Those steps were heavy. The truth, the play of the earlier hours was on rewind and repeat. Over and Over again. Driving her insane. The truth had come out. Human. A cursed and banished Sidhe who had been made ill... and now...just a plain, heartbroken human. She hated it. She for once in her life had been honest. Confessed her love for him...and he had ignored her...and walked away
What I thought wasn't mine
In the light
Was one of a kind,
A precious pearl
When I wanted to cry
I couldn't cause I
Wasn't allowed
Gomennasai for everything
Gomennasai, I know I let you down
Gomennasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now
That house seemed so empty without him. She packed the mediocre things she had collected over the time spent with him. It all seemed so meaningless without him. She realized then that what she had said...was the truth. She did love him. Those tears were ceaseless. Spilling over and falling. Why of all of them..of anyone could she not be honest with him? She hated herself...hated this so much. She hunched down to the only forgiving creature she knew, kissing the hound dog on the nose. "Good bye my friend. I'm sorry for all the things I've done." She left the keys on the table and walked out. No place to go...but where she was before...seedy rooms of dock claimed inns.
What I thought wasn't all
So innocent
Was a delicate doll
Of porcelain
When I wanted to call you
And ask you for help
I stopped myself
Gomennasai for everything
Gomennasai, I know I let you down
Gomennasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now
She took that long walk to the bar she tended at, a shake of head at the questioning glance cast her way by her boss. He didn't question. A relief. Just tossed the keys to her old room her way. Still raining, she hated the rain. It felt like tears. Too much of a bitter memory of the events that just had passed. Why couldn't she just have been honest? So terrified, so nervous that just being normal... would lead him to stray.
And being dishonest just had screwed that all up anyways. Door opened and slammed shut behind her, searching out that hidden stash of liquor. She found then...she had no desire to drink.
Sinking down to the floor she buried her head in her hands and let it all out. Sobbing out all that anguish, all that surpressed emotion. She had only showed two emotions for so long now... jealousy and anger... and now...the rest of her was breaking. Shattering.
So alone...it was never meant to be this way...In one night... she'd lost everything and everyone she loved...
She couldn't blame him for hating her. She deserved it.
What I thought was a dream
A mirage
Was as real as it seemed
A privilege
When I wanted to tell you
I made a mistake
I walked away
Gomennasai, for everything
Gomennasai, Gomennasai,
I never needed a friend,
Like I do now
Gomennasai, I let you down
Gomennasai, Gomennasai, Gomennasai,
Gomennasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now
(Gomennasai- Tatu)
What I thought wasn't mine
In the light
Was one of a kind,
A precious pearl
When I wanted to cry
I couldn't cause I
Wasn't allowed
Gomennasai for everything
Gomennasai, I know I let you down
Gomennasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now
That house seemed so empty without him. She packed the mediocre things she had collected over the time spent with him. It all seemed so meaningless without him. She realized then that what she had said...was the truth. She did love him. Those tears were ceaseless. Spilling over and falling. Why of all of them..of anyone could she not be honest with him? She hated herself...hated this so much. She hunched down to the only forgiving creature she knew, kissing the hound dog on the nose. "Good bye my friend. I'm sorry for all the things I've done." She left the keys on the table and walked out. No place to go...but where she was before...seedy rooms of dock claimed inns.
What I thought wasn't all
So innocent
Was a delicate doll
Of porcelain
When I wanted to call you
And ask you for help
I stopped myself
Gomennasai for everything
Gomennasai, I know I let you down
Gomennasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now
She took that long walk to the bar she tended at, a shake of head at the questioning glance cast her way by her boss. He didn't question. A relief. Just tossed the keys to her old room her way. Still raining, she hated the rain. It felt like tears. Too much of a bitter memory of the events that just had passed. Why couldn't she just have been honest? So terrified, so nervous that just being normal... would lead him to stray.
And being dishonest just had screwed that all up anyways. Door opened and slammed shut behind her, searching out that hidden stash of liquor. She found then...she had no desire to drink.
Sinking down to the floor she buried her head in her hands and let it all out. Sobbing out all that anguish, all that surpressed emotion. She had only showed two emotions for so long now... jealousy and anger... and now...the rest of her was breaking. Shattering.
So alone...it was never meant to be this way...In one night... she'd lost everything and everyone she loved...
She couldn't blame him for hating her. She deserved it.
What I thought was a dream
A mirage
Was as real as it seemed
A privilege
When I wanted to tell you
I made a mistake
I walked away
Gomennasai, for everything
Gomennasai, Gomennasai,
I never needed a friend,
Like I do now
Gomennasai, I let you down
Gomennasai, Gomennasai, Gomennasai,
Gomennasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now
(Gomennasai- Tatu)