There had once been a lesson to be learned. How long it had taken a shadow to draw away and vanish; for a sword, once broken, then remade, to be broken again. How long did that take?
How long did it survive?
How long could it survive?
How long did it take to dance the little puppet on strings before boredom and effect had finished their task, and then the strings were cut? Promises had been made. Promises of a fate worse than death. What can be worse than death?
Half-life.
And then...
There was once a hole. It did not start out as a large one, but with some work it might have grown larger. The edge of a rock, sharp and hard, to pull away the loose dirt. It would take some time, oh yes, but it could be done. Anything could be safe there in that hole in the ground. The rain would make it muddy, the snow would block it and need digging again, but the wind wasn't there. The wind was always there though, wasn't it? Turn around, and there it is. Unless it's not. You're inside. You keep it out. It stays out on its own, doesn't it? Does it not? Why? Hands clutch to temples, pulling at hair that was receding over the brow. Why? Because, if something happens on a specific day, and then it does not, then ordered reason demands that the former is an imposter of the first. Is the wind an imposter, then?
What sort of sense does that make? None. Or does it? No. The prologue of the past has already been written. The dice are out of the cup. There's nothing for it, now. Nothing at all. I'm glad we agree.
There had once been a shadow. It got away from him. No. He ignored it. No. He lost it. No. No. No...
...He didn't know anymore. Just just didn't know. Don't know? No. Why not? I... don't know. It has happened. I remember it. The greatest loss. What was it? It was there. And then? And then lost. Like you?
In a hole in the ground, there lived a man, but the man was lost. There were memories, and there were thoughts - and so there were regrets. But something that used to be there was gone.
A spirit. That driving passion that kept one moving forward when every fiber of every muscle screamed to go stop, when every thought in the mind pleaded to go back. What did it take to find that again? What would it take to care about moving? Survival. If there is hunger, it must eat. If there is thirst, it must drink. Is that enough? It must be. Is there more?
There is always more. There is living.
...What is the point?
In a hole in the ground, there lived... survived, a hollow shell. Did the shell survive? Did the shell live? How long had the hollow man-shape sit there, hour after hour, minute after minute, staring at the dirt between his boots. Broken... yes. Not his mind. That would have been a relief. His mind was hale and whole, leaving him with memories and more memories; of what was, of what will never be, of why things are they way they are. What had once been reforged after so much time and effort was no more. He was shattered, now, and that shattering had been brutal and remorseless and? and? and?
But he was free.
...And his knee still ached.
How long did it survive?
How long could it survive?
How long did it take to dance the little puppet on strings before boredom and effect had finished their task, and then the strings were cut? Promises had been made. Promises of a fate worse than death. What can be worse than death?
Half-life.
And then...
There was once a hole. It did not start out as a large one, but with some work it might have grown larger. The edge of a rock, sharp and hard, to pull away the loose dirt. It would take some time, oh yes, but it could be done. Anything could be safe there in that hole in the ground. The rain would make it muddy, the snow would block it and need digging again, but the wind wasn't there. The wind was always there though, wasn't it? Turn around, and there it is. Unless it's not. You're inside. You keep it out. It stays out on its own, doesn't it? Does it not? Why? Hands clutch to temples, pulling at hair that was receding over the brow. Why? Because, if something happens on a specific day, and then it does not, then ordered reason demands that the former is an imposter of the first. Is the wind an imposter, then?
What sort of sense does that make? None. Or does it? No. The prologue of the past has already been written. The dice are out of the cup. There's nothing for it, now. Nothing at all. I'm glad we agree.
There had once been a shadow. It got away from him. No. He ignored it. No. He lost it. No. No. No...
...He didn't know anymore. Just just didn't know. Don't know? No. Why not? I... don't know. It has happened. I remember it. The greatest loss. What was it? It was there. And then? And then lost. Like you?
In a hole in the ground, there lived a man, but the man was lost. There were memories, and there were thoughts - and so there were regrets. But something that used to be there was gone.
A spirit. That driving passion that kept one moving forward when every fiber of every muscle screamed to go stop, when every thought in the mind pleaded to go back. What did it take to find that again? What would it take to care about moving? Survival. If there is hunger, it must eat. If there is thirst, it must drink. Is that enough? It must be. Is there more?
There is always more. There is living.
...What is the point?
In a hole in the ground, there lived... survived, a hollow shell. Did the shell survive? Did the shell live? How long had the hollow man-shape sit there, hour after hour, minute after minute, staring at the dirt between his boots. Broken... yes. Not his mind. That would have been a relief. His mind was hale and whole, leaving him with memories and more memories; of what was, of what will never be, of why things are they way they are. What had once been reforged after so much time and effort was no more. He was shattered, now, and that shattering had been brutal and remorseless and? and? and?
But he was free.
...And his knee still ached.