Topic: The Christmas Spirit -- Sisters in Memory Alone?

Elisa Clarke

Date: 2012-12-23 00:51 EST
December 22nd
Late night

Esters Convenience Store, the one-stop shop for all necessities and oddities alike. From toothpaste for brushing to tooth cream for a quick fix to a chipped chopper, it had almost anything a person needed to get them going strong when they were fresh out of a requirement product and had no where else to go.

Emerill Ester was the owner, a burly man to Mayu?s eyes, who was friendly as he was suave. He had terrific business ethic and could sell a refrigerator to an Eskimo if he damn well had to. He was also, by some definition, the man that Mayu saw as the father she never truly owned. A man that allowed her to confine in him when she seemed upset, and a compassionate friend when she needed company should Toby or Sheridan not be around. Most of all, he provided her with a place to stay for when daylight was crushed by nightfall.

However, despite all of Emerill?s strengths and his ability to cheer the young lady up and give her a sense of security, he was only human. He had obligations. A need to run a thriving and successful business, children to oversee and provide growth for, and his own personal time to tend to his own needs that Mayu couldn?t even begin to fathom.

He wasn?t in when she toddled through the front door with her tote and a tin with a Christmas motif. She was thankful for the keys he spared her, giving her free reign to come and go through the shop?s entrance well after hours. ?Your home is our home,? he told her. ?If you need anything, don?t worry about waiting for us. Just come in, get comfortable. Welcome to the family, kiddo.?

The family resided on the second story of the store?s base, giving Emerill full control of the hours of operation. More often than not, he was open 24 hours a day with an ?on-call? function past ten o?clock at night. Times like these, when she?d come home to an empty house, was as rare as a blue moon.

They just didn?t happen all that much.

Trudging up the stairs that were streaked in cascading rainbow holiday lights, she made an immediate left turn and entered the large living quarters that acted as both a dining room as well as a kitchen. Along the far wall, against the largest window of the second floor, a Christmas tree stood out worse than a sore thumb, decorated in enough twinkle lights to shame a newly opened casino. Tinsel, various ornaments, and an luminous blue star which sat on the very top, nicking the ceiling. There were only a few presents underneath it, two of which were for Toby. One was white with red polka dots and was labeled, ?From Sheridan. Don?t touch it, dummy.? The other was intentionally left blank, from her. Another was for Emerill from Toby, it seemed, while Emerill left one for Sheridan. It was a well-rounded exchange of gifts, even if she wasn?t part of the equation under their circle of love and memory making.

She dropped her tote off at the tree?s base and leaned over to snap open the plastic clasp that kept her belongings in check. A scheduler, a half eaten bag of M&Ms, a bundled bag that Thorn gave her and a textbook given to her by Kial was all she had on her. She bypassed everything in reach for Thorn?s present, hoisting it from her disorganized vault of secrets. It hung freely in her grasp when she brought it close for a momentary inspection.

Thorn?s present was something of a surprise to her. She knew the woman but it was mostly through proximity rather than one-on-one interaction. While they were on good terms and she never had an indecent thing to say about the woman, she was surprised to think they were on such good of terms to warrant presents during the holiday season. Maybe it was naive of her to think that people, no matter how close they may or may not be, couldn?t provide gifts for one another.

Internally, it made her smack herself for not thinking more into the future and being fully prepared. The only people she?d considered gifts for was Toby and Katt.

As she thought about it, her eyes went to the Christmas tin, her eyes softening with adoration. It wasn?t with label, not one she could see anyway, and was lighter than air sealed in an air mattress. Thorn?s present was set low beneath the tree, the first to join the Esters? ranks and reached over to pluck the red tin up and give it another look.

Each time it found its way into the soft grasp of her small hands, the intensity to open it grew exponentially. It was the massive red button that read ?DO NOT TOUCH!? that she was fighting with internally to do anything but touch.

It wasn?t any use, though. The gift, personally given to her by a person that she saw as an important figure in her life, was something that demanded she opened then and there.

She had to know what was inside.

The lid wasn?t sealed or locked down by any mechanical or magical means. It wasn?t rigged with confetti and ready to pop in her face when she peeled the shell back to see what was within. All that was there, in its massive glory, was a wide assortment of lightly glazed melonpan, a baked bread that is crisp on the outside with a delicious, spongy inside that could just melt in the mouth. It was a personal favorite of hers, as was the color of the tin that she was holding tight.

The strewn treats leered up at as she stared down into it, lost in disbelief. Her jaw unhinged and fell open, her sense of purpose numb, her mind whirring and blank.

??she? remembered,? Mayu whispered, reaching inside to delicately steal one and wind it close to her nose for a whiff.

They were fresh.

?Sis? you? made? them?? she asked. Nobody was there to answer her. Not even the tree, who stood there as a majestic witness to the girl?s astonished staring.

She didn?t build the appropriate walls necessary to stave off the welling of tears that saturated the corners of her eyes. There was no need to. Alone, in a building that only she was occupying, she hadn?t the requirements to keep herself from spilling an emotion that was rare for a deceased like her to shed.

Tears.

Threatening to sully her cheeks were she to blink, she shakily returned the treat to its tin and slid the lid over the top. There, her hands clasped around the tin and jerked it up to wrap her arms around it in a tight embrace. Knowing there wasn?t any means to fight off the intense flood of grief and sadness that warped her insides until she was a quaking mess, she let it out. A gentle, nigh inaudible cry, lamenting her sorrow and solidifying the ache that sat in her bosom each and every day she happened to spend in the inn.

