Walk through Rhydin
"We both have been awfully busy the last few days." Catalina started once they had left the inn. There was so much she needed to tell Seamus about, and none of it made for a topic of conversation in public. The romance of Rhydin by night was lost on her this evening. "Do you remember me mentioning that Lox had come by and that he'd be back in three weeks?"
"I missed him at the ranch and he came into town looking for me." Catalina squeezed Seamus's fingers and then kept an altogether tighter hold of them. "He found me at the Outback. At first I was afraid he'd come to fetch me back right away, especially with me having messed up my mission."
"Hmm, one of those things I wasn't at liberty to share before. Lox, or Loxthanthalas, isn't just any Golden. He is one of the Elite, as close to a prince as possible on Dragon's Eye. He came himself because of the last report I sent back, as he can make decisions without having to ask the court first." Catalina looked to Seamus then. "I was to do more than just sit around and enjoy a forced vacation. I couldn't tell you much before because it's all to be very secret."
"The disappearance of Dax, another Golden, and Benjamin, a seasoned general, and how it happened is very suspect. Just before them disappearing Dax had mentioned coming across something here in Rhydin that was connected to the happenings at home. He wasn't specific in the least, though, and now he can't be asked. They sent me to carefully check on his old contacts, mostly because I'm the only courier that had been to Rhydin before."
Catalina proceeded to tell Seamus about how far she had gotten with her snooping efforts to connect Dax's disappearance to what he found out here, where she had run into dead ends, and that the incident with the trap was deemed to be either a failed assassination attempt or a more or less friendly warning. Currently they thought the later to be the case, since nothing else had happened in the weeks since. That the warning had been given was a sure sign though that she had spooked someone and that she had been on the right track. But she had been ordered to stop investigating and to hire a detective or two. She also told him of her difficulties of getting a hold of the fashionable detective, and that she was considering hiring the bounty hunter she had met instead.
"The Elite must be on to something in connection to that at home, too, or Lox would not be so ready to have me stop the moment I hit a nerve. I'm guessing, that when he comes back it will be with a new plan that'll likely involve me returning to Dragon's Eye." Catalina offered her speculations to Seamus with a deep sigh. "He did however say that he'd take care of getting Marek paid should he come along. He must therefore expect that I will be able to return, at least for long enough to bring Marek back."
They walked quietly for a while. Catalina kept glancing to Seamus, wondering where his thoughts were taking him. There was little to like in what all she had just told him.
Seamus was frowning, mulling over what she had just told him. "Well, there innit much t' like in wha' ye jus' told me, ye know? I know I 'ave t' accept it an' all, bu' I b' imaginin' ye will come back, unscathed I 'ope. Do ye know if ye will b' able to stay in Rhy'Din after yer mission an' droppin' off Marek, or will ye b' goin' back t' Dragon's Eye again?" he asked, still frowning.
He didn't want her to go back, but he had to know. Plus, he still had some things to admit to her, too. That could wait until they made it back to the house, perhaps... Or he could say it now?
"It may take more than one trip to see this through." Catalina had to smile just a little at his insistence that she'd be back. "I've been contemplating resigning at the end of this mission."
His eyebrows shot up excitedly, a grin already replacing his frown. "Really?" he asked excitedly. His voice fell, though, when he continued, "But wha' would ye do then?"
"That is a good question. It wasn't that long ago that the vague dream for the future was to retire just as soon as the war was over, a little house, and maybe even have a family. With Rhydin to retire to, I'd not have to wait with that for the war be over." She slowed her steps as they neared the house and shook her head slightly. Dreaming was one thing, living a dream was another altogether.
"Perhaps I'll take up Ariana on her offer to actually work for her as a taster." She would like that with or without Seamus being a major part in her live.
"I think tha's a good idea," he agreed, smiling broadly. Noting her look, he added, "Do ye miss Dragon's Eye?"
He was watching her, his own pace slowing with hers. A brief glance was taken to the half moon, a soft sigh before turning his attention back to Catey.
"I want to say that I don't miss it, but that would be lying. No matter how bad things can get there, it's still home. I still feel odd walking outside after dark here and not having to worry what creatures may pop up from the ground. An odd thing to miss that." She grinned to Seamus.
"Is something wrong with the moon, darling?" His sigh and glance up had not escaped her.
"Hm?" he asked, looking at her. "Oh, nae... Jus' th' full moon is nearin', an' I find tha' t' b' depressin'," he commented while shrugging. A soft chuckle. "That is a strange thing t' miss, ye know."
"What is depressing about a full moon?" Catalina looked to him questioningly.
Even slowed steps brought them to the house. Catalina was getting excited all over again to see Seamus's room.
