Myra,

I hope you received the last letter. I wanted to ask if the promise you gave me still holds true? You know the one that if I have a family I cannot take care of you will be there. Is that promise still true? I need to know I can count on you, else I?m not sure what I?m going to do. It?s going to be hard for the next few months. I?m doing all I can do to survive. I caught a quick job, I have enough to pay the rent for three months. I have the food storage, thanks to your life lessons. Never be with a food stash.

I?ve made arrangements to sell off a few books, that should help with any other expenses I have. I?ve hired a young girl to help with the errands and to watch things for me. She?s a big help, but I suspect she knows something is going on. Remind me in your next letter to tell you about the time she ? oh, that?s a boring story.

How is Hyram and Gustav? I hope they are well. I miss you. I miss having someone to confide in. I think that?s what I miss most about ?

Love
Disa

****** ...

I assure you unless you have eyes in the back of your head you better watch your back.

The message was personally delivered off planet to a private mail box. When the envelope was opened, a powdery white substance spilled from the letter.

K?re jordn?t ...

Var b?rjar jag f?rklara? En gammal v?n sa ibland ?r det b?ttre om du b?rjar bak?t. Eftersom jag ?r p? en f?rlust av ord, l?t mig b?rja bak?t. Det ?r du och jag nu, men det var inte alltid s?. Jag ?r inte ens s?ker p? hur l?ng tid det kommer att vara s? h?r nu. Jag g?r allt som st?r i min makt f?r att se till att det ?tminstone vara du. Kom ih?g att oavsett vad som h?nder i ditt liv, vara stark. Vet du ?r ?lskad.

Just nu kan det inte vara det b?sta av omst?ndigheter, men jag t?nker inte att koncentrera sig p? det. N?r det ?r dags f?r dig att ?ppna detta brev, i rutan Jag har lagt n?gra av mina favorit saker d?r. Du vet var dina ?gon kom fr?n och formen p? n?san eller hur h?ret l?gger.

Jag vet inte var du kommer att vara n?r det ?ntligen h?nder, men vet detta, kommer du att ha allt jag har att ge dig. Inuti l?dan hittar en video som f?rklarar allt. Jag hoppas att filmer ?r inte f?r?ldrade med den tid du ?r gammal nog att f?rst?. Nu ?r de inte.

V?nligen ?ppna varje bokstav i f?ljd, kommer det att hj?lpa dig att f?rst?. Jag ber er att inte hata n?gon av oss, s?rskilt mig. Jag kommer att k?mpa tills det finns ingen kamp kvar i mig. Jag ber att ni kommer att f?rst? resten av bokst?verna.

?lskar,
mor

This and several others letters added to a wooden box.

Myra,

Thank you for the suggestion. I am writing letters and putting them in the box. It was such a good idea, I knew I would have never thought about it myself.

How can I thank you for talking me through everything? I don?t think I can. I feel so alone here, but circumstances prevent me from coming. You know the reasons. I?m doing everything I can do to hide. I?m afraid that I?m going to be found out and dead before everything else. Ironic, right?

I will call again next week. Until then, thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for the advice.

I am fighting, but I don?t know if it?s enough.

Love
Disa

K?ra ?lskade,

Som jag har spelat in allt f?r dig. Jag kom ih?g vad din pappa sa, han sa att han skulle vara glad ?t b?da h?llen. N?r du tittar p? den h?r, kommer du att f?rst? mer. Jag ville ber?tta f?r honom, men jag ?r inte alltid s?ker p? att vi kommer att prata igen.

Jag k?mpar med vad som ?r det b?sta man kan g?ra f?r dig och f?r honom. ?r det b?ttre att t?nka n?gon gick bort eller ?r det b?ttre f?r n?gon att d?? Jag hoppas att du aldrig beh?ver g?ra detta beslut. Faktum ?r att jag inte vill veta. Jag vill inte bli avvisad. Jag f?rest?llde samtalet i mitt sinne tusen g?nger.

