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When the moon was close to coming, she followed Ewan down stairs when he locked himself in the cage. She stared at him. There were so many feelings reeling through her mind and heart.

?One thing that confuses me, is you said you would do anything.. is that right? You would do anything for me? I think you have limits. We all have limits. I?d say for you to do something, but you wouldn?t. I know there is something you won?t do. I don?t know what it is, but I know there has to be something you won?t do. I have a problem with that. I have a problem with you saying you?ll do anything. You?ll be a liar if you say anything, but that one thing you won?t do. You never said almost anything, you said anything.?

Those where the last words she said to him. Right now in her state of mind, she couldn?t give him any time to reply. She didn?t want to watch the beast come out. It was already hard enough finding her place. It was already hard enough to know that she couldn?t remember what was behind them.

?How can I *** trust you if you can lie to me?? It finally came out. She screamed from the top of the stairs before exiting. She needed air, needed to walk.

You have a warped sense of justice. Those words burned her brain. ?I know. He said anything. Why would you say anything, when there?s a place when you will do nothing? How?? Disa was talking to herself as she walked.

There was no direction, she simply needed to walk. ?If you are going to say something, why wouldn?t you say I?ll do almost anything for you? Does it sound romantic enough? No. It sounds half-hearted and limited, but at least it was honest. I?d rather no lies, no chance of lies because the doubt will consume everything. It?s *** like this consuming me now. He?s not a bad person, is he? I don?t think he is. I?ve seen he wants to help, but what he?s doing isn?t helping. I wanted him to give me some time and don?t lie to me. I?m not over thinking it, no matter how stupid he thinks what I?m feeling may seem.?

She?d walked pretty far away from the pub to where the road ran into the docks.

The waves crashed against the cement pillars. The air was cool and she was freezing. The moon was high and full, it made her sick to look at it. ?Lucy!! You told me to call if I needed you. Where are you? I... I don?t think there?s a way back. I waited like you told me to wait.?


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?What?? She felt defensive. ?Do you know what it?s like not to remember what happened and to be in a situation ..? It was that moment she started to feel sick to her stomach. How could she be so full of rage?

Lucy noted the change and put her hands up. ?Look, you?re dealing with many things. I don?t think it?s anything you need to deal with all at once. Where?s Ewan??

She shook her head. ?Caged.?

Lucy looked up and realized it was the full moon. ?I?m sorry.? Some of it made sense, the rest she knew was confusion. ?I?m going to take you somewhere for a few days. I think it will help.?

Before she could argue, Lucy took her hand and they vanished.

A few hours later Lucy made a call to Luke and explained what was going on. He promised to try and help.

Luke showed up at the pub letting himself in just before dawn. It smelled like dog as he headed toward the basement. ?Fuck, brother, y?need to shower. It smells like fifty dogs live down here.? He completely exaggerated and was trying to get a rise out of Ewan. ?I?ve some shit to share man. Get your ass up! We need to have a serious talk.?

As much as I don?t want to see your lily white arse, you need to cover it up. I?m gonna go upstairs and make some coffee. You get something up and go get a shower. We?ll talk.? Luke wasn?t going to take no for an answer, but it was more that Ewan needed to clean himself up.

Luke went back to the stairs and walked up to the top floor, made some coffee and waited by the kitchen island. ?*** man.. what you doing?? He said to himself when his phone went off. It was a text from Lucy

There was no smart arsed comment from him for the moment. Which was unlike him. However, he quickly slipped on a pair of jeans and a t-shirt. He groaned and rubbed his eyes feeling like he had been hit by a diesel truck. His stomach was feeling rather sour now which was not helping his rather tense mood. He groaned when Luke left and he made his way out of the cage and up to the elevator. He went and got that shower which made him feel a little bit better. Not by much since there was that terrible feeling floating in his brain. Slipping on a clean pair of clothes Luke was soon joined by the werewolf in the kitchen. No. He did not sniff out Disa anywhere. Luke was here without Lucy and he seemed a bit miffed about that. He was grateful for the pot of coffee. Ewan still looked crummy despite that shower. Eyes were red rimmed and his skin looked even more milky in complexion. He had poured himself some coffee in a black mug.

"What's happened, Luke?" Ewan asked him. He didn't bother to hide the worry that he was feeling. He added sugar to his coffee and a bit of cream although he usually just drank it black.

