Topic: Made of Scars (18+)

Mihaela · Date: 2009-09-22 08:47 EST

She found herself kneeling before his chair. Her hands were cuffed to the floor and her body stripped of clothing. This move was meant to break her, to make her submit. He would stroke her form like some sort of pet, trying to humiliate her. Yet he couldn?t break her spirit, not like this.

Her rage grew as she was made to watch him force himself on the younger females in the group. She was chained with silver, enduring the pain of it against her skin. The hated metal seared her flesh, burning her skin as if it had been heated in the furnace. She did not beg, she fought to hide the pain.

She woke with a start then. With a soft moan in the confines of the room in the Inn, she rolled herself into a sitting position. With her head hanging down, she looked at the reminders on her wrists. The night air was chill, but the heat of her flesh was a furnace.

She inhaled the scent around her. The scent of the male and of the Coyote. She had given into that primal side of her and right now felt as lost as ever. Hades, she felt like she overstepped already, though she had permission.

With a growl, she shifted to the war form. The half-woman half beast... She pulled herself out of the window and dropped soundlessly to the ground below. There she completed the change and set off to hunt. The kill wouldn't ease anything, just sate the beast for a while.

Mihaela · Date: 2009-10-21 14:00 EST

This one came from looking
This one opened twice
These two seem as smooth as silk, flush against my eyes
This one needed stitches and
This one came from rings
This one isn't even there, but I feel it more because you don't care

"You are not my Mate, Tyler. I have no mate."

Those words rocked her to her core, if only for the rush of power that her beast drove into breaking the metaphysical bonds between them. There was close to 15 years difference in their ages and experience, but she enjoyed his company. She allowed herself to love him.

Yet, within the space of a week she had found herself bleeding with no aid from him. She found herself dealing with his confusions and his rebellions. Both she and J'Rial tried to teach him. She tried to reinforce the positive. And what did she have to show for it?

Yeah, Cut right into me
Yeah, Cause I am Made Of Scars
Yes I am made of scars

This one had it comming
This one found a vein
This one was an accident, but never gave me pain
This one was my fathers and
This one you can't see
This one had me scared to death,
But I guess I should be glad I'm not dead!!

A scar and a wariness of him even as she set aside her anger. But it would not be long before the anger returned. He chose to set himself higher in the pack. The Geri's mate did not stand at his/her side as they did their job. It was a sign of weakness that they needed support and would be open for challenge.

It was not his job to greet strangers ahead of the pack hierarchy. She did not need her hand held. It was not his job to challenge intruders on their lands. He indulged in a temper tantrum that had her enraged. He was pushing a violent confrontation with the leeches by attacking the black. The attack forced her to change and knock him down to end it.

Yeah, Cut right into me
Yeah, I am made of scars
Yes, I am made of scars

God, Don't you believe it

And I will find a way
Everything you are I will betray
Oooh, I swear that I will find a way
Everything you are's inside me

She spoke with Briar. He was her responsibility, she would be the one to mete the discipline this night. With the permission, she grabbed the weapons she needed and went back to him. He snapped, snarled and feinted at her. Each action tore her heart further into pieces. A knife was thrown down, the Challenge out there.

He taunted her only to be throw to the ground by the fury within her. She had taken her hybrid form and would not back down. He insulted her by tossing the knife away. Another scar to her heart. But what hurt the most was the cruel words he spoke of her and the brother of her spirit.

"Matter of pride isn't it? You could care less if I were hurt, just so long as you look good in Godric's eyes. Wanting him that badly, are you?"

"A**hole, It's not a matter of pride. You want to f***ing toss that accusation at me again. You can't even get your head out of your own a** and fly into something that could have killed you."

He turned his back on her then, "Just go back to him, Mihaela. I was stupid to think that you'd be over him that soon. I'm not welcome here, so stop trying to force the pack rules down my throat. If you want me, you know where you can find me."

"You are not my Mate, Tyler. I have no mate."

