April 18th, 2011.
He'd settled amongst the flame blackened masonry littering the woodland of his home, piled like cairns, the sorry remnants of what had once been a grandiose old building. They were mossy now and half swallowed up, and their sharp edges were softened by this overgrowth, and the tangled vines which sought to crumble them into so much rubble. It did not discomfit him to recline against them, long, lean legs stretched out amidst last Autumn's leaf litter and the sun gilding the edges of the rich, plum leaves?forming the canopy overhead. The heat made him drowsy. The scent of rare, hot house flowers which should never have been able to flourish beneath the dappled gloom was intoxicatingly heady. It was a perfect recipe for slumber, and slumber he did, chin sunk towards his collarbones and vitals slowing to that near-death infrequency which was nothing short of alarming to watch. He dreamed then, though not of the haven surrounding him. Instead it was another familiar locale, hazed in fog, a world moon-silvered and still. There seemed to be no danger, here.
So the lounging sleeping beauty thought.? But really, there wasn't.? How could one consider a waifish thing like her something dangerous?? Half the time she walked around as if in her own world, sprouting riddles and drawing pictures in the air.? Others spent humming soft lullabies to those inky shadows that always seemed to follow.? It wasn't her fault that Trouble seemed to trip up at her feet around every corner; perhaps she should pay more attention.? She knew what would happen if she fell asleep.? He told her.? But there comes a point where you just can run from it anymore.? It'll catch up and knock you senseless.? And that's what happened to her, right there in that chair she had pulled so close to the window the tips of her bare toes touched it.? Curled in a ball of pale limb, black hair, and cotton, another exotic beauty fell into slumber and into the other's foggy memory.
Mesteno was no far-seer, darkness never seemed to impede his vision. He knew the ground under his feet, rocky beneath the thin turf, and fog thick as this only existed during the winter months, when every blade of grass was frost laced and rigid, crunching softly when stepped upon. He stepped, and found himself barefoot. He craned his neck to look overhead, and saw that beyond the mist, the night sky was clear of clouds. Two moons, stars which winked like diamonds, but the air did not burn in his lungs, cold and frigid as it should have, and the mist stroked his skin like ghosts or wisps or silk. He could not feel his weight as he should have, there was no substance to him - he might have been as transparent as the fog for all he knew, but a glance down assured him otherwise. A dream then, he decided, and waited for something, anything to happen.
Mesteno was going to be mad.? She was sure of it.? Looking back on their past encounters, they always ended with...some sort of strong emotion.? A conflict.? And threats.? She probably should learn not to test him because one of these times, he was bound to carry one out.? Aoife had no more ability to see or hear than he.? She lurked somewhere just behind the shadow statue of him in that silver blanket of mist.? Her feet were bare, just the same, and the frosted grass promised icy pinpricks of touch to the soles? and ankles of her feet.? So the girl with eyes the color of early morning mist said, "I was beginning to think that there was no place in your head where it didn't rain." That was awfully saucy of her.? She was starting off what was going to be a...trying conversation teetering on the edge of a cliff.
He responded sluggishly. She might have been speaking to someone else, for all the time it took him to turn around and notice her, and when he did his eyes possessed the languid quality of someone on the cusp of sleep. They held no malice for the intruding Dreamwalker, and here in his dreams they lacked the nocturnal gleam they seemed to exhibit in the waking world, as if he were unaware of it, or the knowledge did not translate into his mental projection of himself. "It doesn't like to rain here," he?replied absently, as if the weather choosing to restrain its downpour for somewhere else were perfectly natural. "There's nothing to see. We should go down." Down? The ground was so smothered in fog that the descent was all but invisible, but it was there, just a few feet away, steep and unkind to un toughened soles, but easily navigable. Quietly, and with the slowness he might apply whilst wary of spooking a wild animal, he lifted a hand to offer it to Aoife. The veins showing prominently in his wrist were black, branching like tree limbs, but he didn't seem to regard this with anything but resignation. "Don't be scared."
Through the curtain of mist she couldn't make out his face, just the hand that hovered there, waiting her decision.? The world around them seemed silenced, as if it had snowed.? Sounds were muffled.? It was too quiet.? Hesitation always pulled at her heels and even in the Dreaming, where she had control, it was no different.? But she didn't have control.? Not anymore.? And like a memory from another world, something familiar that lingered in the background, she reached through the thickness and gave him her hand.? Her touch was cool, like the clear waters hidden deep in the oasis tucked away from seeking eyes.? "Do the stars fall for you?"? She should have asked what was at the bottom of down.
Strange he thought, that her hand felt cold. Why did nothing else? He could feel the pressure of its weight too, and closed his fingers around it clumsily. The fog ahead of them churned like a storm-tossed sea, and he pulled her after him and into them. Descending into them was to relinquish sight, only what was immediately ahead visible, and the world became disorienting. The ground skipped beneath their feet, not to dislodge or tumble them, but neatly repositioning them on the slope from one plateau to?the next. Rocks skittered out of their way as if bare feet had kicked them, and went echoing down in loud click-clacks only to be silenced further ahead. Sounds half remembered, or too muffled for him to dream their ends. "Why would they fall, Aoife?" he asked her. "Do you want them to? I could try and dream it for you, but things might change. It's safe here." He seemed so sure.