Du vet sanningen och n?r du ?r tillr?ckligt gammal, kan du fatta beslut vad man ska g?ra med den h?r informationen. Om av n?gra mirakel och jag med dig, hoppas jag att du inte hatar mig f?r mitt beslut.

Jag ?r s?ker p? att jag redan hatade nog, men jag vet inte varf?r. Jag vet inte vad jag har gjort ... men .. samma sak kan s?gas .. Jag vet inte vad jag har gjort f?r att f?rtj?na dig.

Sn?lla f?rl?t mig.

Another letter sealed and included in the wooden box.

Self,

Sometimes you are broken. Sometimes you are strong. Sometimes you are crazy. Sometimes you are emotional. Sometimes you need others. Sometimes you need to be alone.

Remember you went to the doctor because of what he said. He was worried. Thank him for that day, thank him for the best news one can receive. He was right. Had he not encouraged you to go get things checked out, you may have endangered the life growing inside you. Now you know.

You were wrong for being upset he forgot about the threat in your life. It?s not like you talked about your life very much with him. Even if he never asked. Why should he? Remember he?s a demon. You know what that means. You risked that. You took a chance with that. Playing with fire never works out, sooner or later you?re going to get burned. Right?

Remember all the times he said he loved. Remember the time you saved his life. Remember the times you were there for him during his fight. Remember that may not want to be there for yours. Remember he gave you a place to live. Remember you never unpacked because they were his things, not ours. Remember the library and the way he kissed you. Remember the hot spring when he saw your skin for the first time. Remember when you had to tell him, you needed him and he didn?t remember.

Remember to live when you feel like you?re dying. Remember to eat when you can?t. Remember to sleep when your mind is racing. Remember to laugh when you feel like your heart is being ripped from the center of your chest.

Remember life is precious. Remember he is a demon. Remember he was your lover and your heart. Remember he is the father of your son.

Remember to suck it up when you want to go to him.

The letter was folded and later burned.

Sach,

Thanks for meeting tonight and all the information. You and Ethan are very gracious. I know all kidding aside, both of you would make great fathers. Please don?t tell Ethan I called him that. :)

I know it?s going to get rough before it gets better. I?ve already been hearing some chatter. You know what I mean, right? Name slinging was never my thing, so I?m prepared. Part of me thinks it?s better to just pack it in, walk away and do nothing. Though, right now I?m going to stay and wait as long as I can.

The doc is treating the medical condition with some natural remedies so it won?t hurt the baby. Sooner than later it?s going to start showing one way or another. Luckily I know his routine and it?s rare he is around the Inn. Doc says I won?t be very big, he?s a little guy and I don?t have much in the way of gaining. Most women should gain 20 or 30 pounds, he said I probably won?t hit 15 and that?s If I eat. I?m not sure I?ll be able to go all 40 weeks.

You know if you and Ethan are ready for this, you better start getting your things together. Are you really ready to be a father and adopt? I know Ethan said he?s been wanting a child for a long time, but your work and what you do has put it off. He said you were putting it off. What made you change your mind? You?re not feeling sorry for me are you? I don?t want your pity, please.

It?s easier for me to write you this letter than to say all these things to your face. You?ve been a good friend over the years, better than I deserve. Karl wrote me and said you paid for more information and he wasn?t supposed to tell me because I?m prideful? Thank you. I?d like to know what the rune is before I?m not here anymore. I can?t really say that ?d? word. I wish I could.

You told me the other day to go to him. Do you really think it?ll make a difference? Am I being prideful? I don?t think he can raise this baby on his own. Why would I want to burden him with this? I?m not saying he isn?t capable of doing it, but I don?t know if he would want to. The last we talked, he didn?t know if I was pregnant or not. He wasn't against it, he said we'd handle it together.

The thing is, I went to the doctor a few days later and when I came back, the god damn key wouldn?t open the door. I tried it, I tried it. Did he lock me out? I think he did. If not, why hasn?t he called me? Why hasn?t he reached out? I know you?re asking me the same thing. Not really asking me because you?re not here. You?re pointing it out, because I hear you in my head.

