Remember those walls I built
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make up a sound
I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now
It was refreshing to feel the sun on her back and the first true feeling of spring to exist in the world. Charcoal strands of hair were pulled back into a loose ponytail, breeches cut to her knees and a handkerchief top worn as she worked around Kusinage's home. Plucking weeds and cleaning around the outside of the house. She had bought a few flowers to plant around his home. To bring out color around his home. Bring something to reflect her new found life. Change.
She found she didn't so much miss the lack of carrying magic. It was a blessing to not feel as if her spirit was smudged in black marring puddles against the forest green of her aura. The change felt like freedom. She sighed quietly as she brushed a hand against her sweat dabbled brow, nudging a strand of ebon from features as those night emerald eyes drifted over his home. Kusinage's home. She still saw it that way. That it wasn't truly her home. Expecting any moment for him to tell her to leave. That he never loved her, and no longer cared. Frown touched her features at the thought as she shook her head, dismissing the thought.
It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
She sat back on her heels, looking at her accomplished work so far. She'd been up since the break of dawn and he already had been gone. Like a Ghost. But then she knew he had his responsibilities. His obligations.
If only he realized just how much he meant to her. The fact that she found blessed and eternally grateful to find him again. Never to leave his side. Shame lingered in her eyes as fingertips touched the leaf of a daffodil she had just planted, regret for running away. She should have known better that he wasn't the one to run from. That he would have understood. Like he seemed to understand now.
She loved him. That was all that mattered. All that she had to give was her heart, body, her soul. It had to be enough for him... then again he could ask anything of her and she'd go and get it for him. No matter the cost.
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
She could only hope he would understand. That he would accept her. Staring down at those dusky hands she wondered. Time had been gentle with her appearance but cruel with the rest of her, would he be willing to take her as she was? Would she even make a good wife for him? So long they had held the same path, the same dream. A family. A home. Marriage. Love. Children.
He once had wished to share that with her... could the same wishes, hopes, and dreams be shared again? That passion that once had been ignited between them out of sheer thought of loss of the other... had it burned away?
Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again
Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out
She would find that light again to burn between them. A private flame to be shared. To redeem what was lost. To share what once had existed to make it live again. No matter the cost. These moments her rite of passage... so many changes that would come with the Spring...he had saved her, now it was time for her to do the same...
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away
('Halo' by Beyonce)