This one was the first one
This one had a vice
This one here I like to rub on dark and stormy nights
This one was the last one,
I don't remember how
But I remember blood and rain
AND I NEVER SAW IT COMING AGAIN

Yeah, Cut right into me
Yeah, Cause I am made of scars
Yes, I am made of scars

That's what I'm made of!!!

Mihaela · Date: 2009-10-21 14:30 EST

What have you done now?

I know I'd better stop trying
You know that there's no denying
I won't show mercy on you now

I know I should stop believing
I know that there's no retrieving
It's over now
What have you done?

What have you done now?

She repudiated him right then and there. If he wanted to be the jealous a**, then he truly didn't love her. He was so cavalier about her pronouncement.

"Fine."

Another tear in her heart. The wolf knew how to hurt her deeply. She had enough of his juvenile routine. There would be no forgiveness this time. No, no forgiveness as the Ulfric made his decision.

"I warned you. Consider yourself exiled from the pack. To enter these caverns again will be suicide. I've no place for a mutt child amongst my ranks."

Again the Pup spewed his venom, "Fine, I'll go. Can't handle another male around that just might mate with one of your harem? Is that it, Red?"

I, I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away... oh
What have you done now?
Why? Why does Fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us
Between me and you

What have you done (x4)
What have you done now
(Repeat)

Each accusation was another slice to her spirit. "(vq) Yeah, I'd stoop to incest. Knowing my god damned past. You know which knife to use, eh Tyler?"

He knew how to hurt her the worst possible way, with lies and words meant to hurt her and her brother.

"I was there, by your side, to help you if you needed it. But no! You had to shove me away the moment that Red's around. Every time he's around we fight. Why is that? You f**ed him once, why not again?" She had been honest with him from the word go. Her mistake as it bit her in the a**.

Would you mind if I killed you?
Would you mind if I tried to cause you hell?

Cause you have turned into my worst enemy
You carry hate that I don't feel
It's over now
What have you done?

What have you done now?

"IT was NOT your Place, A**hole." She had enough of the accusation and laid him out. He had been asking for it with his accusations.

She walked away then. She was tired and bleeding in her soul. She had stopped long enough to pick up her gun. How easy it would have been to eat that barrel and end it. The thought had been dismissed as quick as it came. She has responsibilities. The pack came first.

As a pack, they curled with her. The comfort was a soothing balm even with his howls outside. Each howls was another wound.

I, I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away... oh
What have you done now?
Why? Why does Fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us
Between me and you

What have you done (x4)
What have you done now
(Repeat)

She was through being his punching bag. She never tolerated such abuse when she was human, she would not start now. The howls and the pitiful cries continued long into the night. Then there was another attempt on her family.

She would have killed him right then and there had his tantrum not awakened Scales. It was then it truly ended for the night. She was battered and heart sore.

She went to the pelts they shared. Everything they shared was gathered. Everything that was his that had remained in the caverns. She gathered them up. Her brother knew what her intention was ...

I will not fall
Won't let it go
We will be free
When it ends

I, I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away... oh
What have you done now?
Why? Why does Fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us
Between me and you
(x2)

Mihaela · Date: 2009-10-21 15:19 EST

Her brother had indeed known what her intentions were as a lighter was tossed in her direction. With the repudiation, came the need to seal the deal with the symbolic catharsis.

Even in her state of mind, the Kitten was careful with nature. She made a pit and cleared as much as she could from her makeshift pyre. She found a bunch of stick and used them as kindling. The fires were both symbolic and metaphysical. The beast broke those marks between her and the Pup.

"Betrayed by mate. I pray none of us ever know that pain." Her bother spoke then to Scales.

"Witness, did I. Apologies, must I make. Fatigued, still am I."

She was the one that spoke then, "Nothing you could have done, J'rial. He was so hellbent on proving himself that he forgot your lesson."

"Teach, well enough, I did not. Failed again, have I."

"He was my responsibility. I failed." And she paid the price for that failure.

