?Mother..? Said so simply. ?..Banged Charles-guy in the Caddy?!? He simply could not believe it. Damian chuckled into his big hand after he slapped it against his forehead. ?Gee whiz..?
Emlyn chuckled with him, the blush on her face so clear the color contrast between her face and her neck. That neck, of course, had new clusters of red and purple, mixed with yellow and green smears. She looked a beaten mess. And she could do nothing about it with those blasted Runes that were stamped into her arms. Every night, she would scrub it raw. Charlie had caught her once, and stopped her. But every day, she did so once a night. It would fade, but not disappear yet. Soon it would be gone. But she was eager for it to be gone. Sooner rather than later, it would be gone.
?You only call me Mother when you?re mad.? Insert the subject adjustment. It was to be redirected and upholstered differently. She couldn?t stand the embarrassment for very long. Not without giggling herself to tears and then wonder. ?Chaz told you, didn?t he??
?Well of course he told me! He looked about ready to hurl all over the place. The Poor furball. He?s only human when he needs to be. But hey, that?s what he wants.? What a broken, helpless soul. Damian, like his mother, worshipped the fact of being lost. Because it is so very close to being found.
?And what do you want, Damian? I am back, I am saved. I am back to being in love again and with those who love me. But, you, my rabbit.. What is it that you want? You decided I was not what you wanted anymore, dear. What is left now that you?ve answered your call so nobly?? Emlyn could not avoid this topic. She hoped Charlie would hold her later that night, no matter what outcome this conversation would take. She missed him so. And it had only been a few hours.
He knew this time would come. It was counting down, from his rescuing campaign. The very second he set foot back into Rhydin, he knew this would happen. It was something they both had to face. But would they face it at opposite ends?
Emlyn?s bashful nature had dissolved, and she looked to her Son as that. As a son, from a mother that was hurt so deeply. ?I never replaced you, dear Rabbit. I never made another one for myself. I made one for Audrey-?
?You two were meant for each other. She is what you aren?t, and the other way around. I knew she?d be just what you needed. And that was before I wanted to go. I didn?t replace myself with her either. I did not mean to be. You made my brother kindly, but what else did you do? You need friends, Mom. We all need friends. But I saw no friend in you.. No friend at all.. When you dropped me off to be with Jackass again.?
?You mean Andrew.? But she liked that moniker a bit better. They both sat in Emlyn?s seating area. Saxon was stuck to Emlyn like glue since she had returned, going where she went. It was a miracle Charlie got him to stay put for the Mardi Gras they skipped out on to make love. They weren?t supposed to be there. It was a crime scene now. A place for collecting evidence. Condemned. But there they were, ever stubborn, seated as if she still was able to live there.
Saxon did not rest, or doze to sleep. His chocolate eyes rested on the yellow-eyed man, as Emlyn?s hand rested on his back gently stroking his fur. Those sharpened ears were ever vigilant, and loyal to the mother that had been taken away far too soon for far too long. It was such a short period of time, but it cemented the canine?s loyalties. It wanted to protected her now, it wasn?t just the water and feed twice a day.
?Nah, he was Andy for a while, but when he was never around for you, he was Jackass to me. Plain and simple. But.. That?s not the point at all.? Damian knew that. He surrendered to his anger for a brief, weak moment. ?You abandoned me. And you didn?t come to pick me up that night. I couldn?t think. You just.. went to him. Like some stupid moth to a flame that came and left as it pleased. And I was so angry.. So f*cking pissed that you would discard me, something that loved you unconditionally and suffered through all those times you guys did it and forgot I was there, you just.. You just dropped me, just like that. I couldn?t forgive you. Scratch that, I didn?t much want to. And I just slipped out. And it hurt that it was that easy for me to leave it all behind.?
Golden circles that were buffered to a flawless shine with gold and yellow. They matched, that man and woman that sat in an illegal region. It was them both reflecting off of one another. ?Damian.. I had to know. You yourself know how I was so confused about what had happened. And I didn?t sleep with him that night.. I didn?t, Damian.? Emlyn didn?t lie. She couldn?t. And wouldn?t. Not to her Son. This was an essential moment for them both. ?He gave me the worst answer, and an incomplete one at that. But it was enough for me to finally let go. I have let go, I don?t want you to think that I did such a terrible thing in vain. It was worth what I gained. But I still think that you should not have gone. It is all in the past now.?
?The past..?? Damian scoffed. ?That past is what made me hate you, Mom. I despised you. And Bro pitifully tried to find me. But the anger for you was so strong that it won out against my desire to see my own Brother. He almost died looking for me, y?know? And I was so angry.. so hateful.. that it was greater than everything else. I taught myself to be this way. Because you made me so plainly, but I found it in myself to go beyond what you intended for me. And I triumphed over all of it. I should thank my anger for you, otherwise I?d be 20 pounds overweight sleeping all day in your lap. It was a charmed life but.. not the life for me.?
Emlyn shrugged, but her tears had gotten glassy into his reply to her. She looked into the window, desperately hating herself for being emotionally fragile. She thought she had braced herself, but it wasn?t enough.