?Sit down man.? When Ewan finally sat down, he did too. ?You got a few more days for the change, so Lucy took Disa somewhere. Neither are going to tell you where they are. Lucy isn?t even telling me. Apparently, your wife is feeling smothered by you and feel like you?re lying to her. I don?t know how long she?s going to be gone. Lucy assured me she?s working on her, but right now, she needs some time to figure out whatever she needs to figure out.?

He suspected that was going to be hard for Ewan, so before his mate could reply, he opened his mouth. ?You need to keep your head about this. You *** take things personally, and I get it. It would rake me over hot coals to know Lucy felt that. You gotta give her time to do what she feels she needs to do. The best thing you can do is to *** pulling yourself together. You look like ***.?

His steps were careful. Two more days and nights of this and it'd be over for now. Ewan took his seat. He listened to every bit of what looked said. His red rimmed eyes looking to him. He didn't show much of an expression but it was clear by the twitch in his eyes. The slight narrowing of him that he was less than pleased with this information. He expected it to an extent however. Deep down he believed whatever happened would happen. Things would work itself out.

He frowned slightly and took a sip of his coffee. That was an apt description. He felt a complete failure. "It's not that I haven?t been tryin'. I feel like...whotever I do just sends her into rage. I've tried to tell her things. Show her things to help her. Everythin' I do seem to be met with resistance." It was a terrible heart crushing feeling to feel unwanted. Maybe it was some sort of karma. "The way she looks at me man..." he started, he didn't want to talk about it but when he started he couldn't stop. "She looks at me like she hates me."

"No one is blaming you for not trying Ewan. You try and I'm sure you're it's fine, no one judging you. What's important right now is who? You want me to *** paint a pretty picture for you or do you want me to be square with you?" Shaking his head. "Ewan, is this about you? So, what if she looks at you like that. Did she say it? Lucy gives me looks all the time, I *** up. Sometimes I *** up and don't even know it. At least I know if she's pissed off when she screams at me, I know I *** up. If she doesn't tell you. I told you she needed time and you're belly aching about yourself."

There was no real verbal response on his end. Just a nod of acknowledgement and a mild twitch of the corner of his lip which was hidden with a slow intake of coffee. As always Luke was right. Damn it he was right. Although he hadn't meant to make this all about himself. He just felt like everything was being met with resistance. So...back away for a bit. If she needed some time that was fine. Oh, Ewan had been there for quite a few of Luke and Lucy's "fights". They were intense to be sure but they were always just fine afterwards. More than just fine and Ewan would sometimes find himself turning up the TV downstairs while the passionate make up sex carried up above.

He was silent for a moment. Taking this time to gather what Luke was telling him and to think about what he needed to say. "I'm not tryin' t' make this all aboot meself." It was just how he felt. "She did tell me she thoat I wus dishonest wi' her." He paused for a moment to take another intake of coffee. It warmed his stomach at least. He didn't feel so much like death warmed over. "I din't get th' chance t' explain or anythin'. Kind o' dropped thot just ri' before th' beast showed up."

"You don't have to apologize to me Ewan. I'm not the one struggling. You *** know better. I waited to marry Lucy, because I wasn't ready. She wanted more, and I said in time when I was ready. We fought enough over it. I said things that confused her, I didn't get it." Luke sat down.

"Look mate, truth is women are nuts sometimes. You think your woman wants to hear some *** excuse why you said something to her? Lucy didn't. Lucy beat it in my head to stop talking and do something. I was going to before she was killed. I had the ring man, I had the *** ring. Your woman is telling you something. You gotta figure out what she's telling you and respect that. You can't make it about what you're feeling. Doesn't mean you should stuff your feelings down, but don't try to make it about you when she's telling you what's up. Take another time to sit down and tell her what the hell is going on when it's not about her sharing with you. Mate if you don't you're gonna *** lose her." He hoped it wasn't too late and there was no way back for Ewan and Norah.