Sach, what do you do you when you love someone so much you want to keep them from the pain? I can?t tell him...oh we?re having a baby, but I?m not going to be here. There?s a chance neither will he. I know he?s a demon, but he wasn?t a demon to me. I keep telling myself that, but Sach, I love him so much. I think I?m going to die of ***** heart break before I?m taken the other way.

I can?t tell him, it?ll kill him. Maybe not. Maybe he?s around with his redhead whore laughing and calling me names. I?m sorry, that?s not right is it? I don?t even know what she is, but the look on her face, that?s what made me stop. I saw him with her and that look on her face like she claimed him or something. Shoulda tried to scratch her eyes out, but I couldn?t. I can?t do that. He didn't say a thing, he didn't look at me. Am I fool?

God Sach, I don?t know what to do. I thought I had enough resolve to keep this from him. Now I don?t know. I?ve never done a thing to him except love him.

I?m sorry this letter is covered with ink blotches. I?m crying like a baby. I?m sorry I can?t talk to you in person about this, it?s too hard. It?s way too hard. I can?t even write him. I?ve tried, I?ve tried a hundred times, but I don?t know what to say.

Sach, I need him but I don?t think that?s going to happen. I can?t risk being rejected. I know that?s pride, but that?s the only thing that?s keeping me going right now.

I was looking at names today, and his name is Ryker Robert, it means strength and bright or shinning. If you adopt him, if you adopt Ryker, he'll Ryker Robert Ruland. Has a strong ring to it. Tell Ethan, the name Robert is after his father; I know he?ll like that. Just between us, it?s more than that. Myra?s brother?s name is Robert as well, he helped us out when I first arrived. If he were a girl, it'll be something different. I probably should have a backup plan, right? You know, just in case the little peanut has no nuts.

I?ll see you in a few weeks.

Always,
Disa

Trebor..

I don't know what to do.

The rest of the letter was scribbled through. This letter pinned to the door with a dagger through it.

After a rough a night with little sleep, Disa woke up this letter hanging from a string. The letter was splattered with blood.

Disa,

What in the hell happened to you? You?re not a shrinking violet. You?re a fucking bulldozer. Seriously what are you doing? Sure some low life demon mother ***er left you, so what. Or did you leave him? Who the hell cares!? You knew what you were in for. What did you expect? Did you think some demon was going to seriously love? Come on. You?re smarter than that. So what if he has part of your goodie-goodie blood in him and you have some of his demon blood. Makes NO ******* DIFFERENCE.

Get this through your thick head, stop laying down and fight. Fight like when Sebastian crucified you to the wall with his collection of buck knives. You still can?t feel anything on the left side of your wrists. Didn?t you escape from his torture? That?s what kind of fighter you were. Is it so easy for you to forget when he broke four of your ribs, two fingers and blackened both eyes? All that because you talked to someone he didn?t like at your gig. And there?s the time he locked you up without food or water for four days. I?m sure you loved the hospital stint for that one, right?! I?m sure you miss the good old days. Did you forget?

Let me remind you.

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You play. You pay. Now you?re paying. Suck it up! There are consequences for doing what you?ve done. Sure you consented and now, you?re knocked up. Deal with it. That?s what might happen when two people agree to lay in bed together. You consented. He consented. Now you made something together even if neither of you are happy about it. TOO FUCKING BAD. He?s the one who asked you not to get rid of it. You have that option.

Suck it up. He?s a fucking demon, a fiend and malevolent being. The opposite of what you are. You going to lay down or are you going to fight?

K?re jordn?t,

N?got underbart h?nde idag. V?nligen l?ste brevet markerat glada dagar.

Jag har en k?nsla av allt kommer att vara s?kra f?r. Vi gick till l?karen och hon sa att du v?xer fint. Du har en stark hj?rtrytm. Jag ?r ledsen att jag var den enda d?r. Du ska aldrig vara arg med din far, eller ?tminstone f?rs?ka att inte vara.

