Topic: What Are You Running From? Where Are You Running To?

Locke DVestavio

Date: 2008-09-24 13:03 EST
It started, as it always did, with one blue foot on the ice cold floor. Then, the other, as Locke shifted from laying on his back to sitting straight up in bed. He glanced down at his feet, wiggling each of his toes in order, before he looked to the window. A groan escaped his lips: the sun had clearly been up for some time now, and he still felt like he could use another hour or two of sleep. At least the sleep he'd gotten had been comfortable: even his spartan, minimalist taste in interior design had to give a little when the bed roll he'd purchased had proven inadequate to the task of providing him with a good night's sleep. He had ordered the smallest sized bed he could find that would fit his body (and his alone), then had it teleported over. There was little to it but a steel frame that lifted the mattress and box spring scant inches off the floor, with wheels that mostly went unused. No headboard, no footboard, no bed rails. With one last grunt of complaint, he pushed off the mattress and headed for his dresser. Drawer by drawer, he assembled and donned his workout attire. A skin-tight long-sleeved shirt, sweatpants, and a balaclava, all black. He pushed against the wall, then grabbed each foot and pulled it back into a stretch. Some circles with his arms, and a roll of his neck, and he was just about ready. All that was left was to don the white and black leather martial arts gloves he sometimes wore while dueling, and a pair of charcoal gray running shoes. He grabbed the keys off of the top of his dresser, then broke into a jog that only stopped when he opened and locked his apartment door.

The pace quickened once he was outside the Elemental Arms building, on the tree-lined and brick-laden streets of New Haven. It was a Sunday, so many of the shops were closed, and the roads were mostly empty of people, carriages, and carts. Not that he noticed much. He kept his eyes forward on what was immediately ahead, his breath falling into a familiar rhythm, accented by the light staccato of his footsteps on concrete and brick, gravel and mud. Where am I running to? Locke asked himself, as he came to the stone wall that divided New Haven from Dragon's Gate. He waved to the guards at the tower high above the street connecting the two districts. They returned the gesture with sleepy salutes of their own, and he returned to pondering the question in earnest.

Taken literally, the question was easily answered. I'm probably going to run through the Market, rest there for a spell, then run back to my apartment for lunch. Taken as a philosophical inquiry, though, and it became more difficult. In Locke's mind, the question Where am I running to? was immediately proceeded by What am I running from? What have I run from? Sometimes, it seemed his whole life had been spent fleeing, for good or bad. His first flickering memories involved him saying farewell to his father ? his real father. His face was nothing but an abstract collection of features. How big was his nose? How long was his hair? Did he have dimples when he smiled, too? The details had fled as fast as he and his mother had fled Fridmond, as fast as his mother had met Arnand and married him. As quickly as Locke been forgotten, shuffled off to school, when his brother was born. School, where Locke was sharp, perhaps too sharp, and so boredom kicked in. When he wasn't cutting classes, he was challenging his classmates to various feats of strength, skill, and speed. He got a rush when he'd look behind to see how far back they were, straining with effort that came so easily to the ice elf. The same rush transferred over when he started picking pockets, shoplifting, breaking and entering. There had been plenty of times he'd been noticed, but he and his mates had always gotten away, always ran, looking back to see the panting, sweating, red faces of overweight shopkeepers, out of shape guardsmen, furious nobles and merchants. Somehow, he'd always gotten away, no matter how tight things had seemed. Even when he had to run back home, tail tucked between his legs. To home, then from home, then back home again. It was a pattern, a circle, a loop. When things got bad, he ran away, but somehow he always managed to end up where he was before, in no better shape.

He made good time through Dragon's Gate, crossing into the Marketplace with barely any fatigue. By chance, his chosen path for this run carried him past Expressions of Hope, a fact he hadn't noticed until he was a few houses down the road. His pace slowed, as he debated whether or not he wanted to stop and visit Johnny. You should. You should stop running, even if it's only for a few minutes. Locke pulled up, hands resting on his knees for a second or two as he caught his breath, then he turned around and jogged back to the store. Maybe it was open today? He approached the door and tugged on the handle, testing to see if it was locked or unlocked...

