Topic: Be Mine

Lucky Clover

Date: 2011-08-04 17:03 EST
((The events of this thread follow this post from In Cold Blood))

Tim Conners

Date: 2011-08-04 17:08 EST
Tim?s memories haunt him.

The ray of sunlight filters from the setting summer sun and through the boards of the barn to glittering off the fall of electric red hair. She sits on a bundle of hay and the mangy old tomcat curls up in her lap. In her presence the feral beast is purring like a kitten, his one eye squints tight in pleasure. She is innocently unaware of the effect she has?on the cat and on the boy that watches the two together. He?s rough on the edges, just like the tomcat, having never known much of a kind hand until she started attending the school. Sure, folks were polite enough, but no one been exceptionally kind. No one had offered him friendship. Even if she?d been kind unknowingly that first day they met, given her youth, he had been sure it?d change as soon as she?d learn what was what at Delaney?s. He?d been wrong. She had a busy schedule but she always seemed to make time for them. Him. He watches her, his heart buoying into his throat and making it hard for him to talk.

?Catnip? what d?y?spose love is like??

?Love??

Her blue-grey eyes lift to him, curiosity and puzzlement showing beneath those dark lashes. Then the bells toll in warning for the evening sessions and he watches that look give way to eagerness. His question is forgotten as her hands lift the tomcat from her lap and sets him down on his. She doesn?t notice the sharp curve that starts to show in the cat?s spin as she rises.

?Can?t be late. Don?t want to get punished.?

There?s a giggle in her voice as she speaks, turning her smile on the boy. She leans in, giving him a hug with one arm and petting the cat?s head once more before heading out of the barn. Mesmerized, they both watch her disappear from view. When the tomcat recovers, he hisses and scratches the boy?s hand as it attempts to touch its matted fur before running off to hide or hunt. Tim looks at the beads of red blood and thinks about the red of Clover?s hair.

Tim Conners

Date: 2011-08-04 17:28 EST
They whisper of sweeter times.

He picks a piece of hay from her stomach and brushes the calloused palm of his hand over cream colored flesh. She stretches and looks out the small window of the barn?s loft and out onto the grounds. Birdsongs give life to the quiet autumn morning as the sun rises. The wool blanket itches at his side and the hay beneath pokes into him, but he ignores them. He pulls her attention from the window, presses his lips against hers another time. She is perfection and his life is without fault for as long as she is around. He steels himself up after pulling away, harnessing courage to say the words that forever tumble through his mind. He has never said this to anyone, never had a reason to.

?I love you.?

She looks at him, surprised and caught off guard, then breaks into a shy chuckle with a shake of her head.

?You love what I do, not me.?

A sweet smile breaks into a wicked curve as she adds, ?I?m very good at doing it,? and fits her body against him again. The protest dies in his mouth, tucked away into his brain.

He doesn?t want to ruin this moment.

He doesn?t want to lose what he?s found.

Tim Conners

Date: 2011-08-04 18:37 EST
They come again?

?I love you.?

They stand just within the interior of the stone hall, surrounded by winter?s chill as it creeps in between the stone and wood of the door. His arms are wrapped around her small waist, lips tilted to her ear. He squeezes her lightly, hoping to reinforce his words with a simple gesture. She leans against him and the flutter of her lashes tickle against his neck.

?Do you love me??

?I?m fond of you.?

Her voice sounds hopeful, but he doesn?t know the cause. In the distance they hear the echo of voices and footsteps. She pulls away, brushes a kiss to his cheek and moves off before they can be caught together.

And again?

Her lips, so easily given to smiling, press together in pain. She looks away, closing her eyes tightly and causing tears to cascade down her cheeks. He can feel the shame that rolls from her, feels it because it is something he?s known his whole life. She had wanted to be loved once and the result had been the unwitting destruction of another?s free will. He cups her face, pulling her eyes to his as his thumb wipe away the tears. He will forgive her everything, her heart is too good to know this sort of suffering.