Luke's confession had hit Ewan like a ton of bricks. He knew there were things buried deep inside of him. Ewan remembered always teasing him when the wedding date was. He would a curt answer that didn't sound joking so he backed up. Ewan did what he could to be there for his friend when Lucy died. Ewan thought again on his situation with Disa. He had lost her. They lost each other so many times before. They were separated but somehow always found each other. Like God or the fates was pushing them back in each other's path. It was a rough feeling when you felt like you were drowning and there was no way to come back from it. He didn't know what he would do if he lost her a final time. He just knew he didn't want to live this life without her. "It's not too late, Luke. It's never too late." It was as if Ewan had somehow caught onto what Luke was thinking. Of course, he hadn't. It was probably a worry Ewan had himself.

"I don't think you understand how serious this Ewan. Norah told Lucy she can't do it anymore. She said she wasn't prepared to come back. Luc is trying to talk to her, but Ewan, it may be too late." That's why Luke told him it was a serious conversation.

"Mate get it through your head, you may not get a happy ending."

It's just a what if. He wanted to say. So many things went through his head. what if we divorce. She had said to him. Was that the one thing she wanted from him? One thing. The one thing he can?t do was that what made him a liar. Ewan was silent. What could you say to something like this? What could you do in a situation like this? Could he giver her what he wanted? Eyes were lowered and they looked to table top. He couldn't help but glance at the ring she had given him. He knew even if this did mean the end. He just couldn't remove it. He wouldn't remove it. I'm the stars and you're my moon forever. The inscription on the watch. Ewan was holding it together to the best of his ability but the wolf within wanted to rage more. "She told me there wus one thing...one thin'. One thin' I wouldn' do." Divorce...one thing he wouldn't do. *d*

"I don't know if she mentioned divorce, she told Luc that she couldn't come back. You know what that means here in the nexus, she could end up anywhere." This wasn't going the way he thought it was. Ewan was being quiet.

Right now, he wasn't sure how this was going or how he was going to help.

When Ewan was quiet it was a dangerous. He breathed in deeply. It felt like there was a railroad spike lodged deep in his chest. A feeling like his heart was being ripped in half. Tinges of red burning around his irises. "Anywhere....she can't come back?" He looked crushed. He looked like he was going to explode or murder something. "No...that cannae be the final answer." He was calm. Too calm. Ewan was a passionate person with a loud infectious laugh and a hearty persona to boot when he was close to people he was comfortable with. "we've been through so much...I know we have...there wus somethin' there. I tried to show her there wus somthin' there..." He cut himself off.

"You smothered her mate, and you don't see it." Luke stood up. "I don't know what to think mate. I know Luc is trying, and I'm trying, but you're all bottled up and not saying a thing."

"I'm so confused, Luke. I dun't know whot t' do or whot to make of this. None of this. I tried t' be attentive. To be there for her. I thought I could be thot. All I wanted t' do wus t' help her. Help her...w' somethin' anythin'. I tried...the time b'fore this felt like I din't want her. It wusn' true at all." Ewan shook his head. His life was slipping away from him. Everything was crashing and slipping through his fingers. He never felt like he never had no way out. But now this was how he felt. "Whot can I do? I dun't know whot to do." There was agony in his voice. A terrible raw pain. No matter what Luke and Lucy went through they made it. "We were together for so long. I might not remember mos' o' it. But it was good. It pure an' it wus ours. we had it. I jus' cannae believe it will end. Not like this."

Luke was standing there. "Don't know mate, don't know if you went too far. Only she can tell you, but right now she doesn't want to see or talk to you. I'll see if Lucy can get anything out of her, she's trying."

Ewan wanted to do nothing more than just drink himself into a stupor. He wanted to die. He just wanted to sleep and never ever wake up. He couldn't remember feeling like this before. Stop it, Ewan. You're stronger than this. He got up as well. No, he wasn't going to drink. If he did he would never stop. It just felt so...unreal all of this. Like some nasty nightmare he couldn't awaken himself from. He got to his feet however and took the coffee cup and put it in the seat. He was trying not to break something. Not to scream not to rage. Not to get into that van and drive off into the wilderness and never look back. No. He would not be doing any of that.

"I'd suggest you pull your *** together, sit down and write her a letter. Maybe that will help. I can take it to her if you want."

Ewan nodded. Luke was right. He always was of course. He just needed to take a breath and he did. He washed the cup and put it back in the cupboard. "Then thot's whot I'll do." Ewan replied softly as he looked to him.

"Then get to it." Luke said. He was hungry, so it was time to raid the frig.

