Topic: Ballott? ? Terre

Katarina Smith

Date: 2009-09-14 12:57 EST
Katarina rubbed her face lightly as she entered the theatre. Adjusting back to morning and daylight hours after weeks of nightly performances required more than one Sunday to perfect. Despite doing next to nothing the previous day to celebrate the ending of A Midsummer Night's Dream, she still felt tired. Even the theatre felt like exhaustion was looming in every corner, like it didn't want any sort of practice either. The opera performers were now here during the evenings for their performances, though Katarina couldn't remember the title. There was no rest in the performing arts.

"Mornin'." Katarina absently waved to the those inside the ticket booths as she continued backstage. The other ballet dancers hadn't arrived yet, and Katarina took advantage of the empty room to set her stuff down nonchalantly and stretch her arms out accompanied with a loud yawn. On one of the beams a crisp white piece of paper announced The Sleeping Beauty as the next ballet with mostly the minor character rolls filled. Many of the other dancers were going through contract renewals, and so positions were waiting to be filled based on those contracts. She felt a little guilty in how little she knew about the situation - she promptly arrived on time and left as soon as she was free, and avoided the Count like a fatal disease. It didn't allow much room for the usual conversation and gossip.

"Katarina." The familiar voice had the dancer grinding her teeth and she nearly balled her fists before she caught herself.

"Bugger." She muttered under her breath before turning and looking over her shoulder, "Yeah, Count?" She would at least avoid using his name and use his silly title. It might be a little immature, but Katarina certainly felt a little better in the minor act of defiance.

"Since you're here a little early, I was wondering if we could discuss your contract?" He vaguely motioned behind him to his office.

"My contract?" Her face looked slightly smug as she recognized his mistake, "My contract's still gotta another year 'n it. Sorry."

"Oh, I know." His smile was warm, but Katarina would call it blatantly smug, "That is why I was wondering if you would discuss it with me, nonetheless?"

"Yeah." Accepting defeat, she nearly dragged her feet behind her as she follwed Christophe to his office.

Katarina Smith

Date: 2009-09-22 12:01 EST
Christophe vaguely motioned to the leather chair in his office that faced his desk once they had stepped inside. His eyes were already on the short, trim pile of paperwork on his desk. He didn't even bother to look over to see if she had followed, or if she had sat down already. "Well," he sat down and randomly filtered through the small packet of her contract, "as you said before, your contract isn't up for another year." Finally looking up to see Katarina stiffly sitting in the leather chair across from him, he smiled, "Have you enjoyed your time here with the RhyDin Troupe?"

In her impatience, her fingers were randomly drumming on the arm of the chair, stopping only when she caught the act, "O' course I hav' been." A smile of all innocence brushed her lips as she forced herself to look relaxed in the chair, "I dun thin' tha' I would'a turn down Th' Royal Academy if I didn' lov' wha' I was doin' here."

"Right.. right..." he tapped his fingers on the contract, "There is nothing keeping you from auditioning and accepting positions with other ballet groups, with the proper arrangements."

She gave a one-shouldered shrug, "We didn' know o' th' success th' troupe was gonna hav' when it started. Duncha 'member? Oh, tha's righ', ya weren' 'round fer all th' beginnin's of it." Another simple smile as her words were meant to insult, "Bu' dun worray, I hav' absolutely nah intention o' movin' er leavin'."

The Count didn't flinch or look away from Katarina until she was done talking. His smile was just as sweet as her own, "Of course, I realize the circumstances of your contract. I was actually wondering if you would consider auditioning for another group." When he saw an instant protest, he held out his hands to stop her and continue, "I understand that it is not something you're considering, but heed my words. You would not have to move, only travel when necessary. This troupe is growing, particularly with the younger age of those just finishing school. They will be strong competition for you."

"I am not interested." She made sure to carefully say the words as she moved her chin just slightly up and away from Christophe, "I have said that I'm not moving. I will continue to work hard and earn my role as principle like I already am."

"You would not even consider it? I can tell you now that the pay will be better. You would work less. I'm more than positive you could bring Locke to travel with you, if that is a hinderance in your decision."

