"Dear pieces of paper,

I am sorry for not writing in you yesturday. But so many things have happened... I don't know how to start.

Li Li gave me a preasent. A necklace - it's so beautful, a Jade heart, golden-looking chain - I had nothing to return back to her, and now I feel guilty.

Lore gave me a hair cut! It's short now! *Smiley face* I love this new hair cut, it's so less heavy than having long hair! It's like this! *Picture of smiley stickman with chin length hair*

I also met a big scary man, he had a funny voice, but he was nice. He and Lore looked like a Mommy and Daddy - ah.

Yeah... Mommy... And Daddy...

It looks like it was just a lie. How could tbey do that and live with themselves... Lying... I hate lying. I hate death. My real Mommy is dead.

Renna.

My Mommy's name is Renna."


This particular piece of paper was adorned with doodles. Smiley faces. A cross. An odd looking figure dressed in a strange hooded cloak. Long hair coming from it. A stick figure next to it, it with short hair like Lucy's.

Dear Paper!

I have SO much to talk about, and things have been happening I havn't had the time to actually write in you!

I know how to walk! I know how to walk! I never knew it but I have these... Hands, they help me do loads of things. Clean my room, AND walk!
Yeah... Well, it's hard still, I can't walk too far - the hands can only move my legs slwoly at the moment - I'm still not use to doing it you see. But, practice makes perfect! And soon, I'll walk like any other person.

I went back to the Inn last night, and well... I met Daddy! He looked so sad and I don't know why - he won't tell me why but I so know something is up, it's like... Fake smiles... Sad looks... I don't know what's wrong but I feel something is up... Maybe I am just paranoid though, yeah? I hope so.

He promised to come visit me and he's so proud of me that I can walk a little now. He didn't seem too happy about my "special hands" though, told me to be careful but theres nothing to be careful about right?
Daddy also said something about training which I didn't get. For what? Do I need it? All I asked was could I help Daddy help other people like he did, but he just told me to keep training...

I don't understand, but I'll do as I am told. Good girl, I am! ^_^ Hehehe!

I came back from class and eating alone in my room with Nana. I miss Li Li, but Nana is good company too. She's very smart. Helped me clean up the mess I did. Silly special hands, i thought it was ME that did it, not them!

The bad dreams have gone again. The one about a Dragon scared me... She looked mean.

Oh! I forgot, I met a lady, and I knew her name to be Charna - strange huh? She looked so sad too! I found her in the Lady's Toilets at the Inn after Daddy went, and she was hurt! Inside and out! I tried to help her but she helped me too... I don't know what's wrong though, but I knew it has something to do with that man I met that kept giving me water. He's a nice man, and she's a nice lady. I hope they are okay!

Oh wow I wrote so much! And it's only the afternoon! I might go back to the Inn and train my hands to move my legs more in walking! Weee!

Love you pieces of paper!

Lucy Ravenlock, xXXXXxxxXXXX

This peice of paper, was dawned with one single picture. Lucy, standing, smiling, her vectors 'shadow arms' drawn out holding her up.
Also too, a strange silly-faced Dragon.

Dear half piece of paper,

Heh, I tried writing this out and it came out wrong! But you have to understand, I'm sorry!

Why do I keep saying that? Your just paper.

Anyway - my heart is beating so fast. All I did was watch him play ball with the rest of the children. I was too afraid to go up and play 'cause I think my legs ain't all too good to play on yet.

Well, not too much play.

The ball came to me and he asked me to kick it back... His brown eyes and long brown hair... It's so girly... And so cute.

But, he really was mean. I kicked it back and I fell. He laughed at me! I was so hurt! But, he helped me up, called me stupid for even trying it, said something catching something and ran off. I didn't get that.

But i met Mommy today again - not my real one but my Mommy anyway. Went to the Inn to find people, see if anyone knew I had a birthday. They didn't. Thats okay...

I don't know about myself. How can others know about me?

