Topic: Visits: Faith and Trust

Lirssa Sarengrave

Date: 2010-10-04 16:48 EST
Lirssa had made a vow. She had made it to herself mostly, but the seasons had turned on her without her being much aware of it until suddenly it was Autumn. Even after all that had happened in the past months, she remembered too clearly those months before. It berated her, scolded her, and left whispers of threats in her mind. However, she had promised she was going to set what she had done wrong during that time as right as she could. Some things were not to happen, but of one thing she could do, she could make it up to the Smiths.

So, on a cool, sunny day not terribly long past the lunch hour and certainly before high tea time, she went to the Silver Lark, starting her search there for a member of the Smith family and to visit with the little ones as she said she would. The weather found her in long, cotton pants of brown, soft camel boots, and a long tunic of dark green with leaves embroidered on the cuffs. An unbound scarf hung about her neck, and her hair left free to spring and bounce at its curly position between chin and shoulders. There was a comfort in dressing her old way that she could not rightly explain, and she was glad that no one had really asked her about it.

The busy Marketplace gave over to the street just beyond, a turn down an alley to avoid the greater rush of the moving crowds, and she made her way back to the roadside facing the mercantile side of the Smith property. She peeked through the windows of the Silver Lark first, just to see if anyone was inside.

The shop was dark, as it just so happened that Johnny and Val had driven another delivery of statuary and art to The Hope Creative. The Lark was mainly now just for jewelry and other metalworks. However, the door from the shop into the house was opened wide. Caitir was returning her harp to the safety of the studio.

Seeing the shop closed up, Lirssa was just about to move on to the house when she sighted Caitir through the angle of the doorway. She debated a moment. Was it wiser to knock and go in or head around to the house? In the end, she decided Caitir looked like a little girl on a careful mission. Every step was one step closer to getting her legs back to what they had been, so Lirssa went on to the house and around to knock on the door. With the rat-a-tat-tat to the wood made, she set hands to the side, stood up straight and waited. Her right foot might have been tapping, but it was a revived habit, not a lack of patience.

The house exploded with noise with the knock at the door. Inquisitive dog barks, squeals, clapping and laughter all were the underlying foundation. It grew steadily louder as footsteps approached. "Mama, mama!" Caitir's voice swelled like a siren and then the knob twisted. When the door opened, Caoimhe and Branan darted out of the house to circle and sniff around Lirssa's legs. The young girl followed stepping out onto the porch and giving Lirssa a large, earnest hug. The sort a child of seven was wont to give to those she likes. And there, standing at the threshold was Sianna, Meggie and Evan in her arms and Ian clutching to her skirts in an attempt to balance himself.

She could feel the energy filling her up and about ready to meet activity with bluster of activity from herself, but then the picture of seeing Mrs. Sianna there holding two babies with one clinging to her, and Lirssa just gaped. "Aww, Mrs. Sianna, you need help." First on the ticket was to hug Caitir in return and give her a wink. A hand down to the dogs who did not get pettings until they sat, and then Lirssa smiled at the babies. "I don't reckon this is a good time or is it? Thought I'd come by and see if the little ones were okay with me before I came to stay with 'em so you and Mr. Johnny can have a night out. I used the door this time." The last visit to the house and alarm of the dogs had been a creeping climb to an upperstory window in the deep of night. Lirssa was not quite sure if that had not been a better choice considering the ruckus this daytime call had caused.

Sianna grinned broadly, shifting Meggie a bit so that she was not as capable of inspecting -- or tugging -- Evan's curls. "Aye, he told me of th' verra sweet gesture ye made, Lirssa dear. Come on in, if th' menagerie dinna trip ye on th' way." Ian let go of Sianna's skirts and started toddling down the hall. At the movement, the two dogs took off in his wake.

Lirssa shrugged the nervousness with a bounce of shoulders. "They all wake up early from nap or it bein' a chore to get 'em down?" She made sure the door was closed properly. Children, animals, and the unknown were all magnets to portals left unattended. She knew that all too well. Her arm went to link with Caitir's, giving the girl another grin. So many of the High Spires kids kept her at a distance, uncertainty clipping their friendliness into discomfort. Lirssa felt a spoonful of her anxiety pour away that Caitir did not hate her.

