My Beloved French Pirate,

Well I done made a fool out of myself yesterday. I spent the day crying because I missed you so very much. I didn?t think I would miss you like this. It was much harder than I thought it would be for you to be gone over night from me.

Those wine coolers have quite a kick to them after you drink 10 or 11 of them Babe. I was minding my own business though and hadn?t left the house but our friend Gav, you remember I told you that I had a crush on him years ago, noticed that I hadn?t been to the Inn like I usually do at least once a day and stopped by to see if I was all right.

I had been crying and drinking and drinking and crying for hours before he got here. I was in quite a state when he knocked on the door late last night. He fed me and made me coffee then was very sweet and spent the night on the couch so I wouldn?t have to be here by myself on your first night away.

I?m embarrassed to say I couldn?t make myself sleep in our bed. I made myself a pallet on the floor in the living room by the fireplace and slept there. I ain?t sleeping in that bed without you. Ain?t nobody can make me either. That floor ain?t so bad as you well know since we have slept there before together.

I ain?t decided yet but I may just sleep on the couch until you come home or maybe I?ll just sleep on the floor like I did last night. There is just something about sleeping in that bed without you that I just don?t like.

Gav even got me to smile and laugh. I?m feeling much better today so I?m going to go to the Arena and do my last mentored shift with Imp. Now Babe I know the two of you don?t get along but I do like that Imp and I don?t think he really means anything by it even though he did attack you like that and all. When you get back I?ll try and fix things up between the two of you so don?t you worry none about that.

I may even stop by the Inn sometime today or tonight after I get done in the Arena. I?m not sure about that yet either. I hope that you aren?t worrying about me Babe. You just better be taking care of yourself for me because I love you so much and can?t wait for you to come home. I am going to be fine. There are plenty of friends that I have here that I can hang out with while you are away now that I ain?t gonna be stupid and get drunk again.

I Love You Forever and Always and Two Days!!
Des

My Beloved French Pirate,

I miss you like crazy! I?m not sleeping well at all. I was up most of the night the past two nights. But I haven?t been drinking since that first day at least so that is a good thing. I?m sticking to just coffee. I need your hugs and lots of your kisses. I need for you to lay me down and whisper French in my ear Babe.

Little Kali Kat is missing you too. She keeps going to the door and meowing at the times when you usually came home. When I?m home I wear the last shirt that you wore before you left cause it still smells like you. I ain?t washing it neither. Cause I feel closer to you when I have it on.

I had a blast last night calling duels! When I got there, which I was a little bit early, there were already people waiting! How great is that? I was so excited to see people there that I couldn?t wait for Imp to arrive so that I could get started.

Then the strangest thing happened. There was this here jar a sitting beside the couch and Imp started rubbing on it. I didn?t think it was a good idea but I didn?t say nothing because I was already calling a couple of duels. Next thing I knew there was this misty smoky kind of stuff coming out of it!

Well that was all I could take. I kept my eyes on my duelers in their rings and let Imp deal with the new caller; because that is what was in that there jar. It was a very good thing that there were 3 of us there too because people were crowding into the Arena like I haven?t seen them crowd in for YEARS!!

There was BLOOD! There was GUTS! There was GLORY! All over the place my Beloved!! I was loving every second of it too!!

Tass was there and I think maybe I am gonna fix him up with this really nice lady he introduced me to last night. Her name is Kyndra and she sure did seem interested and I told her that she would need to try real hard with him and she kept reassuring me that she would. Now I am gonna make certain sure that she does.

Tass may have made a tiny mistake by mentioning to her that I know all about him and that if she wants to know about him she should talk to me. Well I jumped right on that like a June bug on a potato! I?m gonna be talking a lot to her. I can?t wait but I ain?t gonna scare her off by telling her how possessive he is and all just yet. I?m gonna tell her all his good qualities first. That other stuff can just wait.

Koy was there and I was happy to see her again. She suggested that we lock them in the supply closet until they fell in love. That dragon ran and hid! Can you believe that?! But I fooled him. You know that token I always carry in my pocket that summons him to me at any time? Well I pulled that baby out and he had no choice but to come back in sight. Bad thing was he broke a 120 y/o bottle of scotch in the process. Collie is gonna be mad at him. But of course he claimed it was my fault. He always does don?t he?