She had to trust him not to pull them off a cliff.? The sounds that weren't all sounds disappeared into nothing.? Her fingers curled tighter within his as he tugged her along.? "No.? They did once.? I like them where they are now."? She reached away from her body with her other hand, fingers splayed to seek anything that may gift her with a clue as to where they were going.? She looked at him, studied those sharp features through the moonlight and mist.? "We need safe." I have something to tell you, was lost in translation.? Distraction proved to be her weakness, let?s hope he kept it at bay.
He'd always resented her presence there, always brandished his voice like a whip in demand of explanations, or to give threat. But he knew this place, and her presence would not prevent him getting to where he wanted. Why not take her with him? Why not share that 'someplace good' with her, and prove it was not all memory made nightmare? "Me too," he agreed, and at last they reached smoother ground, only the slightest slope, and the mist thinning, peeling away to unveil what it concealed. Ahead of them, vast and unutterably beautiful, a lake lay still and reflective as a mirror. Not a ripple touched its surface, and though the stars remained firmly pinned in the dreamscape above their heads, there shining on the water, they seemed close enough to pluck free and close tight in a palm. On either side, the rocky shore gave way to tall, undefined trees, stately silhouettes where the mist still clung like spectral forms. It was a world cast in argent monochrome, and he sighed, letting go of Aoife's hand to?stand near the water's edge. Everything seemed strangely ethereal, as if they'd stepped into the spirit world, and perhaps he forgot her then, because he looked out over it as if he'd happily stare forever.
Indeed the visage before her was beautiful.? It reminded her of something.? Someplace else that she knew once before.? She let him go ahead and chose to linger in the background, maybe to fade should she need it.? Seeing him like this, gave her pause to be the bearer of bad news.? So instead, "This place.? It means something to you."? No more a question than a statement.? Restless fingers toyed with the hem of her loose shirt sleeves? She couldn't stop watching him and that made her...unsure.? Perhaps if she kept him talking it would lessen the blow.? Beneath her feet, the rocks were smooth which didn't seem possible as the lake remained so still.? So what softened the edges?
He wondered whether he would feel the cold if he stepped into the water, but it was too perfect to disturb. Any ripple might crack it like a pane of glass, spoil the remembering. He breathed in, but the usual scents of ever-green and water were absent. He could smell nothing. Feel no intake of crisp air. It lacked sorely. The beauty was shallow without it, and he frowned, oh so faintly before turning to regard her over a shoulder, profile limned in the light reflected off the lake. "Didn't someone take it?" he asked her, rather than answer her question. "I wanted to find him and ask him how, because then you might not be here. But you are." His feet made no noise as he turned, voice subdued in that way of a man unsure, trying to remember what he couldn't. "Is this all right? Are you scared?" There was no logic to the order of his questions. His attention wandered with the passing of a single pale, firefly.
Her lips parted as if she was going to answer, but the words fell as silent as the scene before them.? She was watching him.? Carefully.? The moons spilled silver threads through the darkness of her hair giving her just as much ethereal appearance as their surroundings.? He was dreaming, but she was real.? And he remembered a conversation they once had, but his reaction wasn't this...it just wasn't like this.? "I am."
She was too real. In her he saw the detail which everything else lacked, as if a photograph had been inserted into a whimsical watercolour piece with a complete lack of subtlety. He leaned back carefully against the edge of a boulder, the contours of which were prone to change, amorphous as a cloud, but they held his weight, somehow. Her response made him gesture eloquently, palms up, shoulders shrugging. He'd no means by which to hurt her, and lucid of the fact that he dreamed, surely he could keep it that way. "Nothing bad happens here," he repeated, and wondered why he cared enough to reassure. "What is there to be scared of?" Though no sooner had he asked than he realized that it was a particularly stupid question. He remained quiet and expectant.
"No."? She read his expression as it was and shook her head to reassure him that what he thought wasn't all that true.? She finally shifted her attention from him to the glassy surface of the lake.? Like his, her feet made no noise when she walked even though smaller rocks shifted with her weight when she passed.? She paused at the water's edge and crouched down to balance on the balls of her feet just inches from the crystal edge.? "I'm afraid he'll keep it."? A silly thing to be afraid of a burden wasn't it?? Old scars throbbed with buried memories of amber liquid, shiny silver, and a Swan's song which cried tears of red.? Without pulling up her sleeve, she reached with an index finger to touch the water.?