?It wasn?t your fault, you didn?t know.?

?I don?t know what I knew. What if? what if some part of me knew? Knew and didn?t care??

He shakes his head at her argument and kisses her forehead.

?You didn?t.? He looks into her eyes, willing her faith in herself to match his. ?You didn?t.?

He suddenly feels taller, stronger. Her confession of this fault, made to him alone, bolsters his certainty of her feelings.

And again?

The key fits into the door and he opens it, finding her laid out carefully in a window seat. Her skin is pale and for a moment he fears she might be dead. Fingers press to her neck and he feels a pulse. Steel blue eyes gaze around the interior of the vampire?s quarters?The Chamber of Pain. Hurt and anger war within. Anger at the vampire for using her. Hurt that she would let herself be used. The reasons behind it taunted him with cruel answers. He puts them aside. His immediate concern is for her, to get her out of here, to get her liquids and food. That is his task. That is the promise he made.

Hours later, when she wakes, he asks, ?Do you love him??

She shakes her head no with a smile, then drifts back to sleep.

Tim Conners

Date: 2011-08-04 18:52 EST
They brush his mind and leave bitterness in their wake.

?He nearly killed you!?

?You locked him in, he was starving!?

?How can you love a monster like that?!?

?I don?t love him!?

?You keep going to him!?

?He?s my instructor.?

?Not anymore.?

?I? I know. He?s been asked to leave.?

?Me too.?

?What-?

?I have until the end of the day to leave.?

?Tim.?

?You can come with me.?

???

?We could be together!?

?Tim? I? I can?t.?

?Don?t you love me!??

?? No? ?

???

?I don?t love you.?

Regret, sorrow in her voice, in her eyes. Features blurred through the vision of the tears in his eyes. She shook her head sadly and turned away, the delicate hand he held slips from his grasp.

She?s gone.

Tim Conners

Date: 2011-09-24 11:23 EST
His hands were sore, they ached from the long hours of work they had been put to and still continued in. The candles surrounding him burned low, pools of wax collected at the bottom of each silver holder. His throat was dry, tongue thick, and it made the words he spoke all the harder to form. But Tim was determined, he hadn?t come this far, done everything that he did, just to let discomfort bring him to failure now. Attention turned down to the threads in his hands, thin strips of leather weaved with strands made up of hair?his own brown and that electric red. Flexing the fingers of one hand that stiffly protested as he stretched them out, he reached to dip tips into the contents of the silver dish before him. The liquid from the dish stained his fingers as he brought them to the finished length of the weaving and painted it red with the blood.

He spoke the goddess? name.

Lucky Clover

Date: 2011-11-10 12:48 EST
The rhythmic sound of the diner resonated in a mixture of voices and movements: the scrap of a fork, the flow of coffee being filled, banter and laughter and even softer, more private conversations. She felt apart from all of it, watching the gentle flow of the rain as it hit the window she cooled for forehead against. These private moments she had to herself always left her feeling like something was? off. Try as she might she couldn?t place the source of the uneasy feeling that kept haunting her. Perhaps she was just the sort to be melancholy for no reason? Still her mind reached out, struggling to find the core of these emotions. There were instants when she felt herself on the brink of discovery, though the discovery never came.

As it often happened, his presence pulled her from such unfortunate thoughts. As she felt Tim?s body ease into the booth beside her, she turned her head away from the window and toward him. A brilliant smile painted her lips, easily submitting to the short kiss into which he pulled her.

?Find anythin? you like Catnip??

Clover shook her head, looking bashful because she hadn?t even attempted to peruse the menu before he arrived. She bit her lip in that hesitant way, looking up to him from beneath soft lashes, as she shook her head.

?Haven?t looked yet.?

?No??

Another timid shake of her head, that brought him to chuckle and pull her into another kiss. His hand lands in a possessive fashion on her thigh and stays even after the kiss breaks. A waitress lingers, intrusively to the side, and when Tim spots her he waves her away.

?Need a lil? more time.?