I wandered around the city for so long after what Ewan did to me again. When I found this tea place, I needed to sit, I don?t have any money to buy tea, but the woman behind the counter seemed to know who I was and brought me a cup. I told her I didn?t have the money to pay for a single cup of fucking tea, she said it was on her, she owed me. I wanted to ask why she owed me, but the look on her face proved she thought I forgot about it. I told her thank you and she went back to work.

I have the letter Ewan wrote me, but I never told him I read it. I wanted to apologize for the pain I have caused you. My actions were rash and selfish. Never once did I ask you what it was what you really wanted or what you needed from me. I did say I would do "anything" for you. Looking back on it, the words sound cheap and meaningless and it's a lie. You are right, there are limits to what I would do.

I realize that I was smothering you. I didn't give you the time you needed. I wasn't letting you think for yourself. Instead trying to throw so many things in your direction and it must have been horribly overwhelming. I should have had more empathy in your situation knowing full well that there was a time when all my memories were gone. Instead of it being an experience of clarity I know it must have horribly frustrating and painful for you.

Not only that, but you were extremely patient with me. Even when I made the same stupid mistake over and over again. You also demonstrated compassion and kindness. Even in situations when I did not deserve any. To hurt you in this way was an insult to all the things that you have done for me and I hate myself for that.

I would try to offer an explanation for what I did, but there are no excuses. My intentions although good, does not excuse my extremely poor behavior. They do not matter here: only my poor choices. I absolutely take responsibility for my actions and all the terrible pain I have caused you. I want to say to you that I am truly and deeply sorry.

I?m not trying to cherry pick through the letter. I don?t get why he doesn?t understand. Honestly, I?m done trying. I am sick and fucking frustrated to the point I don?t want to be around him anymore!! I feel like I hate him.



She put the pen down, leaned her head against the back part of the chair and fell asleep.

She started putting things away, and accidentally knocked the bag over. A small picture fell out of one of the side pockets. Reaching for it, she glanced at it and had to glance again.

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It then she realized something. Even though he usually had a baby face, this image was of another time and place. When? She didn't know.

"Damn you.. " She murmured. "Damn me." It's when she realized why she had feelings for him. Closing her eyes, pieces of their past flashed. Nothing was whole, but it was enough to freak her out.

Soon she was gone and roaming the streets again. The picture was back in the bag, but several times it was out and she stared at it trying to put some pieces back together.

When I can't think about something, it gets worse. I was on my way to the library, but I didn't make it very far. I am at the tea shop now. If I don't get these feelings out of the way, I'm not sure how I'll be able to react.

I've told myself that in time it'll be fine. I want to believe that, but I'm not sure how to believe anything. Lucy made it a point to tell me to be careful, there was someone after me. Ewan told me some days back there was a man who was out to harm me. I tried to get information from him, but he didn't say much.

I tried playing with the phone I have, I found it in the bag he said I used to carry. There were phone numbers in there with notes. I came across three numbers that had more information than the others, a Myra, Sachar and Ethan.

I discovered I have a knack for technology. It was pretty easy to figure out a few things. These text between Sachar are very personal, it's the details of the children I had, I mean he had.

I left him a message. I also left a message with Ethan. I think they are together, but I explained what was going on and asked if either of them would call. I said I am in Rhydin and looking for a place to stay.

Hopefully I'll get some answers soon.

I?m settled into a place now and it?s been quiet. Apparently, this place was the ?go to? place if there was a fallout here. Supposedly I helped set up all the security. This place is amazing. I have views all over the city. It makes me wonder why I wanted to keep eyes in the sky. Well, I know where I can find some answers. Sach said told me I?d come here frequently to get back ups and after a bombing of a place I had in town, this was a place no one knew of except for Ethan, Sach and myself.

I asked him why didn?t the one I was married to know about this. He said he wasn?t sure. All of it was so fast. That we talked and decided to keep this place secure and safe for us.. he said our family. It?s like a bunker here, enough food for several years and a self-sustaining garden. At least that?s what I?d call it. Doesn?t the garden need tending? Who is doing that? There?s so many questions. However right now I feel safe and what I know about my skills seems to be coming back.

Whoever this Sebastian is, Sach told me to watch for him. The computers have been running. He wanted me to come back to earth with him so he and Ethan could watch over me. He said I could be with the triplets too. I told him, they are not mine. He stared at me. I had to explain, being they are so young, they need them, and I don?t want to get attached right now. I don?t want to endanger them any more than I have.