?And now? Where are we now?? She was so hurt, that her creation was voicing all this hatred that he had felt against her. All for one night?s consequences. But she took that damage, those bullet holes, and waited for more of that deserved abuse. She had hurt her, and it was his turn to use the Truth to harm her. But they would both learn from this hurt, and forgive. It was necessary. A tragic mandate for them both to overcome one another entirely.
?Mom.. Mom no..? It broke his heart. Seeing his mom hiding like that. It wasn?t healthy. ?No mom, don?t cry..? Damian shouldn?t have been so brash. But he had gotten lost in his passions. ?I didn?t..? He was lost. The rug was torn from his feet when his mother cried.
?I am sorry to have made you feel those awful things. I really am. I didn?t mean anything by it. I just.. I wanted to try and get to the bottom of something that would never be revealed to me. He was full of secrets, and I didn?t have the faintest idea until he fled to protect himself and his precious secrets.? She spat that last part out, and she looked back to the brunette yellow-eyed man. ?Those wretched things.. Secrets..?
?You didn?t let me answer your question.? Damian smiled in his voice, and in his face. ?I think I?ll be around for a while. Who knows? But I think I?m gonna do my own thing, y?know? I?ll be here and there, doing what I gotta do. But.. I?ll be close by.? With a nod. ?I won?t go far. And you know I?m a big boy. But I still love you, Mom. When I came back to you, I just forgot why I was so angry in the first place. It all seems so dumb now. And I think that means that I forgive you.?
Emlyn sniffled, but disguised it with laughter. ?I won?t squander your love again, Damian. I never knew that I did, that it was what made you go away. But now that I do, I am glad I know the truth. You?ve learned well in my value of Truth, dear son. Honesty is the best gift you could give me.? It was worshipped, honesty. And openness. Because she was robbed of those two for so long.
?Sure as hell ain?t gonna stomach more of hearing or seeing you get down and dirty with that tall Charles dude. I mean, I?m real happy you?ve finally gone on and found someone new. But I ain?t going through that again. Not when I can help it.? He chuckled. ?I don?t know how Chester handles it as well as he does. Bless his little bunny heart.? As if he himself didn?t sport the form of a black furred, yellow eyed rabbit. ?Oh, and I like him, by the by. He?s alright.? Nod. ?But. If he hurts you, or decides to treat you like dirt at any time, I?m gonna be on him like white on rice. And I don?t play nice.? An erect thumb came to rest on his chest, indicating himself as he took in proud breath to expand his broad shoulders. ?But, honestly, between you and I, I doubt he?ll ever be that way. I can see how much you mean to him. And vice versa..? He practically muttered the last part. He was jealous, but knew it had to be that way. It was weird every other way he could think of.
Emlyn chuckled with him, the blush on her face so clear the color contrast between her face and her neck. That neck, of course, had new clusters of red and purple, mixed with yellow and green smears. She looked a beaten mess. And she could do nothing about it with those blasted Runes that were stamped into her arms. Every night, she would scrub it raw. Charlie had caught her once, and stopped her. But every day, she did so once a night. It would fade, but not disappear yet. Soon it would be gone. But she was eager for it to be gone. Sooner rather than later, it would be gone.
?You only call me Mother when you?re mad.? Insert the subject adjustment. It was to be redirected and upholstered differently. She couldn?t stand the embarrassment for very long. Not without giggling herself to tears and then wonder. ?Chaz told you, didn?t he??
?Well of course he told me! He looked about ready to hurl all over the place. The Poor furball. He?s only human when he needs to be. But hey, that?s what he wants.? What a broken, helpless soul. Damian, like his mother, worshipped the fact of being lost. Because it is so very close to being found.
?And what do you want, Damian? I am back, I am saved. I am back to being in love again and with those who love me. But, you, my rabbit.. What is it that you want? You decided I was not what you wanted anymore, dear. What is left now that you?ve answered your call so nobly?? Emlyn could not avoid this topic. She hoped Charlie would hold her later that night, no matter what outcome this conversation would take. She missed him so. And it had only been a few hours.
He knew this time would come. It was counting down, from his rescuing campaign. The very second he set foot back into Rhydin, he knew this would happen. It was something they both had to face. But would they face it at opposite ends?
Emlyn?s bashful nature had dissolved, and she looked to her Son as that. As a son, from a mother that was hurt so deeply. ?I never replaced you, dear Rabbit. I never made another one for myself. I made one for Audrey-?
?You two were meant for each other. She is what you aren?t, and the other way around. I knew she?d be just what you needed. And that was before I wanted to go. I didn?t replace myself with her either. I did not mean to be. You made my brother kindly, but what else did you do? You need friends, Mom. We all need friends. But I saw no friend in you.. No friend at all.. When you dropped me off to be with Jackass again.?
?You mean Andrew.? But she liked that moniker a bit better. They both sat in Emlyn?s seating area. Saxon was stuck to Emlyn like glue since she had returned, going where she went. It was a miracle Charlie got him to stay put for the Mardi Gras they skipped out on to make love. They weren?t supposed to be there. It was a crime scene now. A place for collecting evidence. Condemned. But there they were, ever stubborn, seated as if she still was able to live there.
