The final post in the thread is adapted from live play.

Edited together by me, colored by Bastian's player.

Yes, it's early, but I had it done, so...

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v446/thequeengeek/SH.jpg


Erin wanted to dress up like a sock hop becuase she's tending the bar and it's a lot of doowop music. I think that was very cute of her.

Re: Deck the Halls

It's just a silly little Christmas decorating/mayhem thread, and interaction is definately encouraged! *nudges Sebastian's player and Grem's player*

::wasn't expecting a nudge and gets knocked over in his oblivious state:: Waaah!

::Crash::

Blah, I posted, see?!

::Still on dah floor.::

Yes, dear.

I'm locking any thread that hasn't been posted on in a month or that I'm pretty sure will never be finished.

if you'd like to continue work on your threads, please PM me. I just need a new start in the folder, it's getting a bit messy.

Much love

D

When it All Began is going to be an ongoing backstory post.

The event pictured in this part will be the first one exposed, and it may also have other events in her life that are out of chronology with that. It'll just be a collection of scenes as I feel like writing them.

Any retcon that ever needs doing will be explained in this thread

Did an edit on "The Day after Yesterday"

Still not happy with it....

I may work on it throughout the day, which is annoying for all you, I know.

There are more posts coming today, I think. As this whole mess has brought up a piece of Erin past in her head, I feel I may have to write it.

Aren't you all lucky

D

Edit: I edited... again. Is it better? Uhg. I'm just not gteting into it today.

OKay, well, I think I'm done fiddling with that post

Hi guys.

I've been struggling with a lot of things IC lately and I just wanted to post a little note about it.

Erin hasn't been coming as easily to me as late. She's been behaving erratically and Im' not sure if that's me or her. Honestly, I wasn't able to get the best grip on her reactions to all the things happening in the city and it has been an uphill battle between her totally losing it and withdrawing and my wanting her to stay playable. I'm losing the battle, I think.

I don't want to put her on hiatus or have her leave town, but I'm not quite sure what to do. I love my play partners, but things have been tough. The OOC drama has sucked out a lot of my enthusiasim to play as well as left me at a lost with how to deal IC with the departure of many characters in Erin's IC life.

Im at an enpass.

I'm not sure what will happen.. if something major will happen to Erin so that she is on a clearner slate, if I'll stop playing her for awhile or just have her do the major overhauling.

Anway, I want to appologise for not being in the room and being a generally sulky partner. I'll work this out, I hope, and if anyone has any ideas, please let me know. For now my confused Erin and me will deal with our little problems.

D

I will be out of town from Sunday until Friday.

I will put up a playable about Erin, but I wanted you all to know I can check my PMs if you need me.

Also, this last set of posts I did in "Letters to Sebastian" and the Journal were really hard for me. I'm happy with how they came out, I think, and I hope you enjoy them.

I cried. I feel for Erin, but I really do believe she's going to be a better person at the other end of this.

I want to thank Sebastian's player for being awesome through this relationship and I hope our puppets find happiness in their seperate ways. I know that Sebastian has forever changed Erin and she will be a better person for him. It hurt them both and was hard for us, but I think without a real kick like this, Erin would have never realized the need to deal with her shit and grow up.

Perhaps another day things will work out for our babies, but for now, Thank you for being a part of this with me.

D

I'm replacing "When it All Began" with "The Little Leather Book"

I think it will be more powerful for Erin's back story to come from herself, and also a good tool for her to deal with all those unresolved bits and pieces that tend to make her the lovable wacko she is.

So, the former thread will be locked and any backstory that is going to be written will be done so by Erin in the latter thread.

Erin will be seen in the inn and in other threads writing in the book a lot more than I will post. It is going to take her awhile to compose each section and I would rather they go up in full increments than bits and pieces.

Thanks for reading!

It's come to my attention that people may or may not think that I am ignoring them, replacing them or otherwise being a bad partner.

To an extent, I admit this is true.

But, on the other hand, it's gotten to the point where I am having a problem keeping up with everything that's wanted and/or needed from me. It's well known that I have problems saying no. I do. And that when someone asks me to play, I will almost always say yes. I also have some guilt issues, where I feel I have to do things that perhaps can be put off.

