It was late, or really early, depending on who you asked. After midnight for sure and she was at some 24-7 gym beating away at a sand filled punching bag. Sven had been watching for the past few hours and she could just tell by the weighted stare that he had something on his chest that he wanted to get off. There was no way she could get around not talking to him either. He had been following for hours in likelihood a request from her sister so she didn't end up hurting herself. Which he was a little late to by many days. Busted knuckles from hitting punching bags until she bled, drinking to the bottom of the nearest bottle, working until she fell asleep at the desk at the apartment, the list went on.
Oh, but how she could keep a pretty smile to hide the pain. That is how she grew up, after all. No matter what happened she was suppose to be strong and carry on with a smile. So when she turned to face Sven from the side of the boxing ring she had on quite the smile. "Why are you looking at me like that? Seriously, dude, take a picture!"
"We've known each other how long, Ser? I know when you are faking." he pointed out to her in a rather drab tone and picked up a pair of boxing gloves. He slid them on and gestured to her to join him.
"So? Does it matter? I'm a bitch might as well smile like one and act like the world is unicorn crapping rainbows." She turned to face him and moved along the ring, knuckles tapping at his gloves. They were light hearted swings smacking at his gloves.
"So want to talk about what is bothering you?" Sven dared to ask while swinging forward to tap her hands in return.
"No." she stated flatly if not ice cold and swung a little harder.
Sven grunted as his hand jerked to the side and he re-positioned for her next swing. "It is Mach, isn't it."
She punched harder. "I said I don't want to talk about it. Or him!" She swung again and again. "Why the fuck should I care! He can't even be bothered to let me know that he is fucking okay then why the HELL should I care?!" Her punches became faster and she was thrusting her knuckles into his padded fists.
"You aren't with him anymore. Maybe he doesn't feel he is obligated to let you know?" he eased the question in.
She punched harder still. "He is off flirting and banging every black void, throw a hotdog down the hallway pussy that will spread leg for him. I don't give a damn! I am tired of it! I'm tired of watching all the chase-a-dick women cling to him and he not care because he is so damn blind! Or do things that a guy in a relationship shouldn't be doing and think it is perfectly okay! I MEAN HOW FUCKING DENSE CAN YOU BE?" There were tears streaming down her face and she just continued to focus on Sven's padded fists. "If that is what he wants more power to him. I don't give a DAMN anymore!" Then why was she crying? Why the hell did it hurt so damn much to walk into the inn and see him flirting after waiting days for him to text her back to let her know he was okay? It was simple. She broke up with him and now he was doing what he wanted. He moved on so why the hell wasn't she? "I am sure they are all thrilled that he is no longer attached. Sure the hell know Jane has to be. She had the audacity to say she doesn't have a thing for him but she is so full of shit her eyes are brown! I couldn't have any time with him at the inn without her popping up."
"Ow, Ser. Bring it down a notch or five!" His hands were starting to swing but he knew she needed this, needed to get all that bottled up hurt out. Still he was utterly shocked of how it came out. Both the fierce punches and the hurt filled words.
"I was hoping that if I broke up with him he would realize! Realize what the hell was going on! That the things he was doing HURT! But every time it came up it was always MY fault! He always turned it around to be MY fault! Because he couldn't man up to what he was doing! Couldn't man up to hurting me! I hoped that if, given some time, he would stop hurting me!" Her fist went for Sven's face.
THWACK! "UMPH!" His head jerked to the side. "Damn nice right hook, girl. You been thinking of joining the duels with your sister?"
"No." She swung again at him this time for his chest.
He dodged by taking a few steps back, "If you don't give a damn then it is time to let go, Ser, and move on. Find you a new guy or rebound sex. Let go."
"Everyone keeps saying that." she grumbled as she took two more swings, criss-cross for his face.
Raising his gloves in boxer fashion he duck and weaved, taking the blows to his arms instead. "Sound advice, don't you think? You broke up with him and he's moved on easily enough. You broke up with him yet you are the one clinging on? Ain't right. Plus your friends and family hate seeing you so down. What about that guy? Cable?"
"Kaleb," she corrected him, "Why does everyone keep bringing him up. He's gone. Poof! He did that last year and the year before. The only thing I want from Kaleb is answers about what happened at the loft." She took several more swings but not for Sven's gloves. She actually seemed to want to hit the man instead of the protection.
"What happened at the loft?" Sven grunted as she landed a swing but he didn't swing back. Just kept up his guard.
