Topic: Sleepless

Lucky Duck

Date: 2008-01-24 22:10 EST
Nodding, its great head rattling like a gourd,
And locks like seaweed strung on the stinking stone,
The nightmare stumbles past,
-Robert Penn Warren (1905?1989), U.S. poet. Original Sin; a Short Story (l. 1?3).

Fatigue could not stave off the restlessness that had a grip on him. Nights were filled with fitful sleep since the evening two weeks past when he had his...encounter...with the devil-kin. Dreamless slumber turned to uneasy stirrings, which ended with his waking in cold sweat and anger heavy in his chest. Walking hours filled often with his thoughts wandering, shadows creeping into his consciousness and the voices began their whisperings again.

Unsettled and pressed, Lucien made his way to the inn. The biting cold felt good on his face and eased the weight in his breast. Scotch in hand, he slipped into his usual quiet, thoughts drifting in and out along with the din of voices in varied and hushed discourse. Gaze wandered aimlessly over the faces that filled the inn, familiar and otherwise.

Kitty suddenly called him out of his brooding silence, startling him out of his thoughts. "You're being suspiciously quiet, mister."
Once Lucien recovered from nearly choking on his drink, he affected a smug reply. "I am simply trying to perfect my furniture impression."
"I didn't know furniture held glasses of scotch."
"I'm being a....a....a side table. Holding up a glass of scotch."
The jibes and taunting continued light-heartedly until the barrister acquiesced and conceded the win to the Governor. The banter remained easy and with a second glass of scotch drained, Lucien's thoughts turned to returning home.

"Alysia's upstairs by the way... but I'm pretty sure she's passed out." Any and all other thoughts vanished in the instant Kitty mentioned the Priestess. "She was downing tequila and that stuff Hawk keeps in his flask. I doubt she would've made the walk. And you know she's not the type to accept help home."

His expression darkened, perplexed furrow turning to a full frown. His thoughts raced and instinctively his thumb traced the small scar nestled in his palm. "Tequila?" Kitty found the near emptied bottle and set it before the barrister. His lips pressed to a thin line at the evidence she presented. "What sort of mood was she in?"

Kitty pursed her lips as she tried to find the right word. "Distressed?"

*****

He sat in the chair, set right beside the bed where the Priestess lay sleeping, elbows resting on his knees, head held in his hands. The room was hushed and still. His thoughts were not. Somber, angry words echoed against his own somber and angry thoughts.

You haven't been there for Alysia, Lucien chided himself, as Luse's announcement rang in his ears. Tasha is gone.
You didn't know how, but you should have tried harder, he raged at himself as Luse's grief echoed against his thoughts. She did it herself. Gone! Off a (censored) cliff.
Lucien clenched his eyes closed, running his hands over his face to still the turmoil and quiet his thoughts. He reached over and brushed an errant strand of hair from Alysia's face.

Ye see, My dear priestess, mortals are so fragile. Yes, they feel more because they will never be again, but we know where your fondness of him would have done to ye had ye stayed at his side. Veighn's words came rushing back with smug accusation.

The barrister rose from the chair and pressed a tender kiss to her brow. Remorseful words, carried on a whispered breath he pressed against the touch. "What fills your dreams, Beloved?"

Alysia Skye

Date: 2008-01-29 00:42 EST
The silent voices Alysia hears muttering in the cobwebby confines of her psyche are not an illusory product of her own mind. They are the vestiges of three shattered souls, anchored by blood-curses that provide a tenuous link to the priestess: Llehlnia Vladslace, a dying elvish healer who sought immortality in the form of a demon-born child; Orodreth, a dragon who sought a tool for vengeance against the elves who trapped him in mortal form; and Alazais, a Hell-spawned version of Alysia and a literal mirror of the silver-maned priestess.

There are others, of course, but they hardly bear mentioning.

To some extent, these myriad personalities have been integrated with Alysia?s own. It is enough that she does not know which thoughts and experiences are her own, which dreams and nightmares mingled with those memories she might claim as her own. Such things might prove disturbing to even a skilled empath; to an untrained one, they can prove maddening.

She has, understandably, told very few people that she's hearing voices.

However, on this night, Alysia had found a measure of escape in intoxicated numbness, lulled by the reassuring patterns of melody and song. The maddening, demonic hiss of her reflection?s taunts had finally faded, and she had crashed headlong into sleep, remembering a guitar strummed near the fire, accompanied by a Bloodsinger?s low, raspy voice singing comfortably in elvish.

