You still remember it all, don't you?
You remember the excitement. It was the first time in such a long time that you felt anything other than numbness. The first time since you became an orphan where you allowed yourself some measure of happiness. Such a sad thing for a boy of only nineteen.
It had only been a handful of months since the last tragedy in your life, and you were on your way to experience your next.
The excitement you felt as you crossed the ocean wasn't to last. It quickly went to panic when the airplane began to shake and rumble. Then the fear crept - no, not crept - it assaulted you. You saw the look in the eyes of your friends, the same friends that had become your surrogate family in light of that other tragedy, you saw the fear in them.
You wished you had never allowed the numbness to leave.
Everything after is a blur, yes? The yelling coming from all around you, the eardrum splitting sound of metal hitting rock, your body being punished by an impact that dislodged the very seat you were upon, flung through the other masses of bodies, like fireflies shaken in a jar. A wing was torn off, bodies had been ejected, some of your friends had the skin on their feet torn to the bone. You were lucky. You had only minor injuries, a fractured leg, a few broken ribs perhaps? A concussion? Better off than Adam, who had broken his back when you fell on him.
You still carry that guilt with you to this day, don't you? Or do you carry a guilt much heavier than that? From the unspeakable actions you and your fellow survivors were forced to take. Or something even larger, perhaps?
There you were. Ten survivors. Somewhere in a mountain range in a foreign land, with only snow and other mountaintops for as far as you could see. You did what you had to do to survive. No man will begrudge you for that. You felt justified that it is what your friends would have wanted, didn't you? That their bodies be used to help you survive in that bleak time, where weeks had passed without a sign of help arriving.
And then more died. And then more. Some because the medical attention they needed never came and some because the environment just overwhelmed them. In the end you had a decision to make. You were the only one with the strength to leave the wreckage. You were the only one capable of facing the elements to search for help. And so you left. Three besides you were alive, and you promised you would return with help.
You never lived up to that promise.
You tried, valiantly. Though you never had a chance. You didn't know which way to go, you didn't know how far you had traveled, you didn't know where you had come from. You were an insignificant speck in the snow, and the pack of wolves bearing upon you were to spell you doom.
Until you found your own salvation. You remember tumbling down, and then landing on a bridge. You ran for the gates at the end, and archers saved you from the pack on your heels. You fell, exhausted, dehydrated, and freezing into the City. You had found your salvation.
Do you remember what came next?
You remember the excitement. It was the first time in such a long time that you felt anything other than numbness. The first time since you became an orphan where you allowed yourself some measure of happiness. Such a sad thing for a boy of only nineteen.
It had only been a handful of months since the last tragedy in your life, and you were on your way to experience your next.
The excitement you felt as you crossed the ocean wasn't to last. It quickly went to panic when the airplane began to shake and rumble. Then the fear crept - no, not crept - it assaulted you. You saw the look in the eyes of your friends, the same friends that had become your surrogate family in light of that other tragedy, you saw the fear in them.
You wished you had never allowed the numbness to leave.
Everything after is a blur, yes? The yelling coming from all around you, the eardrum splitting sound of metal hitting rock, your body being punished by an impact that dislodged the very seat you were upon, flung through the other masses of bodies, like fireflies shaken in a jar. A wing was torn off, bodies had been ejected, some of your friends had the skin on their feet torn to the bone. You were lucky. You had only minor injuries, a fractured leg, a few broken ribs perhaps? A concussion? Better off than Adam, who had broken his back when you fell on him.
You still carry that guilt with you to this day, don't you? Or do you carry a guilt much heavier than that? From the unspeakable actions you and your fellow survivors were forced to take. Or something even larger, perhaps?
There you were. Ten survivors. Somewhere in a mountain range in a foreign land, with only snow and other mountaintops for as far as you could see. You did what you had to do to survive. No man will begrudge you for that. You felt justified that it is what your friends would have wanted, didn't you? That their bodies be used to help you survive in that bleak time, where weeks had passed without a sign of help arriving.
And then more died. And then more. Some because the medical attention they needed never came and some because the environment just overwhelmed them. In the end you had a decision to make. You were the only one with the strength to leave the wreckage. You were the only one capable of facing the elements to search for help. And so you left. Three besides you were alive, and you promised you would return with help.
You never lived up to that promise.
You tried, valiantly. Though you never had a chance. You didn't know which way to go, you didn't know how far you had traveled, you didn't know where you had come from. You were an insignificant speck in the snow, and the pack of wolves bearing upon you were to spell you doom.
Until you found your own salvation. You remember tumbling down, and then landing on a bridge. You ran for the gates at the end, and archers saved you from the pack on your heels. You fell, exhausted, dehydrated, and freezing into the City. You had found your salvation.
Do you remember what came next?