She flexed her jaw as he sought for her personal reasons, "My family's here, my home's here. If I was interested 'n joinin' anotha group, it would'a been wit' Th' Royal Academy, th' bes'." She sat further on the edge of the chair, "If tha's all?"

"Katarina," He placed his hands flat on the desk and leaned forward, "I own this troupe. I can give you a contract that suites you best. I would be more than willing to work with your situation."

"Duncha already practically own this troupe?" She finally stood, and made sure to calm her features even if anger was still warming her blood, "Look, I 'preciate th' offer, an' I know tha' ya've been kind ta me bafore. I jist 'm nah interested. I's nothin' 'gainst ya."

He handed her a piece of paper like he didn't even hear her, "The auditions are in January. That's plenty of time to prepare. Why don't you audition, and then see what opportunities are available for you?"

She huffed a sigh, and took the paper only to set it back down. "I wun be available to audition in January."

"Why not?" Christophe frowned, "You are free from this troupe for the whole month. Of course you can."

"No, I can't." Irritation at his persistence broke her accent, "I'm getting modifications done in the beginning of the new year. I won't be in the proper shape to audition." It was not exactly how she had anticipated telling him, if at all, but it was cornering her into an uncomfortable place.

"Modifications." He repeated the word in a hollow tone, before he stood as well, "Katarina you can't possibly-"

"It is not up for discussion, and there is nothing against it in my contract." She pushed the contract and audition paper towards him on the desk, "I will be in proper shape for when the troupe meets up again in Feburary. What I choose to do before then is none of your business."

As she walked out of his office, there was a nagging feeling in the pit of her stomach about his reaction. That it was a good thing, and that the modifications were somehow going to save her from something. But when she tried to think of why she felt this way, her head ached and her memory was blank.

Katarina Smith

Date: 2009-10-01 02:05 EST
?I think it?s a really good thing, having the troupe take a stance on Proposition 37. I mean, having a witch playing the princess is a good move, don?t you think?? Andy draped a long leg over the bar and stretched, pressing his torso against his elevated leg.

?Yeah, sure thin?.? Katarina was uncharacteristically quiet and short with her answers, instead using her own stretching as a cover-up. She had a sinking feeling that the proposition was excuse to place Manda in the lead instead of Katarina and Christine. It felt like punishment, not getting the role she knew she earned and deserved. The proposition was probably the only way the Count could sway Madame enough to place the understudy in front of the prima ballerina.

?I wonder how well it will go, doing a classic during the holidays instead of something seasonal. We could have easily done The Nutcracker again." When Katarina was silent, Andy straightened from his stretching and studied her thoughtfully, "Well, don't you think so? You usually have an opinion for everything."

She smirked, before moving away from the bar, and him, to stretch on the floor, "I thin' yer jist worried playin' tha' ol' witch bag Carabosse. Eitha way, I git ta be pretty fairies. An' lilac's a good color 'n me." The smirk was still evident and sarcasm went by undetected.

"The Lilac Fairy comes to save the poor princess. I mean really, it's not the prince that's the real hero, right? Must be nice, having a lighter work load for the holidays." He didn't seem to mind at all raising his voice as she moved further away. A few other dancers were starting to meander in and begin their warm-ups.

It surprised Katarina, how much it stung that she wanted the star role. Regardless of all the other ones she'd had, this one mattered just as much. Still she was able to shrug nonchalantly, "Sure. Makes all this work fer th' mods lots easier when I go' th' time."

That was exactly what she was going to do. The smirk turned to a more secretive smile as her warm-ups were given more attention as her mood lifted. She would use all the time she would have been rehearsing on researching her future new self. It would all be worth it.

Katarina Smith

Date: 2009-10-13 16:04 EST
Katarina could barely hear the gentle rain hit the roof of the theatre over the gentle music that filled the auditorium during rehearsal. In the beginning, Katarina usually stalked off into the practice rooms during the scenes that she was not involved in, but now she sat in the theatre to be near and aware of what was going on. She wasn?t going to strain her body further for no reason than her own doing. Now, she sat halfway from the stage to the door where a long desk spread across several chairs and had dimly lit lamps for each sit. Usually Madame, the Count, or other instructors would sit here and watch in silence while they took notes. Now, Katarina would bring various packets of paper on the modifications and reinforcers she had requested from various surgeons and institutions that had been recommended to her.