Past the realm of exhaustion, the half-heard conversation of the Inn below blurred, until the line between dreams and words familiar and memories grew thin and indistinct.


---
"Away from him." She hisses at the red dragon that menaces her brother, Daemyon.

Tsmiernag bellows, mocking the hissing elfess. "Oh!!! So you do have feelings, Llehnlia!"

Daemonshi motions for his other brothers to remain seated, then retakes his seat. He picks up his Blood Tea and sips, then whispers quietly at the red dragon looming behind Daemyon. "...leave the back of my brother. Now."

The dragon doesn't move and shows his immense fangs. Llehlnia drops an ornate, gold-hilted dagger into her hand. "Aye, I do have feelings. And I would strongly suggest you move away from my brother."

"Your brother!?!" The dragon imitates surprise and teleports behind Llehlnia, whispering in the elfess' ear. "I wonder if *they* are as protective of *you*..."

She laughs coolly and turns to stare at the dragon's eyes. "State your business..."

"You know my business..." answers the dragon. "Perhaps if I had you, they would find the Knight for me..."

Llehlnia holds forth the ornate dagger, countering, "Look familiar to you, Tsmiernag?"

The dragon eyes the dagger and backs away in apparent alarm. "Where did you get that!?!"

"... you see this dagger, don't you..." She whispers. "And I *do* know how to use this... You and I both know it doesn't really matter *where* I got it..."

Silence falls.


---
The dream shifts, confused and drowning in mists and moonlight. There is laughter from Orodreth, cold and mocking. It is the cynical laughter of a dragon.

"My legacy of Blood is as illustrious as your own, but not nearly as varied. Consider it more ... pure. It is that legacy that I wish to gift to you, in exchange for a favor, of sorts. I know you will not -- cannot refuse, now that you're little more than a fragile, mortal little shadowmage. You think you are so accustomed to power that it has no lure for you, even in your diminished state? We must remedy that, Lady Alysia. This favor you may grant me. . . It involves vengeance of a sort that will suit even your high ideals."

As he speaks, he steps closer to her, extending his hand. Refusing, Alysia shakes her head. She whispers, calling flame to the ivory candles near her bed, preferring the warmth of fire over the frozen illumination of magelight. Orodreth stares into her eyes, forcing a fragment of his memory upon her and his desire for vengeance: a frenzied recollection of captured and flashes of sorcerous torture, framed in lucid flashes of agony as the blood of a dragon was used to strengthen his enemy, to condemn him to captivity in a mortal form.

She feels claws gripping her shoulders, feels pain and smells blood. Weakening, and damning her weakness. The midnight view of the Dark Lake through the magelit window dims.


---
Now aware of the dream she is trapped in, Alysia hopes for a moment of peace, of dreamless sleep. That peace is denied.

She recognizes the shape of once-verdant hills and valleys, a landscape now transformed to a barren, smoking waste, ankle-deep with tar and sludge. A great, ruined fortress of crystal hangs half-visible in the sky, shadowed by ruined stone below. Skeletal trees drip with ash under amber clouds of a fire-crazed, perpetual night. Black, leathery things worm through the clouds and rain ichor that stings the skin.

In that desolation, those she knows and loves lie in crumpled heaps, their limbs and faces shriveled and charred by time. She shudders and turns away.

"You made this. . . " whispers Alysia.

"Ah, sister-priestess, but I could not have wrought this alone. This could not have come to pass with out you."

"You've made your point, Alazais. Make it stop."

"Ha! Why stop the inevitable?"

---


Watching, Lucien rose from a chair and pressed a tender kiss to her brow. And on the edge of those too-familiar nightmares, his whisper was half-heard, breathed against her skin.

Alysia came awake all of a sudden, surprise bringing a semblance of alertness. It took her a moment to realize her surroundings.

?Lucien?? The groggy priestess sat up and pressed her palms against her eyes with a snarl of frustration. When she spoke, her words were still sleep-slurred. ?What. . . what are you doing here? What?s wrong??

Lucky Duck

Date: 2008-02-02 00:33 EST
Voices...hushed, angry, defiant...continued to fill his thoughts, stealing away more and more of the taxed quiet. They whispered, challenged, echoed, melting into growing, incoherent chitterings as if a swarm of male cicadas was awaken from its slumber. The chitterings stirred and prodded, teasing a few distinct voices from his memory.

