Brotherhood
"There is a little boy inside the man who is my brother ...
Oh, how I hated that little boy. And how I love him too."
-Anna Quindlan
"I liked you better when you still told on me."
It was an all-encompassing statement from a little brother to his big brother, in the straightforward manner that children possess when life hasn't made them into men yet.
"Just hold still," was the rather abrupt reply.
Harold narrowed his eyes defiantly, and still did as he was told, even though some slightly irrational desire remained to boot George in the knee and face the consequences. If there even were consequences; starting not quite a year before, George had gotten all responsible and adult, and went from getting into trouble with Harold (when he wasn't getting Harold into trouble) to chastising.
In as such, the elder of the two had sneaked into the house to get a rag and some water, in the vain hopes of getting at least some of the mud off of the younger.
"I'm still in for it," Harold added, finally unable to take the less-than-patient scrubbing of his face, and swatted George's hands away.
Being bigger, and therefore (unfortunately) stronger, it didn't take George long to manhandle his brother right back into the impromptu 'bath,' grumbling the entire time. "I don't see why you keep doing this. What's so interesting about mud, anyway?"
"The things in the mud! Will you please let me go?" Maybe if he tried being polite...
"No. I don't even know how you're going to explain the clothes..."
It typically went the same way when Harold came home, covered in mud and often with at least a couple of lost buttons or rips in his outfit. Their mother would take one look, get exasperated and scold; when their father was actually home, he'd usually join in, awkwardly. Despite keeping plenty of sets of 'play clothes' for him, he still somehow managed to pick days when he was wearing something halfway decent before mucking about around the estuary.
Long since immune to the scolding from either parent, he tended to brush it off without a second thought.
"How come you can't be neater? Just come home and change, instead of going out and getting dirty after classes! You know, clothes cost money."
"Yes, father," Harold snapped back, and was in one instant satisfied with the slightly wounded look he got, and in the instant after that, regretful. After another moment he tried to make amends, in a roundabout way. "You could come with me."
"I have things to do," George replied, trying next to clean Harold's hands off. How one child could drag home half the mud in Barmouth was beyond everyone.
"You always have things to do!" Snatching his hand back, more for the sake of making a point, Harold scowled. "Study this, work on that, learn this, do that, be this, be that. Even Ada still has fun sometimes!"
"I have fun," George defended, though it didn't sound like he had entirely convinced himself of that. Shaking his head, he went right back to cleaning, looking grateful for the lack of further resistance. "What are you going to do, when it's your turn to grow up?"
"Not do it."
In the past not-quite-a-year, Harold had come to the firm conviction that growing up wasn't something he particularly thought worthwhile. Especially because it took someone who was fun to be around (sometimes) and made them into a smaller version of an adult. Neatly kept clothes included. It wasn't hard for an eight-year-old to decide he wanted no part of that; where was the fun?
His earliest memories of his brother had been a series of contradictions. In one moment, being comforted after a scraped knee; in the next, being told that George didn't want to play with any 'babies'. Being dared to give his sister's kitten a bath, then his guilty looking brother sitting by while their mother cleaned up all of the scratches that had come from it.
Seeing George light out ahead and easily outdistance him, only to have him come back, throw an arm around Harold's shoulders and walk with him.
Not that Harold hadn't learned the fine art of brotherly warfare himself. In as such, he felt absolutely no remorse at dropping a small snake he'd caught down the back of George's shirt in the middle of a church sermon. And no remorse, despite the trouble he got into, for laughing about it afterwards.
But now, George was doing this 'growing up' bit. And it wasn't fair. In Harold's mind, he would rather have his tattling, sometimes mean, sometimes fun, sometimes protective and sometimes silly brother back.
George dropped the rag into the bowl of water, then gave him a look that made him feel almost uneasy. It was a very grown-up look, especially for someone who shouldn't be grown-up yet. "Don't forget that."
"Forget what?" Harold asked, frowning in a worry he couldn't place.
"Don't forget not to grow up."