Locke DVestavio

Date: 2008-09-25 12:54 EST
September 21

With the morning slow, Johnny was actually sitting on one of the display cases and reading. When the handle rattled, he looked up and blinked slowly, letting silver film slide over his eyes. There was only one person he knew that had that particular heat signature - inversed - and he grinned. ?C'mon in, bro! Door's still open fer another hour'r so!? He swung off the counter while he called, leaving the book behind.

Before opening the door, Locke wiped the frozen drops of sweat off of his forehead with his forearm. That task completed, he pushed the door open, and stepped inside, giving a quick tug to the thin black-and-white leather gloves he was wearing. He looked a bit peaked, though whether it was a side effect from a late night or from his run thus far, well...it wasn't immediately obvious. ?Johnny! Are you working hard today, or the alternative??

Baritone laughter filled the shop as he waved around at the emptiness ?Th' alternative! Don' know why I bother openin' on Sundays, sometimes. Still, how ya doin'? Wan' somethin' ta drink'r somethin'? Ya look abou' worn.? He finally let the silver film slide back from the emerald of his eyes while he headed over to offer his hand. ?An' wha' brin's ya down this way, anyroad??

Locke clasped Johnny's hand with his own for a quick, firm shake, before letting go. ?Water would be aces, mate.? He paused briefly, to contemplate each of Johnny's statements. ?Maybe it's just my interpretation of the way things seem to run in this city, but I can't imagine there are too many blokes and birds around these parts who hold Sunday to be as sacred as some people I know.? Any hint as to what his feelings about that might be were lost in an inscrutable look; his single accented word was the only clue he left. ?I've been doing much better as of late. I was just taking my morning constitutional.?

Johnny gave a bit of a look to the ice elf at the slightly accented word before he grinned broadly. ?Don' think tha' it's people keepin' anythin' sacred so much's recoverin' from th' nigh' b'fore when they don' hav'ta ge' righ' up fer work. Glad ta hear yer doin' better, though - don' know tha' goin' fer a workou' firs' thin' soun's like my idea of a good time, though.? He wandered through the door into the back and then leaned out again. ?C'mon back - ain' no reason ta hav' ya standin' aroun' ou' there if'n yer no' in th' lookin' fer somethin' ta buy. Go' some comf'table chairs back here.?

Weaving around the various display cases filled with earrings, necklaces, and rings, Locke slipped into the back room. ?Running's...well, I haven't quite decided if it helps me focus my mind on things while I'm doing it, or if it just helps me clear my mind so that I can focus more clearly later. Perhaps both. Regardless, this physique isn't going to maintain itself. I would've been up sooner to run, when it was cooler, but I was burning the midnight oil last night, and then some.? He looked at the chairs, seemingly studying them to see how comfortable they'd be. ?It would be nice to get off my plates for a moment or two.?

Pretty darned comfortable was how the chairs looked, overstuffed armchairs. With the house attached to the shop, the back room had drifted into an extension of living space, with a small icebox in one corner, a table and several chairs around. Johnny crossed to the icebox and pulled out two bottles of water before he tossed one towards Locke ?I jus' keep on with th' stoneworkin' an' le' m'mods take care'a th' rest. Ain' never been a real fan 'a runnin', bu' I hear tha' I lot'a folks like tha' min' clearin' thing. So wha' had ya up so late??

Locke caught the bottle quite easily, untwisting the cap and taking a sip. He settled into one of the armchairs, pleasantly surprised by the cushioning. He couldn't help but let a sly smile sneak past his lips, though he tried to keep his tone of voice on an even keel. ?I was at the Inn last night. On business.?

The table acquired an occupant when Johnny leaned up against it and unsealed his own bottle of water. One blonde eyebrow rose at the ice elf's sly smile. ?Ya had business in th' Inn? I though' ya were workin' fer tha' tailor, th' designer guy. Were ya sellin' 'r somethin'? Or business meetin', like?? He grinned, unabashedly curious.

?No, and no.? Locke couldn't help but chuckle. He certainly thought he was clever, phrasing it like that. ?I was looking for someone to go with me to the ballet on Friday.? He sighed as he leaned back further in the chair.