I'm sorry he galls you so, she had voiced softly.
Nothing for you to be sorry for, Alysia. I'll just have to be patient and bide my...
His own hushed reply was suddenly drowned out by the devil-kin's voice.
Time does nae forgive those who stand within its flow, Lucien Mallorek. I can wait eons, ol' chum, can ye?
He felt a hand at his back as he watched Veighn stalking toward him.
CAN YE!?

?Lucien??

His name carried on her sleep-laden voice silenced the devil-kin and the discordant whispers.

?What. . . what are you doing here? What?s wrong??

He settled back onto the chair, resting his arms on his knees as Alysia sat up in the bed. He watched her waking, brows knitted in a furrow.

"I'm sorry I woke you, Alysia," he spoke quietly. "Kitty mentioned that you...weren't feeling well, so I came up to see how you were," he confessed in a whisper. He lowered his gaze to floor, then raised them back up to rest upon her features. "What's troubling you, Alysia?"

Alysia Skye

Date: 2008-02-11 12:57 EST
Alysia looked at the barrister, noting his frown and the way he looked at the floor. She wondered about that but didn?t immediately comment on Lucien?s expression. ?Don?t be sorry. I?d rather be awake, anyway.?

?Not feeling well. . . That?s one way to put it.? She averted her gaze, glancing about the room. It was dim, lit by a single globe of mage light. The shadows were thick here, but they did not move; for some reason, that reassured her. She felt safe.

The priestess took a deep breath and spoke in a quiet, self-deprecating tone. ?You?ll think me daft, but I?ve been hearing voices ? in my mind. They are . . . troublesome.? She chuckled grimly. ?It feels like I?m going mad, but I?m fairly sure they are real. I have it on very good authority that they are, anyway.?

Alysia offered a brief, terse explanation of the blood curses, naming the fragmented, foreign souls she carried in her psyche, that most of the time, they existed quiescent, save Alazais, who attempted to exert malevolent influence upon her personality and actions. She danced around those details, adding. ?Strong drink drowns them out. . . bloodspice and ichor make them louder, more?s the pity. Music seems to make them go away. Oh, did you know Kitty has an excellent singing voice??

She realized that she was rambling and shook her head sharply, muttering an apology.

?Around the time this started, nightmares did, too.? She sounded ironic now. ?Dreams of terrible things. Maybe less like dreams, more like memories, but they?re not my own memories. . . not really my own, anyway.? The priestess spoke with some hesitation. ?And some of them are like memories that haven?t happened yet. . . hence the interest in oneiromancy.?

She paused, then said pointedly. ?You look troubled, and I hardly think it is on my account, Lucky. Not entirely, anyway. What's wrong??

Lucky Duck

Date: 2008-02-20 23:09 EST
I say it is high time you go on home now.
Unhand me, Lucien Mallorek.
Does my proximity offend, Lord Veighn?
I wish to show ye something, Lucien, watch closely..... Know it well...


“Don’t be sorry. I’d rather be awake, anyway.”

Mindful, humorless smile, hinted fleetingly behind folded hands at Alysia's admission. A thoughtful furrow settled on his brow as she explained the fragmented souls that were a part of her. It was an expression that eased into a knowing nod, when she mentioned the effects of drink and music. An expression that further eased into a light, short-lived grin, teased from his somber mein at Alysia's apt observation with regards to Kitty's voice.

He understood wanting to be awake, even though exhaustion clung to him. Sleep, though elusive, was unwelcomed by the barrister. It brought no respite nor peace with its coming. Rather, the stillness further fueled fatiguing restlessness. He knew how maddening it was to have voices, whispering, shouting, raging, in his mind, although the voices of his making were not from live fragments of souls. The silence fanned the discordant voices.

And the darkness provided the images...dreams....nightmares...with a vast backdrop...

His hand held fast to Veighn's arm. And Alysia faded into view, near the devil-kin's shoulder, placing her hand there with familiarity. The hand upon Veighn's sleeve aged, decaying rapidly before his very eyes as if time were rushed forward. The Priestess and the devil-kin begin to laugh as they watched him grow old and feeble.

Veighn's smug voice rose over their laughter, his words ringing in Lucien's ears..."Ye see, My dear priestess, mortals are so fragile. Yes, they feel more because they will never be again, but we know where your fondness of him would have done to ye had ye stayed at his side. Come, ye need not see him fade away like so much ash and dust. I shall save ye from this horror. Away with me, we have mysteries to explore."

