Topic: Sinking and Resurfacing

Izira Nyte

Date: 2008-03-07 11:27 EST
((From the day following the Masquerade Ball))

Morning. Light filtered in through cracks at the edges of thick curtains. She found herself upon her back on an unknown sofa. The room felt to be melting, ready to swallow her whole. Izira got up quickly, exiting the room. The Great Hall. Now empty of all the revelers of the previous night. But a memory of them lingered and their ghost danced across the room before her eyes. The moving misty figures all carried black eyes and cold smiles. She carefully moved through their mass, avoiding touching any of them. Making the door to the inn, she went through it before halting in her steps.

Still dress as she had been the night before, she wore a dress done in black and white, the form of the dress fitted. The mask was likewise done in black and white, speckled with reflective metallic pieces and topped with long black feathers. Izira looked around the inn, nervous and tense?afraid of what new nightmare she had walked into this time. A man with a shaved head, long mustache and the appearance of being a warrior smiled to her and gave a soft bow of his head. Quickly Izira turned from him and the memory that boiled to the surface of her mind. Rough ropes, rough hands, cold steel. Her eyes searched the inn further, looking for a way out of that memory.

She moved towards a table, thinking to use its presence as a shield between herself and others. It was then that her hand wandered to her face and discovered the mask there. Fingertips felt out the surface of the thing with panic before twisting the mask from her face as though it was a spider suddenly found upon her person. Stepping away from the mask and the table on which it sat. Mind playing tricks on her, Izira envisioned the mask turning into a small creature and leaping at her?devouring her whole.

A glance was cast down her figure, finding it wrapped in colors like the mask. Was it some other creature devouring her or some separate part of the same? She leaned down to closely inspect the skirt of the dress. The fabric was close to her skin, too close. Sensations like man small teeth scraping at her skin invaded her mind. Izira sunk fists into the fabric of the dress, trying to tear herself free.

Scraps of white and black fabric lined the tear that she painstakingly worked at. Legs curled about her, torso twisted around, as the tear reached her knees. Fragments of the dress littered the ground. Exposed flesh covered in random little cuts and bruises. Izira slipped further into a panic as the fabric was proving troublesome, though she refused to give in. She would not allow it to overpower her. Another rip sent the tear over her knees.

Another long rip set the fabric to expose her upper leg, also a black worn slip that had seen better days. She tossed aside a chunk of fabric in her hands and set back to freeing herself from the monster. Muttering softly to the dress that had ensnared her, Izira had brought the tear to her torso where the materials became thicker and harder to get through. That fact did not stop her from trying. She clawed at it like a mad animal trying to free itself from a net. Bits and pieces of black and white from the dress were scattered about her form. Panting, softly pleading, "Please? please..."

Now there was no particular attention paid to how she was ripping the dress. All that mattered was that she got it off. Little by little more of the wron black slip underneath was exposed. As she had torn into the dress further, a hole was revealed in the side of the slip? torn out as though from a previous struggle. She was sobbing now in her panic.

Then he was at her side, "Hey, darlin'. You okay?"

She was panting through her reply, eyes streaked from the tears. "It won't come off. It won't come off."

"Gently, gently," he says quietly, reassuringly. "There's a zipper in the back... usually, you undo that and step out of it. Are you sure you want to do this here, though? It's not generally considered couth, to change your clothes in front of strangers..."

"Then where can I go? Everyone's a stranger. Faces always changing.", was said as she started sobbing into her hands.

"Well, there are rooms upstairs. Should I take you to one?"

She looked up at him with wide pleading eyes, "Is it safe there?"

He nods, firmly. "As safe as you like."

"Okay, okay." She looked around then back to him. "Yes, please take me."

"Half a sec..." He said, moving away. Izira watched the emptiness where he had stood. By the time he returned she was peering at the space from the tight ball she had curled into. "Alright, when you're ready?" He offers his arm. She looked up at him like a frightened kitten. Did he want her to move? To stand?