I?m watching all the surveillance and wonder if the man who is hunting me is here. I wonder if I should even be here or if I should find a place to just disappear.

Father Marcus Croft used another alias in this city. The impersonating priest sat quietly at the desk of the small catholic parish just outside of Rhydin waiting.

It took Disa several hours to walk there and to find exactly where the small church was located in a remote part of Rhydin at the bottom of two mountains. The snow had melted and oddly enough some white winter flowers bloomed. The walk was well worth the hike. Before continuing she decided to sit down and draw the landscape.

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Once the sketch was finished, she wrote across the bottom ?I will not lose faith.. maybe??

Truth is, she had no faith left. She felt betrayed, alone and lost.

After an hour, she decided to make the meeting with the priest another time. Her mind was filled with so much turmoil, that she couldn't rationally make sense of what she needed or wanted. Emotionally she?s a mess and trying to figure out what she should do in this condition made her skin crawl.

Remember words that someone close to her told her, "If you?re lost, do not move. Stand still. You can breathe even if you?re afraid. Do not move until you are confident to know what to do.? Myra told her that. Even though she didn?t remember Myra, the words were true to her soul.

Disa returned to Rhydin and sent a message to Father. They would meet soon.

Father Croft was not pleased with her decision. Another plan started forming. One way or another, he was going to make her pay.

?Hello Father Croft, this is Disa Skye, the woman who you met a few weeks ago, the one with the memory loss. We talked about an annulment. I have the marriage certificate and I have also thought about what I wanted to do. I have decided to move forward with the annulment. I?m sure you will not have any issue or refusal from the other party. I have not seen him, and I think he may be gone from the realm. I?m sorry that I do not know where to find him. He told me worked for a hospital, but I can?t remember where. We were trying to get things settled, and never really had a lot of time to talk about where he went. I can try to find him, but I would rather not have any contact with him. Please call me if you can help. Thank you.?

She hung up the phone and would wait for the return call.

Esme answered. ?I see. What is it you don?t want to forget??

?I don?t want to forget when someone tells you something to your face versus what they tell you on paper. This meant nothing to him. Nothing.?

The old woman shook her head. ?Are you sure it meant nothing??

Disa turned to stare at the elder woman. ?I?m sure from our time together he is not what this note claims he is. I know you do not leave someone you love, no matter what.?

?I see.? Some of the ash brushed the wrinkles on her skin. ?I taste tears.?

Disa shook her head. ?Not over me.?

She started to laugh. ?Maybe not. Maybe not.?

Disa continued to read the small piece of paper. ?You see here? it was terrible and shameful thing I?ve done. If you have remorse, if you?ve done something wrong, why not make it right? I would have given him a chance to make it right. I did. I came back for him, but no, he fucking opened his heart to someone else, opened his mouth to tell someone else what he was feeling instea?? She abruptly stopped herself. ?Forgive me, I?m so sorry.? The tone in her voice changed. ?I did not mean to get angry.?

Luke told me that I was smothering you. I didn't give you the time you needed. I wasn't letting you think for yourself. Instead trying to throw so many things in your direction and it must have been horribly overwhelming. I should have had more empathy in your situation knowing full well that there was a time when all my memories were gone. Instead of it being an experience of clarity I know it must have horribly frustrating and painful for you. I hope you understand that this was never my intention. I wanted you to be to look back on this time and only be filled with happy memories. I stole it away from you with my selfishness and failure to understand and communicate. It was a terrible and shameful thing that I have done.

Esme shook her head. ?Think nothing of it dear. Though, you have much ache inside I hear or is it truly anger??

?How can you tell someone you love them one minute and go the next? I don?t understand that. I don?t understand how you can do that. I lost my memory and he suffocated me, but I came back because I promised I would not go. I don?t remember it, but I came back to a promise and he has gone.?

The elder woman sighed. ?I cannot answer for him. He is not the one you should worry about. You should be worried about what?s coming next for your own heart. Those that want to go will go, no matter what you say to them doesn?t matter. Sometimes pride makes them leave, sometimes they do not want to be part of it anymore. Maybe he had no time for what you lost.?