"Is that so bad?" he asked, watching her move as if spellbound, as if she were more lovely than the valley he'd brought her down into. He didn't realize what she intended until she reached, and his warning came too late. No ripples, but yes, there was the crack. Not like he'd expected though. Instead of shattered glass, it spread in fine, spider-web lines as if she'd cracked a film of ice. It ran in so many directions it resembled filigree, and the stars vanished from the surface as if they'd been lights?callously flicked out at the touch of a switch. He didn't think to look up and see if they remained in the sky. "Why would you want to walk into people's heads? Dream their dreams? This is my dream." He gestured to the lake, cracks still spreading, broadening, with the loud echoing noises of a glacier shifting. "You spoiled my water," he added, pointlessly.
"Nothing bad happens here."? She echoed his words at him, her voice nothing more than a murmur.? She stood then and remained where she was watching the spider's web spread across the once glistening surface with a muted fascination.? "That's not what he took."? Pale fingers curled up into her palms to sing them a song.? Her lips curled into a odd smile though he wouldn't see it.? Her head tipped to the side as she followed a particular crack with her eyes.? "Every time you dream....I'll be there."
He felt a stab of panic at that. She'd seen too much already. Seen Vincent. Seen the Field. Seen Samiel bleeding and bleeding and bleeding. He leaned there slack-limbed against his boulder and tried to absorb it, though his sleeping mind could not wholly contemplate the consequences. Only process the wrongness, the intensity with which he wanted to deny the truth of her words! Out beneath Sanctuary's trees, he groaned in his slumber. "No," he told her, as if he could somehow refuse her. "That's not right. No." Had he been awake, he might have been able to assault her with questions. How was it possible? Surely they would not always be asleep at the same time. Surely he would not always dream!
"And I can't stop it.? Any of it."? She stepped away from the shattered reflection of the water and turned to walk along the shore closer to his resting spot, shifting her attention from the water to the sky above.? The stars still winked in the blackness that blanketed the dream to its hazy edges.? She ought to pay more attention.? "Every time."
I can't sleep, he realized, fumbling through thought, though he didn't share it with her. He just watched her, unaware of the mute appeal in his eyes that begged no, don't do this, as if she were the one at fault. Instead he only groaned, sank down against the stone in a way that ought to have dragged at every heavy ring in his spine, but did not because his dreaming mind had not imagined such detail there, and the rock was only lumpy, instead of rough and craggy. "Who is he? Where is he?" He asked from behind his palms, voice unmuffled as if they weren't there against his lips at all. The black veins in the back of his hands looked like polluted rivers, ugly under dark skin.
Silent steps in a silent world and she was crouching down before him.? With a boldness that she had only in the Dreaming, she reached for one of his hands with gentle fingers and pulled it close to examine the dark lines there.? "He's anywhere all the time."? More riddles and nonsense.? She tipped her head, leaned over, angled his hand in the moon light like she had a right to do it.? "Why?"? She was asking about his hands, but how would he know that?
It sounded like the kind of nonsense answer he might dream someone saying, and for a moment he prayed that this wasn't her. That he'd actually dreamed her for once instead, and that it really was a nightmare. The solidity of her hand persuaded him otherwise. A safe place in ruins. She'd ruined it. Bad things would happen wherever she wandered. "Need to kill him," he spat venomously. "It'll come back then. God." in her grasp, he watched the flesh slough away from his fingers, and he snatched his hand back to curl in against him as if embarrassed by it. He felt no pain, not even the wetness as putrefying veins spilled their oily dark contents to bleed him out on the rocks.
"That's you.? Why does it do that?"? It wasn't her.? She had no abilities save for the one dumping her in his head every time he dreamed, and even that was controlled by someone else.? She didn't move either, but studied his hand and alternately the look on his face.? If he expected her to object to him killing Fairweather, he'd be disappointed.? She curled her own fingers over her knees and persisted in invading his personal space inches too deep with eyes that would not give up.
Would she still remain close, even when he reached out and closed that terrible, rotted hand about her wrist? So very like the way Judah had decayed all over her when his corpse had first come calling. "Because I need my hands. I need them...they're always the first to go." Seething turned to mania, and he laughed at the spectacle, at the maddening, inescapable message she'd brought to him. "It likes me to be useless, vulnerable," he told her, when his chuckling subsided, though he didn't say what, and did not let go of her wrist. He remained as surely fastened as an anchor to the ocean floor, and then slipped into odd silence, peering back out over the lake. The cracks had stopped spreading, the ice latticed as far as the eye could see, and the rot seemed to ebb and crawl no further with his distraction. Perhaps looking away had been purposeful. "I need to find him, Aoife. Can you take me there?"
When he grabbed her wrist there was much more on the surface.? Perhaps the rotting also gave way to the loss of sensation of ridges there.? They tracked further up and up, up that arm.? It set her off balance and she reached out with her other hand to stay herself on the ground so she didn't fall into his lap.? She twisted her arm in his hand, palm facing her and fingers curling in. She remembered the first time when Bishop came, perhaps it was her dance with madness that made her stumble over that. "If I call him...I have to...give him something."? He said nothing bad happened here.? Nothing bad.
