Topic: Cape Coral

Sebastian

Date: 2007-03-19 16:16 EST
He had boarded the large shipping vessel with a heavy heart and it had remained that way until nearly his fifth night aboard the Marietta. Sebastian was familiar with the duties of a sailor and performed said duties without complaint. Captain Hawke knew of the boy's reasons for joining the crew and was more than willing to give the youth something to keep his mind off of notions of divorce and such.

Leif Hawke was as close to a pirate as could be without actually breaking any laws. He had that look about him: a scowl on his face, a jaunty step to his walk, a mouth dirtier than any of the likes and even bore a red feather in that hat of his. He was usually followed around by his blood hound, Boris.

For days Sebastian worked hard and by the time the night came, he was so exhausted to do anything but lie down. Sleep, however, eluded him. Or when he did sleep, it was plagued by dreams of a haunting woman. The third night was Sebastian's worst, as a storm came upon them suddenly and all the crew was top deck trying to make sure the ship didn't capsize or sink. For the second time in his life, Sebastian was truly scared. The sea didn't take anyone that night, but it got Sebastian wondering what might've happened if he'd been swept overboard. A truly horrifying thought, he concluded, and tried to push it out of his mind.

When he couldn't take it anymore, Sebastian actually begged God to put him out of his misery. He missed hsi wife and though that life was horrible without her. And then he dreamed again.

On and on the nights went by, and Sebastian began to search himself for answers, seeing as how God wasn't giving him any. As the reached their destination, Cape Coral in the south seas, Sebastian pulled away from the group and stuck to himself, drowning in his thoughts and memories. He did his chores silently, ate alone, and then retired to his bed without a word.

The crew was getting worried about the poor ole boy and devised a plan to help cheer him up. What better way than beer and women when they were dockside?

Sebastian

Date: 2007-03-19 16:54 EST
Sebastian didn't like this; not having anything to do. Most of the crew headed straight for the small town's inn which sat atop the famous, Melly's Bar.

Melly's Bar was a rather old establishment, open for nearly 87 years and named after it's owner, Melly O'Rourke. Though dead now, Melly's bar was still run by family and is now under the management of her granddaughter, Ava Rice. She kept the establishment in good shape, though was rarely around, leaving the tending to her husband, Dan while she raised their three children just outside of town.

Melly's Bar was, for the most part, a rather good environment. Fights were not to be tolerated, but a few have been known to errupt now and again. The L-shaped building sported many round tables in the middle of the room, most of the walls lined with booths for more privacy. At one end of the L was a stage where the dancers performed or a pianist played loud, upbeat tunes. Along the base of the L was the bar, with it's wide counter tops and mirrored backbar. Anything you could imagine was on tap, even Badsider Brew (imported from the North).

Above the bar were two stories of rooms, some small and others as large as a small house, called suites. Naturally, Captain Hawke claimed a suite for himself and paid dearly for it, telling the men that they would be able to bring their womens anytime. Most of the crew, however, opted for small, one bed rooms that had a simple chest of drawers and a small table and chair.

This was where Sebastian was now. And he hated it. Hated it because it was quiet...it made him think. He didn't want to think. Visions of Erin swam before his eyes and it made his heart ache. Shoving these thoughts away, not ready to face the music of dealign with their separation, Sebastian collapsed onto his bed and let sleep overtake him.

A sudden noise outside his door had Sebastian on his feet a few hours later. Listening intently, he reached for his gun and made his way slowly towards the door. Not having bothered to dress, he eased the door open to the hall and found a rather adorable redhead staring right at him. "Yes," he asked huskily, having just awoken.

She smiled prettily and threw back her shoulders, presenting her more than blossoming bosom. Sebastian inwardly sighed. "Hey there, sailor..."

Without giving her a chance to speak further, he closed the door and walked back to his bed. After laying down, he set the gun on his bare chest and stared at the ceiling. It had been a week now since he'd joined the crew of the Marietta and never had he lived in such conditions. What had he gained since leaving behind the only woman he'd ever loved? Nothing. The thought made Sebastian sick. A niggling irritation that he wasn't doing much to remedy this fact popped up in the back of his mind, but Sebastian effectively pushed it away. He knew now what kind of person he was and had to force hismelf to push that thought away as well.

