The following is a retrospective.
'Sparrow Foot Trail' follows a journey out West taken by Tag and Madison to strategise and execute the freeing of a young friend of the gunslinger's who has been manipulated and converted to and by the Hexxen; a dangerous and insidious syndicate who are the Law, and far spread across the many cantons but whom are based in Lofton, Madison's former home. The Hexxen sought the trial and murder of Elijah Donaldson, Madison's ex-hushand, who was seen as a deserter.
Along the trail, which is liminal, emotional, as much as it is physical, Tag and Madison's friendship deepens, and they begin to face their own demons, sew one another's seams, and find penance and redemption in one another and the circumstances around them..
2010
Abandoned warehouse, West End
"Want to come on a road trip? There's trouble out West. A... a boy of mine, an employee, he's been took down. I'm heading out in a week or so to emancipate him. I.. I wondered if maybe you would want to join in. " Her voice was rich with concern then faded and frayed. "I would be relieved if you would. That's not hard for me to say, neither." Things had become easier to say to one another.
The door to the old warehouse that stood around them stretched in the wind. It's front door slammed hard. She jerked a little and her teeth closed at the shock of it. "You'll know people, I'll see to it. You'll be covered."
She hangs her head and massages the base of her neck, right where the hermit ache lives at the top of her spine. "I'm not one to beg, but I want you there."
"Of course, I will be there."
He had felt dispossessed since his decision to pack everything up in his bags and leave the house. Liang wouldn't like it, he was sure of that. The man practically demanded that Tag stay in Rhydin before but... this seemed more natural. His response had come so quickly it was as though he had been waiting for her to ask.
She could have told him that they were to crawl through the bowels of a cave rotten with disease. It could have been that there was a sweet house that sat in the country and waited for them to reach. Or something more abstract, like a reconciliation. The details of the journey were not ones which seemed so much to matter to him.
After all, it had always been being around her which was his interest. Tag held no one obligated to explain themselves to him. Most of the time explanations didn't mean anything. It was always the interaction, the air of it and the intention. He looked up the ladder, his dark eyes following each step to the top before regarding her once more.
"I have everything with me."
He wasn't saying it, but his posture, the lean of it and the gaze that was on her, said that he was ready to go now if only she asked that it be now. The dark man was more, he was sewn to the bottoms of her toes and now, her shadow, if she could even feel the small transition. It was much like the fulfillment of what had always been.
Relief floods. While his dark eyes roam, hers lose their steel and the reserve behind is let loose. Relief floods. Like the first wave of summer crashing over skin. The light changes and there's some sunshine breaking through the clouds on this situation. She exhales through her teeth and tips her chin, flashing a broad smile. Relief she wore a lot better than tension, the one that chased her home like a hound. Madison doesn't ask if he is sure because she knows he is.
Tag was a man of straight answers, cut straight as his silhouette. However quick the response, it seemed a certainty rather than a trifle. The warehouse opened wide again, the woods creak and stretch and so too her chest. It was good breathing easier. "I'm packing things up at the hotel. I can fix you up there.. you'll need a gun." She's inviting him to her hideaway, where no one else knows, escape route number nine, before this Venture really gets rolling. Trust explicit.
Boot swings back into a step, she pinches a coin from her breast pocket, sets it into a somersault, catches it, warms it in her hand and fills his with hers, the coin pressed from her palm to his, lifelines in a meeting, fortunes untold, an alchemy of flesh and fate. Her grip is tight, and so quietly she says, "Thank you."
He stands for a long time, watching her face change, warm, grow and then move with the effort of relief. His face, not changing quite so much when he observed her and still, yet, behind his eyes the movement of the mind when it observes with great detail. He knew where to meet her, so he nodded and turned, looking up the ladder and checking it was still planted.
He had to stop to look at the coin in his hand. His fingers curled around it, half obscuring it past his worn down fingernails. Slowly, he pulled back his fingers until it sat there, plainly, staring up at him and still indifferent to him being there.
Comedy.
He shoved it into the front pocket of his pants and ascended the ladder, which swayed a little under the drift of his weight when he climbed. Whatever things he had taken out of his bag were jammed back into it as he worked. It was quick work, of course, but he paused to look at the place he had been resting in for several days. Sometimes he wondered what would still remain when he got back. Sometimes he wondered if he ever intended to get back. Their destination might just be a place that keeps him for awhile, the way Rhydin kept him here and there on scattered years. Each place he went had a claim to him, each asserted an importance to his soul and none were willing to admit that they would be a passing interest. Each said he would die there and rest as dirt and bones in its land forever, integrated more deeply than any two mortal lovers could ever be.
