Topic: Regarding Self-Determination

Perpetual Motion

Date: 2015-08-16 20:03 EST
"My colleagues have spoken at length about the survival of the human race at Dr. Morozov's expense; with ninety-nine votes tallied in favor of her assimilation into this starship, I alone will speak for her survival as an individual, perhaps at the expense of our race but for the benefit of our humanity.

"Her knowledge is an invaluable tool. That is not in dispute. I dispute the spurious assertions that she is a tool. Neither her foreknowledge of the risks of exposure to the alien artifact, nor the utility to our navigation computers of driving an electrified spike through her brain, diminish the fact that she has expressed a desire not to be assimilated. Dr. Morozov is actively exercising her personal autonomy, and respect for every person's autonomy is fundamental to our humanity.

"I know this is not the choice we have always made. We have variously decided that many forms of human suffering are acceptable individual expenses, and that preventing them is at too much expense to the human race. This is our history, and today we had an opportunity, as we have left our shattered homeworld and turned our gazes to the stars, to assert autonomy instead of exploitation as the human race's defining trait.

"In fifteen hours and forty minutes, we will assimilate Dr. Morozov and deny her autonomy. In fifteen hours and forty minutes, and not one minute sooner! I will not yield the floor to my colleagues, not when they have a measure ready to expedite her destruction. I will speak. I do not consent to her destruction, and neither does she."

~ Regional Senator Martha La Follette, speaking at the 14th session of the Earth Survivors Congress

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Interdimensional Sky Castle Schilder House
The Hegemony of Friendly Ibraga
Multiverse Designation Kappa-Six-Nine

Griffin Aloysius Bell had known Evelyn for quite some time -- an unknowable length, given the contradictory intersections of their time streams, and their curious relationship -- but he knew her well enough, to know that she was unwell.

Knives, pens, scissors and other items that could be used as a weapon interested her strangely whenever she had company; sometimes she gripped them tightly by the end as if, in a moment, she would spring up and preemptively stab the person across from her. He'd even seen this when they were alone together. She couldn't bear to be parted from her watch, and would follow and occasionally help, but more often stand in the corner and watch like a mama bear minding her cub, whenever the Bell family's physics team took the device to the lower levels for observation and experimentation.

And given her nature, how little she spoke to her family and how jealously she protected the device that they still needed to jump between universes, the physics team felt less and less inclined to undertake their studies for fear of provoking her.

He had seen the darkness lurking behind her restless and uneasy gaze one hundred and seventeen times ('more than times than I can count' was what he had nearly put in his diary, but then, time travelers were much better at keeping track of these things than ordinary people), and every time it was when they strayed from RhyDin. As little as he witnessed her going down to visit, much less pick up her phone for anything other than her frivolous romance games, being in the same universe as the people who had become far more familiar to her than her vast diasporic family was an enormous comfort.

"It's enough just knowing they're down there," she had said at the conclusion of an argument an hour ago, when he'd failed to convince her they should not take Schilder House to RhyDin again.

"The readings we get from RhyDin are useless, energy spikes flooding in from a thousand universes, and interference from the Lords only know what else. You know that."

"Then why don't I just drop you off somewhere else?"

Those words chilled him. There was no sinister intent behind her dismissal. "I have to go where the watch goes, and I get to choose where I go," and she was right. She was bound to the device on some fundamental level, even while she rotted in that awful tower while the watch was on Citadel. "What if I'd left her there?" he had said, alone, to his reflection in the bathroom mirror, and those words chilled him even more. Extending her suffering in Gulshan did not bear considering; but the solution that occurred to him now did not seem even half so cruel as that prison.

He sat at his desk, swiping away his growing body of work on the intersection of traveling between universes and through time with a flick of fingers across his screen, and started a new message:

phys. team,
new approach to studying the p.u.d. will not only acct for but benefit frm rhydin's unique environment. e. wants to go to rhydin already & so no need for another family vote. don't feel good abt those n e way.
new study cd lead to beneficial arrgt w/ e. meet me downstairs in 5.
g.a.b.

Autonomy was important, Griffin knew all too well; but that included his, and everyone else's. "The needs of the many," he sighed out loud in his study, and stared at the drawing of a seven-handed watch flickering on his viewscreen.

Perpetual Motion

Date: 2015-08-18 20:52 EST
Orbital Casino Wyvern's Breath
Unaffiliated RhyDinian Space
Multiverse Designation Omega-Nine-Nine

"Why'd you give up?"