The process was slow and long as she squinted at the small writing in the dim light. Trying to understand the different processes, administrations, recovery time, and any long-term changes in her life required re-reading sentences over and over again. Still, sometimes she just had to mark the uncertain area and go on. Despite the packets being meant for the consumer, the jargon gave her a headache. Soon, she was just going to have to make consultations to feel like she had a better grasp of all that she needed to prepare for. And it was a lot. The possible consequences of this choice could have both physical and emotion repercussions if something went wrong.

The one thing she understood was money. No matter which procedure she was going to choose, it was going to be costly. After buying a house, and a recent trip back to Hope, Katarina couldn?t see having spare or free money for quite some time. In fact, that might be the better outcome. She bit back a sigh and rubbed her temples.

It took a few moments for Katarina to realize that she no longer heard music playing and to notice that Andy was walking towards her. He leaned companionably against the large desk, ?Hey, we?re all going to go out for lunch. Want to come??

She pursed her lips as she considered, before briefly shaking her head, ?Hmm, nah thanks. ?m nah really hungry righ? now.? At his look, she held out her palms defensively and shrugged, ?Wha?? ?m nah hoppin? ?round as much. Dun take lots?a energy ta read borin? thin?s. Nex? time, I promise.?

?Okay, suit yourself. You?ll be stuck here with Crazy and Bossy.? Andy had developed new code names for Madame and the Count.

Her lips twitched into a grin, ?I thin? I kin handle ?em, er a? th? leas?, fin? a place to hide.? She wiggled her fingers as he walked back to the stage to meet with the rest of the troupe before they all went out. In truth, she was too mentally exhausted to think too much about food. She sighed gently and looked down at the thick stack of paper, before folding her arms above it and resting her head. Maybe if she napped over the material, she would understand it better.

Katarina Smith

Date: 2009-10-29 18:06 EST
Rubbing her eyes and covering a yawn, Katarina weaved through the morning crowd on the streets with little thought and automatic movements. The clouds hid most of the sunshine, but a few rays would break through and illuminate patches of the buildings around her. If she had been more awake, more attentive, she might have paused to admire the beauty. Instead, it passed through her visual senses, but wasn?t retained any longer than a moment or two. Her mind, tired from the lack of sleep and appetite over a couple of weeks, could hardly think of more than getting to the theatre.

Any time she tried to think of anything more than the superficial daily activities, her thought scattered into a thousand different directions and a wave of hopelessness overwhelmed everything else. It was only a matter of time before Locke would turn himself in to the authorities, and she would be alone. Her immediate family wasn?t around to keep her company, and her extended family had their twins to invest their time in. She would be in that big, new house with no reminders of any time being alone. Everything would have a memory attached to the new beginning of living with someone.

As Katarina approached the theatre, her eyes grew heavy, and more than ever did she rely on the mundane movements that didn?t require her mind that was already spinning down the dark pit of despair. Automatic smiles and good investment in make-up that masked her tired eyes kept curious looks at bay. Instead, no one gave her another thought as they prepped for the day of rehearsal. With Katarina out of the limelight of this ballet, she easily blended into the moving background; never in focus.

It worked for her, for now. Her mind was too distraught to have the responsibility of leading the production. Particularly during the holidays when the theatre attracted more than it?s usual crowd.

Time blurred when Katarina allowed herself to think. It was a continuous cycle that seemed to flow down without ending and no edges to lift up and out. Years ago she had mastered the art of keeping herself together; of smiling and offering encouragement despite her own gloomy outlook. It had been a long time since she had needed to practice again ? to pretend and work through her suffering silently.

?One more time, from the coda.? The interrupted practice brought her attention to the present. She was already dressed in her leotard and tights, and her muscles were loosened with warm-ups. When she looked up, she squinted as the harsh lights glared down at them. How long had she been on auto-pilot? Shaking her head slightly, she envisioned the dark thoughts and memories leaving her brain through her ears, so that nothing else remained except the present. It was the easiest way to cope ? to smile, encourage, and think of nothing.