Topic: Journal

Sjira · Date: 2007-12-25 22:08 EST

In the false bottom of the trunk, below the few treasures that the small slave can dare call hers, is hidden a leatherbound journal covered in animal hide and fur. In it are thoughts penned by s'jira.

Sjira · Date: 2007-12-25 22:22 EST

12.20.07

The dreams have come again to this girl. Of blades against blades and one finding the heart of Master Kiroth. His blood spilling into the ground, blackening the dirt with it can still be seen as if it were yesterday.

It frightens this heart to know the memory will not go away. Another Master was in one of the dreams months ago, of Master Travanix. His voice is known to these ears and could be heard in that dream.

Not a night of complete rest has been able to be this girl's in almost two months. But it is not complained of to Master Panther.

Sjira · Date: 2007-12-25 22:23 EST

12.21.07
A coin was found in the marketplace with a dragon that had two heads on it!

It was taken to the old fisherwoman and left under the door of the place she calls her home at the wharfs. To have tried to give it to the elder Mistress would have envited trouble, a girl thinks.

The coin will help with foodstuffs and other things the fisherwoman might need when fish cannot be brought in because of the cold.

Sjira · Date: 2007-12-25 22:30 EST

12.22.07

A girl saw Master Panther tonight! With much to do with chores at the inn, helping with trader-errands of several merchants and the butcher, and visits to the fisherwoman there has been little time to find him in these past weeks.

This heart lightened to see that looked very well. At his wrist, the gift of the wristband made for him by this one is worn.

At one time during the night in the common room while he was there, his tail swatted at these legs. At first there was such a startle in this heart that knees could have met the floor! But to realize it was just a pat, a tap of it on his part and heart eased.

It is thought that Master Panther does not know yet what to do with this girl, so often a path is apart from his to offer him plenty of room to spend time with those better known to him.

A girl writes much this night! It is time for sleep with an early waking in the morning.

Sjira · Date: 2007-12-25 22:35 EST

12.23.07

The fisherwoman was hurt today. A cart with its horse wilded and scared ran down the elder Mistress.
Return from the docks was not until after dark from helping her to her bed. A girl ran to find a healer who splinted the fisherwoman's leg.

It was worse than the time Master Kurr fell down the steps and broke his ribs. This one will see that she visits the fisherwoman every morning until the eldress can move about again on her own.

Sjira · Date: 2007-12-25 22:39 EST

12.24.07

The dancer that was with the caravan, the one that dances, was seen in the inn the other night! Oh a girl dances about just to think about it!

A long talk was had between the dancing Mistress and this girl. She has agreed to teach this one how to dance. It is well understood that it will take a long time to learn.

This is not yet told to Master Panther with a hope to surprise him with learned knowledge when Mistress Aelthra says a girl is good enough.

Sjira · Date: 2007-12-25 22:44 EST

12.25.07

Another eldress was met today. Never seen before or heard of, but when a this girl was in the inn, the old Mistress gave a bundle of silk material as a gift.

The colors are fibrant and the silk is very fine. It will take a while, but with patience and a lot of work, this one thinks a shift and a dress can be made from them.

Sjira · Date: 2007-12-25 22:48 EST

12.26.07

One's heart stopped a moment this day. A Mistress passed this one on the stairs in the Red Dragon and wanted to know if this heart was somehow ill towards her.

Gods aid a girl, but it is even wondered who the Mistress is. If she is seen again, one will gather the courage to ask what wrong has been laid by this girl at her feet.
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Panther offered boots to this girl! A present better than the old boots one had. The leather is sturdy and the wool within is very warm. A couple of hugs were dared of him, but no more. For trade-errands, these boots will keep feet very well protected!

Sjira · Date: 2007-12-28 18:54 EST

12.27.07

Thoughts are tangled tonight until one feels nothing more than a child in sp large and hectic a place.

Master Panther was in the inn tonight. He has about him a handsomeness in wilds that does not go unmissed by women. Not even this meger one. Whenever there was a chance to, he was watched. He is found quiet and strong, but distant, as if walls fortify a heart and soul. Perhaps it is that he still does not know what to do with a girl. Or, that this one does not know what to do with the path before her so many months to be working for the inn and a handful of others to help with running the errands. In his wake, a girl strives to learn him but much is still veiled between. A heart weighs heavily, sometimes, to know it was by necessity that he claimed this slave. There is worry that it still brings some discomfort to him. It is a worry that is kept quiet. Not all things are revealled with the wave of the hand or even in a month of talking.

The lovely Lady Elessaria was here tonight as well. How beautiful she is and must be the envy of so many! For a moment tonight, one thought she was angry with someone. Oh! And she wishes to speak quietly with this slave about something and is going to offer a gift. It is not known what it is, but waiting makes for bouncing on the toes!

Piper, the Potterwoman, said there is something she must speak with this girl about as well. It is suddenly wondered, in this moment, if a girl has done something wrong. But nothing ill comes to mind and so a heart hopes for the best.

Even in this room, while writing this, one is very embarrassed for making a fool of oneself tonight. A stranger was hearthside to see to the fire and this girl wasn't paying attention. This is not acceptable at all. What would the kennels Master have said? He would have shaken his head and said 'that slave must start her learning all over again -- or be sold for no more worth than a mule!'. The man's name seems to be Peridhel or Perindal. One will try to find out more and offer another apology for him having to pick up beads that scattered everywhere when the bag spilled tonight.

The fisherwoman's temper is suddenly remembered from this morning. Oh gods know that a girl is very imperfect, but still wears the lump of a soupbowl at the back of this head for asking one too many times if the elder Mistress was feeling better from the break in her leg a couple of days ago. It will be well remembered tomorrow to see to her needs, but not to hover and ask too much.

This head hurts. Perhaps tomorrow things will go better and that sleep comes well since there is much work as well as the learning from the Dancer to learn her art..

Sjira · Date: 2007-12-29 14:18 EST

12.29.07

This body is exhausted and should be sleeping, but heart's thoughts are vibrant.

This night the one item that spoke word to all that claim on this girl belonged to Panther was returned to him. The necklace with the green cat's eye stone was placed in his hand.

Gods know that it was a very difficult thing. In giving it back to him, one is no longer slave to him. And, one will never be owned by another again. How this heart rejoices and weeps -- all at once!

Much hope has been quietly held within this heart that to give back the symbol that bound a girl to him would not unravel the tie that went otherwise unseen. Hope seems to be true in this. He did not leave this company but allowed the decision on this girl's part to remain.

Oh so tired but happy! There is great hope that dreams this night are good ones.

Sjira · Date: 2007-12-30 14:52 EST

12.30.07

One has finished with everything for the day. Weather is too cold to wander about so to the inn and this room a girl stays as much as possible.

Twice in two days Panther has smiled. Panther. His name has been dared forthrightly three times already to him.

It is wondered if he knows of the lessons that the Dancer teaches, but it is still hoped that he does not. When Spring and the rains come, the gift is wished to be given to him of it.

Lady Elessaria was spoken with a coule of days ago. She has a soul within her that would make a warriror proud. Her words settle this heart greatly and hope is gently held to.

Sjira · Date: 2008-01-08 14:34 EST

01.06.08

A girl is foolish! How could one not consider that there were others that care for him?

One woman touched him this night with the familiarity of a lover. And he did not shy away from it or detour it.

This should have been asked about. This should have been known by now but eyes must not have seen. Foolish child. So foolish to think that beyond kindness and caring for this one's well being that there might be more.

Sjira · Date: 2008-01-08 14:43 EST

01.07.08

After last night, one was prepared to move what things are now personal and belongings. There was much confusion.

She had seen the woman so close to him last night that it left this heart confused and hurting. Child. That is what one feels like. A child that could not see before.

But tonight what was said of him, between us, gives hope again. It was not thought that there was caring beyond what a friend would have for another. But a kiss was given. But one gave a kiss to the elder woman that gave a gift. Perhaps Panther's kiss was just this. Others hug him and sit to his lap. It is possible that he is used to these things and the little kiss was like a handshake? A touch of a friend's shoulder?

Oh it is hoped that it meant more!

Patience. Patience and courage. One will have to know this more than anything, it seems, but it is difficult to know what to do or say. What can be said in such quiet between?

Sjira · Date: 2008-01-22 11:55 EST

01.10.08

Tonight this one looked for him. A movement of shadow alone reminds of Panther. It is not silly or strange?

When he was not found, a walk along the river was taken. Though it has been cold, it brings life with it and does not drive others from moving about the great city.

In the morning, one will see if the Fisherwoman is healed enough to take the walk as well.

Sjira · Date: 2008-01-22 12:01 EST

01.11.08

Such creatures! A girl has to remember where she is sometimes when a creature that is not Human is seen. From the stairs in the common room of the inn, she watched the great beast.

Tall and armored well enough for battle. Though it is thought the armor would only impede the fights of most he moved lightly in it.

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This morning was spent with the Fisherwoman and anger is in this heart. She was already up and gone before the first of the morning light! A girl had to hunter her down by asking those at the docks if they had seen her.

Where she was found surprised this one, but those asked only laughed. She was in one of the dockside taverns, at the tenth hour of the morning, downing whiskey and playing at cards!

The fisherwoman was not happy that one found her so easily, but a girl stayed to make certain she was well.

Sjira · Date: 2008-01-22 12:05 EST

01.12.08

One is still trembling. A night of horrid dreams, of watching Master Kiroth day was clear before these eyes as if it had happened only moments ago. The cry of swords against each other, the blood...

The hour is late and sleep will not come again so soon.

A girl has cleaned the bar and sorted through the cabinets and drawers of it as well for something to occupy mind and body. There is wish to lay with Panther, to take ease at his side but there is also no wish to worry him.

The lady Sid's room needs cleaning. It will be done as well and then, perhaps, one can sleep.

Sjira · Date: 2008-01-22 12:12 EST

01.13.08

There was thought to be someone following a girl tonight.

Their footsteps were heard and a girl called out, but no one answered and no one was seen. Perhaps there is nothing to worry about. It is likely just noise on the wind.

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A few coins were found beneath the table near the hearth. Along with a small, oval porcelain item with a lovely young woman's face painted upon it.

They were put to the drawer beneath the till and it will be mentioned to one of the tenders of the bar when next one is seen.

Sjira · Date: 2008-01-22 12:15 EST

01.14.08

On the way back from the markets with spices and meats, the foot steps were heard again among the shadows.

It is a silly thing. Are there not many people and creaturesof the land who would be out and keep to shadows?

But a heart worries all the same.

One will try to walk when and where there is more light.

Sjira · Date: 2008-01-22 12:28 EST

01.20.08

So many days since these eye have seen Panther. It is thought he must be very busy with things within the great city. The Lady had said she had not seen him in a while as well. But there was a grave warning from her to not go far from the inn and mention of a rapist and slave selling at the markeplace.

One has promised to stay near the inn.

Panther's room has been seen to, though there is little there to tend. Much as it was a week before. A flower was left there for him, for water to be added to it and bringit back to lovely life when he returns.

Sjira · Date: 2008-03-10 16:56 EST

02.15.08

What has happened nearly broke this spirit.

The one that was Master Kiroth's brother, Gracus, took what was not his to take. It was not a kind day and though some of it is recalls, other things are not. Pain, mostly. And the girl he claims as his was there in his tent. Even at this moment, it is difficult to write without shaking.

But there is importance in putting things down. There is a need to be able to unveil this heart and these thoughts that have been so long kept silent even if it is with quiet words to paper.

Gracus is feared. None, not even he, have ever been hated but when the pain hits and reminds of what he did by his hand hatred is as close a word that can describe it. But it sounds so cruel.

Panther risked himself to bring a girl back. To bring me back. It is said more and more. These are strange steps to take as if there is risk of falling just to say them. But the true risk has been Panther's.

He sleeps even as these words are written. The pain brings moments of unrest, but even this one.. I.. must rest now.

Sjira · Date: 2008-03-10 17:01 EST

02.18.08

The room has barely been left. Panther's room. It is paced sometimes by one, as if in a cage. But it is for the best for now. This right side hurts terrible, but there is little complaint given.

Why would there be complaint given? Not when Panther tends every binding of these ribs and has helped with bathing as well. Much, he is quiet and about the time a heart worries that he might have wished things otherwise, he does something to dismiss any ill notion at all and seems to embrace this companionship.

There is still worry though. There has been no sign of Gracus or those from the camp. But is still feels as if they are still nearby.

Sleep is needed.. more rest. Perhaps in a few days more..

Sjira · Date: 2008-03-10 19:45 EST

02.20.08

Thale came to the inn today!

What a surprise it was. But more, it was when she gave a hug. It was not expected but it seems that she was truly glad to have seen this one was well. She was upset and happy tonight. And she smiled often.

There was much talk. She tried to offer ale or wine, but it was declined. The talk was enough and ales and wines are not wise since they are easily felt this one.

Some flowers will be brought to her from the market to lighten her rooms a the wharfs tomorrow.

Sjira · Date: 2008-03-10 19:57 EST

02.24.08

I.

It was used today. There is more ease with every use of these selfish words. Of I, me, and mine. But even writing them brings a little hesitation but I grow stubborn and try to push the use of them. But it is forgotten at times and not used at all. It is thought that with more time, there will be more comfort in these simple words.

Panther was watched tonight. More and more I watch him. Never do I mean to be it in a bothering way. But it is wondered, have others watched how his hair is moved with the shifting of his ears when he listens to something? Do other notice that he rarely makes a sound to move through a room?