It never had. Not in memory and he had trusted that somehow, the lack of misdeed would have protected them from anything else. He had not expected his own nature, his own subconscious to sabotage what should have been somewhere perfectly serene. "Then you should," he informed her bluntly. "Call him and give him whatever he wants, do whatever he wants, but let me be there and I'll kill him. I'll do it." He'd have killed her, too, once upon a time, but Bjorn's words had been all he needed to divert him from that particular path. He'd no particular revulsion at the notion of killing a guilty man. Gender, in some cases, made the difference.
She stared at him, more like his profile as he stared across the cracked surface of the once beautiful lake.? He didn't know what Fairweather wanted.? She twisted her wrist again, a subtle movement within his fingers.? "Your hands.? Do they mean that much?"? Perhaps there was a way to do as he asked without payment.? She needed to think.? She needed time,? but right now, she was there with him until he woke up.? "It's just a dream.? It has no purpose but to feed off you."
The flex of her wrist saw him release her, the vile talons his fingers had become - bone protruding beneath the slick, black rot - vanishing beneath folded arms, "There was a bullet once," he recalled, "and then the English came and one of them took my fingers." It was more nonsense talk, surely, for his hands were whole and hale back in the waking world. Long and lean and deft, albeit with their share of scars from bare knuckle brawling. "Mikhail put them back, you see?" he asked her, and when he uncovered his hand to wave it before her face, there was no rot. The flesh was unblemished, as if mere thought of their repair had healed them. "I can't play if I don't have them. When will you take me?" His eyes were back on hers.?
When he released her, fingers sought the hems of her sleeves and tugged them into the cradle of her fists which she tucked between her body and legs in her crouch.? "Anytime.? He'll come if I call."? Of course he would, expecting payment in full for everything no doubt.? "So you can play...." An afterthought spoken out loud with the what? dangling silently.? Again, she was caught up in his eyes.? Such an unusual color even in this world which took colors and rearranged them as it saw fit.? But these were his eyes and they hadn't changed...not entirely.? "Mikhail fixes everything for you?"? Names had power and this one unsettled her.
"Not here," he told her brusquely. "I can't function here. Outside, where it's real." There wasn't a chance in hell that he'd let her call this Fairweather into his dreams. It was bad enough that SHE was in his head! His hand dropped, touched down on grass which didn't feel like grass, as if the ends of his fingers had been numbed by leprosy. "Mikhail, the White Death," he mumbled when she asked, and though he spoke the name with no particular dread, it was not a title earned without cause. "Don't ask?questions here, it's not fair. I don't know what I'm saying." He added softly, shaking his head. If she thought his eyes were odd, she ought to have seen her own!
The eyes are the window to the soul, they say.? Don't look too close, Sadist.? "You're asking me to be fair?" The statement he made seemed to amuse her in a twisted way that only she would understand.? Her smile was faint, slightly unbelievable.? "I wouldn't ask him here.? He has everything.? On the other side he is ...weaker."? And then..."You function as your mind sees fit here.? You just have to...believe it."? And then she stood.
Her smiles always captivated him, not in the dreamy way an admirer might be entranced, but in the helplessly curious manner a cat might watch something climbing a pane of glass on its opposite side, unreachable by patting paw. "How did he take it, Aoife?" He asked her, wondering whether he'd remember when he woke. His dreams had faded quickly, once upon a time, but of late, those she invaded tended to remain, or at least the impression of the emotions he felt did. "Why? How did he find you? How did he even know?" It wasn't as if she advertised her abilities, after all.
"He reached and took." She almost flinched.? Almost.? Her smile faded quickly and she stepped away from him, away from the shattered surface of the lake.? Almost an instinct, her arms lifted to cross over her chest.? She was walked towards the shelter of those trees.? "He used to work for...someone.? Her lackey.? She was Fae.? She knew."? Mind you now, this was all past tense.
"Fae," he repeated the world with only a mild version of the groan he'd have let slip in reality. If Sam found out, it would only rile him. "Of course...But you won't say her name, and that's good. No better than saying his name." Kymeera. What fun the freakish fae would have in a dream like this! the trees seemed to move away from her as she walked, the barren stretch of shore they'd reached extending onward unreasonably. Mesteno moved to follow, but his legs were awkward as a colt's and he peered down at them with unveiled indignation. It was then it happened, the dream shimmering like the mouth of a visible rift, engulfed in a sudden flash of silver and then...gone. The slobbery tongue dragging against one cheek was sufficiently disgusting to have woken him. Bear, the enormous brute of a dog (who lived up to his name rather admirably) looked entirely too pleased with himself, despite his owner being sat bolt upright, wide eyed and startled.
Her next step carried her through the ground with a start until it swallowed her whole in a swath of darkness. She dropped into herself with the same kind of start the Sadist across down had.? So much that she straightened her legs and pushed off the window, upsetting the gray cat who dozed on the arm of that chair into jumping off.? This wakening only had her leaning forward to grab her head with her hands, balancing elbows on knees.? What did she just agree too?
