Why can't she remember much? What she would qualify as memories came in flashes of strange irregularity.
She is 10. A brief vision of a wheat field and the distant sound of her own laughter as she runs from something. No, someone. A boy. He is running after her, his laughter mingling with hers as he shouts "you won't be able to run forever you know!". More childish giggling follows, then, the scene fades to smoke and is gone.
She is 17, but her surroundings are unknown as if this particular fragment of a memory was forged while her eyes were closed. The feeling of the memory is all that remains, one mixed with happiness, passion, and pain. There is a huskier reassuring male voice in her ear whispering, ?this will pass my sweet.? Gentle in nature this voice and it calms her.
Now she is 5. She plays quietly on a plush, soft purple carpeted floor in a large room filled with quite the assortment of treasures any young girl could ask for. In the distance, an adjoining room perhaps, there is the dull sound of an argument, rather heated. Her parents? More than likely.
There were many more where those came from but she shakes her head, trying to clear out the pathetic excuse for memories she grows weary trying to piece together. At least the ones she had seemed to be happy ones. So why did she feel as though she had nothing and no one? What made this so unbelievable to her was that she knew, even as scattered as her remembrance of the past was, that she used to have everything, a family that adored her and a man who loved her. Every expense taken care of, every need met, and the world at her feet. Now they were all just faceless blurs in a scattered mind.
Someone wanted her to disappear. The last thing she remembered of the life she used to possess was a beautiful blood red gown splayed on her bed. She was headed out for the evening, she was meeting someone. A man she loved deeply. It was going to be a special night filled with dancing and dinner and sweet promises. She had just gotten out of the bath and wrapped herself in a towel. As she dried off the majority of her body she caught a glimpse of herself in the full length mirror in her bathroom and chuckled at the tattoo of the lovebirds she had gotten not too long ago. The chuckle was in remembering this man?s reaction to it. Surprise that she had branded his initials alongside hers in her flesh and surprise at the location with which she had chosen. She remembered that he was no stranger to self expression in the form of flesh art and vowed to display his love for her in equal fashion though doubting he would be as brave in the choice of placement as she had been. She had been gazing down at her collection of shoes, trying to select the perfect black heels to compliment the dress when she felt a presence behind her briefly but before she could turn around to face her attacker there was a sharp, stabbing pain in her neck and then darkness.
Nothing but darkness. The same darkness that now clouds well over half of her memories. What had been used to erase such a huge chunk of her life? Her name she knew but that was a small consolation to what she had lost. It had been a month or so since this had occurred. Even as vivid as these seemingly recent events had been, they were still vague in name and nature. Who was the man she was meeting for dinner? It was obviously someone she loved who?s initials, J.C., were carved into her. The dress she remembered lying on her bed was cut from the finest of material as were the lush bedding it was displayed on. Where could she have gotten the means to afford such finery?
She had awoken in a dingy, small room containing a bed, dresser and adjoining bathroom. An inn? She was dressed in a simple green skirt, white blouse and black flats. There was a small bag in the corner which upon further investigation contained more plain clothing of the like, some toiletries and a small bag of coins. How had she gotten here? She had made her way to the front desk to inquire as to where she was. She was told the cities name was Rhy?din, she had been there for 3 days and that her room and board had been paid up for 3 months. No matter how much she had pressed him, the attendant would not divulge the name of the one who had brought her here. She detected a note of fear as she questioned him as if his very life had been threatened should he ever reveal anything about the meeting with this stranger.
She had returned to the room and sat down on the bed. On top of the dresser was a folded piece of paper she had not noticed before. She walked over to the dresser and picked it up. Unfolding it revealed two words written in a neat but hurried scroll, ?Move On.?
Who had written this? And if she couldn?t remember any particulars about her life just what exactly was she supposed to be moving on from??
She is 10. A brief vision of a wheat field and the distant sound of her own laughter as she runs from something. No, someone. A boy. He is running after her, his laughter mingling with hers as he shouts "you won't be able to run forever you know!". More childish giggling follows, then, the scene fades to smoke and is gone.
She is 17, but her surroundings are unknown as if this particular fragment of a memory was forged while her eyes were closed. The feeling of the memory is all that remains, one mixed with happiness, passion, and pain. There is a huskier reassuring male voice in her ear whispering, ?this will pass my sweet.? Gentle in nature this voice and it calms her.
Now she is 5. She plays quietly on a plush, soft purple carpeted floor in a large room filled with quite the assortment of treasures any young girl could ask for. In the distance, an adjoining room perhaps, there is the dull sound of an argument, rather heated. Her parents? More than likely.
There were many more where those came from but she shakes her head, trying to clear out the pathetic excuse for memories she grows weary trying to piece together. At least the ones she had seemed to be happy ones. So why did she feel as though she had nothing and no one? What made this so unbelievable to her was that she knew, even as scattered as her remembrance of the past was, that she used to have everything, a family that adored her and a man who loved her. Every expense taken care of, every need met, and the world at her feet. Now they were all just faceless blurs in a scattered mind.
Someone wanted her to disappear. The last thing she remembered of the life she used to possess was a beautiful blood red gown splayed on her bed. She was headed out for the evening, she was meeting someone. A man she loved deeply. It was going to be a special night filled with dancing and dinner and sweet promises. She had just gotten out of the bath and wrapped herself in a towel. As she dried off the majority of her body she caught a glimpse of herself in the full length mirror in her bathroom and chuckled at the tattoo of the lovebirds she had gotten not too long ago. The chuckle was in remembering this man?s reaction to it. Surprise that she had branded his initials alongside hers in her flesh and surprise at the location with which she had chosen. She remembered that he was no stranger to self expression in the form of flesh art and vowed to display his love for her in equal fashion though doubting he would be as brave in the choice of placement as she had been. She had been gazing down at her collection of shoes, trying to select the perfect black heels to compliment the dress when she felt a presence behind her briefly but before she could turn around to face her attacker there was a sharp, stabbing pain in her neck and then darkness.
Nothing but darkness. The same darkness that now clouds well over half of her memories. What had been used to erase such a huge chunk of her life? Her name she knew but that was a small consolation to what she had lost. It had been a month or so since this had occurred. Even as vivid as these seemingly recent events had been, they were still vague in name and nature. Who was the man she was meeting for dinner? It was obviously someone she loved who?s initials, J.C., were carved into her. The dress she remembered lying on her bed was cut from the finest of material as were the lush bedding it was displayed on. Where could she have gotten the means to afford such finery?
She had awoken in a dingy, small room containing a bed, dresser and adjoining bathroom. An inn? She was dressed in a simple green skirt, white blouse and black flats. There was a small bag in the corner which upon further investigation contained more plain clothing of the like, some toiletries and a small bag of coins. How had she gotten here? She had made her way to the front desk to inquire as to where she was. She was told the cities name was Rhy?din, she had been there for 3 days and that her room and board had been paid up for 3 months. No matter how much she had pressed him, the attendant would not divulge the name of the one who had brought her here. She detected a note of fear as she questioned him as if his very life had been threatened should he ever reveal anything about the meeting with this stranger.
She had returned to the room and sat down on the bed. On top of the dresser was a folded piece of paper she had not noticed before. She walked over to the dresser and picked it up. Unfolding it revealed two words written in a neat but hurried scroll, ?Move On.?
Who had written this? And if she couldn?t remember any particulars about her life just what exactly was she supposed to be moving on from??