Hands were run over his face and pressed against his crown, held there to still the faint trembling in his fingers. "At least your voices are real," he murmured. He drew a deep, soundless breath and looked up at the Priestess. "No, I don't think you're daft, Alysia. And you are right, my troubles are a measure of my own...pentience," he confessed, chuckling grimly.

Lucky Duck

Date: 2008-02-21 02:00 EST
He wrapped his right hand over fingers that curled his left hand into a tight fist. Ice blues gazed over his folded hands, staring past that which was before them. "I broke the cardinal rule and...," a sober smile tugged under the mustache and beard. "I handled Lord Veighn Yhaull. I took hold of his arm and tried to escort him away from Sylvia and Kitty."

The devil-kin had turned his full attention on the barrister, seeking Lucien's gaze with fiery eyes of his own.

"He told me to unhand him," Lucien continued recounting the events of that fateful evening quietly.

The barrister's vision turned red as a crimson glow washed over his features, his eyes becoming Veighn's as the devil-kin's eyes assumed the appearance of Lucien's.

"And then...I saw...," his words trailed off, shaking his head and chasing the image and crimson from his vision. "I saw you and Veighn, while I grew old before my very eyes." Absently he rubbed the hand that had held onto the devil-kin's arm, the same hand that decayed in his vision. "I can still hear his words."

Lucien ran his hands over his face. "I haven't been too eager to get to sleep of late either."

Alysia Skye

Date: 2008-02-21 23:30 EST
Alysia flinched as Lucien spoke. Her eyes narrowed, betraying some anxiety at distressing thoughts before she frowned and looked away. She worried that Veighn had chosen Kitty and Sylvia as pawns in some greater game, and deliberately used them to challenge the barrister. She grudgingly acknowledged that was a skillful display of malicious cunning, even as she wondered why. Provocation . . . protection. . . jealousy. . . what game does he play?

"I wonder if Veighn thought I would not hear of this," Alysia muttered. Suddenly, although the sense of safety within the Red Dragon Inn remained, she felt the desire to be gone from this place. She swung her legs over the side of the bed and looked around. A globe of magelight came to hover near her shoulder. Boots. Knife. She reached for the boots and dragged them on, then replaced the knife in a forearm sheath. The scent of shireeni lay heavy within the room.

Speaking with considered, delicate caution, she paused, forced a smile, then glanced at Lucien with eyes that glowed crimson in the gloom. "Seeing you succumb to age or infirmity. . . I will not pretend that this is not one of the things I dread most. You know this. And it seems Lord Yhaull knows this, as well. He has rather keen insight into my fears - and it seems he will not hesitate to use those as a weapon."

She exhaled slowly in a tired sigh. "This grows complicated. I am sorry my . . . ally haunts you. I have less. . . hold upon him than I had thought. I could try to kill him, of course, if that would simplify things, but there's no guarantee I would succeed."

Alysia smiled with casual bleakness and shrugged.

Lucky Duck

Date: 2008-02-24 23:05 EST
Brows etched a deep furrow, then a mild frown across his features as he watched Alysia's expressions change. He considered not telling her of the incident with the devil-kin. He debated not revealing what he'd been shown by Veighn and offer a shield in small measure against an added weight to the Priestess.

"I wonder if Veighn thought I would not hear of this"

However, all reasons were outweighed by her need to know. Not to be caught unawares by it. Not to be caught unawares by an ally. Not to be caught unawares by the devil-kin.

Lucien drew a deep breath and watched Alysia as she started to get out of bed, pulling on her boots and sheathing the knife. Eyes of cool blues rose to meet hers of a glowing crimson. A light smile tugged behind the neatly trimmed beard, mirroring the Priestess' expression with a faint nod. Absently he rubbed his hand as she confessed her fear.

His mortality had caused a serious rift between the Priestess and barrister before. It continued to challenge them, the very real prospect of his death, from age and infirmity or the daily threat from just life in RhyDin, constantly looming in the shadows.

The taxed smile coloring his expression drained away at very the mention of the devil-kin, hardening at the reality Veighn would exploit whatever he could without prejudice to friend and foe. Lucien's features eased with her weary breathe, his own shoulders falling under the unseen weight of things. "You've nothing to be sorry for, Alysia. And no need for you to break your alliance with him," he remarked, shaking his head. "As I said, this is my penitence." A crooked grin, strained as it was, crept to light his expression, painting the corner of his mouth. "Besides, I think I'm getting good at becoming as much a thorn in his side as he is in mine."