That Delroy was there again last night. I?ve been running into him regular like too in the arenas. He is too sweet. One night he dedicated a duel to me and then he went out and won it! I couldn?t believe it but he sure enough did!! From what I can tell he is rising up pretty fast in the ranks in both Swords and Fists. He is good at what he does Babe. I am impressed. I think you will be too when you get to see him duel.

I saw a dark angel last night. I wanted one of those wing feathers so bad I could have just ran over there and plucked one!! But that would have been rude I know so I didn?t. But I can?t guarantee that I won?t before it is over. You know how much I love feathers Babe. I always wanted me a pair of wings of my own. God forbid I actually just ask him for one. That would be far too polite and besides he might turn me down right Babe?

Sklyer was bragging about how much silver he has so I have asked him to buy me that Elven sword and dagger set from the shop. I figure he can easily afford it so why should you and I pay for it if I can talk him into buying it instead. If he doesn?t no big deal. I just couldn?t resist teasing him about flaunting his new found wealth by asking him to get it for me.

One of Collie?s daughters has had a baby, a little girl, no doubt she will be a third generation dueler herself when she grows up. I haven?t had the chance to introduce you to Collie yet but I have known her for years and years. She is a friend and I think you?ll like her when you get to meet her Babe.

I?m trying to remember what all else went on. I was pretty busy for a while there watching my rings real close to see what all was going on in them. The current Overlady, Karen, did stop by and dueled Marz. I wish I could remember which of them won but I honestly can?t. I was still calling my own rings at the time.

I?m going to work on Icer and Aurthur?s nest barrier today in the common room to protect them and the patrons from getting into any conflicts that aren?t necessary.

I?m getting sleepy. I?m going to take a nap I think on the couch. Kali Kat has started sleeping on my head now that you aren?t here with us. Small comfort but at least it lets me know that I am not completely alone without you here today.

I would much rather be curling up with you this afternoon, making love, and then falling asleep entwined with you skin to skin for a nap, but since I can?t have that Little Kali Kat sleeping on my head, and me dressed in your shirt, will have to do Babe.

I Love You Forever and Always and Two Days!!
Des
P.S. 12 more days.

My Beloved French Pirate,

I miss you!! I want you!! I need you!! I wish you were here!! Come home soon!! I didn?t sleep well again last night but I already told you that in my last letter. I just can?t seem to get any rest without your arms around me holding me. I doze off only to wake up a few minutes later reaching out thinking to feel you beside me but their ain?t nothing there but empty space.

I went in a tended bar for a while this afternoon. I can?t stand just sitting around here looking at all of our things. Every little thing here reminds me of all the time we have spent here together. I am so tired of crying and missing you. The only time I am happy is when I am out doing something. I?m thinking about getting drunk again but I don?t want anyone to have to deal with that and I did tell you that I wasn?t gonna do that again.

But I don?t know how much longer I can sit in this apartment without you and stay sober. It isn?t bad as long as Gav is here with me but I can?t expect him to do nothing but sit around here all day with me either. He has a life of his own. Although so far he doesn?t seem to mind sitting here and visiting with me. We have talked about all kinds of things. He is excellent company Babe.

I went and called duels last night with Djinn. It was fun! The DoF Diamond Quest was also last night which made things very slow but several people did come to duel and we, Djinn and I, did have a good time. I made the mistake of poking his jar and he up and went and dueled someone!! I guess I should have known better than to touch that jar but I just couldn?t resist.

You ain?t gonna believe this but Djinn is sworn to the service of Imp. Now don?t go getting all upset just yet Babe. I know you and Imp don?t get along well and I don?t blame ya none for that. I just think it is mighty strange that the P?Imp has his own Djinn sworn to him and all.

My shifts over there at Swords are kind of up in the air I guess at the moment. They are either gonna be Saturday, which I am hoping for, or Fridays. I ain?t heard back from G yet so I?m gonna just show up on the Saturday that I offered to work. Thank goodness my bar tending on Sundays in the Inn is already a done deal and so is the Outback on Mondays.