The sides of his ankles straddled the ladder and he slid down it, to the floor of the warehouse with a loud rush-scrap of boots and wood. He stomped his feet twice to set the dirt off them right and then turned around. Before he could go there, though, there was one more thing he had to see to.
Hope. So, he saw to the mare.
Days Later
This was a place to call home, these rusted walls worn and sometimes trendy in what was modern taste. He lived in the warehouse well enough, he looked like he had always been there. Her rustic sort of statue she hired to decorate up the place. Her statue. There were times he felt he was her lover, though he'd never kissed her. At times he watched her body bend for others and felt he was the brother. The sensation that there was affection, however, never dwindled, though it was fickle in the mask it wore.
These were the days of rain and forgiveness and he was beginning to think it was time to shrug off his burden of shame. He could regret for eternity what had happened, but he didn't feel it did anyone, even victims, any good. Those who suffered what he'd done wished more pain, those who benefitted held him on high like a brave savoir. It was all far away here, fighting each other without a clear winner. He had always decided that the punishment, the shunning, was what he deserved. He sympathized with the families that had lost those they loved, to the point of condeming himself.
Perhaps he could wear a suit and leave the armor of his black leather jacket's guilt hung up on a rung and for once, for a chance, he would meet Madi on common ground. Neither with armor or resentment for what went on in the books of their past. She never explained herself. He never asked that she should. These days coming were hot ones and they whispered encouragement that there were things now that needed to be left behind.
So he did.
He hung up his leather coat on a nail in the warehouse, staring at its contours. His contours, where his flesh and blood rested so many nights it and it still held the phantom of his body without him. He reached out to touch the leather, felt it was oily and dry, beaten and protected by the years. His grey cotton shirt fresh and clean in a morning when he had yet to do any work. His callous hands brushed the back of his neck and he examined the door. It was time to walk.
It was time to abandon the era of self-punishment and self-blame. He had lived in it for over a decade and finally had come to the feeling that enough blood, sweat, tears and solitude had been paid to it. A wife given up to his own sense of tattooed melancholy at what had been that could neither be prevented or erased. Children not adopted for a feeling that he lacked worth. The time he sat with Madison on the steps and she had kissed him and he, still, felt himself to be so not worthwhile that he could be the inanimate object which didn't kiss back.
When he shoved open the warehouse door to step into day, he thought for the first time in eleven years... that his penance had been paid and it was time to be more of flesh and blood than of scarse shadow.
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'Sparrow Foot Trail' follows a journey out West taken by Tag and Madison to strategise and execute the freeing of a young friend of the gunslinger's who has been manipulated and converted to and by the Hexxen; a dangerous and insidious syndicate who are the Law, and far spread across the many cantons but whom are based in Lofton, Madison's former home. The Hexxen sought the trial and murder of Elijah Donaldson, Madison's ex-hushand, who was seen as a deserter.
Along the trail, which is liminal, emotional, as much as it is physical, Tag and Madison's friendship deepens, and they begin to face their own demons, sew one another's seams, and find penance and redemption in one another and the circumstances around them..
2010
Abandoned warehouse, West End
"Want to come on a road trip? There's trouble out West. A... a boy of mine, an employee, he's been took down. I'm heading out in a week or so to emancipate him. I.. I wondered if maybe you would want to join in. " Her voice was rich with concern then faded and frayed. "I would be relieved if you would. That's not hard for me to say, neither." Things had become easier to say to one another.
The door to the old warehouse that stood around them stretched in the wind. It's front door slammed hard. She jerked a little and her teeth closed at the shock of it. "You'll know people, I'll see to it. You'll be covered."
She hangs her head and massages the base of her neck, right where the hermit ache lives at the top of her spine. "I'm not one to beg, but I want you there."
"Of course, I will be there."
He had felt dispossessed since his decision to pack everything up in his bags and leave the house. Liang wouldn't like it, he was sure of that. The man practically demanded that Tag stay in Rhydin before but... this seemed more natural. His response had come so quickly it was as though he had been waiting for her to ask.
She could have told him that they were to crawl through the bowels of a cave rotten with disease. It could have been that there was a sweet house that sat in the country and waited for them to reach. Or something more abstract, like a reconciliation. The details of the journey were not ones which seemed so much to matter to him.
After all, it had always been being around her which was his interest. Tag held no one obligated to explain themselves to him. Most of the time explanations didn't mean anything. It was always the interaction, the air of it and the intention. He looked up the ladder, his dark eyes following each step to the top before regarding her once more.
"I have everything with me."
He wasn't saying it, but his posture, the lean of it and the gaze that was on her, said that he was ready to go now if only she asked that it be now. The dark man was more, he was sewn to the bottoms of her toes and now, her shadow, if she could even feel the small transition. It was much like the fulfillment of what had always been.