Jag g?r fram och tillbaka mellan toppar och dalar. I slut?ndan kan du inte ta tillbaka vad du har gjort. N?r du g?r ett beslut, har avtal om ingenting att g?ra med det. Det ?r inte som jag kan g? tillbaka och ta bort din skapelse. Inte heller vill jag eftersom det s? mycket mer att komma till dig.

k?rlek mamma

p.s. You should be reading both languages by now. I promise you, there's so much more to come in your life.

K?re jordn?t,

N?gra livsl?rdomar jag ville passera l?ngs till dig:

? Kom ih?g att du kan aldrig f? det popul?rt r?star. Det ?r viktigare att st? upp f?r vad du tror, ​​?ven om alla andra tycker att du ?r fel.
? Ber?ttelser har tv? sidor. Sanningen och vad andra tycker ?r sanningen.
? Saker och ting ?r inte alltid som de verkar vara.
? Ta h?gre v?gen.
? Kom ih?g att alla har en ?sikt. Du m?ste best?mma var du st?r. Ibland din ?sikt kommer att f?r?ndras.
? inte reagera. T?nk p? varje r?relse som en planerad en.
? V?lj dina strider noggrant.
? L?t aldrig n?gon f? dig att k?nna mindre p? grund av den allm?nna opinionen.
? Ibland m?ste man ifr?gas?tta reglerna. Men om man m?ste ifr?gas?tta reglerna, g?r det kreativt. Till exempel om n?gon vill att du ska g? med p? att n?got och du inte h?ller, skaka upp saker och ting. Du kan g?ra detta respekt om du hittar ett s?tt att g?ra det. Se bara till att du vet vad du g?r.
? Innan du ringer n?gon ut, se till att du har dina fakta raka. Kanske att du har f?rstahandskunskap om situationen.
? Om du bor i kallt klimat, h?lla sig borta fr?n gul sn?.
? Var sn?ll f?rst om du kan. Var inte en ?versittare.
? Kom ih?g att v?rlden har f?rst?rts eftersom m?nniskor f?lja massan. De ?r getter leda till slakt. Om du tror p? n?got, st?r din marken.
? Perspektiv ?r en mycket sv?r sak att f?rst? n?r det g?ller andra.
? N?r du g?r den extra milen och du ?r tr?tt eftersom n?gon avbryta er eller sk?ra ner dig, kom ih?g det kommer att g?ra dig starkare.
Jag kommer att l?mna mer snart.

k?rlek mudder :arrow: :twisted: :grin:

The letter folded up and placed into a box.

After a few hours she awoke to a blood spattered letter tacked to a flickering monitor.

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E Disa,

When are you going to fucking roll over and finally tell that demon piece of shit the truth? You know it?s going to be like the last time, don?t you? You think anyone is going to feel it?s okay for you to have a demon spawn. Why don?t you just say he?s a fucking lame lay with a penis the size of a bean. He?ll call you a bitch and you can officially hate him. Or do you already hate him? Sparing your feelings or his?

He abandoned you. He did that to you. You remember that though, don?t you? You?re not going to listen. You are a stubborn tonch. Heed these words: Z ABOAPRI ADGMACH ADNA ADPHAHT AISRO AR ANANAEL ARGEDCO ASPT BALZIZRAS NIIS.

He?s coming. You know he?s coming. Wake up.


The letter was unsigned.

To: crazyrussian@ftoys.com
From: dis.order@server.com

Dear Sach & Ethan,

I believe I?ve found a great resource to help me get a handle on the Sebastian situation. It cost me dearly, but we all know why that is. Ethan wait until you see me again before screaming.

Sach, I have to tell you the idea you have concerning Ryker is insane!! It is absolutely insane. It?s not only risky and dangerous, but Ethan loses. I won?t agree to that and if he does, he?s crazier than you. We need to talk about this in person. Though to answer your question, I do know a few nexus pilots.