"I don't know. I have vague memories and sometimes dreams that I remember bits and pieces of. He is a bit and I don't know the piece of the puzzle he fits." It was a nagging thing and something she couldn't get rid of without answers, that much was for sure.
"Oh? Dreaming about him are you?" Sven teased.
"Oh shut the fuck up." she tripped him and on his way down she smacked him with a bunch of weak punches. "It isn't like that." She did stop and sat on the ground next to him. "I think I'll be doing a lot of self-gratification for a while. Don't think I'll be dealing with men anytime soon."
Sven stared at her and started to laugh, "That is a way to put it!"
She grinned a bit and shrugged, her bloody hands resting against her bare feet. "Is true. Besides I am not exactly a chase-a-dick type of girl and that is what most men in Rhydin want. I'm friendly, sure, and I smile but it ain't just to guys."
"Maybe you are into women?" Sven ducked his head.
And a good thing too because she went swinging. "No not really though I do seem to have more women flirting with me then men!" She giggled and lowered her hand back to her foot.
"Well I heard there was some talk about your sister trying to hook you up with someone."
She raised a brow at him before rolling her eyes. "No. That was people joking around, Sven. Trust me there is no guy out there that is interested in me."
"For more than sex you mean? Because I knew a few guys who wouldn't mind a good sheet-tossing with you. Rebound sex cures all!" Sven gave her a goofy smile.
She rolled her eyes again and she sighed. "Thanks, Sven. For listening and letting me get this out of my system."
Sven smiled and rolled around until he sat up. "No prob, Bob. Feel any better?"
She shrugged to him. "As better as I can be. My hopes have been crushed so nothing I can do but move on or wallow in misery."
"Sorry Ser. Didn't mean it like that."
She shrugged at him and pushed up to her feet. "I'm the bitch that broke his heart remember? Maybe it is time I remind people of that."
"Serah!" Sven barked at her as he stood.
"No more, Sven. I won't hold back next time." she trotted to the other side of the ring to gather her things.
"That was holding back?" he mumbled as he moved after her. "Don't change, Serah. You are a good, sweet-hearted person in a world of wanna-be badasses and assholes. People like you for who you are." his hand settled on her shoulder, "You have the right to move on just as much as he does." A pat later and he was off the ring. "I'm off! Later!"
"Give my best to Mack!" She waved to him and grabbed her duffle bag. Slinging it over shoulder she started her way to the exit. She had the right to move on? Yeah, maybe she did, but it didn't mean it was easy.
Oh, but how she could keep a pretty smile to hide the pain. That is how she grew up, after all. No matter what happened she was suppose to be strong and carry on with a smile. So when she turned to face Sven from the side of the boxing ring she had on quite the smile. "Why are you looking at me like that? Seriously, dude, take a picture!"
"We've known each other how long, Ser? I know when you are faking." he pointed out to her in a rather drab tone and picked up a pair of boxing gloves. He slid them on and gestured to her to join him.
"So? Does it matter? I'm a bitch might as well smile like one and act like the world is unicorn crapping rainbows." She turned to face him and moved along the ring, knuckles tapping at his gloves. They were light hearted swings smacking at his gloves.
"So want to talk about what is bothering you?" Sven dared to ask while swinging forward to tap her hands in return.
"No." she stated flatly if not ice cold and swung a little harder.
Sven grunted as his hand jerked to the side and he re-positioned for her next swing. "It is Mach, isn't it."
She punched harder. "I said I don't want to talk about it. Or him!" She swung again and again. "Why the fuck should I care! He can't even be bothered to let me know that he is fucking okay then why the HELL should I care?!" Her punches became faster and she was thrusting her knuckles into his padded fists.
"You aren't with him anymore. Maybe he doesn't feel he is obligated to let you know?" he eased the question in.
She punched harder still. "He is off flirting and banging every black void, throw a hotdog down the hallway pussy that will spread leg for him. I don't give a damn! I am tired of it! I'm tired of watching all the chase-a-dick women cling to him and he not care because he is so damn blind! Or do things that a guy in a relationship shouldn't be doing and think it is perfectly okay! I MEAN HOW FUCKING DENSE CAN YOU BE?" There were tears streaming down her face and she just continued to focus on Sven's padded fists. "If that is what he wants more power to him. I don't give a DAMN anymore!" Then why was she crying? Why the hell did it hurt so damn much to walk into the inn and see him flirting after waiting days for him to text her back to let her know he was okay? It was simple. She broke up with him and now he was doing what he wanted. He moved on so why the hell wasn't she? "I am sure they are all thrilled that he is no longer attached. Sure the hell know Jane has to be. She had the audacity to say she doesn't have a thing for him but she is so full of shit her eyes are brown! I couldn't have any time with him at the inn without her popping up."
