Topic: Fragments of Farewell

SiannaFraiser

Date: 2008-10-27 23:00 EST
Sianna fidgeted beneath the layers of covering heaped on the bed. The turn in the weather, as the world seemed quick to hunker down for the approaching winter, and the absence of her husband's body heat made their bed a cold retreat. Edging closer towards the middle of the bed, she rolled to her side, her arm splayed out against the spot where Johnny would normally be. Lashes fluttered against her cheeks as sleep stole upon her fitfully.

It was the kitchen of the family house. There were the notches against the doorframe leading outside to the water pump where the lads had kept track of which was tallest. Sunlight poured in through the windows, brilliant beech leaves not yet fallen to the ground filtering the rays into an ethereal pattern of shine and shadow. Before her sat the tray she had been preparing, waiting on the counter patiently for the teakettle to whistle. She spun slowly to soak in the quiet reprieve. Something felt odd, but she couldn't place her finger on it. As if on instinct, the kettle was claimed from the burner before it could utter a squeak. Tray toted comfortably, she exited the kitchen using her hip to nudge the door ajar and moved towards the parlor. There sat Gran, seeming so frail and thin beneath the coverlets, her eyes soaking in the sight of Beathan chopping wood in the barnyard from her perch near the window.

Sensing her granddaughter, the woman turned her face to greet her, the soft wrinkled cheeks lifting in a gentle smile.

"I brought ye th' tea ye asked, Gran. Now be a good lass an' drink it up for me, aye?" Sianna couldn't resist grinning with the last as she poured a cup to suit and held it out. Janneth Fraiser had been quite a beauty in her day, yet time could not drain it from her entirely. Her eyes still twinkled like pale sapphires, thick white curls swaying with the bob of her head, floating about her like a cloud of cotton batting.

Gnarled fingers, with a lifetime of work in them, patted hers in thanks and motioned for Sianna to take a seat on the hassock nearby."Aye, dinna fash. I'll sit and share a cup o' tea wi' ye, seanmhair." Doing as bid, Sianna poured her own cup of tea and took a healthy sip before resting comfortably upon the upholstered stool.

They both knew what would be coming. The Beaton had been more than plain. Blinking from her reverie, Sianna's gaze refocused when she realized Gran was saying something, thin lips forming a rapid stream of words.

"Gran, I canna hear ye." Shaking her head, Sianna tried to force a yawn so that her ears would pop. Surely that was the problem. Yet no relief for the problem, and Gran continued on, the expression on her face one of an urgent need to impart.... something.

"I canna hear ye, Gran. Speak up louder if ye can, aye?" The teacup fell to the floor with a crash like a gunshot as the dying woman reached forward to place her hands on Sianna's cheeks. Heartache and panic mingled together.

Even in sleep, Sianna strained to hear the silence.

SiannaFraiser

Date: 2008-10-28 23:32 EST
The world continued to turn, the moon spying down from her perch above. Still the dreams shifted behind Sianna's eyelids.

"Come along, Liatha, mo galad. Time tae head out tae new roads and pastures, aye?" The bridle and harness secured, the gray filly snickered wistfully, as if not quite convinced. Burying her face into the coarse mane, Sianna took a moment to collect herself, whispering quietly. "I ken how ye feel, but 'tis something that must be done, sae set a brave face wi' me sae as no' tae make it any harder than already 'tis." The rest of the family all waited in a cluster outside the barn, several of the brothers lending their expertise as to how best pack the small cart she would take with her.

The air seemed to crackle with a resolute tension. It had been weeks of Scottish 'discussion' as she systematically stood her ground against each one of them, refusing to let herself be a burden on their hospitality or obligated to their authority. Squaring her shoulders, Sianna took hold of Liatha's bridle before leading her out of the stall. As the pair exited the barn, they were perfectly poised between clusters of sisters-in-law to the left and brothers to the right, a flurry of children and animals running pell-mell around them all. Hudson nodded to himself before stepping out to claim the horse. His net-scarred hands ran idly through the reins a moment while he studied her face. A broad grin slowly spread, revealing the dimples that kissed his cheeks. Chucking his younger sister beneath the chin he called to his brothers over one shoulder before settling to the task of harnessing the horse to the cart.

Sianna blinked, unable to hear what was said, and stood astounded as the adults erupted into a pantomime of laughter. The sound of the wind over the moor, even the whiny of horses in the paddock were clear as bells. But that was all. Once again, panic blossomed in her chest.

One by one, they approached her, with hugs and kisses to her cheeks or tugs to her curls. With each, she begged and pleaded, her hands flying expressively and eyes wide. "I canna... what... I canna hear ye!"

It was like she screamed in a vacuum. Nothing she said registered, and the more she spoke the more they answered with hollow sentences. Cailean stepped forward and took Sianna by the hand to help her up into the cart. Each brother went and stood with his wife, all congregating to wave and shout after her, completely oblivious to the sobs that wracked her or the tears flowing rapidly down her cheeks.

The reins hung slack in her hands, yet Liatha stepped off without urging, the cart rolling slowly down the lane. Dogs and a host of nieces and nephews raced to the gate in mute revelry. Seven Highlanders stood in a line and released aphonic bellows of support for their baby sister.

Sianna floundered as if she was drowning, the heavy bedclothes threatening to drag her under.