Evelyn stared across the meteor glass table at her uncle, over the erratic flickering of her holographic cards. The flicker was a sign the station's radiation shields were leaking, but not enough to kill them.

Still, someone should have a word with management before it got much worse.

"I haven't folded yet," Griffin Aloysius Bell smiled slyly across the table at his aunt -- no, no matter how their timelines had intersected, no matter how Evelyn preferred it the other way around, he always thought of her as one of his ancestor's cousins. She was younger by years, but he considered her older, wiser, and cleverer, to have lived a richer and fuller life.

It made his plans easier to rationalize that way.

Evelyn didn't need to say out loud that she wasn't talking about the game, nor that she was in no mood for his coyness; she said both with her eyebrows. He sighed and conceded his hand of cards, and the point. His watery gaze drifted to the window, watching darkly silhouetted worlds swing around RhyDin's burning star.

"Dying in RhyDin changed you, Evelyn. I don't know what makes it better, but it's not following us around the universes, nursing your anger while you watch us try to understand the technology you created."

"I have a right to be angry," she shot back heatedly, flexing her hands on the tabletop; her eyes narrowed on him. "I'm a scientist; you could ask for my help. It would be nice being asked for a change."

"I'm sorry the family voted on where to take you -- "

"But not sorry enough to stop them."

Griffin sighed again, but he didn't face her. He couldn't lie when he faced her. "I am now. This... isn't working. The Bells, the Schilders, most of them -- us -- have been strangers to each other for most of our lives, thanks to the Federation. Your relatives don't know each other that well. I barely knew how to take care of you when you were a girl..."

"I don't need taking care of," Evelyn said pointedly, and tried to look at him, though he wouldn't. The best he could do is her reflection, and even in that he saw what her expression said: Come now, uncle. You know better than that. "I need my freedom."

"And so do we." She opened her mouth, and when he put up a hand to interrupt her he earned a look, but he pressed on: "And so do you, agreed. We can't give up the incredible power you've given us... but I think we can replicate it."

Evelyn's expression leveled off. She frowned thoughtfully, or so he imagined as he stared harder at a passing starship, thrusters flashing blue and violet as it traveled under impulse power. "How."

"RhyDin produces a lot of interference, and it makes studying your interdimensional device very difficult, it's true. But we can use those sources of interference to map pathways between universes for a new device for Schilder House. You still keep yours, we get our own, and we meet for holidays and reunions. We just need to stay on RhyDin until it's done."

Evelyn rose halfway out of her chair and said, "Look at me." Griffin could feel something drop in his gut, and he made a fist behind his back to keep himself from shaking. Does she know... can she tell...? His eyes met hers, and he was surprised to find her smiling, and her hand extended. "Let's shake on it, as fellow scientists; as equals, each getting our own way."

He lifted his chin to look at her, and dug a smile out of his growing desire for the alluring power of interdimensional travel, and it chilled him, but he shook her hand and said, "Deal."

Perpetual Motion

Date: 2015-08-29 15:49 EST
Urban Backstreet Midoxi Alley
The City of RhyDin
Multiverse Designation Omega-Nine-Nine

It's him.

Evelyn had been in this body long enough -- had had enough incidents, between her torturous stay in the Tower of Ghulshan, and her relatives that were more strangers than friends interfering with her watch and where she went -- that she recognized the voice of the other woman in her head immediately. She had protected her, saved her during their imprisonment, and carefully committed to memory the faces of everyone who hurt them and might hurt them again.

The doctor had a clever mind, but traveling to so many places and having so many contradictory and erased memories made it easy for her to forget a face; but seven months later, she remembered the face of one of Sergeant Strump's Watch officers who had shot her poor triceratops. She had glimpsed his face only once after her last regeneration, but once was enough.

She watched him stand facing the corner next to a wooden pub's back exit, day drunk, rolling his hips in slow circles and giggling his way through a half-remembered tune as he relieved himself. There were six bullets in his belt, but the holster sat empty -- he must have surrendered his pistol at the bar, a common practice in many universes that worked to Evelyn's benefit.

Look at him. He's not going to hurt anyone like this.

But he won't always be like this. What happens the next time he sees one of our darling dinosaurs? What if he has his gun?

The debate was settled, the best course of action chosen; all that remained was its execution.