Curious about the music, she decided to go and see what was going on. Apparently there were several house parties for a local band not far away. Though she started to realize it was a huge block party, which turned into another party.

Every where she went there was strange scene after strange scene. Some parties where themed with animals and beasts, some from different times of earth history and even one with circus people.

The blonde slowly made her way through the crowds. It seemed like she was piecing together parts of a life she couldn't remember.

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More than a few times she was offered drugs and booze. For the moment everything was declined.

Deeper and deeper she made her way through this maze and mass of people partying. A guy grabbed her hand and pushed her against the wall and tried to kiss her. Thankfully he was drunk enough she pushed him off.

The last thing she remembered was making it outside, the feel of something dripping down her forehead, the smell of blood and pieces of her former life raced through her mind before things went completely dark.

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Hours later he paced the cement floor, could you make a worn path over old concrete? If it could be done, he would have done. ?Are you sure you weren?t followed?? The doctor asked.

?I?m sure as I can be.? The woman answered.

?Lucy, we cannot make any more mistakes.? Dr. Lewis growled at her.

?I haven?t. I did as instructed, I told her enough to make her doubt. I told her to make up her own mind, but to follow her heart. To be honest he did the rest. He?s awkward, keeps to himself and she doesn?t know he hates to be misunderstood.?

Dr. Lewis started to relax. ?Yes, subject 86AB has that weakness and she use to be his.?

Lucy looked at Disa. ?I feel for her, but ..?

?Don?t feel for your subjects. 89BC is at the end of her days. Her flesh is ?? The door opened mid-sentence and he turned to see Mr. Montgomery. ?Sebastian.?

?Doc.? Blue eyes strayed to the redhead and to the blonde strapped to the rack. ?I almost didn?t believe you could get it done doc. Good job.?

?I helped and tracked her.? Lucy wanted credit for her part in it.

?Yes, you did red. Yes, you did. The good doc did good by turning you to our side.?

Dr. Lewis grinned. ?Your funding for experimentation worked. We will gain much ground in this city.? He was looking forward to snatching more supernaturals and experimenting on them.

?You?re right doc, but in the meantime, we can?t have any loose ends.? Sebastian pointed the Glock at Lucy?s head. A few seconds later, she was face down in a pool of her own blood.

?Mr. Montgomery, that was not necessary. She was coming along nicely. One relapse, but I have worked out all of the side effects.?

?I will not take a chance this time doc. Have this cleaned up and have that bitch moved.? Sebastian left to make more arrangements.

Dr. Lewis started at subject 89BC before having his men move the body to the lab for more experiments and removal of what they were here for. ?Soon you will wake up and I can no longer help you. Once he found you, but I doubt there is anything left. There is no more hope for you. I know this experiment is going to work. Two supernaturals are not capable of eternal love, ties that bind and feeling. If so, you would not be here alone. After all these years, I am almost sad to see it end like this, but you have proven my theories, you and subject Subject 86AB. He used to scream your name when I tortured him. No matter what I did, he still screamed your name. I broke him, but he was still calling for you. You?re out cold and can?t remember.? Laughing, it was the kind of maniacal laugh that bled through the walls, and sent chills up the spine. ?I can hardly wait to peel flesh away from your bones. Take her.?

The good doctor finished his notes, had Lucy?s body tossed into the furnace and he dressed for the lab. The next few days he would relish in.

In the darkness, beams of light started to form in pattern striations. Dark bled into light until it was almost blinding. Disa turned her head and extended her arm feeling her way toward the light and the music.

Good night sweetheart, till we meet tomorrow
Good night sweetheart, sleep will banish sorrow
Tears and parting may make us forlorn
But with the dawn, a new day is born (so I'll say)
Good night sweetheart, tho' I'm not beside you
Good night sweetheart, still my love will guide you
Dreams enfold you, in each one I'll hold you
Good night sweetheart, good night
Good night sweetheart, till we meet tomorrow
Good night sweetheart, sleep will banish sorrow
Tears and parting may make us forlorn
But with the dawn, a new day is born
(so I'll say) Good night sweetheart, tho' I'm not beside you
Good night sweetheart, still my love will guide you
Dreams enfold you, in each one I'll hold you
Good night sweetheart, good night

The song sounded like it was playing on a gramophone and repeated several times. Getting closer to where the music was coming from, she finally stopped to really listen. Bracing herself against what felt like a wall, she closed her eyes. The bright light felt warm and inviting, inviting enough to stay.

