Topic: The Worst Chae

MC

Date: 2017-04-26 23:33 EST
?I think he is called Worst Chae? - Jewell Ravenlock

Cold snap, even though it sprang the cool night air that hovered close to 40 was enough for him to welcome the fact that he hadn?t switched which hoodie he was wearing. Black facemask lets the inkling of steam come from his face, while his hood protected his ears from the winds coming from the waterside. Pulling taped knuckles out from his pockets, he would rip the tap off, one hand having been stained with blood, and drop it on the ground. Taking a moment to shoot off a text or two, he would make some headway back to what he called his home.

Down an alley, turn left, then right, and in a cut out in the alley, there was a covered overhang where he would sit down for a moment. Home. He had a few places he could go. He knew he could always crash with his sisters if needed, as well as crash with Izumi or Eri if he really had to, but he didn?t mind. In Fact, he felt more at home, sleeping in the streets, than he ever did when staying with someone else, or even in his own apartment. Tucked away in a false brick were most of his belongings, The second set of clothes that were similar to the ones he wore all the time, some money, a roll of tape, a Mp3 player, charging cord for his phone, and a comic book that hadn?t been taken from the wrapping. Grabbing the mp3 and the cord, he would tuck the brick back in and move back out the alley the way he came.

Little Korea, as well as the area around Kabuki street, was busy as always. Saturday night, and most of the gambling joints, as well as the clubs, were packed, which meant the gym that he went to would be mostly empty, exactly how he liked it. Moving to grab a set of gloves, he would slide them on and move over to the kick-boxing targets. Slamming gloved fists into a target never felt as real as his fists meeting someone's face or rib cage. However, if he was going to make any actual progress, fighting like he was used to on the streets wasn?t going to be enough. No more wild hits. It was easy on the street, take a blow or two, then throw three or four back. The rings weren?t like that. Every hit mattered.

Stepping up to a punching bag he swung out again, then again; Again and again and again, up until he couldn?t feel the impacts of his hand into the stiff plastic bag. Collapsing to a knee, breathing heavily from the mouth, he would look at his now swollen hands before slowly clenching them. Shaking his head, there was nothing that he could have done to prevent the tears that broke his normally calm and happy-go-lucky demeanor. Shame, regret, and anger slowly washed over his features as he simply tossed his gloves off and walked out of the gym and into the night.

Making it back to his corner in an alleyway, it was best that he finally let himself sleep. Sliding down the wall silently, he propped his head up against the corner, nudging the loose brick out of the way, he would pull out a picture of his sisters and him. The only one he had. For a while he just looked at it, remembering. ?I'm sorry?? His voice broke through for a moment before he put the picture away and tucked the brick in. Tugging his jacket over himself, he closed his eyes and hoped for sleep.

MC

Date: 2017-05-11 09:00 EST
One of the many downsides of living in the streets was the fact that, even with an overhang protecting you from most of the rain, you end up getting soaked. Returning back to his little corner, he would slide down the wall as he normally did. The wind striking cold against his soaked clothes, he was visibly shivering but he wasn?t cold. He had attempted to do a lot the day before. He managed to wake up early, go and get some food. He went and did his ?job? of retrieving himself some funds for the day. Everything seemed fine; but, in the back of his mind, something was brewing. As the dark clouds rolled in, so did those thoughts.

He pulled the loose brick out and looked at his belongings for a moment, pulling out a photo he had snatched some time ago. It was of his sisters and him. The crack of lightning giving him enough light to see the photo for a moment. His smile, his warmth, seemed to just start to fade as he looked around at his water clogged surroundings. It was all too simple. A slow rise to his feet as he tucked the picture back into place and placed the brick back.

The walk to his destination was a long one. His mind swimming as he glanced around to different places in the market. Still shivering he would keep his pace slow, hands dug into his pockets, looking for his phone. Scrolling through the numbers and names, most of which hadn?t been contacted in a while, he stopped on one. Stopping in his tracks, his mind read over the words, over and over again.

?Hey, I am on my way home, Love you.?

Such a simple text, now dated back nearly 3 years, carried so much weight. Enough that as the thunder rolled and the rain continued, his eyes swelled shut as he fought back tears. His mind moving faster, as his steps increased the pace, faster and faster as he carried himself towards the water's edge. The rain was starting to ease, but his tears refused to stop. From the text message to his sisters to being kicked out by his own father. Mental images rolled past in a snapshot of what he thought about himself: what he perceived others thought of him.

From the countless times, he saw the look of disappointment upon either of his sister?s faces, from the beatings he took when he failed to get away successfully. From crushing defeats, from the mental image of someone seeing him, hunkered down in a corner as a kid. The fading image of what he had left behind, of love, of a family. Tears gave way to clutched fists that drove themselves into a brick nearby, blood welling up in his knuckles as the numbness took over for the pain that was there.