"A lot," he replied quietly, frowning. "It is painful," he added softly. Instead of elaborating, which he wanted to do, he led her up to the front door, a small grin breaking out as he moved to open the door. "Now close yer eyes..."
Catalina closed her eyes. Even wondering about how the moon could cause Seamus pain didn't quite keep a smile from her lips. She would ask him about that again later. Now was for getting surprised by what he had been working on the last few days.
"I'm ready. But don't think you're off the hook." She chuckled softly, giving his hand a gentle squeeze.
Seamus chuckled nervously, stepping in through the door after her. He squeezed her hand reassuringly, leading her down the dimly lit hallway toward his bedroom. Quietly, he opened his door, grinning at his rather nice looking room (in his opinion).
"Ye can open up, now," he whispered in her ear as he stood behind her, arms wrapping around her waist and his chin dropping to rest on her shoulder.
Catalina opened her eyes and let her gaze travel over the room. The room was painted a light brownish-cr?me color and his dresser, bedside table and four poster bed a deep cherry mahogany. Of course, there were some cattle antlers hanging up above the bed, but hopefully the white sheets and the soft, white fur comforter would take her eyes off it. He had a white fur rug on the floor just before the bed, and in front of the now marble fireplace. He had thick wool drapes covering the windows, and Cailean was curled up on the floor on top of the fur rug.
"Did you really make the furniture yourself?" She immediately loved the contrast between the dark cherry wood and the white furs. Seamus had done well by the fine wood, too. The way he had talked about the room, she had pictured straight, stark lines. But this dresser and bed had soft lines and even a few decorations to them. "It is beautiful, darling."
"It looks so much cheerier and brighter than I imagined when you described it." She turned around in his arms to hug and kiss him. When their lips separated again she winked up to him. "When you said antlers, I thought you meant deer antlers. These don't seem so bad and actually go well with the furs. Cailean must think so, too." At Seamus's quirked brow she explained with a wide grin, "He's sleeping peacefully instead of barking at the horns."
"Shall we go try it out and see if it all collapses when we sit down?" She gave him a cheeky wink. That fur on the bed looked ever so tempting and she wanted to find out if it was as soft to the touch as it looked.
"Aye, tha' I did. So... Ye like it?" he asked, his hands stuffed into his back pockets as he watched her examine his room. He was grinning, though, because he could see the approval on her face as she scrutinized. The kiss confirmed his question, though, and he laughed.
"Why would I wan' deer antlers?" Seamus asked, wrinkling his nose distastefully. He grinned wolfishly. "Cailean inherited me good taste." He said, winking roguishly.
"It wont collapse, but I like tha' idea," he agreed, giving her a dirty look as she mocked his work, though. All in jest, so rest be assured. He was already moving to the bed, jumping back to sit on it. Another grin as he patted the bed, motioning for her to join. "C'mon darlin'... It's perfect'y safe!"
"Of course it's perfectly safe." Catalina plopped down next to him with a chuckle and ran a hand over the fur. "Wow, it feels even softer than it looks."
For the next few hours they were distracted with each other, too much so for Catalina to ask further questions about the moon or for Seamus to remember that he had wanted to make good use of the jacuzzi tub. In fact, it was nearly morning again before the thought popped back into Catalina's mind.
"Darling?" With gentle fingers, partially propped up, she lightly brushed back a strand of hair from his face. When his sea-green eyes looked back at her, she brought up the subject. She kept her voice soft, but concern was evident in it just the same. "What was that about the moon hurting you, how is that possible?"
It had indeed slipped his mind, but Seamus had been half-hoping he could get away without having to elaborate. A sigh escaped as he looked up at her tenderly. He had no idea how to say it, but decided to be blunt in the end.
"I'm a werewolf," he stated, looking away after saying the last word with a bit of contempt.
There. He had said it. He exhaled loudly, glad to have it off his chest... but then he sharply inhaled, looking quickly to Catey again to assess her reaction. She had not turned her eyes from him.
Werewolf. Of course Catalina had heard stories about them, few good, most bad. But it was the contempt in his voice that made her raise her brows.
"Ye don't 'ate me, do ye?" he inquired meekly.
"No, darling, I do not hate you." Of that she was absolutely certain. What she felt for him was unchanged by his confession. He had not changed in the second it took so say the words, only the extend of her knowledge. She softly brushed her lips against his, It was a brief kiss, but conveyed love and reassurance none-the-less. She winked to him when she pulled back again. Her hand remained on his chest, feeling his heart beat somewhere under her palm. "At least you didn't say that you were a dragon."