Are the sounds found overwhelming for him with the talent for hearing better than ones such as me? Does he hear the quickening of my heart when he is too close? Scents surely are a bother, by this one's guess.

When there is time and chance, perhaps courage will be gathered enough to ask him these things of him and more.

Sjira · Date: 2008-03-10 20:13 EST

03.05.08

The day was not a very busy one and with the cold of the weather, I have stayed much inside the Red Dragon Inn this past week. While staying inside Kitty's dress is being worked on. Beads are being worked to the dress with care, though some of the work is going faster than others.

Kitty O'Helston is getting married but says that the ceremony itself may not happen for a while. It is not understood how she cannot be nervous. Many women have been seen before and most are so nervous they have been sick enough to become ill before their bonding day.

I am at a loss sometimes what to think of Kitty. She pulled me in the inn one night months ago to aid me and keep me from harm. Kitty seems a strong and calm one who can defend and care for herself without depending on another soul. This much of her is admire as it is very unlike what one presently is. Her stengths are admired.

What troubled a heart for a while was the how close she and Panther could be. There were often touches and embraces that one would know well enough to be between lovers. It would be a lie to say that I was not jealous and even hurt. But there is much in the lands here that are still not understood or known.

Trust is there and grows.

Sjira · Date: 2008-03-10 20:21 EST

03.07.08

Althrae was met with again today. As this form heals, dance is again practiced at. She gave a garment of halter and skirt of leather and silk. Red silk! It's enough to warm this face!

She pushes to make certain that it is a dance that will draw eyes, but none other than Panther's is hoped to see it. For him, the dance is practiced. Perhaps when the days begin to warm I will be ready to offer the gift to him of a dance.

There is excitement fell and fear of mistakes, enough in it all to make this heart beat with a frenzy! But it will be a gift offered, all the same.

Sjira · Date: 2008-03-10 20:28 EST

03.09.08

Panther sleeps as this is written. The light from the moon lights the pages through the window of his room. Even now the smile will not leave me for the lightness, fullness of this heart that is felt to be nearby and allowed it by him.

There was talk of weapons tonight. Kitty was told of Gracus' taking of me and we spoke of defense against another thing like it. She has knives or small daggers that she would like to give me. It is a certain thing that just the thought of having any weapon in these hands is frightening and feels wrong, but if another taking by Gracus happens, I might never see Panther again.

That is enough to strive for these notions of protection and defense. There was also talk of use of fists. Kitty has offered to teach me. Even now my stomach flutters with wondering how one would do in sparring and learning to do these things.

Panther said that he did not think a knife was best for me. It is thought that he worries and there is love in this for him because of it. Another weapons was mentioned perhaps to be made in a compromise and the idea brings interest.

One step at a time, and with their help, these things will be learned and hopefully fear will leave this heart over it.

Sjira · Date: 2008-03-11 15:12 EST

03.10.08

A new friend was made yesterday. She called herself Erin and is part owner of a shop at the nearby markets. Tone is kind and her smile is friendly.

There was worry over the Lady Elessaria and the upset between Peredhil and Piper when Erin offered water to me. It was very unexpected and very kind of her.

Erin has been seen many times in the common room here at the inn, but what was no suspected was that she is a sister of the bondchain. Or that, at one time, she was. She was kind enough to show the brand upon her. To one who knows, it said more than words could describe well enough.

There was an odd relief to have met her, to have known that at one time she was what I was as well. More than a few questions are wanted to be asked of her, but the inn was not the place to do this. What we were greatly upsets some and as much consideration as possible is taken. Erin said that she would not mind speaking away from the inn.

This is a great ease to this heart. Some matters are just not understood by most and with her they might be spoken of freely with her. It will be seen if it is so with her.

Flowers were brought to Thale today. She looked as if she might turn a terrible shade of red and be angry, but she seemed to think on it and was not. They cost much since there are no hot-houses here or lands warm enough in this winter to grow them here, but it is not minded the coin that was spent since it made the older woman smile.

This is not been said to her yet, but she is thought of as a mother of sorts. For now, it will not be said. There is not wish to upset her or bring discomfort since she has not had family in many years. Not since her husband died over a dozen years ago.

Sjira · Date: 2008-04-02 21:46 EST

04.01.08

Today the one called Amber was seen again. She has a kind heard and spirited way about here that brings a smile.

The inn seemed to be the place tonight where mischief and fun was had even before a return from a busy day was made. There was popped corn spewing out of the hearth.

There was too much of a mess to think of cleaning it tonight, but in the morning, it will be seen to.

Sjira · Date: 2008-04-30 11:07 EST

04.16.08

The day was long today and cold, but it was not minded.

Time was spent helping the Fisherwoman with cleaning her home near the docks. She limps now since the break to her leg and complains bitterly about it, but she seems to be doing very well.

I have offered to cut her hair and she says she will think about. That is better than when she told me that she would see dogs fly first! It was not told to her that many things in this land can fly that should not.

More work has been done on Kitty's wedding dress. Not much more to go! It is a very lovely dress. This heart is glad to be able to work on it at all.

The hour is now late and slept should be sought. Tomorrow, a visit to the Arena and practice things Panther has taught so far.

Sjira · Date: 2008-04-30 12:02 EST

04.17.08

How this knee hurts! Practicing at the Arena, I fell and a bruise is there. If practice can be done without hurting self, then there is hope to keep safe from those who would bring harm to me! More hot baths are needed.

Thale allowed her hair to be cut today, to this heart?s delight. It is now very, short and she does not have to be mad at it every day or shove it up into her hat. She was so happy with how it turned out that she took me for a visit on a friend?s ship that was harbored at the docks.

Seven sets of sails and it?s a very large ship. But though it was docked, the water made it move and felt odd beneath these feet. An old ship but beautiful in its own way. The captain of it wasn?t there but I stayed close to Thale until we left. It seems that women are not a good thing to see on a ship deck from the glares we got.

Sjira · Date: 2008-04-30 12:43 EST

04.27.08

With work on the loft and the wedding dress, among so many other things, little has been seen of each other lately. A heart is aching to see him more but there is understanding that there is work and more to be done by both of us.

I smile to think of things now and how matters were just months ago. There is comfort and ease here, trust. In the time there is to rest at the inn, it is spent watching others or speaking with a few. Most are kind, it seems, but it brings fear still to be too long in the larger crowds. Perhaps this is because of what happened, but rest is taken on the stairs and the crowds are seen just as well from there.

A dress for Johnny?s wedding was bought and it is beautiful! Blue and heavy satin. It was thought to put some beads to it, but it is thought that it isn?t needed. Even as this is written, it is thought that too much is mine by now. But perhaps these things, dresses, warmth and caring, are not bad things but long-missed ones.

Sjira · Date: 2008-04-30 12:58 EST

04.29.08

Elessaria was seen tonight. It seems to this one that behind her smile that she is sad. Or maybe she is tired from what happened to her. She said that any question had could be asked of her about it, but great care is taken not to hurt or bring upset. Something feels wrong, as if there is a struggle in the current beneath calmer surface waters. This is what is seen and greatly believed. Perhaps if she is seen again tomorrow at the wedding, more will be asked. No. No, to think more on it, it will not be asked tomorrow. Upset might be brought and it is to be a night of celebration.

As Elessaria is thought of, I smile. She is beautiful in ways that are beyond the realm?s natural beings within it. Kindness is in her heart. Caring for others is there too. It is wondered how many others look beyond her smile though. Someone said once that these lips say little and this heart says much instead. This is believed of the Lady, though she says a little more than I do.

Piper, the lady potter, was wondered about too. In two week?s time, a few have not been seen at the inn and she is one of them. She had started to care for Peridhil but something happened between them as well. Piper was distracted, distant in her words and eyes.

As tomorrow there comes a wedding, four others are thought of as they seemed to have fallen away from that feeling of love. Cherished is the caring from Panther known to be there and love is offered him steeply. Perhaps this will happen to us. It is thought on but not worried over. Not at all.

Sjira · Date: 2008-05-04 14:28 EST

04.30.08

The wedding was beautiful! So many were dressed handsome and lovely.

A heart eased to have seen the look in Panther's eyes when he saw the dress worn by me. It seems to have pleased him well and that is enough to bring a smile.

Though there was not the chance to speak with the bride and groom, a few faces known well were seen.

More than a few were crying, though it was more of a shock for one to see that some of them were the men. All seemed very moved by the happy ceremony.

It was a good happening, one that I will recall for some great while to come.

Sjira · Date: 2008-05-04 14:36 EST

05.02.08

Beltane! I laugh aloud to think of it even as these words are written. Perhaps one day when there is a chance to read over this again it will give me reason for a laugh even then.

Many, many people were there for the celebration. Not all of why it was being held is understood but nearly every person seen in the festival held in the Glen was happy. Very happy!

There were games and food, as well as drink. I took the chance of hitting something connected to a pole and gaining what Amber said was good but a "3" on its skill level. It is thought that I was not strong enough for something better with the game but it was fun to try.

Then the pink-haired Marco Franco arrived. He is the one that often writes things other people in the lands -- including Panther and me. Never, it seems has he written anything bad but he is a strange one to look up and many seem to have had fun at being called names by him and at the sight of him with the pink hair! Yes. Pink!

Many took turns with thrawing balls to dunk Marco Franco into a tank of water. Even I gathered the courage to try at it, suprising the one who had attended Marco Franco to the festival. It took a third try before I was able to send him into the water. But he did not seem upset by it.

How fun it was! Perhaps more will be tried at the next festival if another is held next year.

The only sadness was to have seen Peredhil. Not seeing him was the sadness but when he said that he was going away. Piper is thought of to think of Peredhil and I wonder if she is well too. Neither have seemed too happy in months or around each other.

So many secrets and so much else is not known of those here in RhyDin. Sometimes, this is good. Other times, a heart grieves and worries.

Sjira · Date: 2008-05-22 10:03 EST

05.12.08

Sleep does not come tonight. At least, not gently or kind. More bad dreams of Gracus keep me from sleeping some times. This head aches right now. Perhaps what Panther did will keep him and others from here. It is hoped and prayed for but the dreams come at times and shakes this spirit.

Sjira · Date: 2008-05-22 10:04 EST

05.15.08

Help was offered to the fisherwoman today though she was in a very foul mood. It is suspected that the weather causes her to ache, especially since hurting her leg not long ago. There was care taken not to cross her, but this did not seem to help. Perhaps tomorrow, something from the market might ease her spirits.

Sjira · Date: 2008-05-22 10:04 EST

05.16.08

Time has been spent at the Loft lately, enough to start bringing things to it. Though it is not completely finished, this heart eases to step into it to know that time spent there will be with Panther. A pair of curtains for the windows are being hemmed and should be ready in a few days. Flowers have started to bloom in the Glen. Some will be brought to the Loft.

Sjira · Date: 2008-05-22 10:05 EST

05.17.08

More faces are coming to be familiar to these eyes at the inn and in the land. Friends. Other than those worked alongside in the past few have been known to this heart as friends. Until coming to this place. There is still care taken, though, with making friends in case they are like Gracus, but there is joy to know these many already.

Sjira · Date: 2008-05-22 10:05 EST

05.18.08

The one some call Juleta was seen this night. Though she is not known to me well except to greet her well, I smile to know that she is with child. It is hoped the child is born with very good health and strength.

Sjira · Date: 2008-05-22 10:05 EST

05.19.08

Panther did not come back to the inn this night. Perhaps he hunts and will be in towards the morning hours. Sleep will be sought in a while, with hopes that there are not bad dreams with it.

A large cat was seen in the marketplace tonight when I went to buy cloth to put to the table in the Loft and maybe for a new skirting for me. It was large with a wound to its leg ? it seemed - and kept to the shadows of the place. After gathering some courage, it was touched before it left the market quickly. When I finally caught up with the cat, it was found beneath one of the inn?s tables. Again, after a time, it was petted before I came to the room and am writing this. Perhaps the beast will be seen again. It seems gentle enough.

Sjira · Date: 2008-05-22 10:06 EST

05.20.08

Again, there was no sign of Panther today and worry touches this heart a bit. He was sought in the marketplace, at the butcher and even asked about in the commons but none have seen him. But he is busy is with much and I tell myself to be patient and not to worry so, though a heart worries still.

The writing in this is badly done tonight after my wrist was hurt with the opening of the inn?s door earlier. I opened the door as someone was entering the inn and bent this hand painfully. It is tender but not broken. Care will be taken to favor it until it no longer hurts.

Again the large cat was seen tonight. It brought a rabbit with it. When a closeness again to the cat was tried, the killed rabbit was gained from the beast and cleaned in the kitchen. He allowed my touch again to pet him.

Sjira · Date: 2008-05-22 10:06 EST

05.21.08

Three days and Panther has not been seen. Foolish girl, Thale would say. Perhaps. There is no understanding of all the Panther does, but there is worry that more harm might have come to him.

Tomorrow, the Loft will be seen to and cleaned where necessary. It will keep these hands busy and worry from being so heavy. I am silly for it, but cannot help it.

There was food brought to two tonight, but the lady hearthside in the inn left before hers could be enjoyed. The man?s name is Aaric and found to be kind and spoken to briefly. It was wondered if he was lonely or if his thoughts were held greatly by something this night since he seemed to have preferred a bit of solace among so many others. Perhaps he will be a new friend.

Sjira · Date: 2008-05-23 11:13 EST

05.22.08

Time was spent at the Glen this afternoon and a swim was enjoyed after working at cleaning the Loft for a time. And after that was done, the market was visited to bring fruit and some meat to the kitchen of the inn.