I went to the Diamond Quest as soon as I got done calling and managed to get to see Tarl!!! I haven?t seen him in years and I was so happy to see him again Babe! He remembered me even. Kyndra had gone with me so I introduced her to him and Matt as they were the last two to compete. Matt won the Diamond back from Tarl and I was happy for him although I would have liked to have seen Tarl get to keep it as Matt has tons of them already.

You remember Matt he is my Boss over at the Outback now. He was saying that his wife Koy was wanting more jewelry so he had to win the Diamond for her. He won it all right. That sounds like something that you would do for me. I love you!!

Well after that I stopped by the Inn and it was not pretty. I had seen Talomar earlier and he had said that he could help me to get some sleep. You know I ain?t been sleeping so I had accepted his offer. Issy had told me I should be careful and I was planning on being careful. I just need some sleep Babe. He had told me all I had to do was submit myself to him. Well that didn?t sound so bad and I knew Gav would be right there to make sure there was no funny business going on. A little bite on the neck and I could have had a sound night?s sleep for the first time in days. I think that wasn?t too much to ask of me and I do consider him and his wife Tara friends of mine.

Well I was there getting things finally straightened out with Tass after he got upset about me being friends with Gav and me thinking that he hated me because he ignored me and let Kairee sit up on the couch with him at the Overlord challenge. Talomar walked in and came over and kissed the back of my hand. Tara walked in saw him do that and went off her rocker.

Tass was no better he deserted me when Talomar came over to me and went over to talk to Lenika while Tara began rubbing herself all over her husband. The next thing I knew it appeared I was to be made an example of once again by her.

Chris was tending bar and did not help matters by telling Tara that her husband was having an affair with me. That was just uncalled for. I may have to say something to him about that. I do not enjoy conflict and ended up having to leave the Inn to avoid being made an example of which I feel was not fair.

At least once Talomar returned to his wife?s side Tass returned and sat down on my lap and when Tara hurled a bottle at the wall rather close to me he stood, picked me up, and carried me out of the Inn. I did ask him to leave her alone because she is not always in her right mind.

I do admit to you beloved that I am rather tired of her thinking she can make an example of me anytime she decides to. I know that I make the perfect example being a bartender and all but I am not going to tolerate it anymore. From now on when she gets that way I am going to ignore her behavior.

I hate having to do that to someone I consider a friend but she isn?t acting like a friend by getting all jealous like when all I want is a little sleep. I?m going to use the torque that Tass gave me and just set up a protective shield around myself with it like he taught me to. I?ll keep my mouth shut and won?t answer her taunting either.

I wish that you were here to hold me because this really sucks Babe. I?m sorry about the tear stains on this one too. Gav ended up not being able to spend the night after all so since Tass dropped me off I?m here with just Kali Kat and still wide awake. I don?t think I?ll be sleeping tonight but maybe I?ll be tired enough tomorrow that I can take a nap or something before I tend bar.

I Love You Always and Forever and Two Days!!
Des
P.S. 9 more days.

My Beloved French Pirate,

I slept!! All night long!! I didn?t wake up until this morning!! Not one time!! I?m still missing you like crazy but I?m not going out of mind now like I was. I was really starting to lose it big time. I can?t wait for you to get home Babe.

Last night in the Inn was fun. There were people everywhere. I love it when it gets busy like that you know. Icer and Aurthur?s first 3 eggs hatched. The one they let me name after you is one of them that is now out of it?s shell. She is so very precious. Tiny pale blue with one green eye and one blue. I told ya I named her Jeanette after you didn?t I Babe? That was such an honor to be allowed to name a dragon!!!

LiLi was there I don?t know if I told ya about her or not. She is a little girl with long black hair and the biggest green eyes I have ever seen. She sends bubbles everywhere and plays harmless little tricks like that on everyone. She got really scared last night though and was up in the rafters crying. I thought sure I was going to have to climb up there and get her down but luckily Panth was there and he jumped up there and talked her down.

This lady named Dora well she got herself all tangled up in her knitting yarn. Oh my goodness Babe it was a sight! She had her hands, arms, head, and neck entwined with this here yellow yarn by the time I noticed and went over to cut her free with one of my daggers. It did take me a little bit as she was hemmed in pretty tight by that there yarn.