Fos repeated, what he said to many lights ago to the wolf, Mot bakgrund av dagen s?ker jag dig. G?mma sig fr?n vad du ger. Ge mig svar p? vad jag g?r. Hj?lp mig att d?lja jag lever.

?You tried to warn him, didn?t you??

?Warn. Regret. Alone.? Fos said.

?Please, please speak clearly.? Disa begged.

?Good night. Good night.?

She felt like she was sucked back through the darkness. Dr. Lewis stabbed her in the heart with the adrenaline.

Sebastian barked at the doctor, ?Is she awake??

Dr. Lewis felt for vital signs. ?I?m checking.? Her pulse was weak, but she was coming to. ?Let me work, sir. It?s best you go and allow me to wake her up.?

Sebastian slammed the door and let the doctor to work on Disa.



(song written by Calvin Carter and James "Pookie" Hudson)

Hours later she was laying naked on the top of a steel table. The radio blared the same song, the lyrics heard in the haze of her sleep. The pain in her finger continued to pulse.

I loved you once, I loved you twice
I loved you in my previous lives
I know your voice, I know your eyes
You haunt me through my dreams at night
Oh my love, we?ll meet again
We always do in the end
Our two souls destined to be
You and I until eternity

We live on and on and on, death is weak and we are strong
On and on and on, time is weak and we are strong

And I see you and you see me
Your eyes are like a raging sea
I know it?s you, I know it?s true
I gazed into them once in a dream
Oh my love, come take my hand
Like you did in my dreamland
You feel the immortality
It?s you and I until eternity

We live on and on and on, death is weak and we are strong
On and on and on, time is weak and we are strong

I loved you once, I loved you twice
I loved you in my previous lives
And when I die, just keep in mind
I?ll love you in another life
Love you in another life

We live on and on and on, death is weak and we are strong (we are strong)
On and on and on, we are strong (we are strong)
On and on and on, death is weak and we are strong (we are strong)
On and on and on, time is weak and we are strong (we are strong)

Sebastian found a picture in her bag, scanned it, blew it up and made a paper mask. Disa was drugged, so there was a good chance she?d never know it was a mask.

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He leaned in close and whispered.
I loved you once, I loved you twice
I loved you in my previous lives
And when I die, just keep in mind
I?ll love you in another life
Love you in another life
We live on and on and on, death is weak and we are strong (we are strong)

Then he touched her face. ?We are strong aren?t we??

Feeling the effects of the drug, her head fell to the left when she tried to turn away. Her speech heavily slurred. ?You wanted to?o.. go.?

?I did? I wanted to stay, but what did you do?? He asked, and adjusted the paper mask as she looked away. When he settled it, he grabbed her boob with the calloused part of his hand and kept it still like he was trying to comfort her.

?Please do? n?t? I can?t remember.? She said.

?I remember. I remember watching you in the mirror, remember when we were held captive by that sick fuck? He wanted to keep us from each other. He tried to torture you, you stopped screaming and kept repeating you loved me. You have to remember that Disa.? It was Sebastian who watched this scene so many years ago as the Dr. Lewis tortured her and the wolf. ?We swore to love each other, you have to remember that promise. Please remember the promise.?

?I wanted to remember.. you have no idea.? She started tearing up. ?..no idea how much I wanted to remember. You pushed..?

Sebastian turned his head and coughed. ?I?m sorry. I didn?t meant to push you. I wanted you to remember. You need to remember, that?s the only way I can..?

Disa closed her eyes. ?You said mo gr?idh..you howled mo gr?idh ??

Sebastian didn?t remember that.

She did.



(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kuvST3wGCG8
Blackbriar - Until Eternity)

Count down. She closed her eyes and started to count backwards. If she could block everything else out, then she might be able to start again and see the whole truth.

"Ten..." She mouthed.

One single breath.

When realizing there is no way back, you can start again by beginning backwards.

The rest of the money paid the hospital care. Sachar sent word from the dead with the location of a wolf. It was true, as far as I know. If it was not him, then someone who is posing as him will be taken care of until they wake.

The witch is a powerful one. I'm sure the spell was successful. He's free. I am .. free.

Time for a new beginning.