?Ya goin' ta tha' too?? Emerald eyes shone with pride in his cousin when he asked. ?I'm takin' Si ta th' early show, since she ain' been feelin' up fer a lot'a la'e nigh's, an' then thinkin' abou' goin' back solo fer th' later one. Ya have any luck findin' someone 'r should I guess no' by th' way yer heavin' sighs aroun'??

Locke DVestavio

Date: 2008-09-25 13:10 EST
?Katarina gave me four tickets. I gave a pair of them to my boss, but that still leaves me with two.? The frost elf flounced a little in his seat, sipping some water, before continuing. ?I haven't been out much as of late, because of work and training and...other things.? He sent a knowing look to Johnny, as he assumed the man would understand what he meant by that. ?And a lot of birds I do know are married or betrothed or otherwise off the market, savvy??

?Yeah, know wha' ya mean. I mean, I swept up th' bes', an' then wha's left?? Johnny grinned before he went on. ?Still, wouldn' think tha' it'd be tha' hard ta fin' someone fer th' show ta go with ya. I mean, yer a fair han' at charmin' an' all. Ya mean ta tell me tha' ya spen' th' whole nigh' ou' an' din' win' up with a single prospect fer a friendly nigh' ou'? 'Cause I ain' sure I'm believin' tha' one, bro.? He waved his water bottle at Locke. ?Bu' Snowflake gave ya four tickets? She mus' think pretty well'a ya fer tha'n.?

He tilted his head to the side, gloved fingers resting on his blue cheek as he was lost in thought. Locke's eyes even closed for a moment or two, and didn't reopen immediately when he spoke up again. ?Perhaps my standards are far too high. Perhaps I am far too picky in what I like and dislike in a bird.? His eyes popped open at that moment. ?Or perhaps I am a touch gun-shy. Regardless...half the birds at the Inn I didn't even know, and I only knew names for two of them. I ended up spending most of the evening talking to Katarina.? He shrugged one shoulder, before taking another drink.

?Mebbe yer expectin' a bit much fer a firs' date? I mean, gun-shy only works as an excuse fer gettin' serious, no' fer walkin' up an' intr'ducin' yerself ta someone.? Johnny suggested that good-naturedly before he took a sip from his water bottle. ?Why don' ya go with Katie-kat? Ya'd hav'ta pass on th' tickets t'someone else, bu' I be' she could ge' ya backstage. Y'all never look at ballet th' same way again if'n ya do tha', though...? The warning was given in a dark and ominous tone.

?You're abso-bloody-lutely right about that mate,? Locke said, chuckling at the comment on first dates. ?It's all about shutting off that part of your loaf that screams about every teeny tiny thing that can go wrong.? He scratched his head, suddenly a touch confused. ?I am not quite certain what went wrong last night...? He drifted off a bit, then suddenly remembered the remainder of what Johnny had said, shaking off his distraction. ?Well, she warned me it was a lot of sweaty blokes and birds scurrying to and fro. And I sort of figured that the sight lines from back stage aren't as aces as those in the audience.?

?Tha's mebbe an understatemen'. Actually...? Johnny paused and shifted his weight while he thought about it. ?Ain' so bad fer actually seein' th' show, bu' ya miss some'a th' symmetry. No, th' problem is tha' they look all delicate an' stuff ou' on th' stage, righ'? Backstage 's all cursin' an' chaos an' people runnin' frantic an' peelin' from one costume ta another. Jus' madness. Don' know if'n it destroys th' illusion'r makes it more impressive, truth t' tell.?

?I take it you've been back stage, then. I haven't. It does sound rather...fascinating. And probably beyond the likes of you or I, I would imagine.? Like a boy scout spinning sticks to light a fire, Locke spun the bottle between his hands.

?Ain' hard ta ge' back there if'n yer frien's 'r family with someone in th' show, jus' hard ta know where ta stan' tha's ou'a th' way,? Johnny said, shrugging. A long swallow drained his water bottle and he set it on the table ?So wha's thrown yer groove, bro? Ya were up late, yer fidgety now, an' ya said yerself ya been holdin' yerself in hidin'.?