Please don?t worry about me. Worry about the baby and what will be going on after he arrives.

Love both of you.
Disa

Dear Sach

I haven't heard from Myra in a few weeks. I think there's something wrong can you please check on her family? I can't leave the nexus right because of my condition.

I am sorry to bother you with my problems. You know I hate doing that because when you rely on people there's always a cost. That sounds snarky but you know what I mean.

We aren't like that, we stopped being that way when Ryker happened. You and Ethan are going to make great parents. When Ryker asks about his mum please tell him the whole story, that is if he asks.

Love to you and Ethan. I will send some baby clothes in the next package.

Disa

Dear Myra,

I?m desperate to hear from you. I miss you terribly, please write back. Sachar is supposed to be looking in on you to make sure things are all right. Did I do something to hurt you? I hope I haven?t. I have something to tell you, though it isn?t about the baby. I need your advice.

Yt pai Robert, onde ?sht? cidade? El fis ? n? Mull?

Please write back to me. I have something interesting to tell you about Robert. I am looking for the answer though. I want to hear back from you, please.

Love
N

p.s. I am not ready to be called that name yet. Soon. Very soon.

Having not slept for a few days, Disa passed out on the floor. A few hours later she woke up to a letter written on the large canvas she?d been painting on.

You?re a fucking lunatic. First you brand yourself as an idiot for falling in love with a demon who deceived you. Now you?re baiting someone who can?t being to do anything for you. You want it to happen, don?t you? You want to feel like you?re worth something when you know you?re worthless.

What questions trickle off his tongue? What does he ask you? What does he want to know about you? Nothing! Not one single damn thing. What kind of friend is he? He let you bleed. He let you walk away. Are you so desperate to have someone like that befriend you in these days?

Wake up. You?re a fucking pathetic piece of work Disa. Wake the fuck up. You?re going to be alone. You are alone. Stay alone.


The canvas was splattered with blood.

Trebor,

It?s an unsettling thing when an entity invades your already sick body. It?s amazing when you prayed so long your prayer was finally answered in a most unexpected way. It?s heartbreaking when you spend a significant amount of time in your life helping someone one and there is no respect at the end of your time together. I can assume you have interest in any of those things I mentioned above.

I have no idea why you locked me out. I have no idea why you never called after you forgot about something significant in my life you should have been well aware of. I thought you were a prick when you never called. I wept. I thought what have I don?t so wrong that he would do what he?s done. Whether I did, or you did to me or we did, it doesn?t matter anymore. Silence is the only adjudicator I need.

I needed to write this letter for me because I feel you should know a few things. After I left the hospital, I was told by one of the doctors they found out not only was I was pregnant, but they also found a mass on the base of my brainstem. They tried to get in contact with me for a few months to tell me, but without contact information they could not pass along this information. About the time I told you I might be pregnant and we talked about what we would do, I was already feeling ill because I was pregnant and of the mass on my brainstem. I never told you I wasn?t feeling well, because I didn?t know if I could actually count on you.

When I talked to you about my concerns with Sebastian, you forgot who that bastard was. I blamed you because you fucking forgot about someone who tortured and beat me. How do you forget about someone who hurts the person you supposedly love? I couldn?t wrap my mind around how you could be so caught up. Then I realized you were caught up in your revenge. I was there for you when you needed someone. And in some ways you were there for me. You gave me a place to live, but never really a place to call home. You fucked me, but you really didn?t love me. I wanted to blame it all on you, but it was both of us.

My body was sick, I was hormonal and dealing with figuring out what to do. When I left to go get some air when we talked about Sebastian, I came back to the museum and my key didn?t work. Here?s where things took a turn. I didn?t call you because I figured you were done. A few days later you never called so I knew you were done. Maybe I was done. I needed you and you weren?t there.

