I swear I didn?t mean for it to feel like this,
like every inch of me is bruised, bruised.
And don?t fly fast ? oh, pilot can you help me?
Can you make this last? This plane is all I got
so keep it steady now
cause every inch you see is bruised.
-- Jack?s Mannequin
Koy?s professional success hinged on the fact that she didn?t need much sleep. She pushed her body to new physical limits inside and outside of the rings because she wished she did.
The elf never won awards in school for being the smartest kid in class. She did however have an overactive imagination, one that inspired her work and tortured her dreams as she constantly played out the endless scenarios of how she could have lived her life differently.
There were some things she would not change. One of them slept soundly besides her, his even breathing comforting her in the darkness of their shared room. She watched the steady rise and fall of his chest, trying to drown out the unleashed thoughts crashing into each other in her head.
She had gotten what she wanted. Matt challenged Rakeesh for the right to hold ShadoWeaver and he lost. She should have felt relieved but she only saw it as a temporary reprieve from his relentless pursuit of the black opal.
How could she save him from his obsession? Matt saw many things but he was blinded by the Opal?s mystique.
Her newfound friend, MoonBeryl, had his own ideas on how Koy could help. The less threatening Opal coaxed her into believing that maybe she should let Matt go after the dark Opal. Once he had ShadoWeaver, Koy and MoonBeryl could watch her. The yellow opal promised he would find common ground with his stronger sister. They both knew they did not possess the power to destroy her but they could at least keep her quiet.
It sounded like a decent plan until Koy watched Matt fighting Rakeesh. Matt?s determination to win and his avowal to challenge as soon as he could made it impossible for her to believe sharing a roof with the cursed stone made sense.
And then there was Jaycy. Her teammate and friend, Jaycy gave her a simple solution because she saw how unhappy Matt and Koy were considering they loved each other. If Koy would only stop hiding herself away from him, she could provide a cure. She should have been more outraged at the way Matt had enlisted Jaycy to fight his cause ? his desire to wed.
She should have been furious except for the fact that the same thought rattled inside her mind to no end.
Why did she hold back from the one person who had seen her hit one low after another and stayed put? In her first marriage to Redd, Koy had been the one shoved to the side. Now she did the pushing but Matt always found a way to accept her and love her more for it. But the more she cared for him, the more terrified it made her. She once told Matt that she was scared of how much he could hurt her now.
Koy rubbed a hand over her face. She was getting nowhere.
You?ll drive yourself insane like this, Koyliak. MoonBeryl?s voice sounded like warm syrup over pancakes. Even as his wife, you will have to face her sooner or later. You should hope to get it under control while you have my help.
?Ye?re probably right,? she whispered, moving out of the room so as not to wake Matt. There was no need for Koy to speak out loud to the Opal but she wanted to keep his voice as separate from her own inner voice as much as possible.
You can?t stop them from finding each other again. It would be foolish to think vows could fix that.
?It would...wouldn?t it?? She ran the water from the bathroom sink, washing up. MoonBeryl spoke in such a calm and steady tone that it was easy for her to fall in line with his way of thinking and yet she couldn?t shake what Jaycy said. It troubled Koy that Matt could think he was not worthy of her love ? if anything, it was the other way around.
You need to give yourself more credit. He is lucky to have someone who will do whatever it takes to save him.
?Am I savin' him...I wish ye?d stop doin' tha!? She hissed the last sentiment, hating his ability to intrude on her thoughts.
She needed to get out, get away from MoonBeryl for at least a short while. She quietly threw on jeans and a black cashmere sweater, leaving Matt in bed and MoonBeryl on the nightstand. She would let her feet wander where they pleased as long as they got her out of reach of the yellow Opal so she could clear her head.
((Cross posted on the RoH message boards))
like every inch of me is bruised, bruised.
And don?t fly fast ? oh, pilot can you help me?
Can you make this last? This plane is all I got
so keep it steady now
cause every inch you see is bruised.
-- Jack?s Mannequin
Koy?s professional success hinged on the fact that she didn?t need much sleep. She pushed her body to new physical limits inside and outside of the rings because she wished she did.
The elf never won awards in school for being the smartest kid in class. She did however have an overactive imagination, one that inspired her work and tortured her dreams as she constantly played out the endless scenarios of how she could have lived her life differently.
There were some things she would not change. One of them slept soundly besides her, his even breathing comforting her in the darkness of their shared room. She watched the steady rise and fall of his chest, trying to drown out the unleashed thoughts crashing into each other in her head.
She had gotten what she wanted. Matt challenged Rakeesh for the right to hold ShadoWeaver and he lost. She should have felt relieved but she only saw it as a temporary reprieve from his relentless pursuit of the black opal.
How could she save him from his obsession? Matt saw many things but he was blinded by the Opal?s mystique.
Her newfound friend, MoonBeryl, had his own ideas on how Koy could help. The less threatening Opal coaxed her into believing that maybe she should let Matt go after the dark Opal. Once he had ShadoWeaver, Koy and MoonBeryl could watch her. The yellow opal promised he would find common ground with his stronger sister. They both knew they did not possess the power to destroy her but they could at least keep her quiet.
It sounded like a decent plan until Koy watched Matt fighting Rakeesh. Matt?s determination to win and his avowal to challenge as soon as he could made it impossible for her to believe sharing a roof with the cursed stone made sense.
And then there was Jaycy. Her teammate and friend, Jaycy gave her a simple solution because she saw how unhappy Matt and Koy were considering they loved each other. If Koy would only stop hiding herself away from him, she could provide a cure. She should have been more outraged at the way Matt had enlisted Jaycy to fight his cause ? his desire to wed.
She should have been furious except for the fact that the same thought rattled inside her mind to no end.
Why did she hold back from the one person who had seen her hit one low after another and stayed put? In her first marriage to Redd, Koy had been the one shoved to the side. Now she did the pushing but Matt always found a way to accept her and love her more for it. But the more she cared for him, the more terrified it made her. She once told Matt that she was scared of how much he could hurt her now.
Koy rubbed a hand over her face. She was getting nowhere.
You?ll drive yourself insane like this, Koyliak. MoonBeryl?s voice sounded like warm syrup over pancakes. Even as his wife, you will have to face her sooner or later. You should hope to get it under control while you have my help.
?Ye?re probably right,? she whispered, moving out of the room so as not to wake Matt. There was no need for Koy to speak out loud to the Opal but she wanted to keep his voice as separate from her own inner voice as much as possible.
You can?t stop them from finding each other again. It would be foolish to think vows could fix that.
?It would...wouldn?t it?? She ran the water from the bathroom sink, washing up. MoonBeryl spoke in such a calm and steady tone that it was easy for her to fall in line with his way of thinking and yet she couldn?t shake what Jaycy said. It troubled Koy that Matt could think he was not worthy of her love ? if anything, it was the other way around.
You need to give yourself more credit. He is lucky to have someone who will do whatever it takes to save him.
?Am I savin' him...I wish ye?d stop doin' tha!? She hissed the last sentiment, hating his ability to intrude on her thoughts.
She needed to get out, get away from MoonBeryl for at least a short while. She quietly threw on jeans and a black cashmere sweater, leaving Matt in bed and MoonBeryl on the nightstand. She would let her feet wander where they pleased as long as they got her out of reach of the yellow Opal so she could clear her head.
((Cross posted on the RoH message boards))