Tonight is difficult. Panther has not been seen in four days and a heart worries. It is hoped soon that he will be seen. Until then, sleep will tried to be had for now.

Company was had this night with the one who calls himself Aaric. It was wondered why he has sat alone and tonight he said it was because of a lady he once loved. Sadly, he says he still watches the door for her. There was comfort to have someone to speak with tonight. The crowds have been large at times and the rooms not braved easily. To this one's surprise, when it was mentioned about the kiting in four days that Piper invited Panther and me to, Aaric was invited by me and he offered to ward me to and from the kiting. He reminds this soul of Peredhil, as he too watches over others when there is possible need for it. Panther will be told of his offer and of the kiting to happen in the next few days. It is hoped he will be returned, safe and well, and that it will be a gentle time spent in the Glen for it.

It is only wondered at.. how to make a kite. Piper must be spoken to again and asked about this. It is hoped that it is not too hard a task since these hands have never done this before.

Perhaps a visit to the livery below the Loft in the morning will be made. There is curiosity of the trade and questions for him and the few that work for the man there.

Sjira · Date: 2008-05-25 20:18 EST

05.24.08

What a foolish girl!

It is still not certain why the question was dared aloud this night.. but it was. I asked Panther if there was love for me. When he was silent, this heart dredded asking the question at all! But when he spoke again, he said yes. Yes.

He sleeps now and excitement will not leave me. There was hope. There was assumption by others. But he had never spoken it.

How this heart rejoices in ways some cannot understand.

Panther was gone for four days. He returns very tired but well. Some things will be asked of him on this. There are questions on these lips yet not asked.

He does not want me to come near him when he is not in his speaking form. This weighs on me but will be respected. It is feared by him that he might become feral and there is danger to be expected. Still, it is a very hard thing to consider keeping..but it will be.

Sjira · Date: 2008-08-10 12:24 EST

07.25.08

The quill is heavy tonight. This body has been ill for days. Nothing can be kept down and the very smell of food pushes for me to stay long hours awake when rest is desperately needed.

Guilt is felt in this heart that Panther has had to help when this form was too weak.

Perhaps in days to come, I will be feeling better.

Sjira · Date: 2008-08-10 12:25 EST

07.28.08

Better and better I am feeling! It has felt as if it has taken a month to improve and not just over a week!

Strength is returning and there is intention to visit with the Fisherwoman tomorrow.

Panther brought flowers while I was ill. How beautiful they are and lift this heart well.

Sjira · Date: 2008-08-10 12:30 EST

08.05.08

Visits to the Red Dragon's common room are taken up again.

There are so many strangers to these eyes in the realm , even after being here for over a year and a half.

Perhaps courage will be found to slowly make more friends.

Piper was spoken with and this heart mourns for her at times. The question was dared as to what happened between her and Peredhil and I regret the asking. It was wondered for so long. Though no clear answer was gleaned, I am sorry for the asking. It is thought the asking has hurt the lady Potter.

I will look for her again. She has invited Panther and me to creating small boats and having a contest with them. This is greatly looked forward to, thought it is feared that Panther might think it to be a child's game.

Sjira · Date: 2009-03-09 18:55 EST

03.07.09

In the earliest hours of this day, these words are written.

None have been written in this journal for months with days being busy and weather being to strong in its presence.

Panther sleeps while this is written. As he sleeps he is watched and it s enough to bring a smile to these lips.

Hours earlier, Kitty and her love were married. It was very interested to see and lightened this heart in many ways. How lovely Kitty looked! Strong and beautiful, not matter what she wears. She is often thought of as a quiet warrior. The men in Llothgar would like her more than a little!

The Lady, Elessaria was seen too. It is told to no one, but this heart finds her to be like a plains-ghost, an angel among all others. It is hoped, greatly hoped, that she will finally know true happiness and that it will never face from her.

Rena brings a smile. She was there at the wedding. She is a kindred spirit in how quiet she is sometimes. But she has never mistreated or dropped an unkind word this way.

So many were there that not all could be seen from the back, but it was all very interesting and beautiful. Some of the men walked with pride with every step, or none at all. And the woman of the lands, so varying in who and what they are, are striking without any doubt!

Panther was there. Quiet and strong in company. It is thought that these matters put him ill at ease, but for Kitty and his friends, he was there. How handsome in his leather kilt and shirt! A heart warms to remember how he looked.

Time for sleep and the day will begin again.

Sjira · Date: 2009-03-09 19:04 EST

03.08.09

The kind one called Rena has asked something with beadwork to be made. It is thought that a pictured design would please her and it was begun earlier this night.

Much was heard tonight, but not much was said. Sometimes, it is best to keep to silence and have something for hands to do.

In the kitchen, a man was met. He called himself Mason and came into the room dancing and singing. Gently strange! It is not often a man is seen to dance and sing, except when too much drink is had and his heart is either too happy or to sad.

The horse was taken to the glen again earlier today. It was a warmer day than others and the air enjoyed against this face and legs. The trees have started to bloom and the snows are gone. Though snows are enjoyed, it is hoped now for gentler days.

Sjira · Date: 2009-03-12 22:07 EST

03.11.09

The day is half over and rest is found after a long morning's work. Horses and workers can be heard below. People talking and carts passing, all can be heard from the street outside. There is always much going on in this great city. It is both frightening and exciting.

Words from a night before are wondered over as all of this is listened to and as rest it taken for the day. Words Panther spoke and much more that had not been said at all.

Something is heavy on him and it cannot be figured out. Perhaps with time it will be clear.

Sjira · Date: 2009-03-16 18:49 EST

03.16.09

The one called Aaric was seen yesterday. He seemed better of heart and mood than last these eyes saw him. It is thought that perhaps there is a liking there of him for me, but it is wondered at. It is all that can be figured. Few men have been seen to stumble with their words. But there is a great kindness in him. A heart lightens to know that he is well and wishes happiness for me and Panther.

Panther! The event of this week was nearly forgotten after last night! His ways are very distracting. There is great love for him. Many might mistake his quiet for brooding or, I cannot think of the words for it. But he is not. It is thought that he has many things on his mind. I sometimes wonder the weight that is on him. Not all things are known of him, even by me. But no one knows another person entirely.

There is hope that days lighten as the days grow brighter.

The lady Azjah's headdress is being worked on, and the picture of beads for the kindly hearted Rena.

And Panther gifted me with amber beads! A very special gift.

The day is already bright with the sun over the buildings. Work to be done should be seen to.

Sjira · Date: 2009-06-15 19:54 EST

06.14.09

The journal had been put aside for months was drawn out and dusted off. By the light of a taper and while Panther slept, she scrawled her thoughts to page.

Creatures have been discovered in the Glen! The tiny ones are not understood in words, but seem to sing what they say to one another in a language that is not understand. They seem to be like fairies, but none like the winged sorts these eyes have seen before. They are beautiful and no taller than one of my fingers is long. Little homes were made for them in the boughs of one of the old trees in the Glen. It is very uncertain what they think of them, or if they will use them at all, but they were made with such hope.

The beaded picture has finally been finished for Rena. It was delivered to her and it is hoped that she cares for it.

Panther sleeps and there is distraction to watch him. Strength in his nature and a depth of calm and understanding. Sometimes, there is a feeling of being little more than a child around him. It is wondered what he dreams of. Times when he is himself, but not himself draws the mind to wonder more. Not all is known of him even after two years, but this heart does not worry over it.

The hour is here for sleep and there is much to be done tomorrow.

Sjira · Date: 2010-11-22 12:33 EST

05.03.10

The hour was late by the time one I was out of the bed. Rains were falling heavy and sleep felt so good that it was very difficult to get out of the bed. When work at the docks was finished, the marketplace was headed for. The rains were still falling and boots were soaked through and my basket with cloth and threads were so wet that they now dry by the fire as this is written. Though breads were needed, it was thought best to get them tomorrow, if the rains have stopped.

Sjira · Date: 2010-11-22 12:34 EST

05.04.10

The Loft has not been left this day. Fever and cough have started from being too long in the rains yesterday. The liveryman and his son have shown kindness, bringing stew, bread, and a cider jug from the inn?s kitchen for me. After the stew is finished, more rest will be sought.

Sjira · Date: 2010-11-22 12:34 EST

05.12.10

There is a string of islands heard about to the far, south-east of the main lands of RhyDin. This was overheard by strangers talking in the inn?s common room tonight. It is wondered, when time is had and courage enough for the travel is gathered, to see what kinds of islands they are. Coin will be saved too for the travel. Much is already owned and put away, but in case it is not enough, more than this will be put aside.

Sjira · Date: 2010-11-22 12:35 EST

05.13.10

The Lady Elessaria has not been seen in a while. She was looked for tonight when thoughts turned to her and the potter Piper. Piper?s whim and fun spirit have been greatly missed in all of the months that she has been absent from the realm. And Elessaria has a gentle, mothering way and strength about her that cannot be helped but to be missed. Is it though that perhaps their ways and paths within the realm or outside of it keep them so very, very busy. It has never been said to them, but they are thought as close to family as one has ever had.

Sjira · Date: 2010-11-22 12:36 EST

05.16.10

A most strange creature was seen while riding through The Glen this afternoon! The four-winged ones - the Nesipas, I call them (meaning tiny flower) - that are like tiny fairies were very disturbed to have the beast in the Glen. They were flying about as if angry and frightened, all at once! There is a struggle to describe it. It was very, very tall?maybe at ten feet if it stood on its hind legs with fur so thick that a Human or Elf would have so easily would have been lost in it.

It walked on all fours and had three jagged and twisted horns on its head. Large, oval eyes were red were four in all! Fingers tremble to remember it when it made a noise. Noise. It roared loud enough to shake the green leaves from the great, sturdy oaks! It hit the three the Nesipas live in so hard that some of the little homes that hands made for them were knocked from it and destroyed.

It is thought to make certain a dagger is brought with me the next time the Glen is visited. Just in case.

Sjira · Date: 2010-11-22 13:36 EST

05.18.10

There is much talk in the realm at the inn about a black and gold ship with sails and flags with matters and forms of death on them. It is whispered that it is a plague ship, but there is wonder at that. If it is a plague ship, why is there golden paint? Would anyone paint an ill ship like that?
The butcher that knows Panther well was seen today. He tells that his wife has born him another son and seems very happy about this. A babe?s cloth will be sewn up for him that will leave him cool in the coming hot, summer months.

Sjira · Date: 2010-11-22 13:38 EST

05.29.10

More and more walks are being taken along the river?s edge. Panther?s absence is painful and worrisome. There is much about him that even after two years is not said or known between us. Perhaps something from his past has come to do him harm? A heart hopes that he lives and is well.
Tonight, I have stopped locking the window, with hopes if he needs to come into the Loft by this way that he can.

Sjira · Date: 2010-11-22 13:38 EST

06.07.10

A dog has been seen a few times in the alley, at the door of the kitchen. She is a beautiful creature with a gentle way. I fed her some scraps and will start keeping a wood-bin just for her and any others she might bring. As she has the look of ribs showing, I am reminded to eat more for I am thinning. Some have noticed and questions have been put to me about this.
A heart is weary tonight and though the hour is early, this will be kept small and short so that sleep can be sought.

Sjira · Date: 2010-11-22 13:39 EST

06.25.10

To read what was written last time if for me to write that weight back to normal is being gained by eating. More energy is had from it, too.

Work at the docks was hot today and heavy until I was sent away by the men to go do something more gentle, they said. It is though that they were not in the best of moods. I visited the city more towards the West End since I heard someone mentioned it the night before in the inn. Never having been there, it was found very different than other parts of RhyDin.

Sjira · Date: 2010-11-22 14:22 EST

10.26.10

A few days ago, one was seen in the Red Dragon that reminded this heart of Panther. At first, he could not be looked at for long, but then eyes could not look away. As it is thought of right now, there seem many differences, but he is one who is?cat, by the look of him. Very tall, too. Taller than Panther. It is curious to see any at all like Panther and I cannot help but to watch for a time.

Sjira · Date: 2010-11-22 14:23 EST

10.29.10

Storms came through the area over the last few days and took from the roofs of many of the homes and shoppes their shingles. Branches were torn from their trees, and some windows were broken. Help was offered to a few in RhyDin proper by bringing hammer and penny nails to them, along with wood and clay shingles for the repairs.

No true damage was done to the Loft, but a few leaks have started. Pots and bowls are catching the water until the Liveryman and his son can repair things before tomorrow?s night.

Sjira · Date: 2010-11-22 14:24 EST

10.30.10

The roof is fixed and the dripping has stopped! It is found to be something small to rejoice over, but glad for the rejoicing, all the same.

This morning at the inn, it was very quiet. Perhaps many are still cleaning up after the recent storms. Tomorrow, some meats and breads will be cooked and baked, ready in case those working and come in hungry ? they will at least have something to eat without worry.

Sjira · Date: 2010-11-22 14:25 EST

11.20.10

The one who reminds me of Panther was in the inn?s common room again, this night. There was chance to speak this time, but it took me a while to do this. Nothing would have been said if he was not sitting by the fire where these hands were mending. And he was purring. For him to be so tall, he could not be missed. I asked him what he was called and he said that his name is Bru?l. Though he might seem a fierce one to look on, he was very kind. He is a curious sort and wondered about. Perhaps he is a friend of Kitty?s. This will be asked the next she is seen, and it is remembered.