But we talked and it was fun, she's so nice - even if she's mean. Big meanie dragons making her all angry.

She's very butiful too.

I have to go, Nana is getting hungry and is trying to chew my pencil.

Loves you!

Lucy Ravenlock

Dear Diary! Woo!

I still dream of Drake. I miss him so much and... The nightmares just get worse with him... Dying... Over, and over again. I know I couldn't do anything... But I could really... I could have killed the wolves and I could have been playing with him now!

I can't get angry. I must be calm. I must show Mommy and Daddy that I am a big girl! I can control these hands, and these powers better than ever! I am going to class, I am learning more and more, read, write, to use my powers for good!

And I love it. Now I can help everyone. Everyone I care for. Forever.

OH! Nana is getting bigger... When I woke up yesturday she was sleeping on me and I SO thought it was like a big big big monster, really did scare me! Silly Nana... She even is kinda rawring too now! It's kinda scary, but I KNOW Nana would never hurt me.

Yesturday, I was playing on the piano. I drew alota people and they were dancing with the music. I loved that.

I am no longer the monster girl.

I'm normal!

Bye! Diary!

loves Lucy Ravenlock

XXXX

This page was filled with drawings of herself. Red eyes stareing out to nothing.

Dear Diary,

I have locked myself in here for a day now... I really can't go out because I know they're talking about me. Nyu, Rienna or Daddy or Mommy has visited me yet...

I have some food left, and Nana was getting bored so I let her out to play with the other children.

My hair grows fast, it's annoying. It's long again. I don't think I'll cut it short again. My eyes have been going wierd too, they keep changing colour, but it's okay, it happens every now and again, red, brown, red again, it's kind of cool it happens.

It's strange but the pressences in the Abbey are so wierd, I can feel the children sleeping, playing... Yet I can't see them. Plus, I am reallying get bored just being locked up in my room, too afraid to go out...

Maybe if I stay here long enough, maybe they'll forget what they saw? Right?

I'm going to sneak out through the window later, I need new clothes and I have no money so... Maybe I can use my hands to steal something?

I know stealing is wrong but my clothes are getting bad now, I repaired them a few times already and... I feel like getting something a little more I feel comfortable in all the time. Like those wierd gownie things people wear outside...

What are they called?

Keyono?

Ah... Can't spell it.

Okay, I'm gonna just go now...


Bye, Diary.

Love
Lucy Ravenlock!

Dear Diary,

I feel threatened by Katharine and I don't know why. Maybe it's... Darkin...? Or Renna?

No... She doesn't fear anyone but that man.

I really didn't mean to cause so much of a fuss yesturday but I was just a little angry at how i was being treated... But then I AM being treated okay so... Ah...

I don't get it.

Stupid emotions.

I also meddled with something I should not have... I am never doing it again.

Ever.

It was scary.

Okay well i am hungry,

Bye Diary!

Lucy Ravenlock.

Dear Diary,

Me and Nana went out again of the Abbey today. I went to see Drake, made sure no body dug him up. I really wish i could have made a proper grave for him, I might ask Arumu to get something for me. They seem to serve my well - like big Sisters - I always wanted a Brother or a Sister...

Living ones, that is.

But Arumu is cool, she seems to like playing with "the living;" as she puts it - alot.

Classes have been fun. Really fun. I still get kind of fearful looks from the children but I suppose that is really my fault. Some of them talk to me, but they ask me strange questions than actually play with me. I suppose Nana is the only one that will actually play with me properly.

I still don't know if I have a Mommy anymore.

I feel like I am being pushed further and further away from everyone...

I had a message from Liena and... I couldn't reply.

Killing Galik for her was... Probably my way to say I still think of her as a friend. I can't see her, I can't see anyone. Maybe except Daddy and Mommy...

I'ma gonna go play the piano now. Class seemed to be suspended for a while today for some reason.

Loves,

Lucy Ravenlock and Nana xxxXXXxxx