered the time that seemed like a lifetime ago when she had been the lioness communicating in mind speech with the Archer. Loving him as if they were a couple, sleeping with him as if they were meant as lovers rather then the assumption that she was a pet or a familiar to the Archer. Those days now were long gone and yet Ba'shara found within her heart that it was the truth... she wished for that joy again.

She had to wonder if in order for duality to become singularity if she would need to wear the collar once more in order for her mind to not be split between herself and the lioness... but for the pair of them to be of one mind, one body, one spirit.

You must accept this... to make us as one... and to be with him before he is gone... before his path dissipates to walk a journey with his brothers. If not... I cannot confess I know if he will return. Accept me, little goddess... accept me and accept him... only then can we truly be free again to love as we wish...

Tears welled in her eyes, leaving the depths of molten gold to shine as if touched by the sun itself.

"I don't wish to lose him... or any of them... I wish to be free. I accept you... no matter the cost. No matter the price."

The dream landscape was suddenly gone as a harsh thrust of power spilled through her and poured through her spirit even as it seemed to paint the area around her in black and gold.

Opening her eyes the dream faded and she found herself alone in her room once more as she took the dream scarabe from her stomach and stared down at it with a mixed expression of wonder and horror. Awe and Uncertainty. The transformation had been completed... a duality now a singularity... she no longer feared that which was to pass.

Rising from her bed she moved once more to the vanity and set the scarab with the other two dream scarabs, the drawer of the vanity pulled open as she found the smooth, cool familiarity of the item withdrawn from the vanity drawer. It was the same as it always had been, but there were now additions to be made.

Items once abandoned that were tokens of her heart were added to the item of her past. A quick skill of fingers that would bring the black silk and blood red ribbon, the solitaire raven feather, and the gold cat's eye into a fixed talisman to be wrapped and bound around the accessory before it was set and clasped around her smooth throat.

Once again she wore the collar of onyx with the blazing gold heiroglyphics... but the glyphs had changed, had altered... just as she had... things now would never be the same.