As Sebastian continued to evaluate his life as a sailor, he convinced himself that on the whole, it was a good life. It even included travel. Captain Hawke had informed him just the day before that they could leave Cape Coral anytime within the next 10 days for their next stop on the shipping schedule. He hadn't said exactly where they were going, and almost before Sebastian could question him, he found being told to just enjoy his time here.

He realized, with sobering clarity, that he didn't know when he'd be able to go back to Erin. What if something happened to her and he wasn't able to get to her side as quickly as she needed him? He should write her, he thought to himself, but dreaded the thought of setting down to write to her in another land when he knew that it was his choice that he was so far away to begin with. Tomorrow, he concluded, and so it was.

He slept again, for how long he didn't know, but when he awoke half dressed and in a still made bed, he realized that he'd been wasting alot of time. For a split second, he had no idea where he was. Emerging from his bedroom, halfway through buttoning his shirt, into the hallway of the inn. The view out the dirty windows was glorious, and not bothering to close the door behind him, Sebastian went downstairs.

Sebastian

Date: 2007-03-19 17:33 EST
The wooden steps groaned in protest as Sebastian descended the stairs from the rooms above into the lively tavern, rubbing his hand over the four days worth of stubble he had built up on his face. The stench of ale and stale sweat berrated his senses, but after living with these dirty, dirty sailors for days on a ship, it wasn't so bad. Stormy blue eyes scanned the rather full room for his shipmates.

"Hey Crabs!"

Sebastian glanced in the direction of the yell, spotting Charlie. Sebastian, worse for wear, was waved down by an even younger blonde version of himself. Beat up overalls, no shirt underneath, the man hadn't even bothered to shower or sleep when he got here. A big hand waved Sebastian to the table of his shipmates and a LOT of beer.

Upon hearing Charlie call out to the newest member of the crew, the rest of the men shouted for Sebastian to hurry over. Most had food or were waitingfor it, but all had some form of alcohol. There was even a pint waiting for Bastian when he arrived at the table. He slung himself over a chair, straddling backwards and grabbed up the mug. "So is this one free or are you dogs going tomake me pay for it?" He grinned and up-ended the mug, draining about half of it.

"You'll just get the next round." A slap on his back and the pint raised for a long drag. The other men laughing in unison at that.

"Right, you wish, gents." Another long pull of the beer. God, it was so much better than the rum aboard ship.

Charlie grinned at Sebastian. "Whatcha doing up there, anyway? Wackin' off? We're on land now, mate! There's girls! Unless, of course, they're not your type.." Clearly having spent too long at sea, the young brouge laughed a throaty laugh and was shaken a little by an older guy to his right. Though, the men left any punches to Sebastian, if he so wished.

Sebastian grinned, quite accustomed to the crass humor aboard the ship. Naturally it would spill over to their dinner discussions, but Sebastian didn't quite care. In fact, he'd adopted some aspect of it and was getting worse by the day. Ignoring the mention of other females, Sebastian leaned back a bit and grabbed at his loins, smirking devilishly. "Yeah, well, what with the wife at home 'n all. Gotta get off somehow, right?!" His rough bark of laughter filled the room, dying off as he reached for the pint again for another swig.

Charlie, disappointed with the lack of response, rolled his eyes. "Whatever, mate." He took a long pull of his draft.

"Yeah, that's right." Bastian grinned.

Chatter at the table picked up again, different things, talk of women walking around, talk of the end of their voyage, of what would be done with the money.. it was a cacophony of noise suddenly. Sebastian, at times, felt lost, but found that being with his friends, not having to worry about anything was a good feeling. Plus, he had beer in his belly. Great combination, folks. In fact, he was quite certain this night would be interesting. While most of the conversation wasn't participated in, he did manage to throw in a quip or two that hailed either laughter or had those closest to him throwing punches. When the topic drifted to women..again, Sebastian announced that the next round was indeed on him. Such a nice boy, he was. And he was showered with applause as the now mostly empty tankards were raised into the air. He was showered with pats on the back and calls of "Here, here!" The youth next to him, however, was a bit quieter. He was loud and crass as the rest, but like Sebastian probably had something he was running from or to. He wasn't even sure which yet.