Alysia Skye

Date: 2008-02-28 21:47 EST
"No need to -- do you think you mean so little to me?" Alysia said quietly. "You make a habit of playing with thorns and fire . . . it is a wonder you do not get stung and burned more, beloved."

Mocking words and distorted images rose again in her mind, and her distress was briefly evident. She got to her feet and paced to a window, looking down at the snow-covered street. By now, the noise from the Red Dragon Inn below had diminished as patrons found their way home or to rooms above. Her breath steamed against the cold, distorted glass. She turned around, brows raised, the corners of her mouth framing a quizzical little smile. "You would be safer without me, Lucien, this you know. Or at least freer to act as you see fit."

The priestess nodded once toward the door.

Lucky Duck

Date: 2008-02-29 21:16 EST
"No need to -- do you think you mean so little to me? You make a habit of playing with thorns and fire . . . it is a wonder you do not get stung and burned more, beloved."

Of course not, he started to reply, but his words died on his lips. Lucien rose to his feet, slipping his hands into his pocket, after Alysia's rising. He remained where he stood by the bed as she moved to the window, watching the dim translucent reflection of the Priestess become further obscured by her breath cooled on the window pane.

Gaze of ice blues met eyes of crimson when she turned her attention back to him. He shook his head as his voice rose quietly. "You've put no restrictions on me, Alysia. Just as I would not think to put any restrictions on you. If I choose not to try and strangle Veighn because I know he is useful to you or holds some value to you, I do so of my own volition. My choice would be no different if I was not with you."

"As for my being safer,..." Lucien let out a quiet breath. "I've enough enemies of my own, Alysia. You know this as well. Even if there were no enemies, just life itself in RhyDin is wrought with dangers." He held up a staying hand as he continued. "And I am not trying to make light of the situation and I certainly do not think that I mean so little to you."

He moved, not to the door that she indicated, but to join the Priestess where she stood. "I don't want to be without you, Alysia."

Alysia Skye

Date: 2008-03-07 16:53 EST
The priestess inclined her head, agreeing with Lucien?s explanation. "If--" Alysia began, then stopped. For a moment, she stood leaning against the door. She seemed frozen in a posture of listening, head bowed, elfin features shadowed by sleek silver, lips set in a somber moue. There was a threatening whisper at the edge of her hearing, a nightmare-susurration of corrupted phrases: gorgaer, kela, nurta. . . et huine, amin atalantetur nwalme'll.

She shuddered, feeling drawn toward some inner maelstrom. Guthorm's troubling query some months ago came back to her: Would you defend Lucien, if he came to harm again?; and her accusatory counter: Would you care to live sheltered by your woman? What would that do to you?? It seemed inevitable to her that he would come to harm, for he certainly did have potent enemies of his own, and she would not restrict him.

Yet as Lucien stepped close, her frown eased somewhat. She considered the barrister for a while, until the stillness grew too heavy. "If you were not with me, Lord Veighn Yhaull's usefulness to me would hardly be an issue for you, and I suspect you'd have already strangled him,? Alysia finally temporized with a lilt, adding, ?or at least broken his nose for his efforts."

With a wry smile, Alysia reached for Lucien's hands, drawing them from his pockets and around her, then stood on tiptoe. "I think you are a man of strong convictions and very little fear," she murmured close to his ear, "and hope that both may shield you from your enemies when I can not." She took his face between her hands and kissed him gently.

The priestess settled back down on her heels, reaching behind her to open the door. ?Half-drunk on rose spirits or not, I don?t much care for the thought of waking up here with the dawn. Do you??

Lucky Duck

Date: 2008-03-13 01:07 EST
"I may break his nose yet," the barrister remarked in a hushed tone colored with tempered levity and the lightest shrug of his shoulders. Lucien's own sober expression eased with her smile.

He bowed his head to her as she drew his arms around her and closed his eyes as he felt her breath, carrying her murmured words, on his skin. Fear. The barrister's unspoken fear wasn't death or mortality. He feared loss. And failure. That his failure would bring her loss. Eyes of ice blue opened as he felt her hands hold his face, her touch and kiss reigning in his wandering thoughts.

A breath past, his attention remaining on the Priestess. Then an easy grin broke the barrister's somber mien, Lucien offering Alysia a shake of his head in reply to her query. "No, I can't say that I care in the least to see the dawn come from here."