Relief floods. While his dark eyes roam, hers lose their steel and the reserve behind is let loose. Relief floods. Like the first wave of summer crashing over skin. The light changes and there's some sunshine breaking through the clouds on this situation. She exhales through her teeth and tips her chin, flashing a broad smile. Relief she wore a lot better than tension, the one that chased her home like a hound. Madison doesn't ask if he is sure because she knows he is.
Tag was a man of straight answers, cut straight as his silhouette. However quick the response, it seemed a certainty rather than a trifle. The warehouse opened wide again, the woods creak and stretch and so too her chest. It was good breathing easier. "I'm packing things up at the hotel. I can fix you up there.. you'll need a gun." She's inviting him to her hideaway, where no one else knows, escape route number nine, before this Venture really gets rolling. Trust explicit.
Boot swings back into a step, she pinches a coin from her breast pocket, sets it into a somersault, catches it, warms it in her hand and fills his with hers, the coin pressed from her palm to his, lifelines in a meeting, fortunes untold, an alchemy of flesh and fate. Her grip is tight, and so quietly she says, "Thank you."
He stands for a long time, watching her face change, warm, grow and then move with the effort of relief. His face, not changing quite so much when he observed her and still, yet, behind his eyes the movement of the mind when it observes with great detail. He knew where to meet her, so he nodded and turned, looking up the ladder and checking it was still planted.
He had to stop to look at the coin in his hand. His fingers curled around it, half obscuring it past his worn down fingernails. Slowly, he pulled back his fingers until it sat there, plainly, staring up at him and still indifferent to him being there.
Comedy.
He shoved it into the front pocket of his pants and ascended the ladder, which swayed a little under the drift of his weight when he climbed. Whatever things he had taken out of his bag were jammed back into it as he worked. It was quick work, of course, but he paused to look at the place he had been resting in for several days. Sometimes he wondered what would still remain when he got back. Sometimes he wondered if he ever intended to get back. Their destination might just be a place that keeps him for awhile, the way Rhydin kept him here and there on scattered years. Each place he went had a claim to him, each asserted an importance to his soul and none were willing to admit that they would be a passing interest. Each said he would die there and rest as dirt and bones in its land forever, integrated more deeply than any two mortal lovers could ever be.
The sides of his ankles straddled the ladder and he slid down it, to the floor of the warehouse with a loud rush-scrap of boots and wood. He stomped his feet twice to set the dirt off them right and then turned around. Before he could go there, though, there was one more thing he had to see to.
Hope. So, he saw to the mare.
Days Later
This was a place to call home, these rusted walls worn and sometimes trendy in what was modern taste. He lived in the warehouse well enough, he looked like he had always been there. Her rustic sort of statue she hired to decorate up the place. Her statue. There were times he felt he was her lover, though he'd never kissed her. At times he watched her body bend for others and felt he was the brother. The sensation that there was affection, however, never dwindled, though it was fickle in the mask it wore.
These were the days of rain and forgiveness and he was beginning to think it was time to shrug off his burden of shame. He could regret for eternity what had happened, but he didn't feel it did anyone, even victims, any good. Those who suffered what he'd done wished more pain, those who benefitted held him on high like a brave savoir. It was all far away here, fighting each other without a clear winner. He had always decided that the punishment, the shunning, was what he deserved. He sympathized with the families that had lost those they loved, to the point of condeming himself.
Perhaps he could wear a suit and leave the armor of his black leather jacket's guilt hung up on a rung and for once, for a chance, he would meet Madi on common ground. Neither with armor or resentment for what went on in the books of their past. She never explained herself. He never asked that she should. These days coming were hot ones and they whispered encouragement that there were things now that needed to be left behind.
So he did.
He hung up his leather coat on a nail in the warehouse, staring at its contours. His contours, where his flesh and blood rested so many nights it and it still held the phantom of his body without him. He reached out to touch the leather, felt it was oily and dry, beaten and protected by the years. His grey cotton shirt fresh and clean in a morning when he had yet to do any work. His callous hands brushed the back of his neck and he examined the door. It was time to walk.
It was time to abandon the era of self-punishment and self-blame. He had lived in it for over a decade and finally had come to the feeling that enough blood, sweat, tears and solitude had been paid to it. A wife given up to his own sense of tattooed melancholy at what had been that could neither be prevented or erased. Children not adopted for a feeling that he lacked worth. The time he sat with Madison on the steps and she had kissed him and he, still, felt himself to be so not worthwhile that he could be the inanimate object which didn't kiss back.
When he shoved open the warehouse door to step into day, he thought for the first time in eleven years... that his penance had been paid and it was time to be more of flesh and blood than of scarse shadow.
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