The buxom Lexxie wasted no time getting to the table of young sea lads. They looked to be a merry group with pockets full from a recent trip, and the red-head was quite sure she could part someone from a few of their guineas. Enough cleavage spilled out of her dress to tempt even a saint, and she wore a smile that held secrets in the dark. "Allo, there! Ye blokes look loike ye need some comp'ny!"

As of right now, talk of the female species merely made him think of the lovely woman he left behind in Rhydin and he sure as hell didn't want to be thinking about that right now. This was supposed to be a time with friends to get a bit sloshed and have some fun. So when Lexxie arrived, the same redhead who ahd knocked on his door earlier, Sebastian made his escape. Pushing away from the table, he let the bartender know and then wandered back to his table. Plunking down beside his mate, Sebastian elbowed him and gave the boy a questioning expression.

"Not drunk enough" He gave a somewhat self effacing lopsided grin. A roll of his shoulders and then of his eyes at the woman. "Figured it'd be easier to forget a little pissed. Eh?" He nudged Sebastian right back.

One of the men, the oldest of the little group at 31, hailed Lexxie with a wave of his hand and a dirty smile. "I could sure use some company. Ain't thet right boys?" Laughter followed and Carl waited patiently for Lexxie to make her way on over to him.

"Ye sure do look as if ye need it!" A merry laugh as the woman skirted around the table, touching arms and shoulders and the backs of necks here and there. Fleeting, brushes of touches, nothing lewd, but a reminder that she was there for all those who hadn't seemed to notice her yet.

At that moment, a few server girls arrived with their drinks. Talk about timing, eh? Sebastian raised his glass, for the most part ignoring the very forward Lexxie, even as she brushed against his shoulder. "To the sea and the women who compete for our love of it." A small glance aside to his best mate, silently issuing a drinking match. Who would get it down first?

A brow went up at Sebastian as he picked up the new tankard.
"Race ya."

Carl's smile grew as Lexxie bounced over, slinging his arm around her waist and enjoying the fact that his face was quite level with her chest. She giggled and made sure to push her shoulders back, ensuring that the display was even more impressive up close. He gave her rear a squeeze.

Lexxie giggled. "Ye naughty boy!" A lean and red lips whispered something in his ear, her breath warm against his skin.

Carl groaned at Lexxie's comment and slammed his free hand down on the table, goading the two young sailors. "Drink, drink, drink...!" The rest of the table joined in, pounding their fists to the table in rhythm with their chanting.

Sebastian looked around at his mates and then back to his challenger, raising his tankard. "Yer on, Charlie. Bottoms up!" And with that, the boy up-ended his mug for the second time that night, guzzlign the liquid as fast as he could.

Charlie was a little slower than bastian. Turned out he hadn't had a past with the booze. So, he finished later and with a laugh, foam on his upper lip. "Damn, man!" A hearty laugh a pound on the table. "I demand a rematch!"

"No, no mate! I beat you fair and square!" He laughed and set the empty on the table.

"What, pissed already? " A cockeyed grin and a waggle of brows.

Carl seemed torn between his friends and the lovely, sexy Lexxie who was making it difficult to think straight. So, pulling her into his lap, he pointed a finger at Sebastian. "Come on, Crabs! Give 'im his rematch and then ye can go against us. No one can outdrink Gabe." A thumb jerk to his left towards Gabe who was grinning at Sebastian.

"You heard him!" Charlie bounded off to get a few more pints, returning with them held high over his head. One for Gabe, two for Bastian and one for himself. "Okay then, let's see who gets the title." His smirk was almost devilish.

While she watched, an arm looped about Carl's shoulders companionably, fingers tapping lightly against his shoulder. She let her attention dart from male to male though,not ready to tie herself down to one target just yet. Lexxie had standards, after all.

Sebastian hesitated. He knew that when in situations like this, he was very easily swayed by the words of his friends...and the ale was damn good. Looking at the expecting people all around him, he decided that it wouldn't hurt to have a few more. Grinning, Sebastian yelled bottom's up and then drank like the dickens. And he won. Both times. Think of that! It got almost everyone else clammering to challenge him, and if he werent' careful.. it would soon get out of hand.

Sebastian

Date: 2007-03-25 20:55 EST
And boy did they ever...


Round after round of ale was ordered and chugged, Sebastian winning every single time. He was able to hold his own for the most part, knowing how much it took to even get him buzzed was enough to get most men knock-down drunk. Vodka and Whiskey bottles were delivered to the table, compliments of the captain a few tables over.