Meggie kicked her feet, eager to join the parade, and Sianna put her down, and transferred Evan to her other hip. Bringing up the rear, she chuckled at the comment. "Actually, we finished lunch and then had a story, and now will be a bit of play time before th' wee ones go down for their n - a - p - s." Caitir's lower lip stuck out, not liking the thought of having a very special friend over and having to take a nap. She was a big girl.

With a rub to Caitir's back, Lirssa tried to comfort the young girl. She saw that lip stick out, but there was really no way to be of help. Lirssa never recalled having naps except when she was ill, though she must have, and as she considered it, she offered a suggestion. "It's good of Caitir to set such a good example so everyone gets their rest." And then she stepped a little closer to smile to Evan. She did not get up in his face, but close enough to get his attention and claim it, "Hello, Evan. I'm Lirssa."

The girl puffed up at that, lips curling into a proud smile. "I'm a great sample..." The twins were settling themselves back on the carpet, playing with their blocks. Caitir hovered by Lirssa's side. Sianna grinned at her and nodded. "Aye, Lirssa has th' right of it. Ye set a verra grand example." All the while, Evan laughed and chattered at Lirssa, sturdy infant arms reaching for her curls and then Sianna's as they were closer.

"May I?" Lirssa offered up hands in the general motion of wanting to hold Evan, since so far he was not shying away from her. "Did you know Fionna had her baby?" It was a slow look to Mrs. Sianna. She wondered how much Mrs. Sianna knew of lots of things, but it was the easiest and safest question to start. Particularly with Caitir so close.

Lirssa Sarengrave

Date: 2010-10-04 16:49 EST
Hands empty for a change, Sianna stretched them up to ease her muscles and nodded. "I'd heard she was expecting, but no' that she'd delivered. All is well?" There was no need for them to stand longer than need be, with such comfy furniture about, and Sianna moved to sit on the sofa.

Lirssa joined the twins on the floor, arranging Evan to sit in her lap, supported or free to roam as he liked. Mostly, she did little bits here and there with the play. A block placed just so, not overtaking the project but subtle help. "Yeah, she's killer fine. Baby's fine, too." That was about all that was fine and she realized her sigh came out heavy and her expression a little too easily read. She grabbed up a smile and asked, "How's Caitir comin' on the harp? Been ages since --" and she stopped. There had been a lot that had happened since then.

Sianna glazed over the break, not wishing to bring up the past or what was. As Johnny had told Lirssa, the past didn't matter to family. "I'm verra glad tae hear it. Please give her our best, aye?" Caitir sat on the floor and leaned against Caoimhe, handing some of the scattered blocks to Ian. "She is improving verra well, though we dinna get th' harp out when th' wee ones are no' in their high chairs. They wish tae explore everythin' hands on, and we'd hate for anything tae happen, ye ken."

A tap to her temple, "Good thinkin', Mrs. Sianna." She looked over the kids. None of them seemed to fuss as she continued to make her presence a bit more overt. She adjusted where she sat and came closer. She exchanged blocks with one and then the other, made sure some blocks did not get gnawed on too much. "I'll let Fionna know you wished her well. Maybe you two can have all the kids together sometime. Or, Mister Johnny and I can watch them all and you two can have like some sort of mommies escape time."

"A date wi' my husband and some escape time? Ye will spoil me, Lirssa." She smiled warmly, pleased to watch them all play well together. Elbow resting on the arm of the sofa, Sianna used her arm as a prop for her head, heel of her palm resting against her temple. "Sae how have ye been, lassie?"

A shrug, one shoulder up and down. The feeling she was all split up and different pieces, meant she's been lots of things, but it all came down to one root issue, it had caused pain, anger, retribution, discourse. Her legs were the root of all evil in her life at the moment, and the one thing she worked so hard to reclaim. In the answer to the question, there were a million answers, but she offered up just the one. "Gettin' better. Not as fast and sometimes they just don't do what they're supposed ta, but each day a bit better. Keep workin' at it, ya know? How 'bout you?"

Sianna smiled softly. "I tend tae be a constant state of tired, which is normal wi' a husband, five bairns, two dogs, two businesses, and a house tae keep slightly clean from time tae time. But it's th' good sort of tired, ye ken."