Locke DVestavio

Date: 2008-10-06 11:02 EST
Locke wasn't quite sure why he did it, once he started doing it, but he held his hand in the air, twisting it back and forth, as he spoke. ?I'm pretty good at getting myself into and out of tight spaces, savvy?? Seeing Johnny finish his drink prompted Locke to drain the contents of his own bottle, which also bought him some time to think about the question asked of him. ?I'm sure you can guess what part of it is, mate. Most of it, actually. If you want specifics, though - Thursday? When you were tending? Was the first time I'd seen 'Lanta since July. Since the break-up. After all that happened, it became easier to sweep all those problems, all those issues, under the rug and not think about them. Bloody hard to avoid all that when you see her in the flesh, though.?

?Huh.? Arms folded across Johnny's chest while he thought that over. ?Saw th' way y'all were lookin' -no'lookin' at each other. Like someone wrapped ropes aroun' y'all an' turned'em invisible. Ya think tha' avoidin' all tha' stuff's gotten ya anythin' fer th' last few months? Honest?? The question wasn't meant to be harsh and so he delivered it with an easy smile before he uncrossed his arms and braced his palms against the tabletop ?Think tha' migh' serve ya both better ta ge' some'a tha' back ou' in th' open.?

?And talking to her is going to make things any bloody better?? Locke scoffed, crunching and crinkling the empty plastic in his hands. ?I learned fairly quickly that a clean cut is the best way to handle these sorts of things. Cut them off, before they can come back to haunt you. After the way things sorted out, I don't think there is any bloody chance we can ever be friends. I really don't see what, if any, good can come of us talking to each other.? That was his cue to fold his arms across his chest, stubbornly.

?Ain' sayin' tha' ya hav'ta be frien's again, bro - jus' tha' yer makin' thin's harder on yerself tryin' ta avoid her entirely. Better ta clear th' air ta at leas' where ya can be in th' same room withou' her drivin' ya ou'. Don' think I din' notice ya tryin' ta skate on ou' early, neither.? Johnny shrugged and shook his head. ?Ain' no reason ya hav'ta listen ta me, bro, bu' I ain' too keen on th' way yer runnin' yerself, ya know? Hurtin' ya, hurtin' her, an' yer both still frien's.?

?Yeah...? The word was breathed out, lazily. ?It would be nice to be able to go to the Inn and not feel like I'm on fire. Or that I am going to get death glares from her and her friends. I've probably done enough damage as is, avoiding our mutual mates.?

Johnny nodded at Locke's words, understanding rather than agreement ?So - migh' be worth openin' negotations. Peace talks, like. Ain' been damagin' ta me an' Si, bu' could see how tha' could happen if'n it keeps up much longer. No' tha' it's all on ya, either - yer jus' th' one tha's stopped by ta say hi tha' I'm ambushin'.? He gave a cheerful grin, then. ?Serve ya righ' fer tryin' ta be friendly an' sociable an' all.?

?Indeed. My amiable nature will be the death of me, one day.? He faked a swoon, hand clasped over his heart, before he straightened up with a grin. ?If I see her around - and that's a bloody big if, since we managed to go a couple of months living in the same bloody place without seeing each other - I shall endeavor to do my best to, uh, break the ice. Or something of that sort.? He flashed something of a rueful, thoughtful half-smile, as he mused out loud to himself. ?Don't suppose it'd be a good idea to swing by the Silver Mark, also," he said, before quickly adding, "Anyways, I suppose I should be going now.?

Both men stood, and Johnny extended his hand to Locke, the modifications quickly droppings its temperature to nearly the same as the ice elf's. ?Take care 'a yerself, bro, an' don' forget ta' come aroun' and visit if'n ya fin' tha time.?

?Will do, mate.? Locke wriggled his way out of the back room and around the jewelery cases in the main shop, before opening and shutting the store's door. He jogged down the steps, then quickened his pace once his feet met sidewalk. It was a small realization, but at least it was something. For the moment, he knew where he was running to. He was running home.

((Edited and adapted from live RP))