But this wasn't a revelation like 'I'm a vegetarian' or 'I've eleven toes'. She needed a few moments to absorb the gravity of the confession. Questions sprung up as to which of the stories she had heard came close to the truth in regard to him. The 'big dogs' he had fought with came to mind as well as the repeated mention of a pack. Most of all, she wondered about why he sounded the way he did, in fact, it worried her. A few of her questions answered themselves and more sprang up. Those questions could wait a little.
"Why the self loathing, darling, did you do something you feel ashamed of?" Catalina searched his face.
The kiss, despite being brief, reassured him. He grinned lopsidedly. "I s'pose.. A dragon would b' pretty bad, eh?" His heart thudded steadily beneath her palm.
"I didn' ask t' b' a monster," he mumbled in response, looking away from her.
No, he had never done anything "bad", but he still felt uneasy about being a werewolf. It bothered him, especially because on earth, scary stories are always filled with big bad wolves and werewolves.
"I don't think you could be a monster." Catalina shook her head. "I take it that means you were not born as such. Is it a disease then that may even have a cure?" At seeing his facial expression she amended her question. "How did it happen?"
It bothered her that he should suffer. She would do what she could to alleviate that.
"A disease?" he echoed, musing over that fact. "I s'ppose it could b' considered as such... I don' know o' any cure, I 'eard there may be... I doubt it. It's on'y a bother at th' full moon, anyway... Small price t' pay," he mumbled the last bit.
"I was attacked... After going after th' werewolf tha' killed me brother," he answered, his voice softening with remorse.
He had gotten used to it for the most part, using his werewolf form to attack other, bad werewolves. That's a good thing, right?
"A price to pay for avenging your brother? That sounds like not all that small a price to pay if you've to pay installments once a month for the rest of your life." If there was a cure, they could start looking for it, provided that he wanted to give up those 'advantages'.
"What do you look like in the light of a full moon?" Catalina grinned to Seamus. That was a very important question, wasn't it? "Are you completely changing shape and look like nothing more harmful than a gray or white wolf, or do you grow huge, keeping humanoid aspects?"
In a sense, it reminded him of his brother. He wasn't sure if he'd want to stop being a werewolf. He'd like to make a point that they aren't all monsters, too.
"Fair point... I don' know. Kin'a reminds me o' Tomas," he states, shrugging. A laugh rumbles from him as he tosses his head back at her question.
"I look like a wolf?" he answers questionably, chuckling still. "I look like a wolf all beefed up standin' on 'is 'ind legs, wit' dark grey fur. My muscles grow all big an' sexy-like." He nods sagely at that, a wolfish grin on his face.
"Sexy-like, ey?" She had to chuckle then. "I never thought of a wolf as sexy before. So I'll have to wait another week at least to get to have a peek?"
"Those two children you are dreaming about..." She sobered, "...would they be born being werewolves?"
He laughs, shaking his head. "Ye are nuts, m'dear." But his eyes are twinkling.
He tilts his head, looking up at her. "Pro'ly not, unless ye are a werewolf." He shrugs, contemplating that. "I'm really nae sure... Lyam and Tara's kids were werewolves... but both o' there parents were..." he trailed off. He really hadn't considered how it affected his children.
"No, I'm just human." She grinned, almost disgustingly and rather unfittingly happy. "Perhaps there's something on the subject to be found in the big library."
"Is the hurting getting any less over time? I assume it's the changing that hurts." She looked to him with concern again.
"Mm, we will 'ave t' check tha' out," he agreed, nodding enthusiastically at her. He smiled dotingly at her, thankful to have her with him right now.
That smile was rewarded instantly with another of those brief but loving kisses.
"Aye, it doesn' hurt nearly as bad as it used t'. Th' changin' is painful, it's like 'avin' e'ery fiber o' yer bein' ripped apart, t' an extent," he explains somewhat nonchalantly.
"We'll definitely have to think of something to do about that. I don't like you hurting." Catalina moved her arms to hug him then and snuggled to him. "Did you ever have a chance to check with a real healer on that?"
Seamus looks at her, contemplating her suggestion. He shrugged. "Ne'er thought o' it really..."
"I'll probably have more questions later, darling. Right now I can just think of silly ones, like why are there some that are bad? I guess that's a sign of me getting sleepy despite the exciting news about a sexy wolf." She gave a little giggle.
"Some use their powers t' inflict pain upon others, kill people an' t' change 'em into lycans jus' fo' the heck o' it," he responded, tilting his head as he looked at her with a wolfish smile.
He suddenly pulled her cleanly on top of him, kissing her nose and wrapping his arms around her back. "Guess I'll 'ave t' take care of tha'!" he stated, waggling his brows suggestively.
"Oh, and how do you propose you'll do that?" She chuckled and winked to him before she brought her lips to his.
"Jus' like this," he mumbled into her mouth, eyes closing as he deepened the kiss.