I'm going to try to stop.

From now on, I think, I'm going to leave a lot of my play to the rooms. I will go in when I want, leave when I want, and what happens inside? That's the fun.

I am really frustrated and I feel like things are a little out of control. I can't keep a good read on Erin, I can't do the stories I want to-- I just am constantly playing catchup. It's fine to have an important scene every once and awhile that leaves one in limbo, but lately, almost every scene I've been doing has been cut off, and I never know where I stand and everytime I play it's out of context.

I can't do that.

Also, I'm going to try to pay attention to everyone in the rooms if I can and not focus on only one character at a time unless it's really important. Much harder to do. I just... I want to be able to play with everyone, but I have a limited amount of time and resources. I'm blowing things off to be here more and more and it's just not working for me.

This will come as a surprise. I never every say no, I don't make it seem like I want to say no, I don't complain, and often, I'm excited. It's because I love playing with all of you. I think you're amazing players and people. And I want to interact with all of you all of the time.

This isn't working. Not for me, not for Erin.

So. Here's a list of things I need to do to stay on the site:

1) I'm not planning things anymore. No more SLs. Other than Erin's trip home, which some of you know about, everything that happens will be totally spontaneous. If we have something planned? I'm sorry, it's not anymore(other than that one thing, Viki, that I said I'd do because I want to do it). If it happens in play, I'll work with it.

2) I will only play in IM if it is absolutely necessary. If you can't catch me in the room? Sorry. I want to vapor more. I want to be able to vapor effectively.

3) If we don't finish a scene because of a connection, or we're tired, etc, it will be finished in the next 24-48 hours or vapored unless severe circumstances.

4) I go to bed at 2am. There will be rare exceptions, but otherwise? No more of this all night stuff.

5) I'll post when I post and please don't ask me when I'm going to post next.

6) Do not IM me and ask me to play. Catch me in the room, or if we have prior plans because of something that happened in the room, then I'll IM you.

7) Because the room is often crowded and I have a problem playing in it I WILL be going to random rooms like the Glen or the Market. If you want to play with me, and I'm alone in one of those rooms? Then come play with me. If you see me in those rooms with one other person? It's not private. You can join. This is a way to move all the action from the inn and flesh out the realm.

8) I am not creating a single new character at all. Sorry.


I'm really sorry if I've ignored you. I'm sorry if this list or post hurts you. Please feel free to PM me or IM me. I'm usually a really sweet person and willing to talk.

Thanks.

D

D -

Hey I'm really sorry if I've exacerbated any of this with my sporadic connection etc. Not fair I know. Anyway wanted to apologize for my role in the added stress. I know I've kept Erin in limbo a couple of times and that's no fun and no fair.

So - ::hugs to ya:: and hope things start to roll more smoothly. If you need anything (or for me to stop or start anything ::wink::) let me know!

J

Hi all

In my wisdom, I have decided to take a small hiatus. Erin is out of town, if I play it'll be with alts. I'm working on the posts for her, but basically-- she's just not around.

The characters that have been told, have been told, so if you're not one of them-- as far as your character is concerned, Erin's just kinda not there.

The house has a combination lock so that the Sisters and other West End patrol can get in and out.

Any posts that have started and are happening before her leaving(which was today) I will continue.

Feel free to PM, IM, or post here if you have any questions. Thanks!

I am going on hiatus!

Again.

For the next week I'l be in class from like 8am-5pm and then have assignments for after. So... I won't be around during the day and maybe not much at night. Then I have a house guest coming in and she will keep me off the computer.

if you need me? PM me, I'll be around. Or send an offline IM, etc. I'll pop on and off rarely but I will be popping on and off.

Erin is going about life as normal, she's just too busy to be at the inn. If you have a vapor question, just IM me.

D

Sorry to hear you weren't feeling well... Here's hoping you will be soon!!!

::hugs.::
Lanette

Hello lovelies.

I am out of town from now until July 5th.

I will be able to check my email and my PMs very sporatically. I'm way more available in between now and Thursday and Monday night and Wednesday than I am over the weekend.

Erin is on a holiday of sorts.

Have a happy holiday!

July 5th? Woo... that's my birthday! ::dances:: Yey for turning 20!