He'd settled amongst the flame blackened masonry littering the woodland of his home, piled like cairns, the sorry remnants of what had once been a grandiose old building. They were mossy now and half swallowed up, and their sharp edges were softened by this overgrowth, and the tangled vines which sought to crumble them into so much rubble. It did not discomfit him to recline against them, long, lean legs stretched out amidst last Autumn's leaf litter and the sun gilding the edges of the rich, plum leaves?forming the canopy overhead. The heat made him drowsy. The scent of rare, hot house flowers which should never have been able to flourish beneath the dappled gloom was intoxicatingly heady. It was a perfect recipe for slumber, and slumber he did, chin sunk towards his collarbones and vitals slowing to that near-death infrequency which was nothing short of alarming to watch. He dreamed then, though not of the haven surrounding him. Instead it was another familiar locale, hazed in fog, a world moon-silvered and still. There seemed to be no danger, here.
So the lounging sleeping beauty thought.? But really, there wasn't.? How could one consider a waifish thing like her something dangerous?? Half the time she walked around as if in her own world, sprouting riddles and drawing pictures in the air.? Others spent humming soft lullabies to those inky shadows that always seemed to follow.? It wasn't her fault that Trouble seemed to trip up at her feet around every corner; perhaps she should pay more attention.? She knew what would happen if she fell asleep.? He told her.? But there comes a point where you just can run from it anymore.? It'll catch up and knock you senseless.? And that's what happened to her, right there in that chair she had pulled so close to the window the tips of her bare toes touched it.? Curled in a ball of pale limb, black hair, and cotton, another exotic beauty fell into slumber and into the other's foggy memory.
Mesteno was no far-seer, darkness never seemed to impede his vision. He knew the ground under his feet, rocky beneath the thin turf, and fog thick as this only existed during the winter months, when every blade of grass was frost laced and rigid, crunching softly when stepped upon. He stepped, and found himself barefoot. He craned his neck to look overhead, and saw that beyond the mist, the night sky was clear of clouds. Two moons, stars which winked like diamonds, but the air did not burn in his lungs, cold and frigid as it should have, and the mist stroked his skin like ghosts or wisps or silk. He could not feel his weight as he should have, there was no substance to him - he might have been as transparent as the fog for all he knew, but a glance down assured him otherwise. A dream then, he decided, and waited for something, anything to happen.
Mesteno was going to be mad.? She was sure of it.? Looking back on their past encounters, they always ended with...some sort of strong emotion.? A conflict.? And threats.? She probably should learn not to test him because one of these times, he was bound to carry one out.? Aoife had no more ability to see or hear than he.? She lurked somewhere just behind the shadow statue of him in that silver blanket of mist.? Her feet were bare, just the same, and the frosted grass promised icy pinpricks of touch to the soles? and ankles of her feet.? So the girl with eyes the color of early morning mist said, "I was beginning to think that there was no place in your head where it didn't rain." That was awfully saucy of her.? She was starting off what was going to be a...trying conversation teetering on the edge of a cliff.
He responded sluggishly. She might have been speaking to someone else, for all the time it took him to turn around and notice her, and when he did his eyes possessed the languid quality of someone on the cusp of sleep. They held no malice for the intruding Dreamwalker, and here in his dreams they lacked the nocturnal gleam they seemed to exhibit in the waking world, as if he were unaware of it, or the knowledge did not translate into his mental projection of himself. "It doesn't like to rain here," he?replied absently, as if the weather choosing to restrain its downpour for somewhere else were perfectly natural. "There's nothing to see. We should go down." Down? The ground was so smothered in fog that the descent was all but invisible, but it was there, just a few feet away, steep and unkind to un toughened soles, but easily navigable. Quietly, and with the slowness he might apply whilst wary of spooking a wild animal, he lifted a hand to offer it to Aoife. The veins showing prominently in his wrist were black, branching like tree limbs, but he didn't seem to regard this with anything but resignation. "Don't be scared."
Through the curtain of mist she couldn't make out his face, just the hand that hovered there, waiting her decision.? The world around them seemed silenced, as if it had snowed.? Sounds were muffled.? It was too quiet.? Hesitation always pulled at her heels and even in the Dreaming, where she had control, it was no different.? But she didn't have control.? Not anymore.? And like a memory from another world, something familiar that lingered in the background, she reached through the thickness and gave him her hand.? Her touch was cool, like the clear waters hidden deep in the oasis tucked away from seeking eyes.? "Do the stars fall for you?"? She should have asked what was at the bottom of down.
Strange he thought, that her hand felt cold. Why did nothing else? He could feel the pressure of its weight too, and closed his fingers around it clumsily. The fog ahead of them churned like a storm-tossed sea, and he pulled her after him and into them. Descending into them was to relinquish sight, only what was immediately ahead visible, and the world became disorienting. The ground skipped beneath their feet, not to dislodge or tumble them, but neatly repositioning them on the slope from one plateau to?the next. Rocks skittered out of their way as if bare feet had kicked them, and went echoing down in loud click-clacks only to be silenced further ahead. Sounds half remembered, or too muffled for him to dream their ends. "Why would they fall, Aoife?" he asked her. "Do you want them to? I could try and dream it for you, but things might change. It's safe here." He seemed so sure.