It seemed so as gently, he takes her arm and helps her to her feet. As she was lifted panic ensued in her mind. She tried to climb upon Pal and curl up in a ball at the same time. Her effort winning out as the man held her and carried her towards the stairs as she clung fearfully to him for protection. Muttering under her breath, she tried to stay as curled-up as possible in his arms.

He reached the top of the stairs, moving to the room and working the key into the door. The sound of the door sliding open made Izira jump and cling tighter to the man that hold her.

Inwards the two went.

Izira Nyte

Date: 2008-03-07 12:16 EST
The room was sparse. A bed, a chair, a washbasin, a small table next the bed. Maybe the man had grabbed one of the cheap keys. With a sigh, he closed the door behind the two of them and carried Izira over to the bed, resting her gently on it... hovering there as he waited patiently for her to let go of his neck.

Though, she remained clinging too him. "Is it safe?" She asked as she was looking about.

He glanced around as well, unsure of what has her so scared. "It's safe, Iz. We're alone here, and I swear to you, you've nothing to fear from me."

She chuckled at that. "If you hurt me I will kill you." Not a threat, just simply stated. Sometimes it wasn't something she could control. Her hands pulled away, body pulling away to the further side of the bed. A pause as she watched him.. then She returned to ripping at the dress.

He catches at her hands - gently, always gently. "There's an easier way to do that, you know... one less likely to hurt yourself." He reaches behind her and unzips her deftly. Can you tell he's had practice? "There... now all you have to do is slip out of it." If she can.

She stilled when he touched her, watching him carefully. Once the zipper was undone, she was flinging thte dress off herself as though a snake lurked within the confines. Then standing on the bed with her ruined black slip. It was ripped and torn as well, dirtied with dried mud and blood in a few small patches. Just barely a large bruise to the back of her left side was viewable.

He tilts his head to one side, studying the bruise. "Does that hurt?" He asks quietly. His med kit's in his pack - not that he's very confident she'll hold still long enough for him to put a numbing cream on it.

Not knowing that he is addressing her bruise, she looks at him as though he must be blind. "It always hurts."

He gets that she's talking about something other than the bruise. "Why?"

"Too much." She shook her head. "Not supposed to be this much inside of me." Lower lip quivering, water was starting to show in her eyes.

He blinks. "This much what, Izira?"

"Everything." She replied. Confused and frowning at him. How could he not see it? Disappointment took over her expression. Another pause. As she recongized him as the man she had spoken with on the porch, once. "You're the slip's. Why are you here?"

"'Cause you need me to be here." He says simply. He's not sure why he considers her a friend - hell, they haven't talked more than a half a dozen times, and the last time they did, she was just as batty as she is now. He tries to lighten the mood with a shrug and a smile. "What, a man can't come to a lady's Inn room and still have honorable intentions?"

"Few people have honorable intentions no matter their location." Frown.

"I like to stand out from the crowd. My intentions are always honorable."

"Always?" She frowned more.

"Call it a character flaw." He nods.

"It is, if you say always." She shook her head.. stepping back and off the opposite end of the bed.

He holds his position, but tilts his head to one side. "I believe I might have some clothes suitable for you, if you wish to be dressed," he says quietly. "A robe, if nothing else."

She shook her head slowly. "It's not mine."

"This is true." He acknowledges. "But you do seem to be lacking, a bit, in the clothing department. With you, at any rate."

"I will get more." She spoke as she lowered herself to the ground, peeking at him over the top edge of the bed.

He takes a seat on the floor on the opposite side of the bed, legs folded under him. "If I give you the clothes, would they count as yours? Would that be acceptable?"

"I am not acceptable." Spoken in a childlike voice, her head vanished from view as she crawled under the bed. Curling into a ball once there. She watched his shoes.

"Why aren't you acceptable?" Calm.

"Unclean." Scratching at her arm. A heat awaking in her.

"That's not true." Quickly.

"You don't know that." Just as quickly.

"I beg to differ, madam. If you were unclean, I would feel it, and our friendship would be at a quick end."

His disagreeing was irritating. The room getting warmer, fog upon the windows. "Wrong."

He tilts his head to one side, noticing but not commenting on the rising temperature of the room. "You're getting angry. Why is that?"

