Topic: Amends

Adelite

Date: 2010-05-08 23:01 EST
Adel was a man who lived his life with little worry.

He departed from home and family as soon as he was able and never looked back. He never made lasting connections with anyone - no close friends, no one to hold his heart. The life suited him just fine, and Adel often found himself happy at the end of every night so long as he had some spirits and the warm body of a lovely lass to keep him warm at night. Though his days weren't boring by any means, as the life of a hunter meant the life of adventure! Thrill! Danger! Not to mention a full wallet, most of the time. The perk of helping others was nice, of course, but even he couldn't fool himself into thinking he had such a bleeding heart that doing good was his main motivation in his very simple life.

Then the fool had the misfortune of finding himself in Rhydin. At least, misfortune is how he'd stubbornly put it...

Adel heard stories from so many people who claimed that their lives changed by being in the realm of Rhydin. The city of Rhydin. They were always stories he laughed off and ridiculed. Superstitions, just as the gods were. But there really was no denying the magnetism he felt that he had never felt before. Adel drifted and never mingled in one place for very long, but how long had he been in Rhydin now? It was nearing two years and the thought of leaving always put an unpleasant feeling in the pit of his stomach.

He didn't care to admit it, but it wasn't the thought of leaving the city that illed him so. No.

It was the thought of leaving people he cared about. Theo, who idolized him so. Who warmed his heart. Who was bright beyond his years and had a rare kindness to him that softened even Adel. Soerl, who in spite of being of a race Adel never looked kindly on in the past, forged a bond with him that wasn't mere friendship. Soerl was more brother to him than even his own blood was.

And Nessa. Dear Nessa.

Nessa was the embodiment of what Adel never cared for in a woman. Demure, polite, and soft-spoken. No spice or zing. A believer of gods and fanciful nonsense! Yet it was her beatific smile and warm honey eyes he saw every night when he closed his eyes. It was the soft touch of her hand to his shoulder he yearned for more so than the feel of a wench's long legs around him. It was the simple taste of a meal prepared by her he preferred over the extravagance of steak. It was her laughter that made him happier than a full flagon or wallet. It was her anger that struck him down to cowardice more than the assault of a deadly beast. It was her tears that rended his heart to pieces more than... anything.

It was Nessa who finally delivered worry into Adel's life.

Adelite

Date: 2010-05-09 17:32 EST
The light rappa tappa tap upon Adel's door wasn't enough to steal him away from his somber reverie. Perched upon his bed his gaze was locked on a blurred world outside his window, as he never bothered to focus his gaze upon any one thing. The moonlight that spilled into his otherwise dark room illuminated not only the stony walls and worn furniture, but the swelling and bruising left on his face courtesy of a certain minstrel. Adel didn't stir even as the sound at his door became louder, nor even when it began to creak open in a movement almost as tentative as the one pushing it.

"You didn't eat today."

Nessa's voice was enough to stir Adel, finally, though he didn't dare turn to regard her. She had been a hard sight to face the past few days, as she was the embodiment of a reality he refused to realize. However he couldn't bring himself to be so hard hearted as to subject her to a silent treatment. "I didn't have much of an appetite."

"I didn't think so." Nessa's voice came quietly, in a manner that was rather meek even for her. It was enough to pain him, but finding courage to face her? To take her in his arms? Adel couldn't muster it up. He remained unmoving, even as she continued to speak. "I do hope you eat breakfast tomorrow, at the very least. I don't want you to wither away..."

It was sick, in a way, considering their current situation. In a perfect world it would be he to worry and fuss over Nessa - not the other way around. "I won't wither away."

"No. Not if you eat you won't. Just... be sure to eat something soon, Adel." Lingering by the door uncertainly, Nessa was silent for a long moment, likely debating her next action. Stay and speak? Run and leave the man be? "Adel." There was a certain firmness as she spoke his name, the daring carried further by the steps she took in his direction, though she left a few feet between the two of them.

It wasn't enough to stir him, however.

Nessa was undeterred. "Adel." She repeated his name, softer this time. "I know you're not happy with our current situation. But I- I-" Stuttering over words, it took a moment to build her resolve to continue. "I do not intend for this to be our situation. I intend to take full responsibility and bare the full consequences of my actions. There is no need for you to be worried or unhappy or- or angry..." Nessa's voice began to falter.

Angry? She thought him angry at her? It was she who should hold anger for him! "I'm not angry Nessa..."

"You have refused to look at me for some time now."

He hadn't. Not for days now. As if to prove a point, Adel turned his head to face Nessa, ready to respond and point out that he was indeed fine with facing her and all was well. Yet the sight of her rendered him rather mute as his voice caught in his throat. The warmth of her eyes he favored was gone, replaced by red rims, dark bags and a haunted expression. Nessa looked haggard. Tired. There was no glow or life to her appearance as there usually was. He had never seen her look so... miserable.

The feelings of shame that he had buried deep bubbled up and flooded over his features. Adel could hear Soerl calling him a coward again. Over and over. He couldn't deny it either. He was a coward. This was a situation where he was supposed to be a man. He was supposed to be strong not only for himself but for Nessa as well. And he failed her.

"Nessa..." Her name barely escaped him, nothing more than a fervent whisper. Adel didn't dare say more or speak louder than he did, for fear he might succumb to the various emotions surging within him. Coward. Coward. Coward.

Lowering her gaze from Adel, Nessa turned her head away. "I picked a poor time to bother you. It's late and you're probably very tired." Her body began to follow suit, turning so she might direct herself towards the door. Out of the room. Far away.

Adel's body reacted of its own accord, surprising even he. As she moved, he lurched forward and out of his bed to his feet. With an arm stretched out, his hand grasped her delicate wrist to hold her back and keep her near. Nessa was certainly surprised too, and found herself frozen in place, uncertain what to expect. Hell, Adel was uncertain what to do. His actions of drinking himself stupid and trying to bed another woman were certainly proof he had no idea what he was supposed in regards to their current predicament. Though there was one thing he felt was long overdue. One thing he should have done first and foremost.

A gentle tug closed the distance between them entirely, allowing Adel to wrap his arms around Nessa and hold her tight. It was the first time in days something felt right to him.