She had to trust him not to pull them off a cliff.? The sounds that weren't all sounds disappeared into nothing.? Her fingers curled tighter within his as he tugged her along.? "No.? They did once.? I like them where they are now."? She reached away from her body with her other hand, fingers splayed to seek anything that may gift her with a clue as to where they were going.? She looked at him, studied those sharp features through the moonlight and mist.? "We need safe." I have something to tell you, was lost in translation.? Distraction proved to be her weakness, let?s hope he kept it at bay.
He'd always resented her presence there, always brandished his voice like a whip in demand of explanations, or to give threat. But he knew this place, and her presence would not prevent him getting to where he wanted. Why not take her with him? Why not share that 'someplace good' with her, and prove it was not all memory made nightmare? "Me too," he agreed, and at last they reached smoother ground, only the slightest slope, and the mist thinning, peeling away to unveil what it concealed. Ahead of them, vast and unutterably beautiful, a lake lay still and reflective as a mirror. Not a ripple touched its surface, and though the stars remained firmly pinned in the dreamscape above their heads, there shining on the water, they seemed close enough to pluck free and close tight in a palm. On either side, the rocky shore gave way to tall, undefined trees, stately silhouettes where the mist still clung like spectral forms. It was a world cast in argent monochrome, and he sighed, letting go of Aoife's hand to?stand near the water's edge. Everything seemed strangely ethereal, as if they'd stepped into the spirit world, and perhaps he forgot her then, because he looked out over it as if he'd happily stare forever.
Indeed the visage before her was beautiful.? It reminded her of something.? Someplace else that she knew once before.? She let him go ahead and chose to linger in the background, maybe to fade should she need it.? Seeing him like this, gave her pause to be the bearer of bad news.? So instead, "This place.? It means something to you."? No more a question than a statement.? Restless fingers toyed with the hem of her loose shirt sleeves? She couldn't stop watching him and that made her...unsure.? Perhaps if she kept him talking it would lessen the blow.? Beneath her feet, the rocks were smooth which didn't seem possible as the lake remained so still.? So what softened the edges?
He wondered whether he would feel the cold if he stepped into the water, but it was too perfect to disturb. Any ripple might crack it like a pane of glass, spoil the remembering. He breathed in, but the usual scents of ever-green and water were absent. He could smell nothing. Feel no intake of crisp air. It lacked sorely. The beauty was shallow without it, and he frowned, oh so faintly before turning to regard her over a shoulder, profile limned in the light reflected off the lake. "Didn't someone take it?" he asked her, rather than answer her question. "I wanted to find him and ask him how, because then you might not be here. But you are." His feet made no noise as he turned, voice subdued in that way of a man unsure, trying to remember what he couldn't. "Is this all right? Are you scared?" There was no logic to the order of his questions. His attention wandered with the passing of a single pale, firefly.
Her lips parted as if she was going to answer, but the words fell as silent as the scene before them.? She was watching him.? Carefully.? The moons spilled silver threads through the darkness of her hair giving her just as much ethereal appearance as their surroundings.? He was dreaming, but she was real.? And he remembered a conversation they once had, but his reaction wasn't this...it just wasn't like this.? "I am."
She was too real. In her he saw the detail which everything else lacked, as if a photograph had been inserted into a whimsical watercolour piece with a complete lack of subtlety. He leaned back carefully against the edge of a boulder, the contours of which were prone to change, amorphous as a cloud, but they held his weight, somehow. Her response made him gesture eloquently, palms up, shoulders shrugging. He'd no means by which to hurt her, and lucid of the fact that he dreamed, surely he could keep it that way. "Nothing bad happens here," he repeated, and wondered why he cared enough to reassure. "What is there to be scared of?" Though no sooner had he asked than he realized that it was a particularly stupid question. He remained quiet and expectant.
"No."? She read his expression as it was and shook her head to reassure him that what he thought wasn't all that true.? She finally shifted her attention from him to the glassy surface of the lake.? Like his, her feet made no noise when she walked even though smaller rocks shifted with her weight when she passed.? She paused at the water's edge and crouched down to balance on the balls of her feet just inches from the crystal edge.? "I'm afraid he'll keep it."? A silly thing to be afraid of a burden wasn't it?? Old scars throbbed with buried memories of amber liquid, shiny silver, and a Swan's song which cried tears of red.? Without pulling up her sleeve, she reached with an index finger to touch the water.?