Using his free hand, he would slowly type a message to the number that he had sent the message to, long ago. For what it was, for how simple, it took ages for him to do it. He could smell the air of the water as he turned another corner, seemingly in a full sprint. His hand trembled as the other one swelled in his pocket, the pain of the throbbing sort taking over now.

?Sorry.?

Send.

Scrolling up some as he turned another corner and found himself now walking on a pier, moving towards the end at a rapidly slowing pace, his sister would get the next message.

?Jin?. I'm sorry?

Send.

The end of the pier came up quickly, his body freezing at the end, watching the waves lap up towards him: inviting him. In his mind, it was settled, an idea that had once been thought of before, but never lingered on or as long as it had been now. The fact was: he was the worst chae. Not only in the rings, perhaps where he wished he was. But, just in general. He was a street rat and a worthless one at that. His phone was dropped on the pier as he continued to stare. Hands balled in fists, he could only barely look at them. He was always the one to drag everyone down, to do something wrong, to be the one that needed help. He was always the one that faltered, and failed and never seemed to get ahead. And if he did get ahead, he didn?t know what to do with himself and managed to throw it all away. His whole life, to him, had been for nothing. It would be better, for his sisters, for anyone who has ever had to deal with him, if he wasn?t there anymore.

His left leg tapped some, into the pier. Fear started to replace the anger, as he felt his knees starting to tremble, wanting to give way. He closed his eyes some and leaned forward. The drop felt like ages. His eyes remained open the entire time, as a bit of euphoria entered his mind, thinking that it would just be better this way.

The shock the body feels when it meets frigid waters is nearly instantly. The wind is knocked completely out of you. Dazed upon contact, and depending on the distance, broken ribs. A wave caught him, right before he was dragged under, as he was thrown back towards one of the many logs that held up the pier. The euphoria, the want of what was happening, was all gone, as his eyes suddenly opened wide as the rocking motion of the water caught him and pulled him out and away from the pier, just as the next wave swept over him and dragged him under. Pain swept over his body as he clambered for the surface. Fight or flight became fighting to fly.? Breaking the surface just as the mind began to fade, sputtering as the wave flung him again towards the pier, this time he did his best to leap out of the water.

Catching the wood at the end of the pier, he forced himself to be dragged up and onto the wood. His ribs hurt, his back was in pain, he couldn?t feel his left hand, and his right knee was throbbing. He turned over and vomited back into the sea. Shivering, cold, and injured he limped his way back towards the alleyway, his home. His phone was tucked back into his pocket, as his clothes dripped and made a comical squish noise. Even still, he was angry, rageful at himself, and angry at everyone around him.

The rain was starting to let up, the thunder was gone, and the wind slowed down to nothing but a silent breeze. He found his corner, and crumbled to the ground, wincing as he did. He would find the best position for himself to attempt to sleep, hoping that the pain: mental, emotional, physical, would all just go away if he managed to wake up the next day.

MC

Date: 2017-05-25 14:46 EST
?Morgan f***cking Chae.? Yeah, that was him. Right as he was on his way home from one of the first days of Rehab at the gym, trying to begin a physical healing process, he ran into her. It was like a punch to the face, literally. The culmination of every emotion felt in the past 2 weeks fell upon his shoulders and threatened to cause him to collapse, right in front of her.

But Dani held him up.

He knew he didn?t deserve any of her support, any of the laughs or smiles that were afforded his way after she managed to leave a nasty bruise on his jawline. He had left her, but not only that, left her when she was pregnant. Left her when she needed him the most. He let her down. All the while he wished he had managed to twist and turn in the water so his neck had snapped against the rocks, she affirmed what he felt about himself: without meaning to. He expected the hate and deserved it.

But Dani didn?t hate him.

In fact, she offered to help him. She offered friendship, a space to talk, to be honest. She even offered to work out with him. He had told her that there wasn?t a way he could look at himself in the mirror, and be able to recognize himself, to be proud of the man he was. Yet, she had practically been willing to hold the mirror up for him.

Back at the apartment, he tossed his gym bag to the side and went straight to the room he was sharing with KC. Sorry, but the door was slammed shut when he came in, hopefully, no one was home. The door shut, he slid down the length of the door and crumbled to the floor, one hand working the brace off his right knee, the other gripping locks of disheveled hair. There weren?t any silent tears this time. Once the brace was off, knees were brought up to his chest to facilitate the crossing of arms to cover his face as sobs and streams of tears broke his demeanor.

?Then make yourself someone you can look at. Then others will be willing to look at you too.? The words from Nami the day before ringing in his head just as he was starting to process his encounter with Dani. Brace in his left hand, he looked up and slung it over towards the mirror in the room: braces make for heavy projectiles if needed. Sorry KC, you need a new mirror.

Wiping away tears, he would move to stand up slowly, to give his injured knee time to not be in pain. He now had to clean up the mess. Both in his life, and now in the room. Nudging the door open, he would go and find a broom.