Of course he thoroughly approved of his boys having fun, so long as nobody got hurt. Sebastian surprised the group by getting everyone a round of Badsider Brew which sparked a loud, raunchy discussion of the Badsider Babe, PJ Ramierez.

Sebastian took a long pull of the badsider before callign for everyone's attention. "Did-jha know tha' I know her?" His words were seriously slurred now.

"What's she loike?" Carl, now with a different woman on his lap, inquired of Sebastian.

Sebastian sat back in his chair and grinned like a schoolboy in a room full of little girls. "Hott." The group laughed, including Sebastian and he went on to tell them of all the times he'd hung out with the Badsider Babe, though, she did tend to spend more time with Milo because they probably fooled around. Other men took over the conversation, gushing about their lust for the gorgeous woman and Sebastian was given a moemnt to think. His thoughts drifted to the last conversation he had with the Badsider Babe...and it was a really great one. It was the night he left and PJ had made Sebastian feel much better about leaving.

His happy-go-lucky thoughts didn't last long because Gabe pounded on the table, demanding more brew. "No, no I can't take anymore, Gabe!" Carl blanched and gave the brunette on his lap a squeeze and then a kiss.

"You goin' t'bed, Carrrl?" Gabe blinked at Carl as he clumsily stood, trying to keep the brunette in his arms as he did so.

Sebastian watched as Carl nearly tipped and his brunette gave a squeal. He stumbled on over towards the stairs, cursing when he realized that he'd have to set her down. Completely ignoring Sebastian, Carl ushered his lady upstairs hastily. Sebastian laughed harshly and simply reached for another beer.

Sebastian's head was swimming from all the alcohol and most of his buddies were already being taken upstairs by other crew members or random women. The group had dwindled down to three ship mates, Bastian included. It was such a wonderful feeling, being drunk, because Sebastian could very easily choose to not think about Erin or anyone back in Rhydin.

The saucy redhead had managed to extricate herself from Carl earlier in the evening, and he'd been claimed by another wench not long after. Lexxie had chosen her mark at the beginning of the evening. She'd learned his name quickly through listening to the conversation. So when she noticed he was rather pissed, she sashayed her way on over towards him with a wicked grin and plenty of cleavage on display. "Sebastian, right? Are ye okay there, luv?"

Sebastian blinked up at Lexxie, trying to think of whether or not he knew her. She certainly looked familiar enough. After a moment or two, a wide grin split his face and he nodded merrily. "YEah, sure luv. Think ah'might need 'nother drink, though..." Brows furrowed, as if he knew that he wasnt' thinking straight...

"Another drink hm? Aren't ye a merry one! I think that I 'ave a better idea though! Ye look as if'n ye need some comp'ny!" She pulled a chair up beside him and took a seat. He would take a little more finesse, this one with the sad eyes would. Careful to be sure there as a good display of cleavage though.

As she sat, Sebastian's gaze followed her down, inevitably hovering for a great deal of time on her cleavage. IT was quite a struggle to lift his gaze to her face, but the brit managed to do so and smiled at Lexxie. She was pretty and it felt nice to be shown some attention. "Company...'course, luv. Guess I could."

Well, the woman had a lot of it, and she did make sure it was framed oh-so-nicely with clothing. A soft hand dropped to pat his forearm. "Why thank you. A girl can always use some good comp'ny, y'know. Even from those who 'ave sad eyes. "

Oblivious to her motives, Sebastian suddenly realized that he couldn't hear Lexxie over the din of the crowd that well and had to lean in. She must've lowered her voice or something. Stormy blue's were indeed sad, but the boy ignored her comment and concentrated on the delicate hand that was touching him. Amidst their close proximity, Sebastian noticed that she smelled of Jasmine...one of the most godly smells on earth. "So...what's your name, luv?"

Lexxie was a master of this game, and as he leaned further in, her voice softened even more. The buxom lass would draw him as close as she needed. Fingers petted his arm lightly, as if she didn't realize she was doing it. "My name? M'name is Lexxie. 'tis a pleasure to meet ye." Her other white hand extended towards him.