The drunk officer heard her step in a mud puddle behind him and glanced halfway over his shoulder, grinning at the female figure in his peripheral vision. "Hey, patience now, darlin'," he slurred, and looked down at his handiwork. "My tool 'll have plenty of time for you, once it's done with its -- " He laughed. " -- other uses."

He hadn't seen the knife, which worked to Evelyn's benefit: it made gutting him that much easier.

Canaan

Date: 2016-01-10 13:41 EST
Hole in the wall diner Rover's
The City of RhyDin
Multiverse Designation Omega-Nine-Nine


Rover's was a diner in Rhydin's West End that specializes in the unusual. Cane had been introduced to the place months and months ago by Skid and kept coming back because it was the best place in the city to have a unicorn steak. Though their sign was broken, and had been for as long as Cane had known about the place, that didn't keep Rover's from a steady ebb and flow of customers all day.

Cane sat in a booth, tucked away in the corner closest to the far wall, hunched over a book of sheet music while he waited for his food.

Griffin Aloysius Bell might have sounded like someone bussing a table nearby, though really, those were the sounds of him rearranging the flatware at the next table. Then he sat down opposite Cane, smiling pleasantly at the back of his sheet music. His silver hair was slick and recently combed, his shirt had several buttons in the wrong places, and his emerald green scarf was tugged a little too tight around his smoothly shaved throat.

He folded his hands on the edge of the table, made a little humming noise, and flashed his straight white teeth at Cane.

Beneath the table, the Cajun's bouncing knee ceased its movement and his eyes lifted from the notes on the staff to stare over the top of the book at the fabulously odd man seated across from him. His chin followed suit shortly, rising until the whole of his attention was locked onto Griffin.

"Hello," he began. There was a pregnant pause that followed while he took the time to close his book and set it aside. Cane's gaze darted away from the man to scan the rest of the diner in search of Evelyn, but found their way back to Griffin when he came up empty handed, so to speak. "How are ya, Griffin?"

"Stressed and distressed," he said as flippantly as someone complaining about bad weather. "Worried about Evelyn, holding the treacherous houses Bell and Schilder together with my withering wit and charm, planning the family holiday party... considering a new hairstyle," he added, and flapped a hand idly, flashing a seven-handed watch. Evelyn's.

The addition of another person at his table reminded Cane to remove his hat like a good little Southern boy. He placed the white ball cap on top of his book of music and ran a hand through his hair to fluff some life back into it. Observant as ever, Cane noted the watch but said nothing about it and lay his folded hands on the chipped formica table top.

"Certainly sounds like ya got a lot on yer plate, brother." The Cajun's chin inclined minutely, mulling over what little Griffin had shared with him more than a month ago when they met. "I assume dis lil' visit is 'bout Evelyn," he said, sounding far more nonchalant than he actually was. Their previous discussion, though short, had stirred some measure of disquiet in the Cajun concerning his good friend. "Is she okay?"

Griffin and Evelyn had something in common: the way they hung their mouth open for a moment after a simple question, then paused to reconsider their answer. He tucked his chin into his scarf, shut his eyes and thought about it. "How has Evelyn explained what happens when she dies?" was the phrasing he chose after thirty seconds.

The Cajun's brows, which were expectantly aloft until just now, crashed together and fell into a deeply creased frown at the other man's question. Something clicked behind his teeth. "Uh," Cane said stupidly. He unfolded his hands to free one up so that he could scratch his temple, as if the act would scrape free something smart from his brain. "Well. Dat she always comes back. I mean, she tried to explain it ta me, but I don' rightly understand all 'a her science babble. It's got some'n ta do wit' de watch. But de details?" The rest was left unsaid, shrugging in place of more words.

Griffin watched Cane puzzle over it with a warm smile. "We'll save the laws of physics governing this for another occasion, but she becomes someone who would have survived what killed her. And -- before her new personality overcame her joy at seeing her family again and she started pushing us all away -- she related her various deaths and resurrections to me."

He counted from his pinky backwards, tapping each finger into his palm as he continued: "In her initial single-minded drive to return home, she ran an experiment that killed her, and became dissociative and impulsive; but then her recklessness caused her to die in a fiery car crash that injured a number of others, and she became caring and idealistic, and re-approached the idea of returning home; and in her attempt to both return home, and take care of the people around her, she was destroyed again and became..." He looked up from his hand to look Cane in the eye. "Vicious. Cruel. Preemptively violent against a number of threats, including those she has imagined."

He breathed a sigh, breaking eye contact again, and rubbed his eyes with the palm of his hand. "She's been killing people, Cane. Even her own relatives are scared of her."