"Because you lie. Lying isn't honorable."

"That's not always true, but that's a moot point. I am not in this case lying. I don't feel you to be unclean. I don't see you as unclean. So, why then do you see yourself as unclean?"

"Because I am." The heat of her not lessening.

"Reiteration isn't explanation."

Frowning at his shoes, his words. No reply came.

He seemed content to wait. As though for all the world like he hasn't anything better to do than sit there, in this room with her. He has a canteen, coffee grounds, and a French press - not to mention his natural pyrokinetic talent to heat the water - putting it to the use of making coffee.

All was quiet on her end.

"Would you like a cup of coffee?" He offers, when it's ready.

"Bitter."

"I have sugar, if you like. I believe I can make you a cup of tea, as well, if you prefer."

"Yes." The heat was evaporating.

"Will Earl Gray do, or would you perhaps prefer a green?"

"Lavender."

A pause. Then, carefully. "I do not believe I have that kind of tea. Perhaps chamomile?"

"Poor boyscout."

"One does what one can."

"And will."

"What do you will, Izira?"

"An end."

"To everything? Or just the pain?"

"Everything."

"Self destruction is a poor solution to your problems, you know."

"I know."

"Then mayhaps we might turn our attention to solving them, rather than destroying them?"

A quiet sigh. Izira resurfaced in her own mind. The lingering sorrow. She felt the floor against her side, saw someone sitting beyond... what was she under, a bed? She had long stopped questioning the places she found herself. Softly she muttered a curse in a gutteral language.

He tilts his head to one side, then pours himself a cup of coffee. Whatever this latest development might be, he gets the feeling he's going to be better equipped to face it with a mug in his hand.

She thought for the moment to remain where she was. Wondering why she smelled coffee in the air. Not quite sure how to address someone she might have already been addressing. Another curse.

"I've always found it curious how epithets are universally translatable." He says calmly, taking a sip of his coffee. "Something about the intonation, I think."

A faint groan. She rolled unto her back looking up at the bottom of the bed. "Whoever you are, I'm quite fine now."

"Fine is a relative term, I find. Most things are, though. Would you like that robe, now?" A sip of the coffee.

Tilting her head as much as she could to look over her body, then laying it back down. "Yes, Please. Thank you."

He reaches into his bag and rummages around. Blankets... pants... cookware... ah. There we have it. The robe would be calf length on his 6'3" form, and its a deep crimson red. He rolls it up and lobs it gently over the bed to where he last saw her.

Talented as she was, she couldn't put on a robe without hurting herself under a bed. Crawling out the side away from him. She looked at him a moment, recognizing Paladin but... not finding this moment the best for friendly greetings. She looked around the room for somewhere else to put it on.

He's staring into his coffee cup. "Perhaps I should wait in the hall?"

"Does that mean you don't plan to leave me for long?" A raised brow at him. "Unless you're leaving me, you might as well just turn your head."

"I can do that." And he does, too - his whole body, as a matter of fact, shifting to put his back to her and his face towards the wall.

Seeing that he has done so, she peels the ruined slip from her body. A quiet inspection of new cuts and bruised. A bitter smirk. Then sliping into the robe, fastening it tight and secure. "Thank you, Paladin."

"Always a pleasure, Izira." He keeps his face to the wall. "I'm going to step out on a limb, and imagine that you don't recall anything?"

"Pretty sturdy limb, I'd say." She perched on the edge of the bed.

"I try not to step onto the very thin limbs." He says wryly, raising his cup and taking a sip. "Might I offer you a cup of coffee, again? Or perhaps tea?"

"Tea. Whatever you have." Looking around and taking in the room. Not one of her own. A glance to the window. In town.

"You're in the Red Dragon," he says, fixing her a cup of tea. Water from his canteen, a tea bag - and yet the mug is steaming when he holds it over his shoulder for her. Still not turning around.

She slid across the bed. Sitting upon it with legs crossed indian style. Taking the warm mug, "You can turn around now."

He does so, refilling his cup from the french press. "So, if I might ask... what is the last thing you recall?"