"There is a little boy inside the man who is my brother ...
Oh, how I hated that little boy. And how I love him too."
-Anna Quindlan
"I liked you better when you still told on me."
It was an all-encompassing statement from a little brother to his big brother, in the straightforward manner that children possess when life hasn't made them into men yet.
"Just hold still," was the rather abrupt reply.
Harold narrowed his eyes defiantly, and still did as he was told, even though some slightly irrational desire remained to boot George in the knee and face the consequences. If there even were consequences; starting not quite a year before, George had gotten all responsible and adult, and went from getting into trouble with Harold (when he wasn't getting Harold into trouble) to chastising.
In as such, the elder of the two had sneaked into the house to get a rag and some water, in the vain hopes of getting at least some of the mud off of the younger.
"I'm still in for it," Harold added, finally unable to take the less-than-patient scrubbing of his face, and swatted George's hands away.
Being bigger, and therefore (unfortunately) stronger, it didn't take George long to manhandle his brother right back into the impromptu 'bath,' grumbling the entire time. "I don't see why you keep doing this. What's so interesting about mud, anyway?"
"The things in the mud! Will you please let me go?" Maybe if he tried being polite...
"No. I don't even know how you're going to explain the clothes..."
It typically went the same way when Harold came home, covered in mud and often with at least a couple of lost buttons or rips in his outfit. Their mother would take one look, get exasperated and scold; when their father was actually home, he'd usually join in, awkwardly. Despite keeping plenty of sets of 'play clothes' for him, he still somehow managed to pick days when he was wearing something halfway decent before mucking about around the estuary.
Long since immune to the scolding from either parent, he tended to brush it off without a second thought.
"How come you can't be neater? Just come home and change, instead of going out and getting dirty after classes! You know, clothes cost money."
"Yes, father," Harold snapped back, and was in one instant satisfied with the slightly wounded look he got, and in the instant after that, regretful. After another moment he tried to make amends, in a roundabout way. "You could come with me."
"I have things to do," George replied, trying next to clean Harold's hands off. How one child could drag home half the mud in Barmouth was beyond everyone.
"You always have things to do!" Snatching his hand back, more for the sake of making a point, Harold scowled. "Study this, work on that, learn this, do that, be this, be that. Even Ada still has fun sometimes!"
"I have fun," George defended, though it didn't sound like he had entirely convinced himself of that. Shaking his head, he went right back to cleaning, looking grateful for the lack of further resistance. "What are you going to do, when it's your turn to grow up?"
"Not do it."
In the past not-quite-a-year, Harold had come to the firm conviction that growing up wasn't something he particularly thought worthwhile. Especially because it took someone who was fun to be around (sometimes) and made them into a smaller version of an adult. Neatly kept clothes included. It wasn't hard for an eight-year-old to decide he wanted no part of that; where was the fun?
His earliest memories of his brother had been a series of contradictions. In one moment, being comforted after a scraped knee; in the next, being told that George didn't want to play with any 'babies'. Being dared to give his sister's kitten a bath, then his guilty looking brother sitting by while their mother cleaned up all of the scratches that had come from it.
Seeing George light out ahead and easily outdistance him, only to have him come back, throw an arm around Harold's shoulders and walk with him.
Not that Harold hadn't learned the fine art of brotherly warfare himself. In as such, he felt absolutely no remorse at dropping a small snake he'd caught down the back of George's shirt in the middle of a church sermon. And no remorse, despite the trouble he got into, for laughing about it afterwards.
But now, George was doing this 'growing up' bit. And it wasn't fair. In Harold's mind, he would rather have his tattling, sometimes mean, sometimes fun, sometimes protective and sometimes silly brother back.
George dropped the rag into the bowl of water, then gave him a look that made him feel almost uneasy. It was a very grown-up look, especially for someone who shouldn't be grown-up yet. "Don't forget that."
"Forget what?" Harold asked, frowning in a worry he couldn't place.
"Don't forget not to grow up."