Also, a lady named Lola was there and asked to see what I have been mending. She wishes me to make for her a dress. A heart eases to have that task since it is not only a dress, but one with beadwork. Lola is to see to me soon for measuring.

Sjira · Date: 2010-11-22 14:26 EST

11.21.10

It is good to be in the inn, steadily, again. Friends known to this heart have been seen more and more and some that are not known, I am learning their names.

The lady named Lola was in the inn today, but something was amiss. She looked so tired and worn with something upsetting her. It is well that she had family in the inn today to ease her. After they had talked a while, she said that she still wanted to be measured for the dress. Perhaps in a month, it will be done ? or sooner ? and will ease the lady further.

This night was a strange one, though. One with the talent for magicks and saying that he was over a thousand summers old made drink and flowers appear out of the air. A purple flower. Though it was a gentle, friendly thing to have had done, it was also something to make a heart very nervous. Magicks are a wonder and something I fear, though there is effort not to let it scare me so much.

Chryrie was seen today too! She is so beautiful and has many to call friend. She played at the piano tonight and it was something lovely for ears to hear. Perhaps, one day she will play and I will find that as a reason to dance.

Sjira · Date: 2010-11-26 15:12 EST

11.25.10

The weather grows colder with more than a small promise of snow. Ice covered much tonight and made it seems as if the cobblestones were shiny, glass beads. It was a dangerous thing for those on horse or foot, but it was found beautiful to these eyes.

A patron known a little to the Lady Elessaria and maybe more others within the realm has been met and spoken with a few days in the past week. He is called Nigel. Hands of his are scarred and burned, by an accident he said when it was asked. No smile has been seen of him or laughter heard. And even though heart wonders if there is caution best used, he has been quiet in his company.

His coat was brought for cleaning blood from it. There is wonder to the story of how he was injured in this. But lips did not dare to push with more questions. More has already been said to him than others in these passed handful of months. Perhaps there is a friend to be found with him. This is to be seen.

Poor Lady Elessaria! The night before, she was seen to be crying in the inn's common room while in the company of her love, Connar. It can only be guessed that they must part ways again. There is great hope that he is not gone from her too long again. A heart knows the pain of such absences. But last night, she seemed a braver soul to find a smile or more for others.

Sjira · Date: 2010-11-28 12:43 EST

11.26.10

A long time ago, at least almost two year's time, one called Kassar was met. Until tonight it was almost forgotten what he did. He had given a small statue into these hands and spoke many kindnesses until there was no memory of it later.

During the day and tonight, he was seen again. There was no full memory of him at first and his kindness and soft words were there like a warmth of a soothing bath to battered limbs. When what he did the last time was remember, how this heart trembled!

There was such a struggle not to do what Kassar wanted. The mending basket was missing and he offered help with this. But there was a warning in this heart not to listen! Again and again, there was talk between us and it was so difficult to walk away from him!

The Lady Elessaria aided with this. Gods know she is cherished for this and more! With a small effort, company was taken up with her and distance was put between self and Kassar.

Sjira · Date: 2010-11-28 12:50 EST

11.27.10

The mending basket was found again.. where it always was! There is wonder where it had gone the night before but there is happiness to find it returned.

A woman called Katt was spoken with at the marketplace and within the Red Dragon over the last few days. Something seems very wrong but nothing in the way of a full story comes from her to these ears. This is understood since sometimes, darker and more painful things brings weight of silence to heart, soul, and lips.

The Ranger, called Hawk Jahad, was seen in the later hours last night. This was a gentle surprise. He has not been seen in a very, very long time. It is wondered where the ranger's lady is. It is recalled one was very often in his company.

Much was spoken of with him, more than had been before. Words of some matters were confided and it will not even be written here by promise that others would not know what he told to these ears of his past.

There is hope that matters will be calm for him in his return to the lands and that his lady might find him. It is thought that such company might ease him. Though he does not seem easily angered or upset, there is thought there is a need for him to smile more.

Sjira · Date: 2010-12-04 16:18 EST

12.01.10

The Ranger was seen again this night. It is thought that he is perhaps feeling the aloneness that Winter brings. Much of the wood's creatures sleep while and there's cruelty on the winds. There is a relief within this soul that he has taken a room at the Red Dragon inn where he can sleep out of the cold.

A heart cannot help but be eased around him. There is a steadfastness about him and a calm that does not bring fright. Lirssa might have known it the other day when she was in company and spoke with him.

Sjira · Date: 2010-12-04 16:25 EST

12.03.10

The hour is late and bed should be sought. But thoughts think on about the time spent this night.

A meal was cooked at the Red Dragon with the Ranger's help, then it was taken to the Great Hall nearby. The inn was so crowded this night! It was a very quiet with none but two at the beginning, but some celebration was being had that brought dozens in swiftly for the fun.

At the Hall, Hawk was spoken with for a time. There was talk about his scar when it was asked about. His past is not a kind one.

There is a gentle strength about him and there is no fear of him.

But a heart worries and feels as if to keep this company is to betray Panther. Eyes have not seen him in a great, long while. The year or more has been terrible. And to know Hawk's company and these things of friendship are wonderful.

This struggle is here. But no more thoughts on it this night.. sleep is needed.

Sjira · Date: 2010-12-21 17:27 EST

12.15.10

This day was much consumed with work at the docks.

These hands hurt from the cold of the winter's day and the helping with carrying the cloth-bundles from the ships. Muscles, too ache with it.
It is thought again to speak to the men there to find another set of hands for this work and take this body to lighter work in the winter months inside.

But a fire in the Loft's heart is built up and hands have been put to salve less than an hour's time ago. There will be no harsh pain with any of this by the morning.

Not much will be written this night in here. Sleep is needed and will be sought soon.

Sjira · Date: 2010-12-21 17:44 EST

12.16.10

The Ranger is much on this mind.

Eyes look for his smile and ears enjoy the sound of his voice. More and more, there is wondering how his days are being spent. And more wondering of self as this heart lightens to keep his company.

He has allowed these fingers a touch of his scars at his face and back and lips have known his kiss.

As he is the first that a soul has dared to care for that has never held ownership of this form at all, it is enough to bring distraction just to think on.

But RhyDin has its ways of taking from those here any a heart dares to care too much for. Perhaps it is best if he is not cared for at all. Still, thoughts are of him this night. Will the ranger stay? Will more than the company of good friends be kept? More and more, it is wondered over.

Fisherwoman Thale would have brittle words about this, ears can hear it now though she has been dead over a year's time. She would spout warnings of RhyDin and its ways and of its peoples and forget that she was one of them even as she said it.

But there is a smile on these lips. A smile a heart has not warmed from in so long that it is welcomed. There is a spark of hope that a reason to dance will be had again one day.

Sjira · Date: 2011-01-02 15:01 EST

12.28.10

After so long, caring is finally allow in this heart for another.

It is Hawk Jahad that is put to these pages and meant.
Though there is fear in this very soul that the next turn in RhyDin's ways will take him from the lands, there is the possibility of happiness with him.

Already, trust is put at his feet and there is a knowing that he will not bring harm.

There is hope to tell him all of Llothgar, Panther, and things known in this time known within RhyDin. Perhaps he will have the patience for more words than silence.

Sjira · Date: 2011-01-02 15:07 EST

12.29.10

After the day's length and all of the work at the dock and inn, it was through all of this that Hawk was thought of. More, last night's company was thought on.

Great guilt, and happiness is here to know and to have had the Ranger's company. Flesh is still afire with his touch. It is wrong to be as yearning as one of Master Gracus' girls to hope for it again or to think too much on it?

Yes. It is thought that too much distraction has come from it. But there is wonder to know more about him. Of the danger of the lands he is from, his talent for the cooking of fish and more, and the scent of the forest on him.

Soon, it is hoped that paths cross again. More questions are wondered at, about him. Though he has often gifted his smile this way, there seems pain at times within his eyes that he tries not to show. Pain that was left as scars. And something else that keeps his weapons many times within reach.

Sjira · Date: 2011-06-01 00:40 EST

05.31.11
Weeks have been spent quiet and out of sight. Or has it been months.

Days are blending and there is no true knowing anymore which one is which.

There is confusion in many things and a heart is found to still ache in the missing of Panther and guilt still in this chest to know that there are moments of happiness found in the Ranger's company.

It has been a year and a half since eyes have seen Panther and there is still wonder if the gods of taken him from this life into another. Has it been longer? Thoughts do not know clearly sometimes.

Work at the docks is rare now and more help in the marketplace is offered at the linens and seamstress shop. It is not this one's shop, but glad to put hands to work and keep the mind as busy as possible.

It is suspected that to think too long upon the past will hurt so that tears will be all these eyes know.

More mending was brought to the inn two days ago. It was from the great ship with the black sails. The men do not speak much and when they do it is not pleasant. But even they need patching for their clothes. So it is done.

Sjira · Date: 2011-06-01 00:40 EST

11.16.11

The caravan returned today! And with it was seen that Caravan's Pride, Althrae.

Eyes remember a vibrant, blond-haired woman that had the patience to teach this one how to dance months and many months ago.

Much time was spent at remembering dances and talking with the men and women who travel with the caravan.

There are many tales of deserts, mountains and of places so boring to sleep through while others were things of legends, Althrae said.

A heart longs to dance more and the Dancer knew it some how. Though, perhaps it is because little can be hidden by this face and form with these things.

The caravan will be here for weeks, she said. There is need to rest some of the horses and replace others and still more there is some want for Althrae to see what is going on at the inn when she is not visiting the market, local villages and outlying cities of the lands.

There is wonder at the caravan staying too long since they are as nomadic as ones own people.

Sjira · Date: 2011-11-19 15:12 EST

11.17.11

A soul lightens this week, very much!

Althrae and the caravan are once again within the lands of RhyDin.
She is as beautiful as she was last seen two years ago, and just as much of a pushy and pressing a person that can be remembered. It is hoped to spend some moments with her and those she travels with.

And eyes have seen Connar -- the Lady Elessaria's past love.
A heart cannot help but ache to know there was a sadness in their parting. He said that they spoke their farewells, but there is wonder if either was ever truly happy after. So little has eyes seen either of them for almost a year that none of this can be said for certain.

To speak with Connar brings a soft mix of ease and sadness. There is ease to see a familiar face, but too is felt the loss of much company of all of those trusted and called friends. Piper, the Lady Elessaria, Peredhil, Sid, Rook, Panther and so many more have not been seen by these eyes in so long that a heart aches because of it.

But there is hope to see them again one day while others might be known in the time between now and then.

Sjira · Date: 2011-11-19 15:18 EST

11.18.11

The docks become busier lately, by the seeing of these eyes.

Nets have been worked on and there are more tears found in them. And while the repairs are helped with, much is heard and seen -- good and bad to say.

This night ended quiet with a walk from the docks, back to the inn. Quiet of this room that was once rented before knowing Panther well and moving to the Loft is now known again. Talk is overheard by some who have their own homes and one has more than enough coins of gold and silver to buy one, but what would be done with it?

More thought will be put to it. Perhaps a place for the horse Panther gave on one's birthday three years ago. Perhaps animals to raise and a small garden with it.

Yes. More thought and perhaps a safe, good place found and it might be something to do.

Sjira · Date: 2011-11-20 15:41 EST

11.18.11

A few minutes to write then sleep must be sought.

Connar was again seen this night. He looks better rested than a few days before. Words were of the Lady Elessaria. He sounds much like he still has love for her but knows that matters have changed. Also, he has the talent for easing these hands that were hurting from the mending of the fisherman's net. They do not hurt as much as they did earlier and one is grateful for it!

A few familiar faces in the crowd, including the gentle dragon Icer, were seen this night at the inn. The one called Z'ev was spoke with a short time. He seems kind to say these lips should smile more.

Earlier in the day, a woman by the name of Madion asked if one was a spy! How a heart could not beat for a moment afterwards when it was asked! But Connar said that perhaps there are good reasons to be a spy. Still, a heart shudders to think that any might think any of one's purpose is to be a spy.

It is time to sleep and there are hopes for gentler dreams this night.

Sjira · Date: 2011-12-16 21:05 EST

12.15.11

One cannot sleep tonight! There is too much excitement, though a form is weary thoughts keep thinking of the crowning ceremony in the Glen tonight.

There was food and drink, ice sculptures, and many, many of those seen about RhyDin city and beyond.

It was a very exciting thing to see. The one called Kruger, met years ago at the Red Dragon, was seen this night as well. There are calm ways about him. Perhaps he is one that can be introduced to Katt and the Lady Elessaria, if he does not know them already.

As sleep will not come right away, there is a beadwork picture to work on so this will be put away for another day.

Sjira · Date: 2011-12-17 13:43 EST

12.17.11

It has been seen, many times over the years since being first brought to the lands of RhyDin, that there are many reasons to be found to smile. If one seeks to.

The last two days have been enough to bring a smile again and ease a heart. Festivals have been held by those who are well known in RhyDin's many realms. And two days in a row, these eyes have seen the Lady Elessaria. She is one held in high respect and trusted enough to a put a life down for her.

A heart soars to have heard good news of the Lady and the one called Luke. They are not wed yet! It was feared that the bonding had been missed. And there had been longing to meet the one whose name had been on lips of other patrons and more for months. Heard about and never truly met.

At the festival last night, the Lady's love was met. Though he seems to have a kind way and looks to be very much in love with Lady Elessaria, his words are very, very stranger. It is certain that he spoke in the Common Tongue but it was a great effort on one's part to understand what he meant.