Soon the fires would die. She made sure that everything was extinguished. She dragged herself back to the caverns and into her brother's embrace. Many of the words that had been flung at them had been nothing more than jealousy. still she refused to cry.

"You know I'll consider you no less of A Geri if you let loose the sorrow within you. I'll close my eyes and pretend Ive never seen it."

"Hurt me once, shame on you, hurt me twice shame on me... There will be no thrice." The gentle words had brought some semblance of a smile to her lips.

"I... I um know you loved him. I'm... I am sorry about your loss." The discomfort had been evident.

"I loved him... but I cannot remain where there is no trust. If he can fling such lies so easily... His love was a lie."

"He knew about us. He used that against you. That was my fault. You and I weren't meant to be that way with each other. We were meant to be family."

"I do not regret that time. But I cherish what we are now more."

"I agree. It was... fun. But you're right. There is much to cherish about this place we found in that places wake"

She was nestled against him as they spoke quietly. " 'Sides the pups are gonna need an aunt to spoil them rotten."

"From what my ears are telling me its three."

"The clinic might be able to tell. But I think you would enjoy the surprise more." She figured he might be curious as to the genders.

"No...clinics!"

"I didn't think so."

"Good."

"Still, you won't have to worry about people to watch over them."

"I wont leave them. I have made that mistake once before. I'd rather not make it again if I can avoid it."

"We've got your back, bro."

"I know, trust me, I am well aware what an amazing pack this is." The yawns started right about then.

"Rest might be good for both of us."

"Mmmmhmmm." The both drifted off in the tangle of limbs that was the Pack. The faint acrid scent of the fire lingered in the air to remind her.

(The Preceding posts were based on the collaborative play by the pack.)

Mihaela · Date: 2009-10-21 15:29 EST

Facing him had not been easy for her. she was still feeling bruised and battered. She had gone to the Teas shoppe for the moment when he had spotted her inside and entered. She had a good head of mad on.

He approached, but kept a respectable distance. If he had a hat, it'd be in his hands. As it were, his hands began to sweat as they stayed in his pockets. He took several deep breaths to summon up the courage to speak. "I'm sorry about last night." His voice was still hoarse.

"Save it, Tyler. You had your chance and you blew it." She was unloading now, "Sorry don't cut it when you do the same f***ing thing twice."

He nodded slowly and took anything she had to give. He knew he deserved it. "I just wanted to let you know, that I'm leaving for a while."

She looked away. "For the best, I don't want you near me or the pack."

Another slow nod as his chin lowered to his chest. "I never meant to hurt you." He shook his head, knowing it didn't matter. "You're right. It's for the best. I need time to grow and learn about things." He lifted his eyes to give her a shy look. "I just.. well.."

"I don't want to hear it, Tyler. You don't take a f***ing civilian into a danger zone and you don't attack people because you got a bug up your a**. What worse is the f***ing jealousy." She was on her feet again. "You need to seriously grow up and grow a real set." She was headed for the door.

"Mihaela.." he reached to touch her shoulder. "You're right, about everything." He took a deep breath and curled his fingers away from her shoulder.

She spun on him, "Don't f***ing touch me. You've lost that privilege. You destroyed everything between us..."

His hands went to his sides, palms out to her. "I know, and I deserve everything that I've got coming to me." He looked her in the eyes. "You didn't deserve any of what happened. And someday,
somehow, I'm going to make it right by you. You may hate me for eternity, but I'll find a way to make things right."

"Don't bother. You had that chance and you screwed it." She snarled, "You left me to bleed and I forgave you it... but you turned on me again. You have no concept of loyalty or of love. Stay away from me."

"I'm sorry." He sighed and moved towards the door. As he moved past her, he stopped to gaze into her eyes, one last time. "Goodbye, Mihaela."

She looked away and turned her back on him. Setting his mouth in a firm line, he turned and put his hands on the door. With a push and a overly cheerful ring of the bell, Tyler was gone.

(The above was based on RP between Mihaela and Tyler.)