Dilemma. One arm was occupied by Lexxie's petting and the other held his Badsider. The boy seriously had to think about what to do. Reaction time was delayed a bit by being intoxicated, but he ended up setting his beer down to take her hand in his. It was soft and warm.

The night only got worse.

Sebastian

Date: 2007-03-28 08:49 EST
Several days later and with his heart laden with guilt, Sebastian sat down to write his beloved wife a letter. He'd actually tried to do so several times, but simply couldn't bring himself to do the task.

These past few days were spent either alone or with his mates, but absolutely, completely sober. He didn't touch another drop of alcohol for fear that things would get out of hand again. In fact, Sebastian had resolved to never drink again.

This was so hard on him....what he'd done. All he could think about was what Erin's reaction would be. He loved her so much and had made this trip specifically for her - so he could be better for her...and what did he do? A terrible thing. Absolutely terrible.

25-03-07

Dear Erin,

I've spent days trying to start this letter but I didn't know how. I guess I'll just start by saying that I'm safe and I'm staying someplace in the south seas. We leave in four days for the next stop on the shipping schedule and to be honest, I'm not looking forward to it at all.

We haven't done much other than walk around the town, do a bit of sightseeing and mainly sit in the tavern. There's really not much to do...so it forces me to think. It seems the only thing my mind wants to think about is you.

I've....struggled with how to tell you this because I've been so ashamed. I still am. Our first night in port, the boys and I emt up in the pub to have a few drinks. Things got out of hand and I got really pissed. I mean, really, really, pissed. I ended up back in my room with this woman and I kissed her. Erin, baby, I'm so sorry. I wasn't in my right mind. I'd been thinking about you all day and I missed you so much... I geuss I don't know what I was doing. But I just kept kissing her and it went on for about a minute. I don't know how it managed to be stopped, but I have to say it was God because I doubt I've ever been so drunk in my life. I found out later from the boys (because apparently the girl had told them?) that I had opened my eyes and got angry. I don't know what all happened but I threw her out of my room (apparently literally) and then proceeded to tear apart my room while screaming at myself. Charlie said he came in at that point and then I do rememebr him hitting me in the face. I didn't wake up until the next afternoon.

Baby, I'm so, so sorry. We're still married and I kissed another woman. I love you and I want to come home to you and I can't believe I did that. I was so pissed, that's the only excuse I have...but it's not enough. I don't know what else to say, but I knew that I couldn't hide it from you.

I'm sorry. I love you. Please forgive me.

All my love,
Sebastian

It wasn't very long, but it said what it needed to say; it got the point across. Sebastian stared at the letter for a long time, re-reading it over and over. They left for their next destination in 4 days, so he knew that he needed to send it straight away if he was to recieve the reply.



Exactly three days later, Captain Hawke personally delivered the envelope that contained Erin's letter to Sebastian. Excusing himself to his room, Sebastian cast himself across his bed and tore open the envelope.

28-03-07

Sebastian,

I've been writing this letter since before you sent one to me. Life has been an interesting mess since you've left and I've realized things and done things that are inexcusable. I think, perhaps, that I should have thought longer and harder, that I should have been more forthcoming. I'm not going to make excuses for myself.

I cheated on you. More than just a kiss for a few minutes. I've been terrible and wanton and reckless. The second you left I fell into my old ways, and honestly... I don't hate it. I love you, I know I do. But something tells me that we were never meant to be lovers. We were meant to be friends. It will never happen for us now, I see that.

I've hurt you. I know I did. I hate myself for it. I won't make excuses. I won't ask to be forgiven. In fact, I won't do anything you would expect from someone in my shoes. I've done the one thing I promised I'd never do, and I am accepting my consequences.

There are so many things in my head for how this happened. I think maybe someday when this all settles we'll be able to talk them out. But now? It would just sound like my trying to justify and point and blame. I'm not.

This was a mess from the beginning. A wonderful mess. Beautiful. And I loved you more than I thought I was even capable of love. I still do. But I cannot be a wife. I told you that, and somehow I thought maybe I could prove myself wrong, but... here we are. I can't be what you need, and you can't help me be what I need.

I want to make this hurt less, and I can't. I want to make this sound better, and it won't. So, I'll just say what I feel and feel what I say.

I love you. I hurt you. And I'm sorry. For so many things I did and did not do. Did and did not say.

Goodbye

Much Love,

E