The waitress notes the way the man?s hand brushes over the woman?s leg and his arrogant smile. Having lived a hard life, she?s long learned to trust her instincts and there?s something about the guy she doesn?t like. Course it isn?t her place to say it. The woman nods and, with pen and order pad in hand, moves on to another table.

Other eyes in the diner find the couple, covertly watching their interactions with varying levels of shame for their prying eyes?from guiltily curious to unabashed voyeurism. He pulls her into another kiss, brings her body against his, a hand trailing up the inside of her thigh. She does nothing to stop him or put off the public display. Few watching lips harden in flat lines at such behavior.

It stops, however, before getting too lewd in the public setting. He pulls back from the kiss but leaves that claiming hand behind. When he speaks his voice is thick with the want he?s moderately keeping in check.

?Lunch first? then? dessert.?

Clover nods her understanding, looking from Tim toward the door to the diner, then the bathroom. His car was just outside, their motel the distance of a few minutes? drive, but he would never be that patient once the meal was over. Soft blue-grey eyes returned to him with a delicate smile.

?Okay..?

Tim pats her leg and finally removes his hand to open the menu before them.

?What are you in the mood for, Catnip??

Glancing over the menu, there?s a niggling in the back of her mind. It makes her look puzzled like she can?t decide what to eat. It stops when she spots something on the menu and the little whisper in the back of her head fades away, sadly forgotten, as she thinks she's found what she was looking for.

?Pancakes. Blueberry pancakes.?

Lucky Clover

Date: 2011-11-11 14:00 EST
Nightmares infiltrated her sleep, rousing her with a feeling of dread she couldn?t understand while the shadowed memories of the dream leaked away into nothing. For a few seconds, lingering faces danced behind her mind?s eye. Phantoms she couldn?t place or name, but?for the brief time it lasted?she felt so intimately ripped away from them. She woke with a cry lodged unmoving in her throat and lashes wetted from tears.

Time slept on, undisturbed by Clover?s waking. His body heat warmed her from behind. One of his arms pillowed her head. The other arm curled over her side and rested a hand on her stomach. She felt surrounded, suffocated, trapped. Some whisper from the dream bringing her to choke on a raising panic. Without stirring the man from his sleep, she managed to leave the bed, feet landing on the surface of the motel?s thin carpet. Coldness filled the night, bringing goose bumps to rise over her naked flesh.

Attention drifted back to the form of the man on the bed and the curious terror she felt suddenly waned. Her heart swelled, filled with a need to crawl back within his arms and wake him. A need to offer up her body and let him has his way with it swam in her mind, nearly blocking the few remnants of the dream. She closed her eyes, forcing them away from Tim and the bed.

Eyes opened again once her head was turned to face the mirror. Her reaching hand ran against the length of her neck only to find it pristine and unbroken beneath her fingertips. Why would it be otherwise? Some thought occurred of it being torn asunder, bloody and wrecked. The vision felt so real and then it too collapsed into the fading memories of a dream. She swallowed hard and swam in confusion, immersed in the sensation that she was missing a vital piece of information.

Minutes passed. She stood looking at her reflection but only seeing the twisted shades of elusive thoughts, unable to pin down a solid recollection of the dream again. Tim?s touch drew her from her focus as he came up behind her. His hand guided her own away from her neck, planting a slow trailing kiss on the exposed flesh. A need radiated from him, far more demanding than her desire to understand.

?Come back to bed.?

Clover nodded and obeyed.

Lucky Clover

Date: 2012-01-27 09:40 EST
Clover watched the woman staring back at her and felt a sense of pity. While overall attractive, the woman?s appearance seemed to lack something it must have once held. The woman?s hair rested in barely alive waves in a subtle shade of red, her skin without a drawing luster stood almost pale against the dark marking of bruises on her flesh. Somewhere a memory of warmth called, a smile that shone brightly and sincere. No trace of those things seen now. Clover touched the cool surface of the mirror and could have sworn her reflection mouthed an unvoiced plea?

help me?