Saxon did not rest, or doze to sleep. His chocolate eyes rested on the yellow-eyed man, as Emlyn?s hand rested on his back gently stroking his fur. Those sharpened ears were ever vigilant, and loyal to the mother that had been taken away far too soon for far too long. It was such a short period of time, but it cemented the canine?s loyalties. It wanted to protected her now, it wasn?t just the water and feed twice a day.
?Nah, he was Andy for a while, but when he was never around for you, he was Jackass to me. Plain and simple. But.. That?s not the point at all.? Damian knew that. He surrendered to his anger for a brief, weak moment. ?You abandoned me. And you didn?t come to pick me up that night. I couldn?t think. You just.. went to him. Like some stupid moth to a flame that came and left as it pleased. And I was so angry.. So f*cking pissed that you would discard me, something that loved you unconditionally and suffered through all those times you guys did it and forgot I was there, you just.. You just dropped me, just like that. I couldn?t forgive you. Scratch that, I didn?t much want to. And I just slipped out. And it hurt that it was that easy for me to leave it all behind.?
Golden circles that were buffered to a flawless shine with gold and yellow. They matched, that man and woman that sat in an illegal region. It was them both reflecting off of one another. ?Damian.. I had to know. You yourself know how I was so confused about what had happened. And I didn?t sleep with him that night.. I didn?t, Damian.? Emlyn didn?t lie. She couldn?t. And wouldn?t. Not to her Son. This was an essential moment for them both. ?He gave me the worst answer, and an incomplete one at that. But it was enough for me to finally let go. I have let go, I don?t want you to think that I did such a terrible thing in vain. It was worth what I gained. But I still think that you should not have gone. It is all in the past now.?
?The past..?? Damian scoffed. ?That past is what made me hate you, Mom. I despised you. And Bro pitifully tried to find me. But the anger for you was so strong that it won out against my desire to see my own Brother. He almost died looking for me, y?know? And I was so angry.. so hateful.. that it was greater than everything else. I taught myself to be this way. Because you made me so plainly, but I found it in myself to go beyond what you intended for me. And I triumphed over all of it. I should thank my anger for you, otherwise I?d be 20 pounds overweight sleeping all day in your lap. It was a charmed life but.. not the life for me.?
Emlyn shrugged, but her tears had gotten glassy into his reply to her. She looked into the window, desperately hating herself for being emotionally fragile. She thought she had braced herself, but it wasn?t enough.
?And now? Where are we now?? She was so hurt, that her creation was voicing all this hatred that he had felt against her. All for one night?s consequences. But she took that damage, those bullet holes, and waited for more of that deserved abuse. She had hurt her, and it was his turn to use the Truth to harm her. But they would both learn from this hurt, and forgive. It was necessary. A tragic mandate for them both to overcome one another entirely.
?Mom.. Mom no..? It broke his heart. Seeing his mom hiding like that. It wasn?t healthy. ?No mom, don?t cry..? Damian shouldn?t have been so brash. But he had gotten lost in his passions. ?I didn?t..? He was lost. The rug was torn from his feet when his mother cried.
?I am sorry to have made you feel those awful things. I really am. I didn?t mean anything by it. I just.. I wanted to try and get to the bottom of something that would never be revealed to me. He was full of secrets, and I didn?t have the faintest idea until he fled to protect himself and his precious secrets.? She spat that last part out, and she looked back to the brunette yellow-eyed man. ?Those wretched things.. Secrets..?
?You didn?t let me answer your question.? Damian smiled in his voice, and in his face. ?I think I?ll be around for a while. Who knows? But I think I?m gonna do my own thing, y?know? I?ll be here and there, doing what I gotta do. But.. I?ll be close by.? With a nod. ?I won?t go far. And you know I?m a big boy. But I still love you, Mom. When I came back to you, I just forgot why I was so angry in the first place. It all seems so dumb now. And I think that means that I forgive you.?
Emlyn sniffled, but disguised it with laughter. ?I won?t squander your love again, Damian. I never knew that I did, that it was what made you go away. But now that I do, I am glad I know the truth. You?ve learned well in my value of Truth, dear son. Honesty is the best gift you could give me.? It was worshipped, honesty. And openness. Because she was robbed of those two for so long.
?Sure as hell ain?t gonna stomach more of hearing or seeing you get down and dirty with that tall Charles dude. I mean, I?m real happy you?ve finally gone on and found someone new. But I ain?t going through that again. Not when I can help it.? He chuckled. ?I don?t know how Chester handles it as well as he does. Bless his little bunny heart.? As if he himself didn?t sport the form of a black furred, yellow eyed rabbit. ?Oh, and I like him, by the by. He?s alright.? Nod. ?But. If he hurts you, or decides to treat you like dirt at any time, I?m gonna be on him like white on rice. And I don?t play nice.? An erect thumb came to rest on his chest, indicating himself as he took in proud breath to expand his broad shoulders. ?But, honestly, between you and I, I doubt he?ll ever be that way. I can see how much you mean to him. And vice versa..? He practically muttered the last part. He was jealous, but knew it had to be that way. It was weird every other way he could think of.