"Is that so bad?" he asked, watching her move as if spellbound, as if she were more lovely than the valley he'd brought her down into. He didn't realize what she intended until she reached, and his warning came too late. No ripples, but yes, there was the crack. Not like he'd expected though. Instead of shattered glass, it spread in fine, spider-web lines as if she'd cracked a film of ice. It ran in so many directions it resembled filigree, and the stars vanished from the surface as if they'd been lights?callously flicked out at the touch of a switch. He didn't think to look up and see if they remained in the sky. "Why would you want to walk into people's heads? Dream their dreams? This is my dream." He gestured to the lake, cracks still spreading, broadening, with the loud echoing noises of a glacier shifting. "You spoiled my water," he added, pointlessly.
"Nothing bad happens here."? She echoed his words at him, her voice nothing more than a murmur.? She stood then and remained where she was watching the spider's web spread across the once glistening surface with a muted fascination.? "That's not what he took."? Pale fingers curled up into her palms to sing them a song.? Her lips curled into a odd smile though he wouldn't see it.? Her head tipped to the side as she followed a particular crack with her eyes.? "Every time you dream....I'll be there."
He felt a stab of panic at that. She'd seen too much already. Seen Vincent. Seen the Field. Seen Samiel bleeding and bleeding and bleeding. He leaned there slack-limbed against his boulder and tried to absorb it, though his sleeping mind could not wholly contemplate the consequences. Only process the wrongness, the intensity with which he wanted to deny the truth of her words! Out beneath Sanctuary's trees, he groaned in his slumber. "No," he told her, as if he could somehow refuse her. "That's not right. No." Had he been awake, he might have been able to assault her with questions. How was it possible? Surely they would not always be asleep at the same time. Surely he would not always dream!
"And I can't stop it.? Any of it."? She stepped away from the shattered reflection of the water and turned to walk along the shore closer to his resting spot, shifting her attention from the water to the sky above.? The stars still winked in the blackness that blanketed the dream to its hazy edges.? She ought to pay more attention.? "Every time."
I can't sleep, he realized, fumbling through thought, though he didn't share it with her. He just watched her, unaware of the mute appeal in his eyes that begged no, don't do this, as if she were the one at fault. Instead he only groaned, sank down against the stone in a way that ought to have dragged at every heavy ring in his spine, but did not because his dreaming mind had not imagined such detail there, and the rock was only lumpy, instead of rough and craggy. "Who is he? Where is he?" He asked from behind his palms, voice unmuffled as if they weren't there against his lips at all. The black veins in the back of his hands looked like polluted rivers, ugly under dark skin.
Silent steps in a silent world and she was crouching down before him.? With a boldness that she had only in the Dreaming, she reached for one of his hands with gentle fingers and pulled it close to examine the dark lines there.? "He's anywhere all the time."? More riddles and nonsense.? She tipped her head, leaned over, angled his hand in the moon light like she had a right to do it.? "Why?"? She was asking about his hands, but how would he know that?
It sounded like the kind of nonsense answer he might dream someone saying, and for a moment he prayed that this wasn't her. That he'd actually dreamed her for once instead, and that it really was a nightmare. The solidity of her hand persuaded him otherwise. A safe place in ruins. She'd ruined it. Bad things would happen wherever she wandered. "Need to kill him," he spat venomously. "It'll come back then. God." in her grasp, he watched the flesh slough away from his fingers, and he snatched his hand back to curl in against him as if embarrassed by it. He felt no pain, not even the wetness as putrefying veins spilled their oily dark contents to bleed him out on the rocks.
"That's you.? Why does it do that?"? It wasn't her.? She had no abilities save for the one dumping her in his head every time he dreamed, and even that was controlled by someone else.? She didn't move either, but studied his hand and alternately the look on his face.? If he expected her to object to him killing Fairweather, he'd be disappointed.? She curled her own fingers over her knees and persisted in invading his personal space inches too deep with eyes that would not give up.
Would she still remain close, even when he reached out and closed that terrible, rotted hand about her wrist? So very like the way Judah had decayed all over her when his corpse had first come calling. "Because I need my hands. I need them...they're always the first to go." Seething turned to mania, and he laughed at the spectacle, at the maddening, inescapable message she'd brought to him. "It likes me to be useless, vulnerable," he told her, when his chuckling subsided, though he didn't say what, and did not let go of her wrist. He remained as surely fastened as an anchor to the ocean floor, and then slipped into odd silence, peering back out over the lake. The cracks had stopped spreading, the ice latticed as far as the eye could see, and the rot seemed to ebb and crawl no further with his distraction. Perhaps looking away had been purposeful. "I need to find him, Aoife. Can you take me there?"
When he grabbed her wrist there was much more on the surface.? Perhaps the rotting also gave way to the loss of sensation of ridges there.? They tracked further up and up, up that arm.? It set her off balance and she reached out with her other hand to stay herself on the ground so she didn't fall into his lap.? She twisted her arm in his hand, palm facing her and fingers curling in. She remembered the first time when Bishop came, perhaps it was her dance with madness that made her stumble over that. "If I call him...I have to...give him something."? He said nothing bad happened here.? Nothing bad.
