- Written as Dirk slept, Cole has been having trouble sleeping and usually stays up until all hours of the night, pacing the room and looking out the window. The memories of that night still haunting him and causing him to be restless. -
Dirk,
I don't want you to blame yourself for what happened to me. Sometimes I see it in your face, the guilt, the sadness. Please stop blaming yourself. If it wasn't for you who knows what could of happened to me.
And I'm sorry that I fought about going to the hospital at first, maybe if I hadn't I would be better then I am now. Maybe I wouldn't of died. Sounds so weird to say that I died. But I couldn't leave you, I couldn't do it and then Dylan helped me find my way back. And you have to know that I love and that even though I can't talk, I hope you feel it.
I watch you sleep and it looks like you have nightmares, that you are so scared of something. I wish I could be there and show you that everything is okay. Maybe when you wake up you will tell me what you dreamed.
Love you.