The kind Kruger was again seen at this same festival, along with a large bear her called Ursel and seemed to know well enough to be at ease with touching her. In the bear's ways, Panther was thought about and missed. A heart remembers well his ways and mourns him and his absence in these moments.

It was wondered if familiar faces of old would be seen as well, but some did not seem to be within the area. But Kitty's mate, Tasslehofl was. He is thought to be most dangerous, in ways that are not terrible frightening but in other ways. It is thought that were he near too long, a kiss that he often gives to others might be accepted. These ways and needs of what one was and is are too steep and many, so many would not understand Best it is to be of a gentle heart around him, but not to be too close for too long.

A return has been made to the cottage that was bought. It is a good and sturdy place. Its thatch roof does not leak yet and there is hope that it will keep until winter's passing into spring when new thatch can be bought, bundled and replace the older sections. The woodcutter, Haden, was not seen the day before, while the festival was attended, but eyes see that two large piles of wood have been left for one to use for a great while to come.

Sjira · Date: 2011-12-18 12:45 EST

12.18.11

Another entry was scrawled beneath one done much earlier that same day.

The winter festival, called the Governor's Annual Yule Ball was gone to tonight. A dress of green was borrowed from one of the marketplace seamstresses to wear to it.

Everything was so beautiful! There was so much beauty that there was remembering of a sister's dance two years ago when all of the peoples came together for talks of peace in Llothgar.

Many of those known, and stranger too, were there. Even the blacksmith called Kruger was there. Much happened this night! He kept close so that so many there would not send one for shadows and corners to hide.

There was a dance shared as well that a heart found gentle and nice.

Kruger won a prize! It is understood to be a trip to invite his friends to, but ears heard him saying that he has much work to do instead. Perhaps if these hands offer much help at the forge that is his, he will be able to travel on the trip gifted to him.

Sjira · Date: 2012-01-02 21:09 EST

01.02.2012

The days have been passing in the blacksmith's company to the point that writings in this have been almost forgotten to do.

Parting from Hawk was to not allow carrying again. Panther has been often in these thoughts as his absence in all this time has been greatly mourned.

But Kruger's path crossed this one at the Winter Festival at the Glen. He was remembered, though it had been almost three years ago and that was so brief it was thought never to speak to him again.

Where none other were to be cared for this closely again. Perhaps matters as gentle before. And perhaps this time, it will be something steadfast.

Mind wonders it and a heart is tentative though feelings grow stronger by the passing of each day...and night.

Sjira · Date: 2012-07-03 08:51 EST

It was within the trunk, when putting letters from Kruger away to be kept with a certain care that she saw a corner of the bottom of the trunk unveiled from it contents.

She reached in and opened the false bottom, dislodging the single slender piece of wood. In the opening, she could see the journal that had nearly been forgotten in a thing full of memories.

The journal itself was leatherbound, covered in animal hide and fur. In its pages were more than words. There was a long, braided lock of hair, several ribbons, a few pressed flowers, and more.

The bottom of the trunk was replaced and items were put back atop it neatly before it was all closed. With her, 'jira took the journal, a bottle of ink and quill before settling to the table within the area of her very modest little home that served more as a kitchen than else.

There, she penned what had not been put to the page in a great while: thoughts, hopes, and more.

07.02.12

How long has it been? This memory cannot recall the month's worth of time while away, but Summer here in the lands of RhyDin are very hot with no promise yet of Fall or the Dying Season of Winter.

It has been long enough to know the death of a friend, the wonderful joy of seeing a sister again, and returning home to a path walked alone again.

There is so much more to say, to write, but a heart is too unsteady to make matters clear in this way for now. A hand will try it tomorrow when the sun is bright and the shadows not so heavy.

There is much to keep hands busy here and at the inn. Trygg is very tired and dirty from the travels back from Llothgar.

It is thought best to clean the stalls and then scrub and wash him well while the weather will be good for this.

A heart dares to lighten a bit to be home.

Sjira · Date: 2012-07-05 09:07 EST

07.03.12

The day was started with cleaning up the area around the home. A storm must have come through days ago that left branches down on the ground and some of the roof's thatch ruined.

The Trygg was scrubbed and brushed until his black coat shone. He is a beautiful, strong animal and a heart is glade to have him.

More than a few hours was spent on the docks, speaking with the fisherman and dockhands. It is thought they must have been angry at first with the scoldings they gave one for being gone too long without word. But one of them said that I am like a little sister to him and that eased matters among all.

Dark has fallen and the Glen will be visited again tomorrow morning. There is need to see the four wing creatures there and for another, cool swim.

Sjira · Date: 2012-07-05 09:15 EST

07.04.12

A most unexpected day! This heart is very light and curious by this hour of it and there is much to try to put into words.

At the Glen this very morning, Trygg was ridden to the Glen. A Elven long bow was found by one of the Great Trees. It is as tall as this form! And with the beautiful, carved bow was a plain shield.

The bow was taken back to the inn and not four hour's time after it was found, Peredhil walked into the inn. Peredhil! A smile cannot be helpded even as this is written. This one who showed how to use a bow once and was Piper's love and Heart.

So much ill has happened over the last six month's time that it was so wonderful to see this old friend. Most trusted and kind.

Then he had a carriage arrive at the inn later this day and was taken to a picnic in the Glen-- at night! Foods, wines, juices, and candles. It is thought that Peredhil did very well in these things. He did then make certain that I did not serve myself. He said that I have served others and always thought of others and that it was my turn.

Tears could come to know that this effort was made by him. If Piper or the Lady Elessaria are ever seen again, these things will be told to them to share a smile of Peredhil's kindness.

Sjira · Date: 2012-07-08 17:13 EST

07.05.12

A gift was found outside the room that is kept for self at the inn. It was a bow and quivers. A bow that is small enough for these hands to use!

Peredhil has given these after getting them from a friend. It has been asked that he show how to use it. It is his advice to always make certain that the pointy ends of the arrows are facing away from me!

It lightens this heart that a friends of old is found in the lands after this return. He has given cause to laugh and smile when there should be no reason in returning.

Lessons come soon!

Sjira · Date: 2012-07-09 09:15 EST

07.09.12

Time at the Red Dragon Inn last night was a mix of gentle things to lighten a heart and others to put stones upon it.

Chryrie was seen again. She came through fire's place instead of one of the doors! A heart nearly stopped, but matters are well. She was kind to apologize for the startling.

The winged woman was then asked about Panther, if she had seen him. But she said that Kitty heard from him sometimes, but Chryrie did not think he had been seen in the realm in years. How a heart hurts and at the same time there is relief that surely he lives. Why he never sent word is not understood, but that is something of gladness in this heart to know that he is not dead.

Peredhil and the vibrant woman Aja were seen last night as well. Talk of Kitty and how she enjoys to give hugs seemed to strike an ill cord with Peredhil, but this is only a guess. Perhaps too much was said or matters were confused on this one's part. He left early and things felt wrong when he took his leave of the inn.

He is a very good friend and there is fear he has been upset somehow. There is hope to see him again soon to give apologies and speak.

Rest did not come well last night. This morning, work will not be done at the docks or in the inn. A head is weary and dreams were terrible.

It has been decided that it best to keep from things of the heart. A couple of times since Panther, this has been tried. There is too much pain in it. Best it is to keep in company of friends.

If a headache eases today, a walk along the waters will be taken.

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This night, Peredhil returned to the inn.

Matters were spoken of and things are much lighter. It was perhaps a misunderstanding!

There is gladness to know that he has not stayed upset, or was angered by something..I did or said. Friends are few and are to be cherished.

Lessons with the bow will come soon. There is nervousness in this. Weapons are still knew to carry and all that had been are the little knives Kitty gifted me. They are not carried all the time and hands have no real skill with them. But there is a little more courage to be had when there is worry for safety and they can be carried.

Sjira · Date: 2012-07-11 19:38 EST

07.11.12

A letter was finally written to Kruger. He had written many while one was in Llothgar but only today was there strength and courage enough to put the words to paper.

One of the fishermen on the docks said he would take it to Kruger.

Whispers on the docks are that he has found company with someone already. Though it is painful to know, there is also a great sense of relief that he must be healing from the pain I have caused him.

So it was not dared to seek him out to speak withh him yet. A letter is best. My company might upset him or the one he might be with. An interuption will not given. There is no knowing if he wants to see the sight of one who brought pain. Best it is for now.

It is hoped that the one he might have found cares for him greatly.

A heart cannot bare this again. Not for a long time. Twice after Panther, it has been tried. The pain is too great. The Ranger and The Blacksmith are more deserving.

Sjira · Date: 2012-07-13 08:42 EST

07.12.12

Kitty was at the inn this night. How are heart lightened to see her!

There have been many times when there was uncertainty where one stood with her years ago. She is a very strong and spirited sort. But with the gift of the little knives and her allowing these hands to make her wedding dress, it was certain that being about her is a welcomed thing.

Kitty gave me a hug and twirl! Laughter is had again just to think of it. It was not expected. And though her husband and Heart is liked and trusted with many things, a heart was glad that he was not around to think of stealing a kiss. He has never succeeded, yet. The one known as Yeardly wanted Kitty to give to me a 'special hug', but Kitty was firm in saying that there were a few to never get those hugs. I..am one of them. There is wondering at the meaning of that, but it sounded to these ears to be a very possitive thing.

Though Chryrie said Panther should be asked about with Kitty, a heart was too light to ask a question that its answer was not prepared for. So lips did not ask if he was well, or ever to return.

Basalt was there, too. There is a kindness shown from her also, though ears were uncertain that after someone in the inn was banging on the bar that a growl came from Basalt's direction.

There is much to write about tonight.

The one some called Lucius was there. He has been seen throughout the years, but it is not remembered if words have been been spoken between more than a something of welcome in greeting. Perhaps the next time he is seen, more can be said. Kitty's words speak of his wife as if she is even a stronger and more spirited sort than she is. He has a strength his own that seems there and steadfast, but guesses have been wrong before and there is no certainty in this.

If the heat is not to harsh and Peredhil's path crosses with this one at week's end, he will be asked if then he can show how to use the bow and arrows he gifted to me.

Tomorrow, Sid's room and Panther's, too, will need dusting and changes of linens. They have not been done since returning from Llothgar. Then there is need to take Trygg to clean his hooves.

It is time to seek rest and there are hopes to see familiar faces in days to come.

Sjira · Date: 2012-07-14 11:31 EST

07.13.12

The Lady Elessari was at the Red Dragon Inn this night.

She was seen but chance was not there for speaking with her. A heart is still glad that eyes had a moment's time to see that she is still within the lands.

The Draconian one, Z'ev, was seen and looked well. It is wondered if he is like Icer with a lot of friends and many children to call his own.

One called Helix was spoken with. She wished a flag to be made for a young one that she is about to adopt. It is hopes that these hands will make it well so that the boy will have good memories of the kind Helix.

Sjira · Date: 2012-07-15 14:48 EST

07.14.12

This body needs sleep, but words need to be added to this.

Peredhil was seen at the little shop that has the books and sweets, called the Teas 'n Tomes. Books of elves and dwarves were being read before he came into the shop and talk rested on them as a matter. More on the matter of magic.

Elves were spoken of and that the books said things about them. So questions were asked of Peredhil. Some have the ability to do things that others do not.

Peredhil can move from one place to another, as one does by traveling through portals to other lands. But he does not need a portal to do this! He showed to me this thing he can do. We were, at one moment in the shop and then we were in the Glen!

A heart nearly stopped and then it could not be slowed for a long time. It was amazing and made a heart so nervous.

We stayed to the Glen longer and sat by the waters to talk. Then we swam a little. He was sprayed with the waters first, by these hands when he wasn't looking. It was thought he might be angry, but there was much fun to be had. He tossed me into the waters!

There are moments to smile again about and soul was greatly in need of such ways of healing. No worry was there of misstepping or misspeaking with Peredhil -- as is that wonderful feeling to know when it is a close friend.

Sjira · Date: 2012-07-16 00:15 EST

07.15.12

This night a new friend was met and made. His name is Connor MacKensie.

How the gods must enjoy to have this one alive as he is good natured and very friendly to all that I saw him speak with this night.

His accent reminds these ears of Raulen at the docks and his energy is just as strong and courses like a strong river.

The markets were visited with him, then the way to the docks was shown to Connor before he saw me safely to the home of mine beyond the northern, city walls.

He has allowed the whistle that he played along the way to be gifted to these hands. There will be an attempt to learn it, though a heart is uncertain if it will be played well at all.

A heart is light to have made a new friend and there is hope to see him again. Perhaps he will make more friends within the lands and find a place and path to call his own.

Sjira · Date: 2012-07-17 08:56 EST

07.16.12

Kruger was seen this night, but there was no interuption given his way to see that he was playing at war within the rings at the Outback.

There was a try given at going to the event heard about. There was music, a lot of colors, and strange items never seen before. Something called 'jel-o' moved sometimes for a while after being touched by others. Much was watched and a few known were seen. But there was no lingering. It was not wise to.

There was want to ease him of the pains he put down in the letters, of what he went through in this one's absence, but it is best not to do that now. It was wanted badly to do so when I came back, rushing back to RhyDin to try to heal the damage done.

Gone a few months to Llothgar must have been an eternity for him without word sent by these hands. When a return was made, it was too late. Whispers talk of his heart and company being with another and chance of embracing and kissing him, to beg that forgiveness of pain laid at his feet was gone as well.

His pain is my fault. No other is at fault in this.

