The feeling of nervousness would never go away for the dancer. Not after years of dancing in front of hundreds of people or just a handful. It wouldn't matter if she danced for her family or for kings and queens. Being nervous was an aspect of her life that she had learned to accept and therefore, attempt to control. She didn't make silly mistakes during performances anymore, and her fingers wouldn't visibly shake when her arms were delicately on display. Even now when she felt the flutter in her middle, she could see that her fingertips barely moved as she twirled the pen in between her fingers.
Are you seriously considering committing suicide?
No
Are you in the midst of a serious emotional crisis?
No
Have you or anyone in your immediate family been diagnosed with a mental disorder?
No
The questions went on for what seemed like days, listing extremities that made Katarina reconsider why she was here. No, no emotional, mental, even criminal history.
Have you ever had an eating disorder?
The short, abrupt question brought a muscle spasm in her right hand, and she tightened her jaw. If she couldn't be honest with a piece a paper, she maybe had more difficult problems than she previous imagined.
Yes
The questions continued on a wide spectrum of questions, including her family on Hope and Rhy'Din. Explain your household. What does your average day look like? Be specific. Why are you here? What do you hope to gain? Highest level of education? Occupation? Finally, after returning the paperwork and waiting with nerves in her chair, a woman with brown-rimmed glasses and a pleasant smile appeared and looked to her, ?Miss Smith??
Katarina gave a small smile in return and stood to follow the woman into her office. Colors of ivory and shades of lavender decorated the walls and furniture. If she wasn't so nervous, she might have sighed in contentment for the immediate comfortable atmosphere.
?I am Dr. Fabre, but you may call me by Susan if you would prefer.? She offered out her hand and gave Katarina's a gentle shake, ?And if I read your file correctly, you prefer to go by Katarina??
?Hmm, yeah.? It wasn't often that Katarina met the height of a woman that wasn't into dancing or athletics. But Susan was near the same height and if Katie guessed, age as well. Susan didn't gesture where to sit, and so Katarina moved to the corner of the loveseat and was tempted to hold a pillow in her lap but withheld. Susan adjusted a simple but comfortable-looking chair to sit just off center in front of her.
?Now, before we get started, I would like to ask if you have read through our confidentiality statement?? It was assumed that Katarina had since she had signed the document, but many signed without thought. When the dancer nodded, Susan continued, ?I would like for you to know that everything that is said and mentioned here in this room will be held just between you and me. There are only a few things that can break that confidentiality. Those things are any suspicions that you are going to harm yourself, harm someone else, in which case I will have to alert said person, and if you mention any type of abuse. Is that okay with you??
?Yeah, shiny.? Katarina didn't know what to do with her hands, so she folded them in front of her. She still felt nervous, and now unsure of what was to be expected of her. Fortunately, Susan leaned forward slightly and continued on.
?Now, I have looked over your paperwork and reason for referral,? she picked up a small stack of familiar-looking paperwork from the nearby end table and placed it in her lap, ?but I would like to ask you some of the questions again, if you don't mind. I may ask for further details on your answers. I am doing this because I would like to get to know you, and I want you to know about me and my approach. So, what brings you here??
Katarina shifted a bit, but appreciated the honesty from Susan. ?I'm here 'cause Dr. Barta recommended me fer a referral fer a' unidentified eatin' disorder, and 'cause my fiance thinks tha' it migh' help me put th' weigh' back on.?
The questions continued. Describe what you mean by unidentified eating disorder? Do you believe this is accurate? Tell me about your relationship. How long have you been engaged? Is there a date yet? Susan didn't ask the questions rapid fire, but instead waited, pressing just enough to discover deeper feelings and events but backing off and changing the subject before Katarina appeared to be uncomfortable. I see that your family is quite a distance away, are you close? How is your relationship with your aunt and cousins? Do you enjoy your job??
With each change of direction, slowly Katarina relaxed a little. She didn't mind talking about herself. It was talking about others ? particularly Locke ? that she struggled. For so long she had to keep secrets and danced around the issue that her body automatically tensed when Locke's lack of social life or fiancials came into view. Luckily, it seemed that Susan avoided those subjects all together.
?So, coming back to the reason that you are here.? Susan crossed her legs, much in the same fashion that Katarina was sitting, ?You are here because you would like to break the cycle of not eating, and find a way to maintain a healthy weight. Is that correct??
?Yeah, tha' sounds 'bout righ'.? Katarina glanced at the clock on the wall, and was surprised to see that her 50 minutes were almost up. Her body nearly relaxed all the way.
?Okay. In order to develop a solution, I will be asking questions that may seem unrelated. My goal is to understand the bigger picture first, and from there, narrow down any hints as to the cause of your lack of appetite. After that, then we will work on solutions to the problem. I must ask though, if you feel that you are so weak that you will not be able to eat a reasonable amount of food without medical assistance. I can provide that for you.?
?Lemme try fer one week before makin' tha' kinda decision. I hav' been better, an' wit' Locke knowin' now, I thin' tha' he'll be keepin' a close watch 'n me, yeah??