It never had. Not in memory and he had trusted that somehow, the lack of misdeed would have protected them from anything else. He had not expected his own nature, his own subconscious to sabotage what should have been somewhere perfectly serene. "Then you should," he informed her bluntly. "Call him and give him whatever he wants, do whatever he wants, but let me be there and I'll kill him. I'll do it." He'd have killed her, too, once upon a time, but Bjorn's words had been all he needed to divert him from that particular path. He'd no particular revulsion at the notion of killing a guilty man. Gender, in some cases, made the difference.
She stared at him, more like his profile as he stared across the cracked surface of the once beautiful lake.? He didn't know what Fairweather wanted.? She twisted her wrist again, a subtle movement within his fingers.? "Your hands.? Do they mean that much?"? Perhaps there was a way to do as he asked without payment.? She needed to think.? She needed time,? but right now, she was there with him until he woke up.? "It's just a dream.? It has no purpose but to feed off you."
The flex of her wrist saw him release her, the vile talons his fingers had become - bone protruding beneath the slick, black rot - vanishing beneath folded arms, "There was a bullet once," he recalled, "and then the English came and one of them took my fingers." It was more nonsense talk, surely, for his hands were whole and hale back in the waking world. Long and lean and deft, albeit with their share of scars from bare knuckle brawling. "Mikhail put them back, you see?" he asked her, and when he uncovered his hand to wave it before her face, there was no rot. The flesh was unblemished, as if mere thought of their repair had healed them. "I can't play if I don't have them. When will you take me?" His eyes were back on hers.?
When he released her, fingers sought the hems of her sleeves and tugged them into the cradle of her fists which she tucked between her body and legs in her crouch.? "Anytime.? He'll come if I call."? Of course he would, expecting payment in full for everything no doubt.? "So you can play...." An afterthought spoken out loud with the what? dangling silently.? Again, she was caught up in his eyes.? Such an unusual color even in this world which took colors and rearranged them as it saw fit.? But these were his eyes and they hadn't changed...not entirely.? "Mikhail fixes everything for you?"? Names had power and this one unsettled her.
"Not here," he told her brusquely. "I can't function here. Outside, where it's real." There wasn't a chance in hell that he'd let her call this Fairweather into his dreams. It was bad enough that SHE was in his head! His hand dropped, touched down on grass which didn't feel like grass, as if the ends of his fingers had been numbed by leprosy. "Mikhail, the White Death," he mumbled when she asked, and though he spoke the name with no particular dread, it was not a title earned without cause. "Don't ask?questions here, it's not fair. I don't know what I'm saying." He added softly, shaking his head. If she thought his eyes were odd, she ought to have seen her own!
The eyes are the window to the soul, they say.? Don't look too close, Sadist.? "You're asking me to be fair?" The statement he made seemed to amuse her in a twisted way that only she would understand.? Her smile was faint, slightly unbelievable.? "I wouldn't ask him here.? He has everything.? On the other side he is ...weaker."? And then..."You function as your mind sees fit here.? You just have to...believe it."? And then she stood.
Her smiles always captivated him, not in the dreamy way an admirer might be entranced, but in the helplessly curious manner a cat might watch something climbing a pane of glass on its opposite side, unreachable by patting paw. "How did he take it, Aoife?" He asked her, wondering whether he'd remember when he woke. His dreams had faded quickly, once upon a time, but of late, those she invaded tended to remain, or at least the impression of the emotions he felt did. "Why? How did he find you? How did he even know?" It wasn't as if she advertised her abilities, after all.
"He reached and took." She almost flinched.? Almost.? Her smile faded quickly and she stepped away from him, away from the shattered surface of the lake.? Almost an instinct, her arms lifted to cross over her chest.? She was walked towards the shelter of those trees.? "He used to work for...someone.? Her lackey.? She was Fae.? She knew."? Mind you now, this was all past tense.
"Fae," he repeated the world with only a mild version of the groan he'd have let slip in reality. If Sam found out, it would only rile him. "Of course...But you won't say her name, and that's good. No better than saying his name." Kymeera. What fun the freakish fae would have in a dream like this! the trees seemed to move away from her as she walked, the barren stretch of shore they'd reached extending onward unreasonably. Mesteno moved to follow, but his legs were awkward as a colt's and he peered down at them with unveiled indignation. It was then it happened, the dream shimmering like the mouth of a visible rift, engulfed in a sudden flash of silver and then...gone. The slobbery tongue dragging against one cheek was sufficiently disgusting to have woken him. Bear, the enormous brute of a dog (who lived up to his name rather admirably) looked entirely too pleased with himself, despite his owner being sat bolt upright, wide eyed and startled.
Her next step carried her through the ground with a start until it swallowed her whole in a swath of darkness. She dropped into herself with the same kind of start the Sadist across down had.? So much that she straightened her legs and pushed off the window, upsetting the gray cat who dozed on the arm of that chair into jumping off.? This wakening only had her leaning forward to grab her head with her hands, balancing elbows on knees.? What did she just agree too?