You know, I'm proud as to how far the den has gotten. We made a lot of progress and had a lot of fun.
All the players did something great to help better the den and make it a happier place.
I remember the time when I first happened upon the den. Ammy seemed to be struggling at that time and people were giving her hell. So, I helped her up and I stood up against the bullies that were on RDI. I never really did get a thank you, but it doesn't matter and I'm still proud of standing up for someone. She may have not known why they stopped picking on her for a long time, for a long while she kept searching to see if she found anymore bad speak about her and the den. She didn't find much if anything after that. I was never one to back down. I did what no one else did, I showed that others cared greatly about this Den and its creator, Ammy, and their existence. And when others joined us, so did they. It was once a single person's dream, a single person's place of comfort. Then it became a place of comfort for multiple people. Anyone can relate to such a place.
But other things happened, too.
Stories of love, adventure, sadness, happiness, revenge and action happened. Many things began to happen that made the Den very alive. Who cares if some players have a lot of characters, it is only a sign that someone has a strong and wonderful imagination. There are people on this site that have well over a hundred kind of characters. I admire that. I really do. One should never limit their imagination. If they do, they're only limiting themselves.
We even had the amazing trickster, Aramus Con Jackuss doing silly things to the Den. Making peoples hair and fur go rainbow, people probably getting hair in places they never thought they had. All kinds of silly things.
Like Ammy, quite a few of our characters are a piece of us and meant very much to us. In fact, from a writer's point of view, when we write our stories and characters we always throw a piece of our lives into what we are writing. That was one of the best things I ever realized from a very good writing book I read many years ago. You could read a person by just looking at their characters, but only if you look close enough.
The den went through a lot of hardships and changes. It was re-sized and made smaller in the past (a map was being made by Rawsha, but halted at the moment I suppose.) Rawsha helped a lot in that.
A language was even helped fleshed out. I can't say I was a big help on that part, but I know Iimiidiina was.
So many wonderful things happened in this place and it was like we called it home and we shared the feelings with our characters with their deep interactions. It was really a welcoming place for anyone.
But I do apologize for ever shutting anyone out. My life has always been very rough on me and my emotions get the best of me some days.
The recent making a butt out of myself wasn't a good show either. Two things I'm not proud of honestly and was stupid on my part. Things like that are not what the den was meant to represent.
Am I truly mad? No. Am I upset? I am to be honest. But it's because I care about something I helped thrive and others helped, too.
We always asked to help run things for you, Ammy. We knew things stressed you out. We wanted to relieve you of that stress. By run things I never meant changing the lupinossai, it would all still be yours. Just someone in place to make sure things stayed okay while you rested. If you needed leave time, which I was told by someone, then all you had to do was say so and we would've respected it without a fuss. A lot less hurt would have happened. Do I blame you? No. Do I want a fight? No. Just wanted to be there for you and talk through things. It's fine if you want to play with others. I wouldn't ever stop you from doing that.
What I'm trying to say with all of this is, the Den became a part of people, more than one person. People that also put a lot of hard work into it all. It's one of those cases where people did so much and when it's all stopped it's very heart tearing. Like if multiple people were cleaning this pool (as you called it) and then a bunch of crazy teenagers decided to jump the fence and soil it and do all kinds of awful stuff, you bet we'd be upset and would be a nice reason to close the pool. (That was just for a bit of humor.)
Ammy, you don't have to respond right away. You can take your time with answering. The pool can stay closed as long as you like, all I'm saying is even if it's closed, let us watch over it while you take a break. Don't shut us out of it. You never know, maybe when you come back to it, it might be a nice clean place to visit again and enjoy. You know I've never let you down. I've always been there, and will always be there no matter what (Yes, I'm one stubborn caring friend.) You want a vacation, you got it. I won't stop you. You deserve it. I know you go through a lot. Just let us watch over what we helped with. I know you're the creator of this all, I'm not that foolish. But as a friend, I will always be here.
This is like my last friend that went off to war. He invited me to join him, but I said no. And though the things we did may have stopped, I will be here no matter how long it takes for him to return home. Even if he were to die, I'd still wait for him like a loyal dog that waits for his human companion to return home. But if or when he does return home, maybe we'll have fun again. Even he and I had tough times.
You told me I could go with you or stay behind. To be honest, I didn't know what that meant, because I didn't know where you were going or what the flippin' saddle-backs was going on. And I've been on a crap load of medication lately for this dang tooth that isn't even done yet, and that stuff is effecting me a lot. (And now I'm taking even more pills for this tooth)
Just want you to know, if you give us (or even just me) the keys to the pool, I'll take good care of everything I promise. I won't let you down. And you know I never make a promise I can't keep. You know me too well to disbelieve that. You said you didn't blame me either. I remember that. If that were true, and I believe it is, I would still like to take all this weight off your shoulders. I don't even mind if you just play one character for months. I know, that you know, you need some alone time. Let me be the guardian until you return one day. I don't care if it takes you 50 years to return. I have patience beyond imagination. Don't have me remind you of thousand times I'd wait many, many hours for something sitting in one spot, you know I will. hehehe.
I am happy to see you proud of yourself. But I am a stubborn friend, yes, but it's a type of stubbornness that's also caring. That's how I stood up to those bullies. I like to see you happy, but from stubborn friend to stubborn friend, share that happiness with the others. You know I've never asked for much, I was always a giver, not a taker. You know this. I'm not asking for a fight, I'm not asking for an argument, I'm just asking for you to share what you wish to not take care of for now. From friend, to friend. I will never have ill will against you.