With ending formalities finished, Katarina mused on this new experience during the long walk home. Talking about her ?bigger picture? would include many heartaches, and some of those may be things she didn't want to admit to herself. Hopefully she would have to proper tools to have emotional control when the time came.
Are you seriously considering committing suicide?
No
Are you in the midst of a serious emotional crisis?
No
Have you or anyone in your immediate family been diagnosed with a mental disorder?
No
The questions went on for what seemed like days, listing extremities that made Katarina reconsider why she was here. No, no emotional, mental, even criminal history.
Have you ever had an eating disorder?
The short, abrupt question brought a muscle spasm in her right hand, and she tightened her jaw. If she couldn't be honest with a piece a paper, she maybe had more difficult problems than she previous imagined.
Yes
The questions continued on a wide spectrum of questions, including her family on Hope and Rhy'Din. Explain your household. What does your average day look like? Be specific. Why are you here? What do you hope to gain? Highest level of education? Occupation? Finally, after returning the paperwork and waiting with nerves in her chair, a woman with brown-rimmed glasses and a pleasant smile appeared and looked to her, ?Miss Smith??
Katarina gave a small smile in return and stood to follow the woman into her office. Colors of ivory and shades of lavender decorated the walls and furniture. If she wasn't so nervous, she might have sighed in contentment for the immediate comfortable atmosphere.
?I am Dr. Fabre, but you may call me by Susan if you would prefer.? She offered out her hand and gave Katarina's a gentle shake, ?And if I read your file correctly, you prefer to go by Katarina??
?Hmm, yeah.? It wasn't often that Katarina met the height of a woman that wasn't into dancing or athletics. But Susan was near the same height and if Katie guessed, age as well. Susan didn't gesture where to sit, and so Katarina moved to the corner of the loveseat and was tempted to hold a pillow in her lap but withheld. Susan adjusted a simple but comfortable-looking chair to sit just off center in front of her.
?Now, before we get started, I would like to ask if you have read through our confidentiality statement?? It was assumed that Katarina had since she had signed the document, but many signed without thought. When the dancer nodded, Susan continued, ?I would like for you to know that everything that is said and mentioned here in this room will be held just between you and me. There are only a few things that can break that confidentiality. Those things are any suspicions that you are going to harm yourself, harm someone else, in which case I will have to alert said person, and if you mention any type of abuse. Is that okay with you??
?Yeah, shiny.? Katarina didn't know what to do with her hands, so she folded them in front of her. She still felt nervous, and now unsure of what was to be expected of her. Fortunately, Susan leaned forward slightly and continued on.
?Now, I have looked over your paperwork and reason for referral,? she picked up a small stack of familiar-looking paperwork from the nearby end table and placed it in her lap, ?but I would like to ask you some of the questions again, if you don't mind. I may ask for further details on your answers. I am doing this because I would like to get to know you, and I want you to know about me and my approach. So, what brings you here??
Katarina shifted a bit, but appreciated the honesty from Susan. ?I'm here 'cause Dr. Barta recommended me fer a referral fer a' unidentified eatin' disorder, and 'cause my fiance thinks tha' it migh' help me put th' weigh' back on.?
The questions continued. Describe what you mean by unidentified eating disorder? Do you believe this is accurate? Tell me about your relationship. How long have you been engaged? Is there a date yet? Susan didn't ask the questions rapid fire, but instead waited, pressing just enough to discover deeper feelings and events but backing off and changing the subject before Katarina appeared to be uncomfortable. I see that your family is quite a distance away, are you close? How is your relationship with your aunt and cousins? Do you enjoy your job??
With each change of direction, slowly Katarina relaxed a little. She didn't mind talking about herself. It was talking about others ? particularly Locke ? that she struggled. For so long she had to keep secrets and danced around the issue that her body automatically tensed when Locke's lack of social life or fiancials came into view. Luckily, it seemed that Susan avoided those subjects all together.
?So, coming back to the reason that you are here.? Susan crossed her legs, much in the same fashion that Katarina was sitting, ?You are here because you would like to break the cycle of not eating, and find a way to maintain a healthy weight. Is that correct??
?Yeah, tha' sounds 'bout righ'.? Katarina glanced at the clock on the wall, and was surprised to see that her 50 minutes were almost up. Her body nearly relaxed all the way.
?Okay. In order to develop a solution, I will be asking questions that may seem unrelated. My goal is to understand the bigger picture first, and from there, narrow down any hints as to the cause of your lack of appetite. After that, then we will work on solutions to the problem. I must ask though, if you feel that you are so weak that you will not be able to eat a reasonable amount of food without medical assistance. I can provide that for you.?
?Lemme try fer one week before makin' tha' kinda decision. I hav' been better, an' wit' Locke knowin' now, I thin' tha' he'll be keepin' a close watch 'n me, yeah??
With ending formalities finished, Katarina mused on this new experience during the long walk home. Talking about her ?bigger picture? would include many heartaches, and some of those may be things she didn't want to admit to herself. Hopefully she would have to proper tools to have emotional control when the time came.