"I was at my inn, researching. What day is it?"

He rubs the back of his head. "I'm probably the wrong person to ask about that. Um... Saturday, I think. No, Sunday."

"Almost a week then." Silent consideration of this fact. She got around to sipping the tea.

He tilts his head to one side. "I last encountered you here on... Wednesday, I believe. Your behavior was... questionable."

"I've been going mad lately." Simply said, as though it was a minor issue. Well, she'd gotten used to it.. at least.

"I sometimes think that we're all mad, here." He rubs his eyes before looking deep into the depths of his coffee. "Have you talked to anyone about it? A professional?"

Chuckled softly. Shaking her head at his question, then chuckling more.

He takes a sip from his coffee, plainly curious as to why she's amused. Damned if he's going to ask, though.

The chuckles slowly dying. She sips her tea again.

A deep inhalation, slow exhale. "So. What happens next?"

"Finish my tea and try to go home."

"Should I walk you home?" He raises a brow and gives her a quizzical half-smile.

"Am I getting the choice?" Brow raised.

"I did ask the question." He rubs his eyes again. "You're a big girl, Izira. I'm not going to force a choice on you."

She was obviously debating it. "I suppose I could give you your robe back then."

He shrugs. "Don't let that influence your decision... I have others." He fixes her with a firm, direct stare.

A sigh, she looked away. Focusing on finishing her tea rather than making this decision.

Choosing not to make a decision is also, in its way, a decision. But she has time; he raises his cup and takes another sip of his coffee, enjoying the bitter taste.

And the pendulum swings, company... no company. It seemed either choice was a bad one.

"The room is paid for, through the night." He says quietly. "I'll leave you the key. Should you desire to stay."

Alone was better, she only hurt herself then. "Thank you, but I won't be in need of it. I will leave in a while."

He nods. "Shall I wait with you, until then? Or do you feel well enough alone?"

"Alone." A short nod.

He nods again and stands lightly, picks up his french press and coffee mug. "Izira..." he hesitates, then shakes his head. "I hope... things go better for you. I think you should see someone... though I suppose you have your own reasons for not." He refills his mug, tucks the French Press in his bag, and turns towards the door. He hesitates with his hand on the latch. "...be careful."

"It's.. not my mind. It's my blood." She spoke, not looking up from her cup.

He holds still. "... I don't understand. How does your blood effect your mind? Your sense of self?"

She moved, setting the mug down on a table near the bed. "I was born with a gift of power, something common to my father's people. But the power is supposed to be bonded with another. It is... to much for me to handle alone." She didn't know how long she had been here with him, she felt guilty for it. So, answers she now gave.

"Bonded?" He turns then, rests his back against the door. Tilts his head to one side to consider her, expression troubled.

"It's a ritual for my father's people. Usually happens at birth, several other times throughout life. It shares the power, far as my understanding goes. Splits it into something more... easily controlled."

"So, your problem is that you're overflowing with power. I've seen similar before... this doesn't explain why you behaved like an entirely different person. Different memories. Different way of thinking."

"What makes you think they're so different?" She canted her head, expression soft.

"You've always struck me as much more reserved. Self restricted."

"Ten years of solitude. Before that.... " she lowered her eyes. "Was always different."

"Ah." He looks away. Quietly - "None of us are who we were. Sometimes, this is for the best."

"If you say." She moved again, picking up the mug and slipping again.

"I say a lot of things." Neutrally.

Izira responded witht just a nod, then taking a slow sip of the tea again

"I... don't know how to help." He says quietly.

She smiled kindly to him, "You do not need to help me."

He gives her that direct stare again. "Somebody does."

"Somebody might." A faint smile.

"I hope so." He turns back to the door. "I feel we'll meet again. I hope it's you and I who do."

"Safe Travels."

"And you." He steps out into the hall and carefully closes the door behind him. The key, of course, is on the inside of the lock. He takes the back way out, down the rear steps and into the back alley. No point in going through the common room. Let 'em wonder.

Izira watched him go. Lingering as she finished her tea. Once done, she too took the back way from the inn... hoping to make it home without further incident.