Hanzipoo was trying to start some kind of trouble with me I?m thinking as he had some juice in a baby bottle of all things and was a swinging upside down from his chain and squirting that juice on my hat but I was too busy to let him get to me last night. I owe him a rematch and now that I have dueled Gav I?m gonna give it him.

Skyler was there and I got to tell him about Kalinda giving me that gift I asked him for and he was telling me that since Imp already gave me a shirt which he had said he would give me and she gave me the sword and dagger he will give me another gift. I can?t wait to see what it will be!!

Aerandar was there again. I?ve only seen him a couple of times now but he seems nice. He was injured though and that really nice woman Julie that drinks diet coke well she helped him out. I thought that was right nice of her Babe.

Oh! Oh! Oh! Jodiah came and had a drink on my shift Babe!!! You remember me telling you about how he saved me and all that one night here a while back!! Well he was wanting something besides that nasty stuff he usually drinks.

Grem was tending bar for me at the time. I was NOT gonna let Grem get the money that Jodiah always pays for his drinks!! I hopped off the bar stool I was sitting on and the rest of the common room ceased to exist I?m telling ya true!! I was completely focused on getting that man something that he would REALLY like so I could get me some of his money!

I was distressed at first because I know how much he likes those Midnight Tears that Sid and him drink and we are all out of them right now. Instead I got him a nice tall glass of rotgut and smiled real pretty when I delivered it to him. Oh lordy be Babe he turned it down!!!!!

Well I wasn?t gonna give up so I took that back and thought to myself what would be something smooth but get him skunk drunk because he had said he was looking to get drunk. Then it hit me... Brandy! I got him a snifter of brandy and warmed it over the candle flame just like I was taught and took that to him. I was silently praying the whole way back over there that he would like this because my options were getting fewer.

Wonder of wonders he tasted it and liked it Babe!! He bought the WHOLE bottle and I saw him later and he was skunk drunk indeed. I?m hoping that he will keep coming in on Sundays and buying bottles of Brandy now that he did last night. I?m going to mark a few extra bottles on the order sheet just in case.

I did make an oopps last night and poor Leni had to drink cider instead of tea because I set that out for her right before she asked me for tea. I would have switched it for her but she was really sweet about it and went ahead and drank the cider last night.

There was so much more going on last night Babe that I don?t even know where to begin telling you all about it. Tass and Kyndra showed up together. I?m hoping and praying that they are going to become and steady couple. I know it is far to soon to tell for sure if it would work out but I think you would agree with me that they would be perfect together. I wish you were here to see them together.

That?s about all I can remember real clear like Babe. I?m going to run over to the Pet Shop and buy more food and water for Kali Kat today. She has grown since you?ve been gone. She is eating like a little pig these days and is getting fat and sassy Babe.

I Love You Forever and Always and Two Days!!
Des
P.S. 8 more days.

My Beloved French Pirate,

We are halfway there as of today!! I just might make it!!!! These next few days are going to be VERY hard though because I don?t have any work scheduled at all. I am not sure just what I am going to do with all this spare time I have on my hands. I miss you and have officially ran out of ways to tell you just how much.

I could go to the Isle or the Outback and fight tonight. I could go to the Inn and hang out tonight. Or I could just stay home with Kali Kat and maybe Gav. I didn?t ask him this morning when we woke up what his plans were. I still haven?t asked him. He is in the kitchen right now making us some breakfast. That man can cook Babe!!!

But he always remembers to make the coffee first. He fixes it just like I like it and brings it to me and I really am getting spoiled by that I must admit. You must have told him what to expect if he ended up having to spend the night with me. I love you!! You are still taking care of me even though you must be many miles away by now.

This should be the day that you are starting back home to me and I am so happy just knowing that!! I can?t wait!! I am going to go shopping today to get some of those things I told you I would have waiting for you for the special treat I promised you when you get home. Don?t worry though I made really good tips over the weekend so I got some silver to pay for them.

Breakfast is ready so I?ll write more later Babe.

I Love You Forever and Always and Two Days!!
Des
P.S. 7 days left.