All the players did something great to help better the den and make it a happier place.
I remember the time when I first happened upon the den. Ammy seemed to be struggling at that time and people were giving her hell. So, I helped her up and I stood up against the bullies that were on RDI. I never really did get a thank you, but it doesn't matter and I'm still proud of standing up for someone. She may have not known why they stopped picking on her for a long time, for a long while she kept searching to see if she found anymore bad speak about her and the den. She didn't find much if anything after that. I was never one to back down. I did what no one else did, I showed that others cared greatly about this Den and its creator, Ammy, and their existence. And when others joined us, so did they. It was once a single person's dream, a single person's place of comfort. Then it became a place of comfort for multiple people. Anyone can relate to such a place.
But other things happened, too.
Stories of love, adventure, sadness, happiness, revenge and action happened. Many things began to happen that made the Den very alive. Who cares if some players have a lot of characters, it is only a sign that someone has a strong and wonderful imagination. There are people on this site that have well over a hundred kind of characters. I admire that. I really do. One should never limit their imagination. If they do, they're only limiting themselves.
We even had the amazing trickster, Aramus Con Jackuss doing silly things to the Den. Making peoples hair and fur go rainbow, people probably getting hair in places they never thought they had. All kinds of silly things.
Like Ammy, quite a few of our characters are a piece of us and meant very much to us. In fact, from a writer's point of view, when we write our stories and characters we always throw a piece of our lives into what we are writing. That was one of the best things I ever realized from a very good writing book I read many years ago. You could read a person by just looking at their characters, but only if you look close enough.
The den went through a lot of hardships and changes. It was re-sized and made smaller in the past (a map was being made by Rawsha, but halted at the moment I suppose.) Rawsha helped a lot in that.
A language was even helped fleshed out. I can't say I was a big help on that part, but I know Iimiidiina was.
So many wonderful things happened in this place and it was like we called it home and we shared the feelings with our characters with their deep interactions. It was really a welcoming place for anyone.
But I do apologize for ever shutting anyone out. My life has always been very rough on me and my emotions get the best of me some days.
The recent making a butt out of myself wasn't a good show either. Two things I'm not proud of honestly and was stupid on my part. Things like that are not what the den was meant to represent.
Am I truly mad? No. Am I upset? I am to be honest. But it's because I care about something I helped thrive and others helped, too.
We always asked to help run things for you, Ammy. We knew things stressed you out. We wanted to relieve you of that stress. By run things I never meant changing the lupinossai, it would all still be yours. Just someone in place to make sure things stayed okay while you rested. If you needed leave time, which I was told by someone, then all you had to do was say so and we would've respected it without a fuss. A lot less hurt would have happened. Do I blame you? No. Do I want a fight? No. Just wanted to be there for you and talk through things. It's fine if you want to play with others. I wouldn't ever stop you from doing that.
What I'm trying to say with all of this is, the Den became a part of people, more than one person. People that also put a lot of hard work into it all. It's one of those cases where people did so much and when it's all stopped it's very heart tearing. Like if multiple people were cleaning this pool (as you called it) and then a bunch of crazy teenagers decided to jump the fence and soil it and do all kinds of awful stuff, you bet we'd be upset and would be a nice reason to close the pool. (That was just for a bit of humor.)
Ammy, you don't have to respond right away. You can take your time with answering. The pool can stay closed as long as you like, all I'm saying is even if it's closed, let us watch over it while you take a break. Don't shut us out of it. You never know, maybe when you come back to it, it might be a nice clean place to visit again and enjoy. You know I've never let you down. I've always been there, and will always be there no matter what (Yes, I'm one stubborn caring friend.) You want a vacation, you got it. I won't stop you. You deserve it. I know you go through a lot. Just let us watch over what we helped with. I know you're the creator of this all, I'm not that foolish. But as a friend, I will always be here.
This is like my last friend that went off to war. He invited me to join him, but I said no. And though the things we did may have stopped, I will be here no matter how long it takes for him to return home. Even if he were to die, I'd still wait for him like a loyal dog that waits for his human companion to return home. But if or when he does return home, maybe we'll have fun again. Even he and I had tough times.
You told me I could go with you or stay behind. To be honest, I didn't know what that meant, because I didn't know where you were going or what the flippin' saddle-backs was going on. And I've been on a crap load of medication lately for this dang tooth that isn't even done yet, and that stuff is effecting me a lot. (And now I'm taking even more pills for this tooth)
Just want you to know, if you give us (or even just me) the keys to the pool, I'll take good care of everything I promise. I won't let you down. And you know I never make a promise I can't keep. You know me too well to disbelieve that. You said you didn't blame me either. I remember that. If that were true, and I believe it is, I would still like to take all this weight off your shoulders. I don't even mind if you just play one character for months. I know, that you know, you need some alone time. Let me be the guardian until you return one day. I don't care if it takes you 50 years to return. I have patience beyond imagination. Don't have me remind you of thousand times I'd wait many, many hours for something sitting in one spot, you know I will. hehehe.
I am happy to see you proud of yourself. But I am a stubborn friend, yes, but it's a type of stubbornness that's also caring. That's how I stood up to those bullies. I like to see you happy, but from stubborn friend to stubborn friend, share that happiness with the others. You know I've never asked for much, I was always a giver, not a taker. You know this. I'm not asking for a fight, I'm not asking for an argument, I'm just asking for you to share what you wish to not take care of for now. From friend, to friend. I will never have ill will against you.