With all the stress and my body healing from the previous injuries, I had a miscarriage. I went through that alone. I also found out I was going to be a mother anyway. The timing was horrible. What you didn?t know about me is a few years ago before I came to Rhydin, I donated some eggs for my dear friends Sach and Ethan so they could have children. The news was bittersweet.

I know this news has nothing to do with you, but indirectly it does. I blamed you for my pain. I know that what I had to go through really had little to do with you and everything to do with me. I?d been praying for many years to find out who I was and when I was with you I put that on hold. When I didn?t ask you why we ended, I started to focus on what I was here to do.

Fortunately, now I have a better idea of who I am and where my life is going. I found out I was married. His name is Ewan. He knows about you. He knows what I feel you did to me and he knows I blamed you. I?ve moved on as I?m sure you have. I know the time we were together is time I?ll put behind me and know that I?ll never do it again. Do I blame you? No. I don?t blame anyone. I?ll never put my life on hold for anyone else.

I figure this letter probably doesn?t make sense to you. It makes sense to me and right now that?s all that matters. I also know you?ll probably never read it.

You knew I could have been pregnant. You never called to ask if I was. I was and unfortunately our daughter?s life was not meant to be. You should have called to ask. You didn?t. For that, I will never forgive you for. You proved whatever character or decency I thought you had, was nothing. We made a life together and for whatever reason my body couldn?t carry her, but it was still a life none the less. I mourn our daughter I carried for four months and lost. I mourn the loss of her life I thought was created in love. I?m fully aware that you are a demon and probably not capable of love. And you were selfish.

I do not hate you, because I?m not going to waste the emotion on you. I have moved on and if I have to remember you, I?ll remember that I buried her alone.

I wish you no harm, no ill-will or hate. I know that sometimes we have to go through hell to get where we are meant to be. I won?t forget the lessons you taught me. I won?t forget never to get into bed with a demon, but I will do my best to forget you.

I never did anything to hurt you. I was there when you were consumed with revenge. I was there when you were sick and needed help. I helped you and did everything I could do to make you happy. I have no idea why you treated me so fucking bad, except you are a demon from hell and cares about no one or nothing but yourself.

I returned the Black Ram shirt you gave to me. I?m sure you received it.

Not that I care what you hear about me, but I am giving you the decency you never gave me. I was pregnant and miscarried our daughter. I found out I was married, I hade no idea, he found me. I did not go out and get married on a whim and rebound. There will be twins, and I will be a mother in a few months, but not by birth. I never cheated on you. I never betray you and when I was with you, I loved you.

Goodbye.


The letter was folded up, labeled and left in an empty cubby some where.


((What happened in this post is completely from her perspective, based on actual live play and previous OOC discussions. It takes time to tell the story and as stated from the beginning, the other player was not directly involved. This was what happened to my character as a result of play. I did not need another?s consent to play this story. This was planned weeks before the SL ended and written out. Nothing was retconned or rewritten except the sex of the miscarried child.))

Norah,

I have not given up. I am searching. I understand why you sent Luke after me but for the moment I am not sure I can bare his presence or anyone else's for much longer. I want so much to awaken from this nightmare. With you in my arms assuring me this was all just a silly nightmare. Tell me to wake up, Norah! I must wake up! Why would you send me all these clues. Why would you align yourself with such a creature if you were not sure this despicable miscreant was of some use to us? Why did you not tell any of this Norah? Why did you let me believe that you could have made it? No, I am not blaming you my love. Everything is making sense now. My mind is clear. It is the others who are mad. Not me. I will make this right. It will all be right in the end and we will find each other. I will make certain of this. Everyone has let you down, Norah. I know I have but I will not stop until you are back again. I love you with my very last breath whatever it takes.

with my own heart's blood, Ewan Malcolm Skye.

The letter was folded and but in an envelope and left in the box.