Cane's reaction, or rather the lack of one, was telling. That Evelyn Augusta Bell was killing people did not bother him in the least. On the contrary, he was secretly impressed. He recalled an evening he'd spent with the eclectic doctor on the couch at the inn, discussing their shared experiences in the area of rebirth. The cruelty that had sparked to life in her eyes when regaled with the story of how he and Salvador had tortured her captor for months on end was a sight he'd never forget. He'd liked seeing that in her eyes. This Evelyn might not be the one he'd fallen for when she first arrived, but that didn't mean there was something wrong with her. Still... some cautionary bell sounded at the back of his mind.

"Killin? whom? Dere ain' nobody Evelyn cares more about den de people she loves. Why're y'all scared 'a her?" Scared for her, he could possibly understand, but of her? Cane couldn't envision even this version of Evelyn harming her family in any way.

"It has to do with the circumstances surrounding this," Griffin replied, tapping the wristwatch. If he saw Cane's reaction, he did not show it. "Our family is able to travel by binding our house to this device, which also means where we go, she goes. This... may have triggered her defensiveness, a fight-or-flight reaction because we were interfering with her primary means of escape, something. And even with her blessing to experiment on this device, in order to replicate its functions so she doesn't have to go where we go, she's threatened her relatives in the lab before. Even beyond that..." He shook his head wistfully, and tugged back his left shirt sleeve to show an angry red scar on his forearm.

"When she spaces out? Don't surprise her. She doesn't even remember it! This is not who Evelyn Augusta Bell is supposed to be!" he said with mounting frustration and desperation, balling his hands into fists and banging them on the table. Then they flattened, slowly, and his lip quivered, and he slumped back into his chair. "It's breaking our hearts... It's no way for her to live."

Having been directed to the watch outright, Cane allowed his gaze to linger on the device, more than just the passing glance he'd given it before. There were a great many questions had had about why it was in Griffin's possession, but he doubted a forthright answer. The man was an unknown quantity and his loyalties lie with Evelyn.

"So what're ya gonna do, Griffin?" Dense as he could be at times, Cane was also a very suspicious person. The man sitting before him had been less than subtle with his hints. "Kill her? Start over an' hope she's more to yer likin'? Dis ain' a ****in' video game. Ya can' jes' call a do over."

"I am aware," Griffin replied, and took a dozen flimsy paper napkins from the aluminum holder at the table to dab at his eyes. "And you're right, I cannot. None of us can. She already jumps at every shadow when we're around... If anyone can save her, it has to be someone she currently trusts."

He balled up the napkins, tossed them into the corner and opened his hands imploringly to Cane. "It's not death, not when it's Evelyn, not when the way the Multiverse works will not let her die. My conscience can abide this quite comfortably, but I'll tell you what it cannot abide one bit. Leaving her like this. Finishing the experiments on her watch and letting her set off on her own again like this."

He tilted his head. "Do you think she's happy like this, paranoid and murderous and obsessed with survival? Consider it, Cane. Put yourself in her eccentrically patterned Doc Martens and consider it carefully."

Cane was stoically silent for the duration of Griffin's emotional display, but remained suspicious of its authenticity. This man hardly knew him, having met only briefly once before. He didn't doubt Evelyn spoke to her family of her friends, but the whole scene felt out of place. Practiced. Planned.

Cane bristled uncomfortably when Griffin went on to ask him how he thought Evelyn felt. "What is ya want me--" His words cut off as realization clicked. The Cajun's eyebrows lifted. He was silent for a while longer, chewing over several things that he did not wish to voice. "I'll... I'll talk ta her. Look, maybe she jes' needs a break from everyt'in. I don' t'ink... dere's gotta be some ot'er way."

Griffin sighed sadly, and though he visibly deflated he did not sink back into his seat. "If you can divine another way to do this, then I will be the first to congratulate you on your ingenuity... but death brought her to this point, and death is how it ends." Then he unwound his too-tight scarf, stretching it taut along the back of his neck as he sidled away from their table. "Please, just... consider it."

Then, after a sharp glance at Evelyn's six-handed watch on his wrist, he strode briskly from the diner.

Canaan?s food arrived shortly after Griffin left, but he couldn?t eat, not when faced with the knowledge that Evelyn?s uncle was planning to murder her. He paid for the untouched food and after gathering his things, left the diner altogether to be alone with his thoughts.