Too much thought is put to it. Madness will come if something else than thinking on it is done. The absence of Panther and the loss of the blacksmith are too great. Even parting ways with the Ranger is hard and thought of.

Better it is to stay busy.

Raulen, the fisherman on the docks say this. It is believe to be truth.

Perhaps at week's end Peredhil will be seen again and distraction of practicing with the little elven bow can be had. There is hope for this.

The whistle that Connor Mackensie gave for these hands to use has been tried. The gods know they have no talent for it. No soft melody like he played, but screeching and jarring sounds. If he is seen again, questions about how to play it will be asked.

This mind is not straight this night and thoughts move without guidance.
It is time to seek one's bed ~~~~~

Sjira · Date: 2012-07-20 08:41 EST

07.19.12

Kitty and her Heart were seen this night. He stole a kiss of these lips! It was thought it would never happen. There is great care taken when he is around. Tasslehofl is greatly liked, but kisses are not usually..given, to him or to Kitty. There was distraction, but no harm was truly done.

The one that is called Gabriella was seen, and spoken with. Perhaps she has the talent for knowing the feelings of others. Her words gave a hint to that, but it can only be guessed. She must think one rude for not saying all that was being thought or felt within this heart. But to have said any more, tears would have come again and pains are too close to the flesh yet to say anything of weight.

A gift will be made for her. Perhaps a beaded ribbon. She did not have to be kind or offer to listen, but Gabriella had.

The armored one was in the inn again. There seem to be many unseen walls around him. Some might cut easily through to speak with him, but it is best thought him to be one of those within RhyDin to watch from a gentle distance.

Bed should be sought. Peredhil and Connor will be looked for in the next day or two. There are questions for them when they are seen.

Sjira · Date: 2012-07-22 11:06 EST

07.21.12

Peredhil was met in the Glen this night to practice at the little bow he gifted to me. It is thought there is a need for more practicing. The target he set was only struck twice. A heart is glad for his patience in the teach of it.

After the practicing, the inn was visited. Connor MacKensie was there and spoken with. It is thought that his heart is such a wild and light thing that it is hard for this heart and soul to be too weighted around him. Sometimes, a smile it there. He said how to play the whistle better so that the melody will not be painful for other to hear it. It will be tried in the way he instructed.

A gift for Gabriella is being made. It is hoped that she likes it.

The flag that the unique Helix requested is almost finished.

Slowly, painful matters are being put away. Though thoughts and heart cannot forget any of it, there is a try to step further along this path travelled.

Sjira · Date: 2012-07-24 08:39 EST

07.22.12

There was the want for a swim earlier this day and the Glen was visited for it.

But no more than a wade to the knees was done when Connor was seen. It is remembered that a heart lightened to see him. In the few times met, he has a smile and a good seeming soul.

We talked while standing in the waters, and then there was fishing by Connor's teachings. By hands and no nets or poles! A smile is still known for the teaching of it. One time was successful and a fish was tossed by these hands to the banks, but the second hit the Scotsman in the face!

It was not intended for the fish to hit him at all, but a smile and laugh came from both because of it.

After a while, it was time for paths to part for the day.

I found these lips asking if he would be at the inn that night, perhaps for the eating of the fish our hands had caught. But it was not a certainly said thing by him. It seemed there was a wish by him to linger in the very beautiful Glen.

Perhaps there will be another day to talk of fish or else.

Sjira · Date: 2012-08-08 08:37 EST

08.05.12

A fun day was had. Some of the fishermen, including Garet and Sursa, met on the northern banks to have some smiles.

Garet's brother, Thiles, brought drums and Sursa brought symbols. Hands did try well to play the pipe that Connor MacKenzie leant but everyone acted as if they were in pain before laughing. Very hard.

It is thought that more and more practice is needed.

But the day was enjoyed and stories were told to bring more laughs.

There was much talk that another gathering, without work, is happily wanted by all that were there.

Sjira · Date: 2012-08-08 08:48 EST

08.06.12

On the docks, Icer and another were seen and spoken with before having to head for the markets.

Gods forgive, but the furred one cannot be remembered by his name as it was a lengthy thing. But it sounded of Llothgar in how it was said! It was told as much to the stranger. Perhaps he will be met again so that the name will be remembered better. There is guilt in this heart for being so careless with the remembering.

Icer has so many children! It had been heard of, but the beautiful blue draconian one said as much and that she never turned any away. There is wonder what this means. Does she take in ones without family? Does she care for other children of blue dragons?

All that is known is that in Llothgar, the warriors will kill Icer and all her brood for their meat, hides, any horns and use of scales for various things if they were to ever see them. Icer will be told of this, in case any from Llothgar travel to RhyDin, so that she will at least have warning of it.

Sjira · Date: 2012-08-08 08:50 EST

08.07.12

Connar Valdor was seen this night!

He has not been seen in a little while and a heart as light to know the Lady's former Heart and Love and this one's friend made it into the inn.

He seemed so very tired, but he was smiling.

There seemed something more wrong, but a heart and thoughts cannot think what it might be. He spoke of telling tales of woes next time paths cross. Perhaps it will not be long since there is a wish to lighten what seemed a resigned soul of his. But all are guesses and nothing is truly known yet what the matter could be.

To one of these cheeks, he gave a kiss. It was kind of him and friendly.

There was talk of those known. So many within the lands seen lately are strangers that there is a nervousness in this heart to venture too much beyond the house, docks, or inn itself. But the areas are walked or travelled to and none have brought harm. Perhaps strangers will soon become familiar, given time and crossings of paths.

Sjira · Date: 2012-08-10 08:38 EST

08.09.12

Sleep does not come this night. Not yet.

One called Sebastien was spoke with for a small while and fruit was eaten that he offered. He is thought to be almost as quiet as the man others call Lucius, but perhaps neither finds it necessary to talk of unimportant things.

Then a creature, seen in days before came near. The very sight of the beast that Kai called Ri- Bittey is enough to bring a tremble, even as thoughts are put to page. It was by habit, of nervousness and a worried heart that a rest was taken to the other side of Sebastien. There is no certainty, but his words warning the creature to keep where he was seemed something one of the Masters would have done or said.

Though he is still much a stranger, a heart is glad for what he said to keep Ri- Bittey.

It is thought that since he likes fruit, some will be brought from the market as a gift of thanks. Words were offered, but denied twice.

Sjira · Date: 2012-09-09 17:17 EST

09.08.12

It is hard to put words to paper as thoughts are still scattered.

Kitty and Tasslehofl were seen this night. A heart is usually glad to see them. Though Tasslehofl has already brought nervousness for him to be around too close. He seeks kisses from so many.

Once, he was successful in stealing one from these lips. It is his way, lightly hearted and so many do not mind him doing this.

But these kisss are not for him. He is bound in marriage to Kitty and there is guilt to ever know his kisses. There have been times purposely he is avoided. It is not that he has ever tried to harm me. But these kisses are not for him.

There was never want for upset or strife. But notions were not understood. It seemed that perhaps he came over to speak with me. To get one of the kisses often stolen from others. It was said to him that these kisses were not his and kissed this hand instead. Then asked if assistance could be called on, in something else. But he did not say for what.

After all of this, Kitty was angry. These eyes saw her upset and the cross words that grew between husband and wife, Kitty and Tasslehofl. What was striven for to avoid was caused all the same.

This upset is my fault. Again, upset has been brought to others cared for. There is terrible wonder in it.

Apologies will be made to both of them as soon as they are seen again.

Sjira · Date: 2012-09-10 16:12 EST

09.09.12

How long the day was this day!

Even these fingers seem too tired for the writing of these words. As soon as thoughts are to paper, rest will be sought.

Syrin was seen and spoken with. He has a kindness about him that does not bring fear, but a heart does not love him. There was long talks of things and ways were parted for tonight to be as friends. A hope is here that he will be a friend to speak with for many days and years to come.

Garet and Saelia are to be seen tomorrow, but Garet's message did not say what it is for. It is hoped that it is nothing too terribly weighing. A heart is ready to dance again.

For tonight, sleep is needed.

Sjira · Date: 2012-09-23 20:24 EST

09.22.12

It was a most pleasant and terrible day, this one.

Peredhil was seen in the marketplace earlier today. There was talk of a dress to be made for Kitty, requested by Tasslehofl, by these hands. This has not been done since one was made for her to be wed in.

Then foods and just a little wine was shared in the markets until the rains came upon us so quickly that we could not help but be left drenched from them. There was much laughter at trying to get out of the rain and the shop with the books and sweets, the Teas'n Tomes, was sought where the fire was used to help get warm and dry. It was a very nice time for talking many things before Peredhil had to leave.

A heart was glad to see him and there was hope for more company since he brings laughter and trust.

And this night, Hawk was seen. The Ranger has not been seen in a long time. There was great uncertainty if it was wise to even go near him since it was not him that broke things with us, but me since thoughts of Panther are so ever and near in this heart and soul.

There was no angry words or known, tender smiles. Nothing at all was there but a seeming coldness. It was perhaps a bother to have approached him. It is thought best not to approach him again.

Sjira · Date: 2012-09-24 21:14 EST

09.23.12

Peredhil was seen again but time spent was not to be long. By his words, he is to travel to his home. It is not known if he will be gone for a long time and since he left the inn without true words of farewell, a messenger was sent with one of Piper's mugs to find him and put it into the things he is to take on the journey.

There is hope that the journey will be a safe one. A heart weighed to see him leave. Many friends used to be seen, but few of them are left within the realm these days.
*
Leather for a dress for Kitty has been bought and good, strong needles and thread. It will take a great while before the dress is finished but it should be finished when Tasslehofl is wanting it for her.

Sjira · Date: 2012-09-30 12:02 EST

09.29.12

It was a very good day this day and a gentle night after.

Practice with the bow gifted from Peredhil was had in the Glen. Much, much more practice is needed. Sometimes the cord on it snaps back when hands do not make a good handling of it. It hurts terribly.

Then it was that many familiar faces were seen this night at the Red Dragon. But one who is called Antonio, husband to Maranya, known from a distance and seen for many years, approached this night. A heart nearly stopped thinking something might have been done wrong. It was very unusual. But it was for a patron that he came to speak with me.

One called Lite, with a name far longer than that and so hard to pronounce, would like a wedding dress made for his daughter. He seems a very good hearted man and keeps well in his thoughts the daughter and wife spoken of. It is hoped soon to speak with the daughter to be wed to know measurements and the wants for colors of the dress.

It was a bit later that night an elder came into the inn that was well into his age and used a cane to move about with. Though he is older than many of the Humans in RhyDin, his spirit is very light and and strong. There was much talk of food and drink prices, sparring, and even of mending. There is hope to speak with him again since there are few that have ever been known that do not make a heart nervous at all. Except for when he tried to guess that the tunic being mended might be mine!

There is hope to see Althrae tomorrow. More practice of dance is needed.

Sjira · Date: 2012-10-13 18:50 EST

10.01.12

The ship with the black sails was seen again today. It is thought very odd that no one will talk about the quietest of voices about it and none seem to know anything of who captains it or what cargo it carries.

Courage will be had to ask one of the fishermen in the morning.

Sjira · Date: 2012-10-13 18:53 EST

10.04.12

Althrae and the dark skinned one that guards, 'Tarem, have argued greatly for days. It is thought that they love each other deeply to know that much upset between their hearts.

It is hoped that Althrae will soon tell him of her love but there is worry that she never will.

Sjira · Date: 2012-10-13 18:57 EST

10.10.12

There was a chance to dance with Althrae this night for others! A heart lifted when it brought applause and coin for the dancer and the caravan. 'Tarem could be seen watching Althrae will and the mind knows well that he not only guards her but loves her.

After the dancing, Althrae asked for a fanciful belt of leather and coins to be made by the end of the winter months.

It is thought there will be plenty of time since less work is being done at the docks.

Kitty's dress is being worked on. There is hope that she and Tasslehof both like it. But there are months of work still to do on it.

Sjira · Date: 2012-10-14 16:24 EST

10.13.12

There was a celebration of some kind to do with the Nexxus. It is still unclear if it was a good event, though. Some seemed happy about it and others were burning things in the braziers. When Fio is seen again, it is thought to ask her more about it.

The elder, Nicodemus, was seen again. He did not seem to care for the loud, colorful noises that some were creating for the celebration. But he had medicine for the welts suffered from practicing the bow! How a heart is grateful for it. He said that he knows the ways of fire, water, wind and dirt. But his magics on it are not clear. With this, more questions need to be asked.

Sjira · Date: 2012-10-14 22:50 EST

10.14.12

Syrin was seen at the docks this day. His ways and heart are kind and a gift was given by him to me of a bracelet.

But he talks of winning this heart as his. It has been told to him a few times already that it is best that he does not do this. Others have been hurt. There is a stubborness in this and he says he will continue to try.

It is hoped that too much pain or anger will not be brought to him when his trying does not work.

Sjira · Date: 2012-10-16 20:36 EST

10.15.12

Terrible things were seen this night! As if those that were in their graves had dug themselves out and crawled from the cemetary all the way over the bridge and to the inn.

Sleep will not come this night and it is already the second hour into the morning.

Sjira · Date: 2012-12-26 15:16 EST

12.23.12

A quiet return has been made. Madness had touched too close, too often that a need for travel was felt to the depths of this soul.

Not as far as Llothgar, but only to the south-horn of this main land.

Winter's snowfall finally stopped enough for a return. As quiet a thing as leaving had been for that journey.