Mo gr?idh,

My greatest wish my children, is that you will always see the world with caring eyes. Life is not fair. Life is harsh and cruel and callous. Unfortunately, this you both will ultimately learn. People will be horrible to you. They will disappoint you and eventually they will leave you. Learn to never give up heart. A heart that still beats is a heart that still loves. I am not one to speak to you of such things. My heart is frozen and buried beneath a miles deep landscape of ice. It will remain as such I will admit to you. Do not make the mistakes of your Da. Love fierce, love with passion and never ever ever forget to say "please" and "thank you" when such words are needed. Also learn that you must fight when such the need occurs. Wolves do not listen to the opinions of sheep. You shall learn this also, Mo gr?idh. Your Da loves you, I may not know what the future holds for us. For all of us but please know everything I have done was for your preservation. My darling wee ones, you are all I have left of my Norah. May you be so blessed as to possess her intelligence, her humor and her passion. Please know that what I did...I did to save us. Da loves you very much. May your days be blessed and filled with love and happiness and when you find that special one...never let them go.

with my own heart's blood, Your Da Ewan Malcolm Skye

the letter was neatly folded placed in an envelope and stored away in the black box

At some point Ewan found a letter addressed to him. It was neatly folded and sealed with a red seal in the shape of a paw print. Ewan opened the letter and saw that it was without a doubt his own writing. He did not remember writing this however.

Self,

When are you going to wake up? When are you going to take your place as the leader of your pack as you are destined to do? People depend on you and you have to trust them. Learn to love and stop beating yourself to the ground for events that happen and which are beyond your control. Yes you have done things. Horrible things that can only surface in the most deranged nightmares of men. However, do you remember that you took no joy in those killings. You knew it was the only way to protect the ones you loved. There was no other way. There is no going back and the only way to look is forward. You are not alone now. Your people depend on you and love you and it is you must return that love. Has Luke ever once in all the years you have known him ever betrayed you? No. He hasn't. Sach and Ethan have offered you nothing but kindness and respect. Disa, you know you love her. It wasn't your love that killed her no matter what you try to tell yourself. You could not foresee what was to come. No one did. You have to believe that she knows that as well. You cannot hate yourself forever. There is no point and every good you have done. Every life you saved. Every kindness you have bestowed to another will all be for naught. Remember what Da taught you. Take responsibility for your actions and think with your mind not your fists. Speak plainly and honestly. Speak your mind but do not be hurtful with your honesty. You have to believe that no matter what, everything will work out in the end. You will rise above. You haven't spent centuries on this green earth surviving just because you were lucky. You are resilient if anything and you love fiercely and passionately. Let it go, the real you is inside and he needs to be free.

With my own heart's blood, Ewan Malcolm Skye

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Note to Self:

Life is guaranteed to be bad sometimes. It's also guaranteed to be good sometimes. Life goes up and down, up and down, like a roller-coaster because that's the shape of life - it's a lifeline, not a flatline.

Learn to survive, endure and then leave behind the down and remember to enjoy (and then let go of) the good.

And that's how you live life.

-the letter was placed into a black envelope and placed into the black box-

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Well, Ronnie. I didn't think I'd see you again. In some form or another. I was doing some cleaning, putting things away since I really don't want to think about the cluster #$%^ that's been happening lately. I came across our picture. The one that was taken when we out on a walk. We took turns pushing your Mum Elsie in her wheelchair. She loved going to the park to feed the birds. Diabetes had claimed the use of her feet but not her spirit and there was a lot of it to go around. I remember when this picture was taken. When she urged you and me to stand in for a photograph.

"I need to take a picture of my two boys," She had gushed. I was never much one for picture taking. Especially since I hadn't shaved the peach fuzz from my face that day and it was right after the last full moon. However, I remember her words producing a grin on my mug. The one that's seen in the picture. You both welcomed me and I was part of a unit, although I tried not to get close. I felt appreciated and wanted. Something I hadn't felt in quite a long time. This was two years ago...nearly three. I miss you both. There hasn't been a day that goes by when I don't think about you and your Mum. I'll always remember the warm smiles, the humor and love. I want to think that you both are finally in a better place.