Yet, despite knowing the pain it?d cause her, she still went. Be it to check in, or to ensure that everything was all right, she still went. Even if it wasn?t every single day, caused more problems than it did good, even if she had to sit and hear about the aches that she caused from years past, she still went.

She?d always try to go there, to that place where chaos congregates and the unusual occurs, even if it meant being strangled in a sorrow that only she knew.

Because, as the tears rolling down her face told her, that was what love was. Through the good and the bad, the regrets and the absolutions, that?s what it was.

She curled up with the red tin clutched tight to her chest and slept there beneath the Christmas tree that night. There was no need for the comfort of a bed or the warmth of blankets. All she needed was right there.

In that melonpan laden tin that Katt gave her for Christmas.

Toby Aradam

Date: 2012-12-24 02:43 EST
Our house is quiet, a silence that only comes with the dead of night, when everyone inside is asleep or off in their own private world behind their bedroom doors.

Down the hall, I hear Emerill snoring, a steady sound, like the grinding of pepper. Outside, the moons shine brightly, the stars twinkling right beside them like a spray of sugar crystals. My room is lit with tranquil, white blue light, softening the edges of the furniture. It makes everything look drowsy and comfortable.

And I can't sleep.

It's not all that unusual. Ever since I can remember, I could never handle the holidays well. I hear stories every year about the stress of them, how it gets to everyone at some point. It doesn't really feel like stress. It feels like--like a constant wrongness. Like I, myself, am not in the proper place. That this body I'm in--

Sighing, I roll over onto my back, stretching my hand up toward the ceiling. It's the same hand that I remember seeing when I laid down earlier but somehow--I don't know.

The dreams don't help either.

Maybe Emerill's right. Maybe I should start taking it easy. Almost as much as it feels wrong to, I find myself plunging as deep into work as I can get.

But there's nothing wrong, I swear. My family is great. I have a good friend living with me. The store is doing well, Sher's been doing better in school. My job lets me afford the things I need, and practically everything I could ever want.

My life--my life is great.

One day, telling myself that won't be enough. But that day is not today.

I swing my legs over the edge of my bed and get up. If I can't sleep, I might as well make use of my time. Spray and Pray 4 still sits in a plastic bag near my game system. I'd been wanting to try it out, get the hang of it. If for no other reason than to give Mayu a run down whenever she got her hands on it.

Gaming needs food, though. A sandwich and a glob of chips. Some fruit. Something. So with those thoughts in my head pleasantly chasing every other one away, I slip out of my room and tiptoe down the hall, down the small staircase leading to the living room.

The tree's still on, giving me enough multi-colored light to pick my way around in the dark. The last thing I need to do is run into something and make everyone think a burglar got in. The present heap beneath it seems to be growing at a steady rate, one or two every night. I've already screwed up and opened one of my presents this year, so I've been forcing myself to stay away from it. Those black Converse sneakers are like two lumps of guilt on the mat next to our door.

But there's a body shaped bundle tucked under the lowest branches of the tree that I can't seem to look away from. I know who it is instantly, but I hesitate to move closer, my eyes widening until they strain against the cheerful show of lights.

When Mayu told me she had never celebrated Christmas before, she'd said it in such a blas? way that I didn't think it made much difference to her. She knew what it was, she just never had the privilege--and that was it. She hadn't even seemed interested. Selfishly, I was glad about that. That meant that my gift to her would have been her first.

But as I look at her now, laying on her side, her body curling around something I can't see, I realize how wrong I was. There are lots of things she doesn't tell me. Something within me hopes that will change, but at the same time--there are a lot of things I'm not telling her either.

The twinkling lights dance like spotlights in the dark ocean of her hair, splayed all around her like the tendrils of a protective cocoon that fell apart before it could do its job. This close, I see that what she's holding is a red tin. Her hands, clenched tight, don't look about ready to relinquish it any time soon.

I feel the frown on my mouth tighten, the space between my brows begin to ache and I reach for the back of the couch some handful of feet away and Emerill's throw blanket that's draped there. It's made of cream colored yarn, knitted in an open weave and cool from the lack of body heat, but I figure it's better than nothing. She may not even need something like this, but I can't leave her without doing something. That wrongness in my chest just gets stronger and stronger the more I think about it.

I kneel down at the crown of her head, the safest spot to be with all of her hair fanning out wildly behind her, and drape the blanket over her small body. I pull its fringed edge up along her shoulders, letting it fall along the back of her tight hands. A pang goes through me when I look down on her face and see the lights shimmering in glassy tear streaks.

Who could have given this to her? How much did she feel for this person for it to make her cry?

Gaming is out the window now, getting a snack is the furthest thing from my mind.

I sit indian-style at her head, and even with all of my strength am unable to keep my hand from straying to her hair. My knuckles follow the curve of her ear without touching flesh, my eyes enraptured by the glittering sheen of each strand. She is asleep, this is the only state in which I know I've got the courage to do this, but I need to let her know I'm here. I can't even fathom sneaking away now.

I stay with her, my hand against her hair. My palm gets colder with each passing minute and my left leg begins to fall asleep, but I can't think of any other time when I was more comfortable.