Sjira · Date: 2013-01-01 20:50 EST

12.31.12

The raging one of The Four was seen in the inn this night. There is great worry he will do harm to himself and the other three. Perhaps to others that are known to me. It is enough for these hands to shake with that worry and fear. He is much like the crazed, Master Gracus. The Boy in these Four will not understand, the Elder will know and understand it is thought but not be strong enough to compel raging one, and the other that time has been spent with at ease is in danger perhaps the most. It is all tainted things, madness and madness more.

Then the black cat was seen this night. It is a large, dark beast that has been seen before but not for a few years now. Rabbits were brought by him to this one when there was not enough strength to seek food or coin to buy it. How he brings to this heart and soul memories that weigh and lift -- all at the same time.

Panther is missed greatly. Perhaps this is what has brought the Presence of madness. And that the great, black cat was seen in the inn this night, perhaps it is a sign that this battle is being lost. None but Kitty know that the window is still left unlocked for him, just in case. Perhaps she and Tasslehofl know the pains and joins of this heart. It is not known. Little is said of any of this to others.

Hands hurt. Too much writing. Too much aching of this heart and head. Sleep is needed. Peace is needed, but perhaps the gods may never allow it. Sleep is needed and there is work to rise early before the dawn to see to.

Sjira · Date: 2013-01-04 10:44 EST

01.02.13

Panther is back! Gods at their games have finally allowed it!

He was seen day prior and returned to the inn, to..me.

There is no remembering by him of being gone for over three and a half years. He was in a form that did not recall these sorts of things.

How a heart is light and rejoices. He looks well but there is a great guilt, it seems, in his heart and mind that he was gone from me and the inn for so long.

There is much to tell him. Much company to keep with him and much love to offer in return where there was thought it lost forever.

Sjira · Date: 2013-01-04 10:47 EST

01.03.13

A few days have been much spent with Panther since his return. Work is neglected at the docks and mending has sat.

Much is talked about and many hours have been spent together out of the eyes of the public, too. It is hoped not too many mind this.

The hour is very earlier and he is watched while he is sleeping, finally. So there is a chance to write these words.

Perhaps, when there is time for it, the cottage will be shown to him and more of what has happened while he was gone will be told to him.

Sjira · Date: 2013-01-22 08:42 EST

01.20.13

Three weeks.

It had almost been three weeks' time since his return and a heart and soul can still hardly believe it.

Garet at the docks has been understanding with these hands not working as much there as is accustomed or normal, but it is also suspected that he is becoming frustrated. There will be made a point to see that help and work there is once again done, though not as much as once there was. There is a great need to be upon that same path as Panther's again and deep, wonderful distraction in it all.

In the recent days, almost a week's length, a snow storm came and time was spent at the cottage with Panther. Though the dress meant for Kitty, the one Tasslehofl has asked the making of, was brought to the cottage, there was no work done at all on it in that time.

There has been many things talked about. Somethings recent past and others far older.

He has begun to call me st?ir?n. It is said, he says he has heard, that it means "my darling" or sweet darling. Beloved, he his.

Not yet have all the things of the Cloaked One, IAm, been told to him, but soon. A heart half-fears that even to speak of him might bring the presence back. Where shades of madness seemed there they are currently gone with Panther's return. There is found a great harvest of happiness and peace.

It is not kept from him, but will be spoken on when a heart does not worry that it is the wrong place for ears to overhear or public eyes to possible see what is meant so private between.

The gods have stopped in their painful game for now and a heart is light and full of joy over it.

Sjira · Date: 2013-02-13 08:56 EST

02.12.13

A little festival was held in the inn this night! Colored, sugar cakes, root beer, and throwing of beads was happening.

Some of the men were taking their tunics and shirts off to get more beads and looked to be having a great amount of fun from it.

These fingers are still green and purple from the cake's sugar and frosting but it is not a complaint. It was thought to be very good.

Kitty threw beads and they were caught by these hands. Unexpected but it was all to bring a laugh.

The norse woman, Shylah, was seen too, with a feather mask and seemed to be enjoying the festival very much.

Perhaps, if Amber or Kitty is asked, the next festival will be to celebrate barbarians, dessert dwellers, or even merchants!

Finally one is tired enough to rest though the sky is just starting to grow light. It is hoped that Panther does not mind sleeping in late this day.

Sjira · Date: 2013-02-13 08:58 EST

03.09.13

It has been a very busy last couple of weeks, but the work is not minded too much. Best to have hands busy than to sit idle for too long without purpose at all.

Connar, the Lady's former love, was seen last night.

It does a heart well to know that he is safe and in bettered spirits than distant times before. Time was spent in his company last night at the inn, talking of many things and to listen too of a story he had.

When he was asked about naevein, the veiled one with the bells, he smiled and asked why she was always asked about now when these eyes saw him. Truth was offered, that there was hope he would find happiness. But it was wrongly pressed. Better it is for such things to happen on their own. A heart holds him dear as a trusted one and friend and there is a need to see him with a love again. He was patient with this misstepping.

But secretly, still it is hoped he will find someone. His heart is strong and good. And he can find ways to make others laugh!

Panther has not been seen too much these last days with much going on and work. It is guessed that there is much to discuss and papers to see to in matters of the inn. It is a guess. These are not things understood too deeply but there is an understanding that it is all very important.

Sjira · Date: 2014-12-01 14:16 EST

12.01.14

The old journal was found, deep and at the bottom of a truck. It had been almost a year since the small one had written anything. S'jira thumbed through it. Sometimes, she stopped to read a few things she had written before continuing on to other pages. A few ribbons, pressed flowers, and other items were kept between its pages. She noticed that there were only a few pages left. And instead of words upon them, she sketched a very rough image of Panther on one of them. It barely looked like who it should have, but she enjoyed creating the rendering of him. Next to where she had found the full journal, a second one was there with its empty pages. The old one was wrapped in a soft square of leather and tucked back away. It was time for a new binding to write her thoughts and happenings in. With a smile, she closed the trunk and set about to see if there was enough ink on hand to ensure more writing.

Sjira · Date: 2014-12-08 20:51 EST

12.02.14

A return to RhyDin to find that we have been gone longer than it was thought. Almost two year's time has passed since the journey was made into Llothgar. Panther has mentioned the storm and the cave a few times. Others have said that they understand that time moves so differently in lands beyond these. What is certain is that much time passed and the cottage's roof is needing full repair. But with work it will be much improved from what it looks like now.

While repairs are done, the Red Dragon is always a home we can stay at. Gods bless Panther. A heart knows he has much on his mind with the wondering of how this could have happened, but he still finds reasons to bring a smile to these lips and a lightening of this heart.

Sjira · Date: 2014-12-08 21:06 EST

12.05.14

The Lady Elessaria was seen this night! Eyes had not seen her in so very long. And this night.. she seemed so weary, travel worn? It was said by her that someone took her and harmed her. There is worry on this. This form has been through this, a few times, but the Lady? It should have never happened. More worry is that she spoke so little of it. And her lips were blue and the cold of the night would night leave her for a long time. Two blankets and a hot drink were brought to her by these very hands.

More thinking on this. Perhaps there is something even ..I can do for her. There is no knowing what that could possibly be... but if thought about long enough, perhaps something can be thought of to help.

Something else happened this night. A girl was in the Red Dragon. Her name is Raella and wants to know how to sew, to mend things for herself. The girl has asked for me to teach her. This is looked forward to!

Sjira · Date: 2014-12-08 21:14 EST

12.06.14

This day one called Thorongil was met. Raella was there as well when there was talk of her learning how to stitch and mend. Thorongil asked questions about having some things made and a heart was glad to be able to.

Other than a time where his hand was on this knee, he seemed friendly. Tomorrow, measurements for shirts, cloak and other things will be done for him.

Raella lightens this heart and brings a smile. Perhaps it is that she has an ..open nature about her and very friendly but it is found that she is liked very much.

Sjira · Date: 2015-01-03 22:03 EST

01.02.15

A gift was received! A little statue from the Winterfest drawings.

It is a lovely thing and fingers have placed it on the mantel of the of the hearth in our home.

Sjira · Date: 2015-06-07 22:46 EST

06.07.15

A new journal had to be bought while the others are being repaired. The damage to the cottage while gone with Panther to Llothgar left much to be replaced or redone.

There have been many changes within the lands but a few familiar faces have been seen.

This lightens a heart greatly, though it was unknown that Kitty and Tasslehofl's ties are either frayed...or broken.

These lips have questions for him next Tasslehofl is seen..

Sjira · Date: 2015-06-13 03:17 EST

06.08.15

A most simple day was had! Vendors from other lands were at the marketplace this day. A heart was so very happy to see all of the beads and threads! Even the materials for dresses for the warmer months had been brought into the very center of RhyDin.

it seemed as if an hour's time had passed before the right beads were found. Rare, white ones were spent a bit of coin on. Expensive, these were, but already thoughts know exactly wat to use them for.

Panther has not been seen again this week. A heart and soul hopes for it, but there is a fear that his face might not be one seen by these eyes for a while to come.

The weather comes that promises rain, with clouds thick in the skies lately, but there has not been a since drop lately. It is hoped that it comes soon since the plants within the Glen and at the cottage are in great need of those showers known to fall in the lands here this time of the year.

Sjira · Date: 2015-06-13 03:23 EST

06.09.15

Time was spent in the cottage lately. The hurrying and great activity of the city at times makes a heart and soul long for the quiet of this home. The tall grasses were walked amongst during the evening this day. How it brings a smile to pass a time so simply!

There is a terribly selfish few moments' time spent to lay in the grass and watch the cloudy skies above. While resting this day, there seemed to be the shadow, an image of a dragon against the sky. It was guessed that it might be a few of the draconic ones seen in the Red Dragon inn, or round the great city. Eyes could not be certain.

Pipes were removed from the trunk this night. Another try was had at them. Ears hurt to make that attempt, but a heart will not give up. There is hope that one day they will be played well enough to bring a smile to others.

Sjira · Date: 2015-06-13 03:30 EST

06.10.15

The one called Piper was dreampt about this night. The hour here at the cottage must be very late since the moon can be seen clearly against the dark but starry night above very clear and high in the sky.

It is not known why the lady Potter was thought about enough to step into these dreams, but a heart is both glad and sad for it. The Potter is greatly missed. She has not been seen in a very very long time but is thought about with every sip from the mug she made for these lips to drink from. Perhaps one day she will be seen again.

There was a most interesting night found within the Red Dragon inn this night. So much for the watching! The mending was tried over and over again, but all one could think of was how many fish had been cleaned that morning! Not because if might have made one smell of that fish in clothing or hair, but of Panther and how a string of some of the fish could have been brought back to clean and cook for him.

Sleep is needed. Thoughts cannot stay on that absence for too long. A heart hurts too deeply not to be in his gentle shadow.

Sjira · Date: 2015-06-13 03:36 EST

06.11.15

One of the fisherman laughed this day at a life this one lives. It leaves a heart weighing low, as if too many stones are tied to it and the current is strong and this form is tired.

His name is Kaleb and works the boats and nets almost every day. He is not one these eyes see amongst the dockworkers and his words are so bold that they cut and nick with every intention to hurt.

He spoke of how boring this life must be. But hands are kept busy in the midst of such loneliness. There is work at the docks, cleaning of some of the rooms on the inn's second level, washing and mending there as well.

Kaleb had said that if he was not so busy to be bothered with it, if he had been one to live such a boring life he would have ended it years ago.

Garet, a friend, says that Kaleb wanted to see if he could bring tears to these eyes to say these things. His words did hurt, but this very soul knows that what people see just a little of is not the whole of what there really is.

It is thought that Garet needs a gift for the kindness of his view and words. Perhaps tomorrow something will be found for him.

Sjira · Date: 2015-06-13 17:38 EST

06.12.15

It was a night for lots of shooting stars!

After twenty were seen by these eyes, the counting had to stop to just enjoy it all. So very beautiful. Once before, when timing was right for it here, another sight like this was seen. Only once, but no so many as this night.

The hour is very, very late and sleep is needed. But there is excitement to have seen something as this.

A heart can only sing and feet to dance about the cottage. Perhaps by dawn's light rest will be had.

Sjira · Date: 2015-06-14 11:25 EST

06.13.15

A heart has started to weigh down, as if the smallest of stones have been put atop it and larger ones are at the side, awaiting placement. How do lips explain the need for steep companionship for one who was so long in the comfort of a stronger one's shadow? It is not a dark thing, that shadow, but.....oh, it is no use. Even even these fingers cannot understand the languages of a heart or even this soul at times.

Sleep was found within the Red Dragon's common room again. It was not expected to fall asleep there. Though many are friendly, it is a risky thing to do that. Better attempts will be made to not to that again.

Sjira · Date: 2015-06-15 00:23 EST

06.14.15

Kruger was seen this night. How an already heavy heart felt even more down to see him. He was never horrible, but there was always a guilt for being gone too long to Llothgar and leaving him alone for months. It was then he had found another to pass his time with. That was a couple of years' time ago. Before Panther had finally returned.

It is not Kruger's fault, but not a heart hurts to miss Panther all the more. More and more, longer and longer this heart knows Panther's absence. Tears came so quickly this night when speaking with Kruger.

But in a small way, there is happiness to have finally spoken with the blacksmith after so long. There is relief to know he is alright, but something is different...and not. There is no understanding of it. But ears were glad to know that he has a lot of things happening. A heart and soul, both, hope that he has found love. All need this to put their hearts and minds at ease to that their bodies know true rest.

