Aug. 25th
A new journal.. for a new start.
I've locked my other one away back at the villa. Sealing it away somewhere so I don't have to ever look back on the horrors of my past. I can't deny what has gone on, up to now. But I no longer have to feel as though I am trapped within what has become of me. And can look forward to what will become of me.
In the past month, I've had to deal with my fair share of problems. Relationship breakups.. death. Drama in general. Hopelessness. And then, a glimmer of hope amongst all of that. Where I feel I can once again be granted a chance to make something of myself other than.. a mess.
Let's skip over most of that, and focus right on the glimmer of hope, shall we? I think it's the best place to start, amongst it all.
You see.. I'm not currently writing from my normal spot at the Villa, overlooking some foul project, or feeling gloomy for some exchange. Rather, I'm writing while laying in bed next to an amazing girl. A neko girl, I should add.
You don't know what a neko is? Well. that's okay.. I didn't know what they were, that much, either, tunil actually spending hundreds of inseparable hours with one.
She's amazing..
Simply put!
We met when I first stepped foot within the city limits. In fact, not even ten minutes after arriving at the inn. I had originally gone in hopes of finding a few people, or something, to catch up on what had been going around here. But, I wound up finding not a single soul. The city had.. almost looked barren, in fact. There was little to nobody roaming the streets.. and it was barely past nine in the AM! Well, when I got to the inn, it had seemed to be the same thing, minus this neko girl sitting on the roof.
I talked to her for a little bit, in an entirely innocent conversation.. before we wound up spending the whole day together. Talking, being silly.. getting to know one another. It was purely more or less a "We're having so much fun, why bother doing anything else?"
Well, since then.. I don't think I've spent more than five hours apart from her, all together. And this was nearly a week ago.
I've fallen in love. A place I hadn't really felt in a long time. Easily since Jewell's time.
She makes me feel entirely happy, like I have an actual goal to shoot for. And, in turn, I constantly look upon her face and see this.. state of eternal bliss that I don't think I've ever seen in somebody's when I was within it.
There are so many things I could say, here.. but to put it basically.. It's this utter perfectness.
I really don't have a lot of time.. I don't want to sit here and write while she's asleep. Waking her from this state wouldn't really be all that grand.. I'd feel so bad. We've not been sleeping that much, because we've just been.. together!
When things calm down a little bit, I'll be sure to write more! .. though, don't expect the nasty stuff to be explained.. I'd just prefer ignoring all of that, and moving on the what makes life worth living, again!
~A
A new journal.. for a new start.
I've locked my other one away back at the villa. Sealing it away somewhere so I don't have to ever look back on the horrors of my past. I can't deny what has gone on, up to now. But I no longer have to feel as though I am trapped within what has become of me. And can look forward to what will become of me.
In the past month, I've had to deal with my fair share of problems. Relationship breakups.. death. Drama in general. Hopelessness. And then, a glimmer of hope amongst all of that. Where I feel I can once again be granted a chance to make something of myself other than.. a mess.
Let's skip over most of that, and focus right on the glimmer of hope, shall we? I think it's the best place to start, amongst it all.
You see.. I'm not currently writing from my normal spot at the Villa, overlooking some foul project, or feeling gloomy for some exchange. Rather, I'm writing while laying in bed next to an amazing girl. A neko girl, I should add.
You don't know what a neko is? Well. that's okay.. I didn't know what they were, that much, either, tunil actually spending hundreds of inseparable hours with one.
She's amazing..
Simply put!
We met when I first stepped foot within the city limits. In fact, not even ten minutes after arriving at the inn. I had originally gone in hopes of finding a few people, or something, to catch up on what had been going around here. But, I wound up finding not a single soul. The city had.. almost looked barren, in fact. There was little to nobody roaming the streets.. and it was barely past nine in the AM! Well, when I got to the inn, it had seemed to be the same thing, minus this neko girl sitting on the roof.
I talked to her for a little bit, in an entirely innocent conversation.. before we wound up spending the whole day together. Talking, being silly.. getting to know one another. It was purely more or less a "We're having so much fun, why bother doing anything else?"
Well, since then.. I don't think I've spent more than five hours apart from her, all together. And this was nearly a week ago.
I've fallen in love. A place I hadn't really felt in a long time. Easily since Jewell's time.
She makes me feel entirely happy, like I have an actual goal to shoot for. And, in turn, I constantly look upon her face and see this.. state of eternal bliss that I don't think I've ever seen in somebody's when I was within it.
There are so many things I could say, here.. but to put it basically.. It's this utter perfectness.
I really don't have a lot of time.. I don't want to sit here and write while she's asleep. Waking her from this state wouldn't really be all that grand.. I'd feel so bad. We've not been sleeping that much, because we've just been.. together!
When things calm down a little bit, I'll be sure to write more! .. though, don't expect the nasty stuff to be explained.. I'd just prefer ignoring all of that, and moving on the what makes life worth living, again!
~A