"Yeah. I'm plum wore out just thinkin about all that." She thought back to when she had things to do and before the frown could gain ground, she focused on the kids and managed a smile, and still, there was a push from inside her gut to ask. Evan was there in her lap as bold reminder of when Mister Johnny had to go away. "But, Mister Johnny helps out, right?"

"Aye, he does. If he did no', I'd be comatose and no' just tired." A light chuckle. "He's verra good. When he commits tae something, he does no' shirk from it, no matter what it costs him." Branan, startling as a tower of building blocks tumbled over, jumped up onto the couch and made himself comfortable in Sianna's lap.

"But he was gone that time. When...when the babies were coming. Were ya mad at him?" She glanced to Caitir, but she supposed if Mrs. Sianna didn't want to answer with the others around, then she wouldn't. The little ones weren't likely to understand anyway.

"Aye, verra mad. And verra hurt." She paused, thinking back with a little sigh. "And no' just because my hormones were plunging up and down." Her fingers scratched Branan behind the ear. "But when ye love someone, ye have faith in them, aye? And even when ye dinna know what they are doing or like th' choices they make, ye trust that yer love and faith will be bigger than th' circumstance until ye've made it free tae th' other side."

Love, faith, trust, it all came up like explosions against the dam in her chest. Did she even know how to do those things? She thought she did, but -- "But what if folks ya love or care about are shootin' up other people ya care about, then other people go away, and other people are left behind, and...," but Lirssa literally chewed on her tongue to keep from saying it all seemed so very pointless to love or trust at all. She set Evan on the floor to play with his playmates, and she rolled to lie on her stomach, feet curled to the air, it allowed her to wiggle them to release some of the energy and calm down.

Sianna's eyes were full of pain for the girl and all she was dealing with. "When it involves many people, Lirssa, ye have tae find away tae remember that ye can only be responsible fer yer choices and yer actions, and no' everyone elses. Sometimes we have tae love people inspite of themselves."

"Maybe." She felt it the only answer when there was so much that had been easier before people cared back. She hated growing up. With a careful swing of her legs back around and under her in lotus position, she huffed out, "I think this is how adults go crazy." A weak joke tugged at her smile. A tug of worry kept her deeper doubts plunged low in her heart, knotting up there. Caitir didn't need to hear these things. "So, I guess, you and Mister Johnny just need to find a night you wanna go out, and give me a call. I can't go out to the farm like Mister Johnny suggested. See, Ali's gone away -- for awhile. I can't leave Fionna and the baby just yet, but she can spare me a night." Lirssa held to that claim. She wanted to be needed, even if the little voice of truth said Fionna could be fine without her.

"There's some truth tae that, I think." She chuckled half-heartedly, and then clapped as Meggie and Ian became godzillas and knocked over all their blocks, grinning and looking about for approval. "But I shall speak wi' him and we'll no' choose a night that makes any inconvenience for either ye or Fionna."

Lirssa pointed out a block that had not yet fallen over and Meggie rawred again in the final shove with her foot. Lirssa clapped, taking in a deep breath and trying to get her stalwart soldier role back in place before returning to the loft at The Eye. "Thanks, Mrs. Sianna. I best be gettin' back pretty soon, but I can stay and help 'em get to sweet dreamin' iffin ya want the help. I'm killer good at the sleepin stuff."

"We best save yer sleepin' skills for when ye stay with them, take them by surprise, aye? I'll let them play for a bit longer sae I can get dinner t'gether while they nap." Sianna smiled, an idea flashing. "Though if ye have any ideas for a game or such tae tire them out before ye go, that would be wonderful."

"I got all sortsa games.? Lirssa puffed up, then with a wink to Caitir, set to playing. ?Right then, we're gonna play hot potato." It was the easiest game in her repertoire for the younger kids. And she went on to demonstrate the blocks as hot potato to pass to Caitir who passed it back. The frenetic energy and laughter would soon be bouncing off walls.

The game was just the recipe, and by the time Lirssa took her leave, Sianna had aching sides from giggling at their earnest glee and a handful of sleepy children. Nap time would be one of the easiest in ages.