The gods have been spoken to in prayers by these lips. Prayers not meant for others' ears that Tasselhof, Kitty, Aaric, the Lady Elessaria, Hawk, Piper, Conar, Peredhil, Katt, Lucius, Kruger, and others will call not only come to know a true peace and happiness, but will find reason to laugh aloud with friends, family, and even amongst strangers. Not all things are known, but these things are hoped for with all of this heart. Perhaps they all already know it. But prayers will be continued to the fiercest of Llothgar's gods that it happens and continues for all of them. Even for Panther..

It is time to rest now and it was not in the common room like the last few nights have been. Terribly dangerous, that could be. Panther has warned against it before. A mind forgets when work is too much and hours of rest are too short.

Then she looked to the journal that was bound in hide and pelts. She re-read the entry and leaned back against the wall while she sat on the flooring within the rooms at the Red Dragon, on its second level. A song left her, quiet and low to soothe a soul and hopefully bring rest. Form eased down upon the flooring before the little hearth... to watch the dance of it until eyes slid shut and the humming fell away.

Sjira · Date: 2015-06-21 17:44 EST

06.17.15

A tree fell yesterday after so many days of rains.

It has been a bit of work to have these hands try to clear it from the meadows where Trygg enjoys to run and rest. It was too big to clear along so Garet and a few others from the docks were asked for help in this. A heart lightens to know that even though they grumbled they were happy to help in this.

Plenty of wood is now chopped and stacked from it and the way is now open for Trygg to run about in the meadow near this home again.

Sjira · Date: 2015-06-21 17:48 EST

06.19.15

The ship was seen again last night. Courage was gathered to get near it the other day. And this time, it has been in RhyDin for over a week! Whispers of gossip and fear are terrible.

It seems a beautiful ship, but no one has seen who works it or captains it.

Tomorrow, courage is shaky but it is hoped to go up its plank to see if it is truly manned by ghosts as the others keep saying. Garet said he will go with..me. Courage enough there since he is big and strong. Most would wonder if fighting with him would be worth their trouble, so a heart and soul know it well there is safety in most things to have this friend along for any venture!

Sjira · Date: 2015-06-27 15:21 EST

06.21.15

Tonight the celebration in the marketplace was attended.

Kruger was spoke with briefly. He seems to these eyes and ears to be a little different. It is hoped that these lands have not changed him too greatly.

Andu and Icer were seen to, but a chance to speak with them was not had. Katt had a kissing booth. When coins were brought to her to give to any of the charities she might want to...she thought a kiss was wanted from her. A heart is full of laughter to think of that! That was a very nervous moment. A kiss had not been wanted from her, only to offer the coins. But a hug was gained instead and that did a heart well from one who has never shown anything but kindness and generosity this way.

There was a booth for dropping people into water. It had a target arm others struck with a ball to make the person sitting there fall into the water. It is understood to be some kind of game. So even this hand tried it and was successful! There was no need to be too strong for it to happen.

A form is weary but a heart is light this night to have walked among many of RhyDin's peoples this night for good causes, as well as for good food and drink.

Sjira · Date: 2015-06-27 15:24 EST

06.25.15

Word has reached these ears that a man of Llothgar was seen coming through one of the portals leading from there to RhyDin. A heart worries that it might be Master Gracus. There is always that thought in the shadows of memories. But a heart eases to know that how the man was described does not match Gracus u'Lor.

Still, thoughts and a heart cannot help but wonder who it might be.

Sjira · Date: 2015-06-28 11:08 EST

06.27.15

After resting for hours, the room at the inn of the Red Dragon was finally left. The nightmares are still in these thoughts and bring the pain of headaches. It is hoped that they stop soon. The work at the docks cannot be done well or as often if this much rest is needed.

A while was spent on the stairs. The gods are given thanks for it not being too loud this night since the pain in this head will not completely leave for over a month's time now.

At the stairs, the room of the inn can be seen. It is usually safe there, though Shriss' dark...attention years ago can be remembered. And even the stairs then were not safe.

There is usually a lot to watch of strangers and some that these eyes and heart know better than those who just make their to and from the lands. But few are true and close friends within these lands anymore. Most have left for good and others are busy.

The doorway of the hall on the inn's first level, the one that leads to the rooms for storage, offices, and washing rooms for clothes and other things... where Panther used to be seen...is almost always empty. But these eyes cannot help but to see if he is there. It was four years he was gone that first time, not so long the next. And again, something has taken him from this place. And from...me. It sounds so very selfish, but most would not understand. These lips to not say all that is in this heart, mind, and soul. Especially not in public. It simply isn't dared.

Words to this journal seem a safer thing. To speak of a heart's desire for companionship. Of the needs of a sharl'shan, those who are slaves among the Llothgarian peoples. It is a strange thought to know that the bells are no longer worn on this right ankle and that no Master has been served since the second year within these lands. But a heart longs for that shadow to kneel in, the strong hand and ways to guide ..me. But too many years have passed. There is no complete, true and clear path walked now: not completely unfettered, not completely tied. These lips could never explain it clearly. These are things better shown by the actions of ways heartfelt.

While on the stairs, things were seen this night. It was tried hard not to think on Panther and the love a heart has felt so deeply for him. Thoughts were of Kitty and Tasslehofl. There are questions of what happened, but a heart is pained to even ask it of either of them.

A woman named Madison was seen and met this night. She asked that a horse blanket be made by these hands for someone she knows. It is wondered if she loves him, or if it is for a very good friend. This eases a heart to have purpose, to be able to make something for another that will make them happy.

Lucius was seen again this night. What else was seen by these eyes was him punching and putting words to someone. Ears could not hear what the matter was about and one can only guess the other had wronged him. Eyes have never seen him strike another, but much is unknown even after all these years in these lands. It was not dared to bring him a drink this night after seeing that. Perhaps next time courage will be found to see to that smallest of needs.

The ship has been seen again. The one that is called The Amaranthine. Feet got as far as the top of the plank from the docks to the ship's deck. But courage lacks! Perhaps, if there is an asking of Garet he might go with ..me. It will be thought on.

Rest is needed and the hour is second in the earliest of the morning ones. A hot bath was taken but it does not ease the pain in this head.

Sjira · Date: 2015-07-08 21:38 EST

07.01.15

Garet is happy. His lady is to have a baby soon!

What news. Though it will probably never happen for ...me, this is always a great occasion for celebration for others. A very, very happy thing. As soon as the horseblanket is finished for the strong, Ms. Madison, thinking will start on this..of what to gift to Garet and his wife for the baby coming. He says that there is at least half a year to go so it is thought there is plenty of time.

Sjira · Date: 2015-07-08 21:41 EST

07.02.15

The inn has been strange without Panther. Though it has never 'spoken' anything that these ears could hear and understand, there was always a thriving way to it. Words cannot be found to put to this page. There is no understanding of it.

There is hope that one day that he returns so that the heart of the inn will beat as it once did, even if it is not a return to ...me. Thoughts have been much about this lately. A 'listening' was even tried while in the kitchen, just days ago. But there is a sound missing that was there even in its walls before.

Sjira · Date: 2015-07-08 21:46 EST

07.03.15

A thought was had, though the gods and godlings might be laughing.

The rooms kept at the inn are stayed in often. It is not safe many nights so late to walk or ride the distance to the cottage beyond the north wall. The morning light is grey when eyes know it to be a beautiful thing of blues, oranges, and more. Perhaps a section of the clear window could be replaced with colored pieces, like the ones seen in passing that below to one of the holy places.

It is thought there is enough coin saved to possibly pay for it. There is a shoppe at the marketplace where questions will be dared, to see to how much and how long to have such a thing made.

And a new journal is needed. This one is at its.. limit.

Sjira · Date: 2015-07-08 21:54 EST

07.06.15

This morning was full of laughter! The gulls were attacking the fisherman and stealing fish! But that was not funny, it was how the seagulls dove down from the sky, fluttered and batted their wings against the grumpy heads of the fishermen and then took off with fish when the men weren't looking. None of them did this to the women!

There should not be laughing at this but still a heart is so light from the few moments of it that the birds brought.

The men are talking about putting a net over their heads, above where they work so that the birds cannot get to them tomorrow morning!

That reminds, there tiny houses for the four-winged fae sorts in the Glen need to be repainted.

Sjira · Date: 2015-07-08 21:59 EST

07.07.15

A most busy day, this day.

More beads were bought, the horseblanket for Ms. Madison has been finished, a new journal has been purchased and some things to go in these rooms at the inn. It will be nice to have the blanket with its beadwork sent to Madison in the morning. It is hoped that she will like it well.

Tonight at the inn, Amber was heard talking about fighting with an Ember, but there is no understanding who that might be. It is thought that though Amber is short that she is very strong and can hold her footing well with fighting.

The nightmares have started to fade and their strength is almost not there at all. And aches that have caused this head such pain have not been felt in three days. There is hope. There is ease.

Sjira · Date: 2015-07-10 20:56 EST

07.09.15

Two were met this night and seem of strong, kind hearts and souls. The painted one called himself Zan and his beloved is Simone. A little while was passed speaking with them.

There are questions that lips have for both of them. Perhaps they will be seen again to ask them.

Sjira · Date: 2015-07-12 19:48 EST

07.10.15

The weather was so beautiful this day! As soon as Garet and the others dockside were helped this morning, Trygg was ridden to the Glenn. A swim was taken in the waters there.

It is thought that Trygg had a great time running through the tall grasses there and to rest beneath the old, white oak near the waters. It is a very, very big tree with white back, thick boughs and red and black leaves. And there is plenty of shade beneath it to cool self there.

There is hope for more of these days, of good weather and reasons for a heart to fully ease. Perhaps next time the Elven bow that Peredhil had gifted to these hands a few years ago. Practice is needed. Lacking more than that is the courage to use it ever to harm anyone. But there is much fun in the practicing!

Sjira · Date: 2015-07-26 10:36 EST

07.15.15

Garet at the docks, friend of this heart for several of RhyDin's years is angry with me. At first, it was said to him that none would steal his wife away because any could see her ankles.

It should be said again that she is pregnant and as her stomach grows, so does Garet's jealously. It is his words that he says that no woman of his will be going about with her ankles showing.

A heart does not know whether to laugh or to be angry with him. None will steal his wife away! She is his true love and she would punch anyone in the nose who even tried to sweet-talk her away from Garet.

Laughter. It is thought best to keep it away from Garet for now. And his wife was helped with unhemming her skirts so that her ankles do not show. Gods can only understand why he is so jealous of this small thing but it was helped with.

Garet's wife promises to make a cake and that ..I am to come visit. It is thought perhaps she seeks to soothe her husband with cake and company. A smile is brought to think that she is a very smart and strong woman.

Sjira · Date: 2015-07-26 10:40 EST

07.18.15

Rains...again. It is not remembered to have been so wet in RhyDin this time of year before. The fishermen's wives are chattering on about strong nor'easters (storms that come in from the seas to hit hard against the lands to the north-east) or gail'strums (storms that come in hard from the south-east and seem to be something especially particular to RhyDin). And talks of heavy snows.

This is a time when council from a Llothgarian elder would be sought. This and many other times, but there are none within RhyDin and to travel to ones homelands again could risk another rift in time. A heart greatly worries over that happening again. Too much time was lost the last two times gone there.

Sjira · Date: 2015-07-26 10:46 EST

07.22.15

The bow was practiced with in the Glen this day. These hands have no talent for it and another harm was done to this right hand. Master Kiroth would not have been proud of the failure with it, but a heart knew he might have found humor in it.

Still, though there is failure in it and the pipes played sometimes they will be practiced with more. Perhaps one day hands will know how to do well at both.

Sjira · Date: 2015-07-26 10:51 EST

07.25.15

Peredhil was seen this night! How happy this heart is to have seen him. Time was spent a little with him, Simone, and Zan at the inn before a walk was taken with Peredhil alone to spend much of the night talking with him in the Glen.

There was talk of Panther's great absence, of swimming and riding, of friendship. A heart is overjoyed that Peredhil is returned and hope that he does not steal away again.

It is known that we both have known the pain of loss but there is ease of this very heart and soul that he is hear. Perhaps the pains will lessen.

Talked about too is to spend more time. The Glen will be where swimming, riding, and more practice of the bow will be had. Sleep does not come easy this night with too much excitement about it.

Sjira · Date: 2015-07-30 20:29 EST

07.27.15

It is two hours into this morning and sleep will not come.

Peredhil is back in RhyDin and a heart is so light. Such a dear and close friend. Nearly all of this day was spent with him in the Glen. Food, drink, practice at bow, walking, swimming. And very long talks.

It is as if we had never been apart all these years. And it is thought there is more. So much more. It is wrong to think that there is more than a friendship? Lips have not dared speak what a heart is tugging at. But there is an excitement to see him and a happiness.

But darkly, a heart remembers the pain caused by Panther's absences, and pain caused to Hawk because Panther was all that was thought of. And then towards Kruger when one was gone too long to Llothgar and time... it passes so differently there than in RhyDin.

Can it be hoped for? It is. Is truly is. But lips did not say anything yet. It is not dared. Perhaps Peredhil will be a very good friend and the gods will be kind to this heart and soul in this way.

Sjira · Date: 2015-07-30 20:31 EST

07.28.15

The docks were spent time at with Peredhil this night. He was shown where work is done many mornings when the sun is barely above the horizon.

And the ship, the great big ship that has been at the docks was shown to him. But we did not board it. But ice cream was thought of and had. Time being spent has more than lightened this heart and soul.

Perhaps the newer shoppes in the markets will be visited or the bank along the river that divides the city the way it does.

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