Have a fun trip, D!

Sadly my computer died during my vacation and ate some of my logs, mainly the one for The Balance Wheel. I just noticed now and it's no longer on the site, so unless someone has 6/26/07 12-1 am EST, it seems that log will never be completed.

I'm going to lock the thread. :(

It's that time.

AGAIN.

I'm going to be out of town for the next 10 days. Email, PM checking only most likely.

You know the deal by now. I'll be slow with posts, but they should get returned.

Hey!

I may owe you all posts but they are coming within the next few days. On all characters, etc. I'm going to catch up. :)

D

I'm here to have fun. I'm not having fun. This happens to me a lot. I want to be able to play a character that is believable, has real emotional depth and is, well, you know PLAYABLE. SO, I'm going to post these rules again. I took some out, I added a lot, etc.

Look, I love playing with you all. You guys are all amazing and wonderful and great. I just can't be everyone's partner at all times anymore. I can't play into everything, and do everything that is asked of me in IM anymore. I just can't do it. I feel like I get to this point a lot. The breaking point, and it makes it not fun. There is nothing I want less than not fun.

Now, please dont' take any of this as a personal attack. Everyone makes mistakes, and I am not Miss Vocal about expressing how I feel. Unless you're one of two people on the site that knows how I feel at all times.

With no further ado...

1) I'm not planning things anymore. No more SLs. Every time I do this? Horrible things happen. People cant' follow through, I can't follow through, other people get dragged through the mud... it just doesn't work. This could change in the future, but it won't change now. I just can't do it anymore. It's nothing against anyone anywhere, it's just the nature of the beast. I can't keep up with enough players to have a big story arch. This doesn't mean I can't have day to day action going on-- just nothing major right now.

2) If we don't finish a scene because of a connection, or we're tired, etc, it will be finished in the next 24-48 hours or vapored unless severe circumstances. NO LIMBO.

3) I go to bed at 2am. There will be rare exceptions, but otherwise? No more of this all night stuff.

4) I'll post when I post and please don't ask me when I'm going to post next.

5) Because the room is often crowded and I have a problem playing in it I WILL be going to random rooms like the Glen or the Market. If you want to play with me, and I'm alone in one of those rooms? Then come play with me. If you see me in those rooms with one other person? It's not private. You can join. This is a way to move all the action from the inn and flesh out the realm.

6) I AM NOT A TOY. ERIN IS NOT A TOY. Would you harrass a friend publically? I wouldn't. I think it's about time people lay off of me. I know this is really mean to say, but I just can't take being the center of attention all the damn time. It ruins my night. Sometimes I just want to play a little scene and have it be over with. Sometimes I don't want everyone yelling about her sex life as loud as possible, or provoking her. It's hard enough to keep a character with real emotions sane in Rhydin. It gets even worse when it's open season. When thinking about who to pick on to have fun for the night? Remember the feelings of the player. Remember that sometimes she wants to go in, have some quiet play and then go out without having everyone yell and scream and make a scene OF her. Remember sharing the spotlight? Well, think of that when you're shining it around the room. Some people dont' want it every night. If you're going to pick a fight with her? Or make a scene? Please just drop me an IM. Sometimes it may be fine, but other times? Not so much. I realize that this is a public forum, and I have to take a certain degree of interaction. I'm open to that. I just ask that you think before you jump. Just about the difference between over the top fun and what a real person would do to another real person.

7) You CAN NOT read her feelings on her face if she looks fine. You can't know anything in her narrative. If "Erin is putting on a brave face, smiling and laughing, though she's in a bad mood." Your next post IS NOT "Joe knew there was something wrong with Erin. He was really sick of her drama." NO. NOT OKAY. If I wanted Erin to be sad and moping? She would be. The narrative is only there for, well, narrative clarity. If people can't figure that out? can't keep it clear? I'll go to action only narrative. I'm serious. I love my narrative, but I'm not playing this "My character can just tell!" crap. And then letting people turn around and call me an attention whore. NO. If your character is a empath or something? Just ask. I'm not unreasonable, I'm just not happy with some of the calls that go on.

Aren't you a doll? Just so polite and understanding!

(/sarcasm)