"Ow, Ser. Bring it down a notch or five!" His hands were starting to swing but he knew she needed this, needed to get all that bottled up hurt out. Still he was utterly shocked of how it came out. Both the fierce punches and the hurt filled words.
"I was hoping that if I broke up with him he would realize! Realize what the hell was going on! That the things he was doing HURT! But every time it came up it was always MY fault! He always turned it around to be MY fault! Because he couldn't man up to what he was doing! Couldn't man up to hurting me! I hoped that if, given some time, he would stop hurting me!" Her fist went for Sven's face.
THWACK! "UMPH!" His head jerked to the side. "Damn nice right hook, girl. You been thinking of joining the duels with your sister?"
"No." She swung again at him this time for his chest.
He dodged by taking a few steps back, "If you don't give a damn then it is time to let go, Ser, and move on. Find you a new guy or rebound sex. Let go."
"Everyone keeps saying that." she grumbled as she took two more swings, criss-cross for his face.
Raising his gloves in boxer fashion he duck and weaved, taking the blows to his arms instead. "Sound advice, don't you think? You broke up with him and he's moved on easily enough. You broke up with him yet you are the one clinging on? Ain't right. Plus your friends and family hate seeing you so down. What about that guy? Cable?"
"Kaleb," she corrected him, "Why does everyone keep bringing him up. He's gone. Poof! He did that last year and the year before. The only thing I want from Kaleb is answers about what happened at the loft." She took several more swings but not for Sven's gloves. She actually seemed to want to hit the man instead of the protection.
"What happened at the loft?" Sven grunted as she landed a swing but he didn't swing back. Just kept up his guard.
"I don't know. I have vague memories and sometimes dreams that I remember bits and pieces of. He is a bit and I don't know the piece of the puzzle he fits." It was a nagging thing and something she couldn't get rid of without answers, that much was for sure.
"Oh? Dreaming about him are you?" Sven teased.
"Oh shut the fuck up." she tripped him and on his way down she smacked him with a bunch of weak punches. "It isn't like that." She did stop and sat on the ground next to him. "I think I'll be doing a lot of self-gratification for a while. Don't think I'll be dealing with men anytime soon."
Sven stared at her and started to laugh, "That is a way to put it!"
She grinned a bit and shrugged, her bloody hands resting against her bare feet. "Is true. Besides I am not exactly a chase-a-dick type of girl and that is what most men in Rhydin want. I'm friendly, sure, and I smile but it ain't just to guys."
"Maybe you are into women?" Sven ducked his head.
And a good thing too because she went swinging. "No not really though I do seem to have more women flirting with me then men!" She giggled and lowered her hand back to her foot.
"Well I heard there was some talk about your sister trying to hook you up with someone."
She raised a brow at him before rolling her eyes. "No. That was people joking around, Sven. Trust me there is no guy out there that is interested in me."
"For more than sex you mean? Because I knew a few guys who wouldn't mind a good sheet-tossing with you. Rebound sex cures all!" Sven gave her a goofy smile.
She rolled her eyes again and she sighed. "Thanks, Sven. For listening and letting me get this out of my system."
Sven smiled and rolled around until he sat up. "No prob, Bob. Feel any better?"
She shrugged to him. "As better as I can be. My hopes have been crushed so nothing I can do but move on or wallow in misery."
"Sorry Ser. Didn't mean it like that."
She shrugged at him and pushed up to her feet. "I'm the bitch that broke his heart remember? Maybe it is time I remind people of that."
"Serah!" Sven barked at her as he stood.
"No more, Sven. I won't hold back next time." she trotted to the other side of the ring to gather her things.
"That was holding back?" he mumbled as he moved after her. "Don't change, Serah. You are a good, sweet-hearted person in a world of wanna-be badasses and assholes. People like you for who you are." his hand settled on her shoulder, "You have the right to move on just as much as he does." A pat later and he was off the ring. "I'm off! Later!"
"Give my best to Mack!" She waved to him and grabbed her duffle bag. Slinging it over shoulder she started her way to the exit. She had the right to move on? Yeah, maybe she did, but it didn't mean it was easy.